 hello friends so we uh we have a bit of a situation and it's time to come clean i can't i can't avoid it i can't lie about it we're gonna talk about it so about a year ago i did a video called these books will self-destruct in a year the idea is i had to read those books within a year or i had to unhaul them now when most people do this video they put books that they don't have a huge interest in reading so they have no qualms on hauling them if they haven't read them in a year i i didn't do that i did i think half books that i wasn't very interested in reading and half books that i was really interested in reading and i did the list as a way to motivate myself to read them are you crackers or what what is going through your brain again to do this so we now have reached a year i know i have not read all the books in this list i can't remember all of them but i know for sure there's at least one or two that i still really want to read and i i'm not gonna unhaul run the clip we know what's happening the rules don't apply i'm not gonna unhaul them i i want to read these books that on my tpr i'm not unhauling them i don't care i'm not unhauling them so we're gonna find out what the books are in today's video and i will have read some of them and the ones that i haven't read i'm giving myself two chances to read i've got a series in december which is coming some of you may know which i think a lot of these books will fall under so they have a chance to be read in that you know they may be read may not be you know the series and then i'm gonna do a video in january or february next year where i have the chance to read some of these if i don't read them by then then they are guessing unhauled i promise you 100 they're getting unhauled if i have not read them by then i don't trust her i don't think she's a good person but i'm not unhauling the ones i want to read i'm sorry i can't do it okay shall we just get into it i think there was eight or ten books in this video i'm not sure how many this one's risky because i know there's a high chance that i am not gonna read this but it's one of the books i want to read most but i just again like i don't fit it into videos it's one of the books i look at daily and i think i need to and it's unwell women by enna clay corn she's only gone and read it i've read it okay i have read unwell women the journey through medicine and myth and a man made world by enna clay corn i didn't love this hang on let me take the headphones off when i don't need them i didn't love this as much as i wanted to i didn't hate it but i didn't love it it's non-fiction and i just felt like it was a little it didn't go into quite as much depth as i wanted to and i just felt like some of its points didn't quite follow through enough right with non-fiction especially one that is like historical you know making a point i just really need like all of your points to meet and match up and like coalesce into this amazing piece of work and i didn't feel like this necessarily did i would still recommend it it would just felt a little bit lacking for me i think i gave it like a 3.5 like i still enjoyed a lot of it 3 3.54 something in that it wasn't bad but i do think there's probably better non-fiction about this subject out there but at the same time i'm glad that i have read it i feel like i did learn some stuff from it but it wasn't incredible but i've read it oh my god how do we think i'm gonna read i think i'm going to have read half okay now one of the books i'm less interested in is the wife between us by grihendrix and sarah pecanon this is one of the oldest books on my tbi it's okay i have not read the wife between us by grihendrix and sarah pecanon i don't even have a scoop where that book is shall i try and find it the wife between us by grihendrix and sarah pecanon is now one of the oldest books on my tbi i would be happy to unhaul this i could unhaul this right now do i just unhaul it actually i don't know there is there is those two videos that it fits perfectly no we're gonna save it and then but if i have not read this by february i don't care about unhauling this it can get gone you know but i think for the videos that i'm gonna be doing it would be interesting to hold on to it and see i bought this in like a charity shop when i'd read like 10 books i was the beginning of my reading Joan like rereading Joan because i stopped reading for a couple years and i was trying to figure out what i like and i bought this in a charity shop on a whim because i think i'd heard like one person speak about it and i assumed i don't like domestic runners it's not for main park i feel terribly ill all of a sudden i am not usually interested in books about husbands and wives i just don't give a fuck honestly i don't care i don't care i hate the tropes that appear again and again and again in domestic thrillers like let's try and think of one i enjoyed someone said the guest list once the guest list is not a domestic thriller yes you have a husband and wife in it but like the book is not about that it's when it's a book about a husband and wife dynamic or in this case husband and wives i'm just not interested and i didn't love the golden couple i think i gave that two stars by gray henrix and sarah peckin in so yeah i'm not bothered about this i could unhaul it do i just unhaul it no no no i've told you what we're doing we're doing those two videos and then what unhauling if i haven't read any so this could easily face the chopping block but yeah this was one that i think this is the kind of book i should put on this list books i don't care about unhauling if they come up unlike some of the other books we're going to encounter which like you have to pry them for my dead cold hands in order for me to unhaul them yes i haven't read them in the year where i've had a over a year to read them because at this point i've owned them for a long time if they're on this list yes i have had over a year to read them but that doesn't mean i can just get rid of them they're there for a reason their moment will come then one of the ones that i am most excited to read and i feel like i've spoken about this quite a lot recently is and the true scripted by dawn kurtigich shit shit shit shit haven't read it this is the one i was thinking of this and like one other book that i are the only ones i know are on this list and the ones i know i haven't read oh my god guys my bookshelves are like they're in trouble at the moment i own too many books i need to move out right we have and the trees crept in by dawn kurtigich i have not read it yet tell you how stupid you are this is like a i think it is a ya i think so ya horror about these siblings who move into their aunt's home in the woods and it's creepy and there's lots of like weird writing on the page and it sounds incredible and i think this is a five-star prediction for me yes i have not read it yet but we're not like you can't ask me to unhaul this you can't you that's why we're not doing it you can't ask me to unhaul it that would be like illegal but i promise i will if i haven't read it by february so i've only like three more months these books will self-destruct in 15 months should have been the title because that's the truth i've had amazing things from everyone who has read this and i you know i'm a little bit of a scaredy girl so like in order for me to enjoy horror it has to be ya or camp basically i don't like adult horror that's like serious like super serious i can deal with a little bit of silliness it has to be a spring call but it helps me detach from the horror so i'm i've got big hopes for this and you can't ask me to unhaul it you might be thinking at the start of the video like oh megan you're really you're letting us down by not holding these books and then you see that i haven't read this yet and you go okay we can't ask her to do that you can't you can't ask me to do that one of the ones that i don't know if i'm going to read this next year but it's one of the ones i'm less interested in okay the cousins by karen m mcmanus okay okay okay the cousins by karen mcmanus haven't read her these books i have no idea where they are okay we're not doing the best are we i've read one haven't read three um the cousins by karen mcmanus haven't read this would be another one i would be happy to unhaul but it could serve a purpose and there's other videos so again we're not doing that i have no idea what this is about i know everyone again i think i've seen that video everyone says to start with the one of us is lying series from karen mcmanus i think i got this in a book box i would never have really picked this up on my own but i also it's the kind of book that i'm like oh do i like i just feel i don't know why i feel hesitation around unhauling it because i could enjoy karen mcmanus stuff in the future and then i regret unhauling this you see the predicament that i it's about a family four children a sonny dropped by the mother with a single sentence you know what you did okay let me know we thought this one have you read this have you had other karen mcmanus and you're like megan just do not bother reading the cousins because that's what some people have told me but again i i do enjoy a good why a mystery and i want to support the cause the more why a mystery is we have the better you know i must have read whatever the next one is i can't i can't have not read another one okay this one this is probably one of the books i'm most embarrassed about not having read i must have read this and it's wild beauty by anime mcmore okay i've read it i've read it i've finally read wild beauty where's that okay we've read another one i've finally read wild beauty by anime mcmore i did enjoy this i think this was like a four star i'm glad to finally begun reading anime mcmore because i feel like their stuff is stuff i'm gonna love but i just hadn't gotten around to reading any of their books this one's about this like family of girls and a boy and there's magic i don't know i feel like you should kind of go into this knowing nothing i kind of went into this going nothing there's grandmothers there's flowers and um yeah i i love anything that's kind of magical realism me and i feel like there's not enough out there so i'm glad to have begun my journey with anime mcmore and the writing was beautiful this had been one of the books that i had been like this is a five star prediction for the longest amount of time so like i had to read it if i hadn't read this we would have had problems i actually might have read my channel because this had been a five star prediction for me for like forever so okay we've read another one that's not bad then one of the ones that i'm less excited in reading it this is one that my excitement has dissipated over the years is educated by tara west over i know i can oh shit okay we're three for three on top of the pyramid going three for three is mad by the way i can't stand as far back as i usually would because i there's just so many books at the floor on the floor i'm trying to avoid i have read educated by tara west over i read this not that long ago like a couple months ago i did enjoy this i i is a thing i feel like this book is a little bit of a lie because you go into it thinking like not what i'm saying she's lying okay what i'm saying is you know you go into thinking this is going to be about how she wasn't educated as a child and then she like becomes educated on her own growing up and really this is a story of familial abuse and her journey through that the education part of this is a really small part of it to me and a part that was like a little bit unexplained like she just like got into oxford and i just i feel like there it doesn't go much into detail she kind of goes i did this and i did this and i did this and like kind of talks through her academic journey but i feel like doesn't really go into depth on her journey through that as someone who hadn't been educated at home like it kind of it like everything just happens and i know that's not how i happen in life but that how that's how it reads you know there's not enough depth around that when really yeah this is a story about the abuse that she suffered as a child and i think that part of it is really powerful but it wasn't what i expected but i've read it yes you are so strong you are so strong your mind is so strong and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise but yeah glad that i've finally got around to this because again this is one of the oldest books on my tbr there's only a few books on my tbr still that have been there since i started my channel which is like four years ago is that four years how are we doing it three or four years i think four years god i'm getting old that's scary i still feel new on booktube i still feel like a newbie in my brain because there's all these people who i love watching who've been doing it much longer than me so i still feel like a little baby but like that's not a little baby really 2020 yeah four years i've been doing it bloody hell so this is one of the only because i remember buying this and it was when i was in my first flat in leeds i remember taking a photo of it i'm going to warsons where warsons give card and buying this book and um yeah that was one of in my first flat in leeds which was before i started my channel so crazy there's only a few left on my tbr that i've had that long and i would like to tick them all off that would be quite satisfying to like have read every book that has been on my tbr since i started my channel right for most excited i'm still so excited to read girl in the walls by a jay gunny say i've been she's only gone and read it she's only gone and read it did i read that in the same video as i read educated i did i did read the same video that was wrapped up rejects wasn't it yes okay where is that the girl in the walls by a jay gunny say okay we've read four oh my god mega and this is impeccable so yeah girl in the walls by a jay gunny say i read in the same video as educated wrapped up rejects what a quink dink how amazing is it a cold incident is it a cold incident i ask you is it a cold incident again this one was one that i've been really excited to read for a long time and it wasn't quite a five it was like a 3.754 i'd call it it's a very unique book it's about this girl who lives in the walls of this house and it's more of like a literary mystery i would say it's more thought this is slow plot this kind of beautiful but like gently beautiful writing it's not over the top with its prose but i really did enjoy the reading experience of reading it it's a very unique book and i wouldn't recommend this to people who are looking for like a thriller thriller or like a who done it mystery like i said it's a literary mystery and it was it was a enjoyable reading experience but it's very unique and i don't think everyone's gonna love it it's really a story about grief and belonging and family and all these things but it's not fast paced it's very very slow back but i've read it okay next we have pine by francine tune i've read it i've read pine i've read pine okay okay okay where the fuck is pine there it is um i have read pine by francine tune i read this again like last month and again i enjoyed this it was it's a very again it's very slow horror this time well horror mystery paranormal book i loved the setting in the scottish highlands i thought it was such a unique setting but it is definitely not a book for everyone i can see why it because i read this for my lowest rated highest rated horror and this is the lowest rated on my tbr i can see why not everyone loves it again i think you should only go into this if you're looking for like a slow book on the back it says it's pacey not in my opinion in also in my opinion it either needed to be shorter or longer it either needs to be a novella or it needed like another 50 pages i don't think quite it's a debut and i think maybe just the pacing wasn't quite correct but i have read it is that five i've read now oh my god okay all right we're doing all right i thought it was eight but there's 10 books okay so i've got two more and this is another book that i've owned since i started my booktube channel and still haven't read and it's been highly recommended to me by my mum my mum read it people i follow like booktubers have since read it like kayla's read it i've owned this since i started my channel three years i've owned this i still haven't read it but i'm so excited to and it's biased the new science of race and inequality by jennifer eberhardt i have not read biased oh my god that's embarrassing it's one of the oldest books on my tv where is that we keep having this problem where i just don't know where any of my books are oh no please okay i found it but at what cost i have not read biased the new science of race and inequality by jennifer eberhardt again this is one of the oldest books on my tv are are you not ashamed of yourself are you not embarrassed this is really embarrassing my mum read and loved this in like 2018 2019 oh gosh and i have wanted to read this ever since basically it is about unconscious bias and how that shapes every part of our systems and it doesn't that sound incredible and since i have owned this for four years lots of other people have read this i know kayla read and loved this um she hasn't read it by she i mean me i think i'm gonna love this i think i'm gonna give it five stars i think this is gonna be a non-fiction that i find particularly because it because it comes from a scientific background i find makes all its points completely which was the issue i had with unwell women you know i think because if you come from a scientific background i remember when i did my science juicy coursework who really had to make and complete your point so i'm hoping that everything is going to be like really well rounded and like really expanded upon and go into depth i've heard wonderful things about it but i haven't read it that's really embarrassing i've owned this for four years over four years really because i've been to my channel for four years but i owned this for like probably at least six months before that so we're coming up with five with it on the tbr yeah okay we've got to read that we've got to read that soon but then that is gonna i'm gonna give you a little clue guys the series i'm doing in december this is prime candidate for that and finally i'm putting a series on here i'm putting the next installment in a series on here because i have to read it i don't know if any of you all know this book it's the jewelld moth the second in the sinclair mysteries by catherine wood fine where the hell is that book oh oh i found it i found it it's so dusty on top i have not read the jewelld moth the second the sinclair mysteries by catherine wood fine this is like 1910s mysteries and their middle grade it's from a video i did where i've been doing my channel less than a year and i read i started three middle grade series in that video i have not made progress in a single one of those middle grade series much to think about yeah i did not plan on losing anything i lost but i'm determined i loved all those first books well not loved i really enjoyed all those first books in these middle grade series and i'm determined to continue on with them i really want to continue on with this one because it's historical mysteries like it's like my favorite thing i really want to continue on like it's got these cute little illustrations in them i mean look i want to continue on with it god this video has got me looking bedriggled i'm going through it a little bit guys i'm i'm going through it this video is putting me through it but yes i haven't read this yet so if i haven't read this by february i have to unhaul wow okay we can do it guys we can do it so out of that list i had red five and not red five and these are the five i had not read now i would be unhappy to unhaul the cousins and the wife between us i would not be unhappy to unhaul these three particularly these two particularly biased and the trees crept in particularly those two i would not be happy to unhaul so we're gonna save them but if i've not read them by the time i've done that second video in february um we have to unhaul them so we'll see how i do like there could be a five star among these who knows there could be multiple i don't think there's gonna be multiple well those two are five star predictions actually these three maybe three star predictions are best but anyways thank you guys for watching this video sorry that i'm you know copying out a bit but i do still want to do this video again maybe at some point next year these books were self-destructing a year which i know sounds crazy but i know better now like i used to always do this with my year-long tbrs was like i'd put books on there to challenge myself but i'm never gonna read like i put classics on there that like it's very unlikely i'm gonna read now i know to be realistic i've been burnt too many times so next time i do this i'm actually gonna be realistic with like books that sure i want to read but like i wouldn't care if i had to unhaul them i can already think of a few where i'd be like okay if i have to unhaul that that's okay because at the end of the day i do need to make space on my tbr and i do need to get rid of some of the books that have been languishing on my tbr like if i haven't read a book for five years you know non-fiction i feel like gets a bit of a pass because i i struggle to get around to non-fiction but if like the wife between us that's a quick thriller if i haven't read this for four years it needs to get gone you know what i mean so thank you guys for watching this video let me know if you're mad at me that i'm not unhauling them straight away although i am unhauling them but just some of them are perfect for videos i got coming up guys so they're just perfect they're perfect i need them to make up the numbers and let me know what you thought of any of the books that had been on this list like i said i'm reading half i'm okay with but i'm not unhauling and the tree's crept in there's things i can do and that is not one of them so uh thank you guys for watching this video and i will see you very soon in another one bye