 Good morning, everyone. Did you sleep well after that movie and spontaneous dance party? Yeah, I just have such deep gratitude for all of you coming together and joining in this with us. I have very deep gratitude for Jesus being a wayshower for us. As it says in A Course in Miracles, Jesus was the first to complete His part perfectly. And therefore He is in charge of the plan of atonement. So that's why Jesus and Holy Spirit are really synonymous to me. It's the same presence that's guiding the awakening. That's why Jesus gets the title The Way, the Truth, and the Life, because He's gone through the portal of atonement or complete forgiveness and correction. And therefore He has transcended time and space, so He's even a little more than an elder brother now. He's in charge of the plan. He's in charge of it. He works directly with you when you open your heart to Jesus and you say, Guide me and lead me, and He knows the way. He is the symbol for God because the Christ and the Creator are one in spirit. So it's a direct connection, a direct link to God. And so of course in my life, the parable of David 33 years ago when the Course came into my life and shortly after that when I just said, Okay, Jesus, you're in charge. I'm just going to follow whatever you tell me. I just give it all to you, give every skills, abilities, ambitions, future goals. Take the whole package and you have your way. That was of course the most important decision that I would ever make and Jesus would remind me, Well, there's still the atonement. We've got work to do in your mind. We've got a clear way, a lot of ego, a lot of unconscious ego. So even though I was euphoric when I came across the Course and even though I had mystical experiences and was ready to be pointed to the nearest mountain to ascend, Jesus and the angels had a good laugh with that one. Like, No, no, you're at the beginning. That's A. You're talking about Z. We're talking A. We've got a lot of work to do, so pay close attention. We have many instructions to deliver. You have many missions to be on and you're just beginning. You're at the beginning, you're not at the end. And so, and then with that movie yesterday, wow, that movie yesterday. I'm not trying to do double meanings, but Jesus is playing with the words. Wow, it's so, so touched, I think all of us. That's why actually Francis and I both, all through the day yesterday, had John Lennon and George Harrison in mind. We just discovered it when we were talking right before starting the day, but we both had them in mind. It was almost like they wanted to participate in our, into the kingdom retreat. And it was like, so I kept hearing, yeah, give peace a chance. I told Kirsten, cue that one up and then give me love, give me peace on earth. And then they brought in my sweet Lord, but their presence was so felt. And that movie came out this year and when the movie came out and premiered and started making its way around the world, John Lennon would have been 78. But you can imagine my happy surprise when I woke up this morning and I was scrolling on Twitter and they said today, October 9th is John's 79th birthday. And I was like, oh, I had a bit of tears. Like, oh, your presence is very felt, very strong with us here because I remember listening to all of those songs. Oh, yes, all the Beatles songs with Lennon and McCartney, but all the John Lennon songs of watching the wheels. I was playing them this morning, Instant Karma, number nine dream. I woke up this morning, that was what was playing in my song, number nine dream from John Lennon. I just thought all this swirl of energy and then I discovered it's his birthday. And so John is definitely with us here. The bodies may pass away, but John is right with us. And then it got me thinking about on the timeline how in 1965 the Beatles were just getting really revved up, you know, in 1965. And in 1965 was when Jesus was speaking to this small little woman in New York City in her mind saying, this is a course in miracles. Please take notes. So actually Jesus was unleashing the Beatles on the world at the same time as beginning to unleash his course. And I can only imagine that the ego was going, uh-oh. He means business now. Sending those four young guys from Liverpool out already. They're stirring up a lot of love all over the planet with their songs. And the ego wasn't even aware that Jesus was beginning to dictate a course in miracles into the realm. The same year the Beatles were really revving up. So we're here now, what seems to be, we'll say, 2019, heading into 2020. And we've had decades now to experience the course and even more, the Beatles. And we've got a lot of love in our hearts. You could feel it just springing forth last night. The spontaneous dances and grabbing hands and swirling around. This usually happens at the end of the retreat. We are ready to go much deeper on our first full day. We have George Harrison and John leading us in a swirl dance here in Southern Holland in a castle. So we are ready to go. And in the early days, too, they received a lot of special messages from Jesus that were not in the course. But Judy Skutch gave me one of those several years ago when I was having lunch with her. A group of us were having lunch with her and it said, because they were very curious. Helen and Bill and Ken and Judy, the original four, which were kind of given the mission to bring the course to the world. They were very curious about what is this plan? Tell us more about this plan of awakening. We're very curious because, you know, Bill and Helen were research psychologists. This is kind of exciting stuff for them. Bill's getting into Edgar Cayce and astrology and their minds are expanding Christian science and all kinds of things. They're very curious about this plan and basically the special message Jesus said, well, the plan involves people who have not even met yet and actually many people who aren't even born yet. You can only imagine these four curious human beings. And then there's this plan seemingly, it's actually all happening simultaneously and it's actually already complete because the instant the separation seemed to happen simultaneously, the Atonement Principle came into being, which was the correction for the seeming separation and it took the Holy Spirit all of less than one second to handle this tiny mad idea. Of course, you know, it doesn't give us an Adam and Eve story and we don't have any apples and tempting snakes and everything like that, but we do have into eternity where all is one their crept a tiny mad idea. I wish the Son of God remembered not to laugh. Well, the Holy Spirit didn't hesitate. The Holy Spirit had a good laugh immediately because the Holy Spirit is an eternal creation but the Holy Spirit sprang forth immediately as the Atonement Principle, like a correction for an absurd, impossible idea. And that principle was there and then Jesus was the first to fully accept that principle and that's why he's the way, the truth, the life. That's why he's the way shower. He was the first one to accept in time. Now that still is from a linear perspective, but I would say that all of you, once you have worked with the Course, you know, are very honored to be a part of the first phase with the Course, the first generation. And the first generation, you know, receives it as a book and begins reading it, studying it and practicing it and practicing what it says and using the workbook lessons and so forth. But because it was given, as Helen said now, at last a pathway to God for intellectuals, it's kind of crude this first phase because this is almost like just landing, almost like when the Apollo mission went to the moon. The eagle has landed, you know, those little pods went down in the moon dust and that was the first trip to the moon. Well, the Course coming into this realm, it landed in New York City and now it's proliferated over the decades. But actually, the Course, just studying the Course and practicing the Course are absolutely essential and cannot be skipped over. But as you study it and as you practice it, just like a violinist practices or a pianist practices or an athlete practices, but for that athlete, it's not all about practice and it's not all about game day and it's not all about performance, but athletes will tell you they have these extraordinary moments when they're in the zone and they lose awareness of everything. It seems like everything slows down and they're just these ah moments of, oh my God, it's spectacularly beautiful and it has nothing to do with competition and it has nothing to do with the game that they're playing or their performance. They just are swept in this miraculous experience of how glorious everything is, usually in slow motion, it's so spectacular. So that's what you want to do with the Course. You want to get into the zone with the Course. You want to get so deep and so devoted in your practice that just like with the pianist or the violinist, they're not thinking when they're out on that stage. They're being used as an instrument. Anybody who's been to a symphony knows that. You hear that. You hear the music coming in such harmony. You see their concentration and their focus and the zone means that they're relaxed, that they're being done through. It can be sung through like with Neda. It can be playing an instrument. It can be movement, a movement exercise like with Tai Chi and many types of movement. It's an involuntary flow and movement where you are aligned with spirit. And that's really the next phase that a Course in Miracles is to be taken to. It's not meant to stay boxed up. It's not meant to be thought of within an intellectual realm. Sometimes I hear people in spirituality putting down the intellect and there's a lot of putting down of the intellect and I hear all this stuff about the head and the heart and as if the head is the intellect and the heart has all the answers and the head is the mind and the mind has to be lost or forgotten or you've got to get rid of it or something. They just don't really understand how deep it goes but for example the Greeks and all the great traditions here in Europe of philosophy and rationality even. Oftentimes people associate rationality with the ego and I'm here to tell you that's not the case. Anybody knows that any system of logic, if you study any philosophy, you know that any system of logic depends on your first assumption. Well, let me tell you, the system of rationality is not the problem. The system of rationality isn't the problem at all. It's spectacular but if your system is logical and the ego is your first assumption, separation from God, your whole rational system is messed up because why? You have a faulty first assumption. But what if love is your first assumption? Like the Beatles said, all you need is love. Carol King, only love is real, everything else illusion. Okay, Carol, what if love is the premise? What if love is the first cause? What if love is right there at the bottom of that entire rational system? That's why in A Course in Miracles it's so deep that Jesus will use phrases like reason will tell you and he's talking about the Holy Spirit when he says reason will tell you. I know that's not popular in a lot of spiritualities. Everybody wants to throw reason out and just feel the love, David, just feel the love. Don't talk us about thoughts, just feel the love. Well, I have to tell them that your feelings come from your thoughts and don't ignore your cognition and don't ignore those thoughts because all those feelings come from thoughts. And they say, yipes, I was trying to ignore those thoughts and pretend they didn't even exist, you know, and oh, that's part of the head. Get out of your head, get out of your head. No, no, no, no, don't ignore thought. Jesus is telling us that Christ is an idea in the mind of God. God actually thunk us up. So be careful when you start to ignore thoughts and the power of thoughts because who you are is a thought in the mind of God. So don't downplay thoughts too much because in the end you're going to be feeling a little foolish. Oops, I was just going to feel my way back into heaven. And what's underneath those thoughts? What's actually underneath those thoughts are beliefs. Your beliefs determine your thoughts. You can believe things about your thoughts. Wow, that's pretty important. You can even believe your thoughts are ineffectual. You can believe your thoughts don't mean anything and ultimately all egoic thoughts don't mean anything. These thoughts do not mean anything. That's a workbook lesson. You believe and you dismiss the power of thought. You are also dismissing the power of your mind. And believe me, even though I know Eckerd and Muji and all of them talk about, let go of the mind. Listen, this is Jesus Christ talking to us. You've got to lay aside all the things you've learned and that's why I say don't mix metaphysics. Don't try to go mixing this with Advaita and Vedanta and don't try to mix this with a bunch of other pathways. There's a lot of pathways that talk about Christ consciousness and in The Course in Miracles Jesus says, consciousness is the domain of the ego. Now try putting those words together. Christ consciousness, Christ domain of the ego. So this goes super deep. I'm asking you now, if you really give yourself over to this, I don't want you to start mixing in a bunch of other stuff that's extraneous because I will guarantee you if you do, you are bringing upon delay. And delay is unknown in heaven because there is no time, but it's tragic in time. When Jesus says in the I Do Nothing section, he talks about meditation, contemplation, fighting against sin, and he says these ways will succeed because of their purpose, but your way will be different. A holy relationship is given you and this is a means of saving time. This is a way to slip past countless thousands of years of time. So all I'm saying is if you really want to wake up and you really want to experience enlightenment and self-realization and you happen to have stumbled upon through the grace of God a Course in Miracles, the Course in Miracles is like a diamond cutter. It can slice an ego as hard as a diamond. Now you can use a diamond cutter to cut a napkin and you can use it to cut a tissue. But let me just tell you, you're not really making full advantage of the tool if you're going around cutting tissues and napkins with a diamond cutter. If you could understand how foolish that is. If you're not giving yourself fully over to this amazing spectacular tool, then you're just not using what's been given you to awaken to the fullest extent. And this is very, very important. So in the larger context of things, I'm going to talk, and Francis and I are going to talk today about the new phase that we're moving in because admittedly much in the first decades of the Course, much of it's been intellectual, but yet you could feel it in our dance party last night. That was no intellectual experience. That was spontaneous joy. That was erupting joy. And you know that feeling and you probably have felt that feeling when you've watched certain movies or you've listened to certain songs and you feel transported. That's why I was emotional this morning listening to Instant Karma. Instant Karma is going to get you, it's going to knock you off your feet. John Lennon was talking about the Holy Instant in his beautiful way and watching the wheels. Oh, I don't know if I'd have gotten through some of the darkest hours if I hadn't listened to Watching the Wheels. I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round. I really love to watch them roll. No longer riding on the merry-go-round. I just had to let it go. Do you know how important that song was in my experience? And to be able to play that song anytime I wanted to and the ego chatter got loud trying to tell me I was guilty and crazy. That's actually in the song. People think I'm crazy doing what I'm doing. Even that's in the song. Well, I tell them there's no problem, only solutions. That's a course in miracles. John is channeling, it's his birthday and I'm talking about him but he's channeling the ideas from the course. That's why I was so touched. That's why this morning I was moved to tears in my meditation of the gratitude of how Jesus is using the Beatles and John and George and all these great gurus and saints and prophets and mystics and there is just like a giant song of awakening and we can be appreciative of that and also we can start to bring that in to our experiences with the course in miracles. Like I said, a course in miracles is like razor sharp metaphysics. There's your diamond cutter. More than razor sharp, it can cut a diamond and that's a really compressed piece of coal. That diamond is shiny and sparkly but we don't want to follow the diamond. We want to follow that small still voice within. Another thing I was reminded of today was I've got this thing called Movie Watcher's Guide to Enlightenment and it's an amazing tool and it's online now but there is one of the movies that came out some years ago it was made in Australia but you know how the matrix kind of got hold and got hold and became like a sensation all over the world. There was a movie that was kind of like the matrix and it was even more course in miracles than the matrix and it was so direct and to the point that people were telling me when it first was coming out they said, David, you've got to see this movie. It's a major motion picture that's a course in miracles acted out and I was like, what? Where? Where? And I remember going to the theater the second day after it had opened in the town where I was and I sat there and there was only like five people in the theater and my housemate who's also into the course went with me and we were watching this movie with our eyes wide open and our mouths wide open and we were doing high fives throughout the movie and the movie was so dark it had huge metaphysics but it was so dark which if you stripped away all the pleasure and all the distractions of the world this would be a pretty dark world if you took away all the egos ooh la la Anyway, the movie was so dark that we were doing high fives because of the course principles and the rest of the people in the movie were looking at us like they were watching some kind of an Alfred Hitchcock thing and what are they doing back there? We're going whoa man high five all the way through the movie for two hours and the people were kind of huddled trying to make it through the movie and we're in the back doing this because it just shows you it's all your perception we were just so ready for that movie it was called Dark City but anyway in this movie Dark City there's a character an inspector Inspector Walensky and Walensky is like a detective so he's been pondering this murder cases and pondering everything that's going on in the movie and he's studied it so well that basically he's come to the awareness that there's no way out that the whole world was designed that you would not escape the world was made that you would never know who you are so it's a closed system so the body was invented and time and space were invented and everything about time and space was made by the ego that you would never remember who you are sometimes I call this world Distractionville oh is it Distractionville you know you want options not real options but you want pseudo options you want pseudo pursuits you want to hide in the darkness so deep and wind yourself so deep that you'll forget the light well that's what this world is it's a major distraction and I have to say the five senses are all part of that so in the movie Dark City at some point the main character he keeps seeing these signs called Shell Beach which is a brighter time it's light in a very dark world it's like symbols of light it's kind of like in this world when people talk about heaven and nirvana they're talking about something they hope is there right? I mean if they had a direct experience of heaven or nirvana they wouldn't be talking about it in a body they would be in the bliss of eternal love and light but everybody talks about heaven everybody talks about nirvana and samadhi and all these things but they're just hoping that these mystics and saints are right about what they're talking about this gives them hope for something brighter well in the movie Shell Beach is like this this poster this snapshot of brighter days on a beach but the thing is everybody talks about Shell Beach and they know they all talk about Shell Beach but no one can remember how to get there it's just this thing that's talked about but nobody remembers the way well the reason nobody remembers the way is because time and space was made to keep you into amnesia so that you would never remember your true identity as spirit so the world is a giant you might say cosmic amnesia case but it's not just partial amnesia it's complete amnesia so everybody who talks about heaven even everybody who moves their little eyeballs on A Course in Miracles and reads the passages and goes they're there's something powerful here but there's still the world I still am interacting with the world it's heavy it's dark that's why I needed a lot of heavy doses of John Lennon heavy doses of the Beatles heavy doses of George Harrison I even like the story of the Beatles because you know a lot of times we get into groups and we think oh groups are so wonderful and we've got our little living miracles group and MIC, miracles in contact group and da da da da you know John left the Beatles he formed another little group smaller than the Beatles instead of the Feb before it was called John and Yoko he went for a couple size group and they worked out a lot of stuff too you know bed-ins they did press conferences for peace for world peace to draw attention to it they did a lot of work so did the Beatles but what I'm saying is it's not so much the form in which your earth life takes it's actually being led by the purpose be guided into an experience that will release the world from the chains of the ego mind as you release the ego you set all the captives free because this is a holographic universe and all those 7 billion people are projections of the ego as well you know we think there's 7 billion people out there and they all have private minds and private thoughts which goes against the total teachings of the Course that all minds are joined there's really only one of us the name of us is Christ and that's a God-given name that's not an earthly name at all you know even the realms of the angels those are symbols too but there's symbols of comfort of blessing of come home to the light of welcome home to the light remember who you are so it takes a lot of mind training to go into the next phase of the Course but we're moving into it now it's wonderful that dance we were all feeling it like everybody's dancing around it's very spontaneous very involuntary that was not choreographed that was not even planned it just happened the night before John Lennon's birthday and we burst into the joy so this next phase we're going into is a phase of surrender I heard that today in the song mind games you know play in those mind games forever it's in the end love is the answer and you know that for sure yes is the answer you gotta let it go he's telling us to let the world go and let the mind games the ego mind games attack and defense you gotta let it go and then he says yes is surrender now he's even defining yes for us as surrender wow John on your birthday we're starting to really appreciate you a little more than we ever did you are really giving it to us we needed to hear that that was Jesus singing through John Lennon and those beautiful lyrics to help us wake up and we're moving into a phase where the study and the practice of the course now if you really are devoted with it it has to yield into an involuntary experience miracles are involuntary miracles should not be under conscious control so we can't like intellectually try to keep the lid on the miracles because the intellect is just an aspect of consciousness and the lid of the intellect will get blown off into an experience there is an experience that will come to end your doubting there is an experience of joy of supreme happiness that transcends death that transcends sickness that transcends separation and we're getting ready to move into another phase of our work with a Course in Miracles what Francis and I want to talk about this morning Francis is saying a lot with her eyes she's she's beaming and all over the place but what Francis and I are going to actually talk about this morning is something that Gandhi knew about is something that Yogananda knew about is something that St. Francis knew about is something that Mother Teresa knew about but it's opening your mind into letting the Holy Spirit use the dream and the dream symbols and even we'll call them the dream characters in ways that help accelerate your awakening that's the simplest way I can say it Gandhi Gandhi Gandhi was married and Gandhi had children but Gandhi as he moved on in his life of non-violence and his really devotion to peace he had a little community that was around him that were very much devoted to practicing non-violence in their daily living absolutely everything and Mother Teresa had a little when she left Albania and she went to India and she was on a train in India and she got her calling to work with the poorest of the poor she established her first mother house in Calcutta and that was just a group of nuns that practiced serving Jesus and trying to see the Christ very high calling Saint Francis, you know, he left his rich life with his parents and he ultimately ended up leaving Assisi and going out to send Amiana to help rebuild a church and then there was a small little community that came to live with Saint Francis Bernardo and Giacondo some of you know some of the stories and it's another beautiful being Paramahansa Yogananda who came to the west from India came to the west and I don't know if any of you seen the movie of his life called Awake but I would highly recommend it but Paramahansa Yogananda he came over the United States and the more I kind of looked into this movie and looked at that I said well Paramahansa and I had very similar pathways because he went into these deep states of mind and then he spoke all over the place he went touring like I've been touring around 44 countries he was touring all over the United States he was touring in Washington DC he was giving talks at at major the Capitol or White House at going all over the place giving these amazing lectures about self-realization I think starting off maybe back in the 20s you know he was some decades before me but he was doing very much what I was doing was letting presence just pour through him in as many circles as he could he would go wherever he was invited now with Paramahansa Yogananda having passed on there are Ananda communities all over the world where they live together and practice his deep teachings in a very devoted way so what I'm saying to you is during the course of human evolution and involvement you know we have things like the nuclear family father and the mother and the children with same sex marriages and there are many different forms many different configurations that people live together but I'm not here to talk about the form of things I'm not interested really in the form of things I'm here to talk about what is the purpose if the one choice you have left in your mind is the choice of purpose I even wrote a little booklet called purpose is the only choice and why is purpose so important is because like I shared earlier with you all that only a single purpose can endow events with stability only a common single purpose can stabilize perception unless you have unless you live your life by a purpose and I'm not meaning every once in a while yeah that's right peace peace no it's not just like an occasional thing when John was saying give peace a chance last night he's talking about purpose like have that be in the front I think for John the purpose of peace became more important than selling records more important than being a part of the Beatles more important than anything he found that that purpose was so dear to him and it was very disturbing because he was still looking through the egos lenses and he was still seeing war and war was horrifying to John in fact he and Yoko spent thousands tens of thousands of dollars to rent a billboard in New York City make love not war okay he really valued peace in Course in Miracles terms you could put the peace out in front you can put the you can call it love you can call it forgiveness but that purpose will determine your perception of the world and that's why you have to consistently have that purpose out front it's gotta be your top priority and I'm not talking about you know leave all behind and go live in a cave and meditate for 15 hours and leave your children behind I'm saying right in the midst of what you perceive to be your world put that peace as the priority among all things I'm talking about that inner peace not world peace or anything like that but that inner peace and that's what I'm talking about if you put peace first in your life I mean in your mind too you have got to let the Holy Spirit then configure the characters like if your daughter's there with the grandson whatever that's fine but it has to be given from that purpose the Holy Spirit has to be the one that's orchestrating the movements and the configurations because otherwise I'll tell you it's the ego still trying to maintain control and be in charge of being in control of the world control of who lives where and how long and who comes this who does this it's a mess you won't find peace of mind by trying to control this world in the rules for decision Jesus tells us you have no control over the world you made well hallelujah that's pretty clear thank God I have no control over the world I made talking egoically you invented this world and you can't control it in fact it's a prearranged script and you can't even change it that's why you can't control it it's destiny it's destined you can't fix the world you can't change the world seek not to change the world seek rather to change your mind about the world and changing your mind means changing from hatred to forgiveness the purpose to see a new world to see with new eyes to realize who you really are so Emily gave a little bit of a hint about what we're up to here in Europe I have to say actually it was probably toward the later part of last year when I started to to kind of feel that there was supposed to be some kind of center in Europe and I was again okay it's your plan whatever you want so I came to Europe and I started moving around in Western Europe and then and then went back to Mexico and then it was called again to get on the plane again and come over this time to Mallorca Spain an island in the Mediterranean and sure enough I met a family that remembered me from like eight years before I didn't remember them I didn't remember that part of the island and all of a sudden David David we love you because I meet thousands of people thousands thousands and so this whole family is like loving me and hugging me oh come to lunch with us and and then they take me to this place and I said this was the house you rented from us to do one of your six week devotional retreats and then I saw the house and I went oh yeah I recognize that house but that was that was the most it was like oh yeah I have been here that is a house I do see that I remember that house I remember those steps and then they started saying I said well we're here to get a center in Europe and everything and they said oh we've got a place for you and they had already sold this place but they hadn't signed the contract yet and so mama the matriarch of the whole family said this is for David you forget that other potential buyer that is not a potential anymore and this one's for David and so the daughter was like okay okay ma whatever you want she's the matriarch and so and then all these miracles started happening money was donated people coming in a car was donated it's just like it's almost like you know instant jello or an instant coffee mix where you know it's like when it's I've seen things move fast but this was like moving super fast and it's just coming in coming in coming in and wire transfers and this and this and I mean it was so complicated over here and and yet I was like being carried all of us were just watching and at one point it started to there was some lawyers involved in all these transactions and then the lawyers insulted the daughter of the family and and Jesus was saying well you're gonna have to take some action here and I was like okay what do you want me to do he's like fire the lawyers get them lawyers out we have to have back heart to heart connections is what this is about you get the legal people out of this you're gonna need some but I'll send you I'll send you what you need so I was saying to some of my friends I was saying you know I wish I had a notario over here like the one I had in Mexico and I love that one in Mexico Luis and then two days later they called up and the family had found a notario and his name was Luis and it was like Jesus said I told you I'd send send in what's necessary in terms of the legal stuff you gotta leave that to me so and then eventually this center has unfolded but more than that because I kept hearing that this year for me was more of a year of Europe and it has been unfolding that way including all of this you know it's Jesus tells me ahead of time you know this is what's coming so I'm not surprised but what we really want to talk about this morning is meditation and we want to talk about the context the context of what spiritual community is because it's not a form as much as it is a devotion yeah I think I think the community is kind of you know developed really around David because I know David started his path on his own just he and Jesus and travel alone and go to homes wherever he was invited and go to course groups wherever he was invited and then when people started to go around David and saying I want to live with you it wasn't like David said I want to start a spiritual community it didn't start like that it was people came to him saying I'm your students I want to learn from you and I actually want to live with you 24 7 and people started to just start to form around you with properties and different things that was the start and I really feel that is important because because from the very beginning this is a very clear focus that we are not leading the way with a plan or idea of how it's going to look because the whole purpose is we are going to be shown this whole life on earth in time and space if we're going to use if that's going to be used to undo our entanglement or belief in time and space we have to be shown and we cannot really sort out the plan from within within this realm of mind so this is how it got started David was clueless and a community is coming and people are living around and he just continued to travel you know continue to travel and certain people say I want to travel with you so it just started like that and more and more people came to live in a base where whether he travels away or not they just settled there so I think then gradually a monastery was donated by Suzanne in Utah United States that's where the first wave of volunteers came to support and I remember I was probably among that wave when we just got the monastery it just opened and I came and it was the same I didn't really come to to live in community at all I just finished a long retreat with David in Australia they all left and I really was looking at my life and how I was not myself I could not really follow my calling so I was really looking at all the situations and decided to make some make some changes and I made the biggest change which was I was going to leave my marriage because I couldn't really be truthful to myself if we're going to stay together there was so that was the biggest but I was terrified after I made that decision I was so terrified that I I texted David and he was probably still have one more day in Australia to go I texted David I said I did this and then he said come down where we are which was few hours away from Sydney and just be with us for a day because they were leaving the next day so I went down and I felt so bad in my heart just like the dark uncertainty about what have I done what was going to happen at the end of the day just couldn't stand it I just said can I just spend some time with you just a few minutes just to sit down because I was just trembling and then he said welcome to visit us in Utah so I thought okay thank god I have the next step and I didn't come in until I made a huge move so when I went to Utah I was only thinking of three months time I could stay in the United States three months and I thought by the end of the three months I would finish my mind training it was just taking you know it's three months mind training that's a long time so that's that was probably nine years ago when I came so that's really and I believe that was a lot of the we were in the same situation with a lot of the people who came together in that time we felt called to receive mind training that was really the only purpose we went there for no it's not our life it was not intention to do anything except just for ourselves so gradually I think it just continued on continued on one thing after the next because because Spirit kept giving me new assignments and new hard opening and life opening and mind opening experiences so I felt like I was expanding expanding expanding there was nowhere else that I needed to go because I felt like even though I was living in the community I wasn't really living in one place I was continuously expand and feel like the community expanded with me together so we were like a just that's the experience but the purpose is so important because if we go to a place and feel we're gonna make something out of it in terms of goals in time and space then that is actually the total opposite of awakening and that is not gonna work it's gonna be a huge compromise of our calling so so you know you can imagine for we have people who come from different parts of the world and at any given time the size always varies from year to year sometimes we have a lot of people all of a sudden sometimes we have a very small group and people come from one week one month to just indefinite we really don't know but it was just orchestrated but I do say that David kept the purpose very very pure because it's very tempting to mix intentions and purpose with the moment you get into life, get daily living with a group of people and we're talking about daily things talking about projects when we do a retreat we don't say whatever the result if it happens it happens if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen when we receive the prompt to put a retreat it is happening because there is integrity underneath it if spirit said this is what we're going to do we take very very specific steps and we're now like who knows we don't know let's see there is actually a difference so when we come together there are a lot of projects like this day in and day out so it's all kind of feeling the same as living anywhere in the world actually in terms of how it looks but the only difference which is a huge difference is the purpose is very very single and the moment temptations come up to mix the purpose and to split the purpose or change the purpose it gets written out pretty quickly because it really helps very very sturdy from David and from everybody's intentions so yeah I really just feel it's important we cannot talk about spiritual communities and how we live without talking about what is truly the foundation of it because if we talk about what we do and how we do things it's not really the message it's not the picture you know the only reason that we are living together is because of the purpose and the only reason that we seem to be able to to continue on and advance in our spiritual awakening is because of this purpose and the only reason that I can share with you today and all of us can have anything to share is just because of this purpose that's really there is nothing else to share except that so yeah so having said that then we can talk a little bit more about the specifics yeah and I just also wanted to lay the context when you put the purpose out front to forgive it is like you're handing over all attention, concern worry about outcomes in the world we're not talking about advocating a certain way of living when I think community I think purpose when I think community I think communion with the Holy Spirit I think communion with Jesus is what I'm thinking of I mean holy communion not taking bread and not from the Catholic system or the church system but being in alignment and sharing the same prayer and letting the spirit guide and that means giving over the concern for the form and saying you give me if there's a word I need to speak you give it to me somebody I need to meet I'm happy you tell me how or you bring them to me if I'm supposed to travel somewhere then let's do it be you in charge it's not about the boxes that I talked about at the beginning categories, statuses, boxes I would rather have communion with you than have a status in the world I would rather have communion with you spirit rather than be identified with a country that's John Lennon again imagine there's no country I wonder if you can that's what the Holy Spirit was telling me the same thing that John was sharing in his song imagine there's no country that's an artificial construct American and German and languages those are artificial there's a language of the heart there's a language of the unified mind there's a language of the spirit and it takes us into this divine silence where we just are perfect it's just isn't this there's not even words in that pure beingness so all I want to do is say you guide my words you guide my interactions you guide everything it's all yours we are not advocating a particular form I could not advocate a form when the parable of David has been filled with so many different forms I mean after I received A Course in Miracles in 1986 it was very intimate but it was so intimate that I would just pop it open as like an oracle I would pray have a question pop it open get my answer it happened over and over month after month and then Jesus said I can do it with watch we do it with the radio too pray ask your question now you're in your car turn the radio on oh my God he said no see that sign over there oh let's go to the library you don't even need a course in miracles I'll pray ask your question walk through the rows of the library I'll tell you where to stop you reach up you pull the book open you pop it open oh it was like okay I see I see you're in charge you I pray for the answer and you're going to give it to me and a song on the radio and somebody speaking to me in the billboard I mean it's going to come flooding into me if that's my prayer to be shown to be guided to be led I'm not limited by the course I mean it's going to come out of there and so for me that's the purpose and the purpose goes in line with with the prayer of the heart I'm more interested in all of us praying together and not praying together just with words but getting in like we're on the same channel we're all tuned in our minds are all connected to the same purpose so it's like a dance like we had last night imagine your daily life being like that dance that we experienced so spontaneous so just joyful so happy not a care in the world we're just swaying and moving and running and we're being it's like played with the spirit you know we're just we're just totally to me that's what community is that's what communion is and and then another line from imagine that song imagine no possessions I wonder if you can well we're not into ritualistically trying to say okay you no possessions no possessions because we know that possessions are in the mind right the ego is the possessive part of the mind but if you start to trust and you start to flow and let the spirit orchestrate things then you start to realize that everything in this world is a backdrop I'm not advocating a certain way that people should be or a certain form because in 1991 I said okay Jesus what's next and you've heard of like maybe the Aborigines in Australia Marla Morgan's book which she goes on walkabout in the Aborigines well Jesus said we're going to do a little drive about and I said okay I don't have a car and he said well I'll take you to you know we'll go to the car dealership and you've got how much money okay we'll get you a look he got me a little gold three cylinder little was really good the price of gas back in 1991 was very cheap and he got me a three cylinder car pretty much run on fumes I very rarely had to fill the car up I'd fill it up and then drive across states across the United States could go for miles and miles and miles on this little thing and Jesus said yeah we're going on a little driveabout and actually that driveabout actually lasted five years that's the thing with Jesus leading the way you just you know you think you're going on a trip and it's a trip it's a mind trip we're going on a trip he didn't really tell Helen Shuckman what was coming he didn't tell Judy he never tells any of us where it's going because we'll get too frightened but he just gives us little morsels like breadcrumbs there you go just follow the breadcrumbs that's all just the next breadcrumb that's all you got to focus on here the next breadcrumb so he took me out for someone who didn't even like to travel on a five year trip that really washed that one away and then I was taken in and met these people all over had so many miracles and that was the form that initially it took after just reading the book studying the book using the book as an oracle and being very devotional I didn't even know of course groups at the beginning I didn't even know there was such a thing as Course in Miracle Groups all I know is I was having a very deep intimate experience with Jesus and that was all I needed I didn't even have to think about groups and then when I started traveling around for five years I met a lot of people in groups some groups welcomed me in I went to one group a course group and they had a set of bylaws and they had to take a vote whether I could speak at the group and I was like whoa and Jesus is like I'm teaching you to be present with me you do not need to be concerned about rules and groups and everything like this stay with me that's the goal here don't judge anything I was invited one year to to a conference where I was going to be a speaker and the minister set up a session with the whole group where it was myself and another minister and another minister holding a stopwatch and I was like okay never seen this one well the guy the minister with a stopwatch would give like the first person like a minute or two minutes to speak and then time and then there would be like it was set up like a political debate except this was about spiritual awakening and enlightenment so I remember talking David you can go somebody asked a question from the audience about enlightenment I would get talking talking talking and then in mid-sentence and so one of the most important things to remember on your spiritual journey is ding time Jesus closed my mouth on time even if I was in mid-sentence because that was the format that was given and I was not to try to buck the format I was to be there in happiness and joy and stay attentive and if that was the rule that was given then I would stop right on the stopwatch well there was some people in the audience that were quite upset and there was a lot of people shaking things and a lot of things going on and this went on until finally I said I know Jesus is going to have some fun with this because he always does he's so playful he uses anything to make it playful and joyful this went on for some time finally my time to speak I was speaking and I was speaking and it went on in a joyful way and the guy holding the minister holding the stopwatch was not was not stopping me I was way beyond the time until the other minister said hey hey hey hey what's going on here David is way over time he interrupted the whole thing this is not right you know what's going on and then the minister with the stopwatch said I know David mentioned my name in his answer I felt to give him as long as he wanted to speak with a total straight face he says while the whole audience burst into laughter the minister next to me burst into laughter the minister with the stopwatch and everybody was bursting with it because Jesus was playing with the time idea we don't need to be so attached to time and rules I always know Jesus is going to use whatever the situation is for lightness, for joy for happiness as long as I have no investment in anything I can experience it with Jesus but if I have an investment of the outcome based on time beliefs or expectations whatever then I'm not going to be happy I'm going to be stirred up so that's part of what we focus on so much it's not just a group of people spending time together but it's the purpose it's the prayer underneath that is so important that's why even for me at the very beginning when I first took some of my early trips in 1989 and 1990 Jesus actually took me on a trip and he said I will take you on a trip to meet people who have dedicated their whole lives to A Course in Miracles it was so helpful actually I was up there with Ken Wopnick I was out there with Robert Perry I was meeting people that today many of them are still friends and we still are working with the Course this is decades later and it was actually helpful for me to be around people who had given their whole life just as a witness to Jesus saying look at this you see this is possible that's pretty much the way the community is evolving because you do have those who have given their whole lives to this very dedicated purpose and to living a very prayerful life not a casual life not a sporadic little bit of this, little bit of that but really a very devotional life and I think we feel there is some kind of there is a synergy there is a quickening there is an acceleration and we are moving into another phase I think because we are simply following the prayer I think when you said surrender because once the purpose is clear and once that is a shared purpose then the next phase for us in community is really we are surrendering together and there is nothing else for us to really decide on except through prayer with the spirit and there are so many so many examples of how we live from big decisions like centers in Spain centers in Mexico centers in the United States the reason that we were so rejoiced that this center in Spain came in was because it came in through Jesus through a miracle it was really not happening we didn't make it happen we know we didn't make it happen David came here and then he went back to Mexico and actually there is a little bit maybe you didn't know but two friends were left here in Europe to continue when David first went back to Mexico and they went to this house in Mallorca just to drive by and just to have a look because that house was already sold but they had no other houses to look at anymore and they were heading back as well so that was the last stop so they said let's just have a holy encounter with the family and see where we have a good time and then we go they went to the house and they had such an amazing time with the family and the family invited these two friends for dinner and asked one guy who actually called to donate a center for David for Living Miracles Europe and so he was part of the search team and then he was speaking Spanish because the family only spoke Spanish so they were speaking in Spanish and suddenly they were really excited and then they think tell us what do you do what is your life about and so he said oh yeah I have this journey and I'm all about forgiveness now so he shared what is important to him and the family the mother the head of the family said you just remind me of this man I met ten years ago his name is David Hofmeister that's how in Spanish so the two friends was completely stunned they were like what? David Hofmeister and then the family they were stunned too you were looking for a center for David Hofmeister's community so that's how then David got caught back and all of this just flourished but that was somehow we know we heard to come and look for a center but Jesus said even that I have the center for you and it's not even for you to make your effort and that is how all the other center came in as well every single center came in with this huge miracle synchronicity and story one after the next and even recently I was in England and other presenters were telling me saying oh my god I was just telling my husband about the center in Mexico how miraculous I said well there's another one that Spain just came in so it was just one after the next but this is truly for us we come together we hold the purpose steady then we pray and we learn to hear one voice together then we just step back and allow the miracles to be orchestrated and then we really go where we were pointed to not fight we don't fight now I have an idea we would love to have a center in Europe from ten years ago but it wasn't what we want it wasn't the time it wasn't it was all about what gospel is because because only in that then we taste happiness only in that we find out who we are so that is how it seems to unfold this community just unfolded in different countries different locations and with different people that were sent to us so yeah that's the bigger decision seemingly the bigger decisions around the steward of the money that come in the center that come in but there are also a lot of small decisions but really the essence of all of them are the same hold steady the purpose stay together and allow ourselves to be shown I could definitely relate with Jack in the movie last night because I started studying the course and then my parents are as wacky and quirky as mom and dad there and I'm coming back from my Course in Miracles Gathering and I'm all excited and you walk into the living room and you know they weren't quite ready for whatever I was going to share like this family wasn't quite ready for let it be let him be you know but leave it be I mean they couldn't even remember the name and he's like gosh come on this is you're the first people on earth and that's how I felt you know it's like I've just read a Course in Miracles and I've got said you know they were about as receptive as Jack's parents and then as we get deeper into it you know it's like like when you read that line in the Course where Jesus says if you will be a miracle worker for me I will arrange time and space for you how many of us grew up in families where our parents would say to us as little children now you be a good miracle worker because Jesus will orchestrate time and space for you you don't have to worry about grades you don't have to worry about your classmates bullying you you don't really have to worry about your school lunch you know somebody took your school lunch and you could only eat a Snickers bar three days in a row that's okay Jesus don't worry nutrition don't worry about nutrition Jesus will orchestrate time and space for you if you do the miracle working none of us had that and I'm like everybody else that is not what we were talking about at our dinner table my sister would refuse to eat certain things Lima beans or certain things and she would get into a war where she would refuse and they would say no dessert for you and you're not leaving the table and she refused to eat and it was like World War 3 at the table we weren't talking about Jesus and miracle working and love and acceptance and trust and don't worry about your nutrition and the body and just be a good servant of Jesus you know that was the farthest thing so when I started reading the course and I started reading that he would orchestrate time and space for me it took me I started to get a lot of synchronicities like Carl Jung talked about the first four or five years with the course of the synchronicities and then when I just when I thought I was getting amazed by all the synchronicities happening in my world and I'm like okay I believe I trust, I understand I'll follow then Jesus is like no you ain't seen nothing yet like the Bachman Turner overdrive song baby baby Davey you ain't seen nothing yet it's like here's something you're never going to forget like come on the road with me and you want to see synchronicities I'll knock your socks off I'll blow that hat off your head if you think those little synchronicities those last few years with the course or something let's go out on a road trip and get you away from your environment I'll get you places to stay you'll meet the most wonderful happy people they'll take you into their home because I will go before you making straight your path and leaving in your way no stones to trip on and no obstacles to bar your way nothing you need will be denied you not one seeming difficulty but will melt away before you reach it you need take that for nothing except your only purpose the only purpose you would fulfill there's that purpose again let the purpose be out in front stay with me and watch I'm going to go on a magic carpet ride and you're going to see a whole new world and a new fantastic point of view you're going to see that well that was amazing as soon as I was on the road it was just absolutely spectacular and I would start to share about my miracles at course groups and sometimes even in course groups people would look at me like with disbelief like what are you a book or something where do you work you know who do you work for oh you know this was at the course groups and then I'm going around and I'm sharing the miracles as I'm experiencing and they're kind of like hmm it sounds like a fairy tale to me and I had to say yeah it does actually feel more like a fairy tale than a trip because you know when we're reading the fairy tales isn't it great when you're reading all the fairy tales Cinderella and Snow White and all these fairy tales you know they just kind of glide from scene to scene they're never seeming concerned about money they're never checking their balance and they're checking account you know even the scenes where they cook food you know they just go into the scene the food's on the table you know they don't even cook the food they just jump from scene to scene and that's how it felt for me I'd walk into these houses of people I'd never met and they'd hear Mikasa Sukasa take whatever you want from the fridge I'm going the first time I went the second day out on my first road trip with Jesus I walked in five or ten minutes of this Course in Miracles group that I was guided to and I didn't even want to go in because I'm looking down at the paper I'm like no it's over Jesus it's over it's only ten minutes left and he said get in there and I'm like I'm not walking into a course group that I've never been to I've never met the people and the final ten minutes it says eleven to twelve it's ten minutes to twelve he said get in there we're having this wild discussion about sexuality and they don't even notice I'm there it's such a heated thing that's going on and then at the end at twelve oh time's up where did you come from you know Jesus kind of slipped me in in stealth mode I think it had a lot to do with the topic you know they were all heated about the sexuality it weren't just a dry passage they were really into it and then I was invited to lunch with all of them then the man who I'll pay for lunch and then come to my apartment my condominium and then a total stranger never met the guy before except to this course oh I've got some things I got to do this afternoon you stay in my apartment use the tennis courts swimming pool jacuzzi take whatever you want from the fridge and I'll be back in four hours take a nap if you want and Jesus was like this is what I'm talking about you know I said I would take care of you in the most glorious way and in your terms it's a stranger that you've never met and he's just opened up his house he comes back in about four hours well young man you seem to know a lot about the course I'm going to call my course of miracles group up I've got a houseboat let's do a potluck and I'll get my whole course group and we'll go out sailing on this lake off we go doing a picnic on the lake I'm like Jesus my gosh this is like the second day out and Jesus is like I told you I'd knock your socks off and that's what we need because of our fear level because of like the jack because of the resistance is high you need people around you loving you encouraging you giving you things you know the things that would encourage you to go on this mission this was at the beginning of my life's calling and Jesus was like pulling out all the fireworks it was like a Beatles concert it was just full of everything and then it just that was the second night out it just continued and continued and continued and it's still continues because like Francis was saying with every place we go with all the people we meet with all the synchronicities with everything that comes in to serve it's just loaded with miracles so the whole experience of the dream becomes a miraculous experience everyone you meet it's all purposeful there's nothing out of place with it there's nothing that you say wasn't that boring no it's miraculous is the word for it and you have to adjust in your mind to living miraculously that's what Jesus says in the course he says I want you to be consistently miracle minded he doesn't want us to be jaggedly jumping back and forth between egoic states and right-mindedness wrong-minded, right-minded he wants us to be consistently right-minded consistently miracle minded and prayer is the medium of miracles the way that we reach this consistent miracle mindedness is to be in prayer I remember one time years ago too we were going to Salt Lake City and I said well while we go to Salt Lake City why don't we go to the Temple Square where the Mormons are and all this acreage and a big temple and Mormon tabernacle choir and I thought that'd be fun so I go on to the grounds and there's these Mormon missionaries men and women they're all dressed a certain way there's swirls of them there's hundreds of Mormon missionaries that are all around me and I'm just like look at all these dedicated young people all over the place they go all over the world and I swear they're all around me so I'm walking through and finally this one really dedicated Mormon missionary I think she's from Canada she saw me and a group of people that were with me walking through and she came right up and she looked right into the eyes of everybody and she went around the group and she went one by one into the people she said will you pray with me will you pray with me she went around the group will you pray with me and different people that were with me had different reactions you can only imagine somebody with these shiny eyes with this very firm will you pray with me she went around and she came over to me and she said will you pray with me she looked me right in the eyes and I said I pray unceasingly she went ah that's it that's what she was wanting I pray unceasingly prayer is not an activity prayer is not there's no starting point and stopping point if you're just throwing up a few prayers here and there in your life you're not really using the power of prayer and you're not really tapped into the power of your heart and your mind I said I pray without ceasing I was just like the perfect thing for her and then we started talking about Jesus well I can talk about Jesus and they loved to talk about Jesus and so there was a joyful synergy there that was a good topic Jesus orchestrated that topic on Temple Square that was a very good topic to go into parts of Europe no it's not the best topics but I can talk about quantum physics and the mind and psychology and Jesus always gives me the perfect words for whatever Eastern philosophy I've kind of been through all those things so Jesus just uses all the vocabulary depending on who I meet depending on what the miracle receiver has the capacity to hear and then we go our way rejoicing only because I'm in the prayer and because Jesus is orchestrating the encounter that's why the encounters are so joyful has nothing to do with technique it has nothing to do with practice it's actually devotion to be in the prayer and to be consistently miracle minded and then everything flows from there we are going to shift into we can talk you mentioned more specifics and logistics do we want to kind of shift into that we've got time we're just giving the underpinnings here we're having fun but now we because actually I know already Francis this is why we're talking about this because we were having breakfast this morning and Francis said that various people started coming up with her and started bringing up questions like their life like where they are at in their life like next steps in their life these are you see how we bring it down to practicalities you know if that's the questions that Francis is getting then I said well that's probably what we need to talk about if that's what's happening Jesus is sending these people to you for a purpose it's after we have our swirling dance in our great movie last night there still comes the time of bringing things back down to the most practical and the most basic level which is still involves your decisions your day to day decisions we can't just talk about high ideas without talking about the practical so I feel like that was a pretty strong sign when you told me today you were having people coming up to you do you have anything that comes to mind from that well yeah the questions I think we have different questions around so it's very common actually we notice in retreats like this just the fact that you're willing to step out from your life and a lot of people actually feel like this is a transition phase and there's a next step coming but it's unknown what the next step would be how it's going to be different but it feels like already feel something is going to be the same something is going to be different and also I will have quite a number of people come to myself and Emily about the center in Mallorca because we've mentioned it in our opening so just how is that going to work I think there are probably very specific and practical questions in mind yeah so I feel open to just talk a little bit about living in community and I think Emily could even talk a little bit more even just around where the center is at right now and whether we're open to devotional stays and those kind of things how does that feel it feels good because a lot of times when people come up and they say tell us about your center we can share the miracle experiences of how it came in we can share that it's kind of been brought to us and it's come into our awareness but it's not it's not like a concrete fixed thing because nothing in this world is what it seems we have to remember that this is a dream and just like Carl Jung would talk about dream symbols we're talking about dream symbols so when we're talking even about a center even though it is a property it's like it's not a concrete thing it's a potential that is going to be used by Jesus in some very helpful way like the movie we saw last night we're dream symbols our hearts opened and we sang and we danced and Jesus had a fun time with all the dream symbols it's more important to start to think in terms of even life decisions what seem to be life decisions as in a quantum way like the symbols are just there and you're just awaiting the guidance of the Spirit to use the symbols in a way that will open your heart up and will lift your mind up into this beautiful celestial realm of miracles so even with the center we were just watching watching watching as it seemed to come and there's many holy encounters and I guess Emily will be able maybe this afternoon even to talk more specifically about a lot of things but there's been many many many miracles with it but even with the center we are open and praying and asking to be shown how it's to be used is it to be used for mind training devotional stays and living that way is it to be used for spiritual retreats it's interesting that there's an airport on the island that has a lot of non-stop direct connections to major cities throughout Europe so it would be possible even to fly in on a Friday afternoon and fly back on a Sunday without missing work or much work you know to come in for like a splash one of these things only a weekend splash we're just open for us everything is potential and we're just saying to the spirit show us what you want what would be most helpful in the context of all the beloveds here in Europe and that's why we actually share these things too is because we meet you and you say here's an idea I had or this or that it's a collaborative venture just like with Mick with Miracles in Contact it's been a collaborative adventure just like with Coase and Doris mentioning this idea there's this beautiful seed and look at this the fruit of the seed is so beautiful but it's like these are like little potential seeds that flower and flourish when we put them under the control of the Holy Spirit in Jesus the ego we're not interested in the ego's purposes for a center we're not interested in the ego's purposes for a retreat or even I mean I wouldn't even want to go have lunch or have a coffee if it was from ego purposes what's the point of that have a cup of coffee for what but if I'm going there I expect the whole purpose of the whole universe to be there with me in that cup of coffee and that's going to light the Holy encounter up to make it something truly meaningful and helpful so that's a big thing for us the purpose has to be in front because there's a part in the Course of Miracles where Jesus said there is one question you can safely ask with any situation or circumstance what do you think that one question there is one question you can safely ask with any situation circumstance what is it for the purpose that's the one question you can safely ask and I know a lot of you have been asking that question maybe with this retreat what is this for or maybe with your room situation what is this for what is this for but when I was in university for ten years I would had all these classes and coursework but I would walk in the giant woods next to it and I remember just conversing with Spirit and I had all these conversations with Jesus I'd say this is like my tenth year of full time in university and Jesus would say yeah what's that for and I'd be like it's education it's important well what's that for why is that important I said well you know it's nice to pick up some degrees what's a degree for well a degree helps you get a better job so you get more money so you don't spend your whole life flipping burgers at McDonald's so he's like hmm sounds like you make that pretty important so yeah and so what's the money for why do you need more money and I was like a better standard of living and he's like really so you think more money gives you a better standard of living yes I do and you know this is the kind of conversations we would have and then then I would get to know he said it really has to be why would you want this money it's just 10 years of university for some money that hasn't even arrived yet you know what's this for he said it's got to be more than a standard of living he's like alright I said I want a relationship you can't be in a relationship and have no money nobody wants to be in the relationship with someone who has no money he said really you believe that too yeah yeah who's going to pay so I need the money for a relationship so he worked at the what's the relationship for why do you even need a relationship what is the purpose of a relationship I said intimacy and he said oh yeah so you believe you need bodies for intimacy he's like I'm not enough huh so you need those bodies for and you need the money to perpetuate the bodies to generate the intimacy this is the kind of what is it for that you get into with your higher self with the Holy Spirit with Jesus because that what is it for is a pivotal question and that helped me actually loosen from academia because after 10 years believe it or not I was offered a scholarship and I was offered a doctorate program after 10 years of university but thank heavens Jesus had got me going with what is it for so Jesus intercepted that now I'm here instead of Dr. Hofmeister and that choice has made a lot of difference actually in my life my happiness that's that's the joke yeah that's another like yesterday that's a whole other parallel universe that I didn't go down this time I say a hand going up do we have a roving Jesse's got a roving mic it's back hold your hand up again and Jesse will see it you have to talk and use it and almost like an ice cream cone like this I'm going to take a lick off of an ice cream cone to make it work yes this is a live mic now coming your way hello I ask in relation to yesterday our friend who was suffering from body hurts and pain what is the difference between conscious mind and subconscious mind because we create this creation we create this creation and I would like to know why it is that some people have this amazing amount of suffering in the body I was told it was from the subconscious is there a difference well for many years I've been sharing the idea that no one in their right mind would choose to suffer and no one in their right mind would choose pain and actually no one in their right mind would choose to die I mean imagine if that was a decision if you could choose to be immortal or be eternal or not that's also a decision in the mind as well as suffering so when people go through the spiritual awakening and healing it can occur like for example in 12 step programs which basically deal with many different forms of suffering and many different forms of addiction that the underlying core addiction is judgment because I shared yesterday that God didn't create judgment oneness doesn't create judgment there's nothing to judge between in absolute perfect oneness so you might say that there are subconscious beliefs and those are just beliefs that have been pushed out of awareness that are kind of running the show so to speak in terms of the world so that even with bodily symptoms and even what seems to be suffering with regard to the body or pain with regard to the body this is this can be an unconscious decision that has been pushed out of awareness and when decisions are pushed out of awareness they become subconscious so they're still operating but they're not in awareness and you might say that the point of all spiritual awakening and healing is to make the subconscious conscious so in the end the goal is to be fully conscious or to be aligned with spirit which can actually take you even beyond consciousness then because I said consciousness is within the domain of the ego and consciousness can be trained because spirit just is you know it's like Byron Katie saying love what is you know that spirit is beyond training and spirit doesn't have any levels except the levels of the trinity of the father son and the holy ghost which are all a spirit they just are different aspects of pure spirit so the goal is to raise everything up and to become fully conscious and that's why when the mind becomes fully conscious that everything including what seems to be the point of death or laying aside the body is becomes a conscious decision I use the example of Parma Hansa Yogananda where he has his last supper so to speak he was speaking at a conference and he was with a lot of his devotees and then he just said well thank you all it's been nice and poof he seemed to exit the body and the body remained in a state of non decay for weeks it was a beautiful symbol of this consciousness but even the point of what people would call death is he let that become a conscious decision there was another famous monk named Thomas Merton and he was just a beautiful man and he was so open minded and then he was at a monastery in Kentucky near Barstown Kentucky the Abbey of Gethsemane and then toward the end of his life he took the strip over to India and I think he was going to the Far East I believe he was going to Thailand and then somebody recorded his last talk that he gave before he laid aside the body and I got to listen to the last talk and as I was listening to the last talk I could like feel he was saying it in so many words he was saying goodbye and then he finished the talk he said let's all go have a coke and then I had that strong feeling and then he went and he seemed to be electrocuted when a fan tipped over in his room where there was some water and that was that it was another symbol to me about it's all is it a subconscious decision or is it a conscious decision even seeming exiting the body can be a conscious decision so pain is when people feel pain immediately the ego projects it to the world that this is wrong or that's wrong or this organs failing or this disease or this condition or whatever those are all projections sickness is a decision we learn that from lesson 136 sickness is a decision when the mind is too afraid of the light and too afraid of the loss that it believes the light would bring it would rather elect to choose a symptom or pain or whatever than it would surrender to the light and therefore it is making a decision in the mind but often times it is out of awareness it's like a quick forgetting even though there's even a selection of this very symptom the mind practices its amnesia it pushes it out of awareness it forgets Jesus calls it a quick forgetting and that's why we talk all the time about raising the darkness to the light and letting all the false beliefs come up that's why we talk about mind training that's why in our centers we're asking people to bring things to the surface if you feel upset don't stuff it down at least talk about it at least allow yourself or like Netta's voice liberation she's like saying voice let the sounds come out of what you're feeling because it helps you get in touch with your feelings and the more in touch you are with your feelings which is like barometers then you can get more in touch with underneath what's underneath the feelings the thoughts and the beliefs and that's how you clear or you might say empty out the sub subconscious so thank you for that that question I have actually not only have designed diagrams I've asked Jesus for a map of the mind and he gave me a concentric ring map of what's going on in the mind and he gave me exact diagrams but I've actually designed questions like what's called instrument for peace and now the instrument for peace has been turned into a bot online called spirit your spiritual assistant so people interact on facebook with a bot that's designed on unwinding their unconscious belief system by simply starting out by how they feel and then the bot takes them in almost like a bureaucratic dialogue it takes them deeper into the mind to get in touch with the thoughts and the beliefs and the feelings so it does that and now we've put it into an app for your phone so if you're not on the internet you're out in the woods got an upset coming up you can go into spirit there and work through with spirit and now they tell me they've even hooked it up with google talk app and you can get google talk app and you can talk to your phone and the phone says how are you feeling today it calls you by your name and then you go well actually I'm not feeling very well and it's like oh and then it starts it's a dialogue with your phone to go into your mind to undo your subconscious beliefs by talking back and forth with this app on your phone that's based on and programmed with the instrument for peace and the levels of mind and all the work I've been doing for the last couple decades so believe me if you're willing to go down and to get down at what's underneath these these decisions that are in the subconscious there's a lot of opportunities certainly for all of us and there's a lot of tools and resources available for that too can these miss and can these miss fortunes of illnesses be used to our advantage I mean in at one month can they yeah I mean that's really what the course is about we experience things in this world we may judge them as lucky or unlucky we may judge them as fortunate or unfortunate but basically we need a lot of clearing of that subconscious to be able to calmly look upon the world with the perspective of the Jesus and the Holy Spirit so the world is a projection of our beliefs and our thoughts and our feelings and we have to do a massive overhaul a massive clearing when you get to the workbook of A Course in Miracles which is a spectacular tool for doing this this is Jesus experiential laboratory is the workbook in A Course in Miracles what he says is that these thoughts are designed to reverse the thinking of the world so the whole ego belief system is that things in the world and things in our body cause us to feel certain things and the teachings are no it's your beliefs and your thoughts that cause you to feel things and you can if they're subconscious you can raise them up and you can choose again you can choose a miracle in a miraculous way of perceiving the world there's an interesting definition that Jesus has for pain and Jesus says pain is a wrong perception so he's not talking about physical pain because for Jesus the world isn't really physical it's a mental world there's another point where Jesus says all illness is mental illness this is why I was talking at the very beginning of this talk and everybody was laughing when I was saying don't deny the power of thoughts and don't deny the power of the mind and don't just stop with going back to heaven you've got to look at the whole package you've got to see what's going on underneath those feelings because those subconscious beliefs and those thoughts that are not in awareness that are out of awareness have got to be exposed and released in order to choose consistently to be at peace to be consistently miracle minded so Jesus says this is a course in mind training and when we have people that come to our centers or wherever we are visiting people in their houses or on the road doing retreats, phone calls Skype calls, zoom calls zoom retreats online retreats all the ways we do it we're all focused on this mind training which is raising up this subconscious and making everything in your mind a conscious decision because in the end to accept the atonement or salvation that the Christians call it it has to be a conscious decision you can't just say the words Jesus you are my lord and savior and bingo you've said the magic words you know sometimes Christians believe that all you have to do is say the words but what about the mind what about your experiences if you can say Jesus you are my lord and savior with all your heart and soul and might and you can fully grasp that mind that was in Christ Jesus that Christ mind then it's real for you but if you just say the words and you still have these unconscious ego beliefs that are still you know wrong minded decisions I'll call them for pain and suffering and so on and so forth then just to say the words Jesus you are my lord and savior you know he talked about that he said many will come to me and they'll say lord lord and I will say I know you not what he was really saying is come to me with a pure heart and I'll say but don't come to me with this lord lord stuff and as long as you still have these subconscious beliefs that are really devoted to the ego you know they're devoted to denying God I think that's the spirit of what we really are talking about when we talk about community we always talk about purpose we always talk about the prayers and we always talk about the mind training for us a retreat without mind training what's the point for us a center without mind training what would be the point for me even travel why would I travel without a purpose you know that was one of the early things I had to be taught by Jesus because when he first took me on the road he said stay with me I'll tell you where to go and I'll direct everything I'll take care of you I'll take everything I remember I talked about the second night out going to this course group I think the third day of that same trip I went to I went from Tulsa I went over to Oklahoma City Oklahoma and I was hosted by this woman and she was very happy and very bright and she said tonight David I'm going to take you to the Cowboy Hall of Fame Museum and I went and I had the best time and I'm not exactly a tourist or fancier but if Jesus wants to set up a holy encounter at the Oklahoma City Cowboy Hall of Fame Museum I'm all in because I'm not going there to look at ropes or or steers or cowboy pictures I was there for the encounter with my host who was hosting me at her house and when Marcella invited me to go I was like yes and that's how Jesus works with us we don't tend to try to push away things and avoid things it's all doing it with the guidance you can be happy and bring your light anywhere you don't have to have special circumstances you don't always have to live in quiet places certain circumstances and situations to shine the light of the world you can shine it wherever you're instructed to go so to me that was still a question of prayer I could feel this was a whole thing that was answering my question how do I get at the subconscious mind Jesus said we'll watch movies together I'll point things out to you we'll listen to music and stuff relationships oh relationships are so intense of mirrors of the unconscious mind relationships actually give us do us the favor of getting in touch with our unconscious mind in the most rapid way possible if you really want to get into the subconscious mind live with people just live with people and if you try to live with a whole group of them ah that subconscious mind doesn't have a chance absolutely no chance even the first four with a course of miracles Ken and Helen and Bill and Judy those first four devotees of Jesus that were part of the plan were all given specific roles Helen was the scribe that was her main function scribe get it from the thoughts into the words Bill was the gentle calm comforter he also typed the words of the course from the shorthand dictation that Helen received Ken was the teacher Ken was the first teacher to be the first teacher of the course of miracles and Judy was the publisher Judy was to disseminate it and get it out to the world now the interesting thing about those four did they have resistance you bet did they have struggles yes did they live together no imagine if those four had had to live together Jesus that's too much no we're just trying to get it into the realm Helen had enough to deal with her husband Louis Bill had enough to deal with his profession with his sexuality with all kinds of things Ken had plenty to deal with with Gloria he met Gloria he had lots of and Gloria and lots of others and Judy had having lunch before I came over here I was having lunch with Judy and I was going to show we were going to show her Francis's movie Take Me Home and I said Judy you're going to really like this movie because in the movie there's a marriage in the movie and Judy said well I should know I like marriages because I said you like marriages she said yeah I should know three of them so just individually these four had a lot to deal with now with our community we live together when you live under the same roof and you have that purpose up there all hell is going to break loose in your subconscious mind if you have I always say that it's too fast this way God's silence stillness and meditation and relationships living with other people that's the fast track and if you want the fastest track of all do both pray, meditate have long periods of silence and have relationships that's like sending a rotor-router down there in the subconscious like okay the light will just be like scrubbing and shining and cleaning in there and the ego gets flushed out of its hiding space in a hurry but we are on to it now we know what Jesus and the Holy Spirit are doing we know the fast track and that was part of what we really were talking about the mind training with Francis is like it's not our plan but that's exactly what it is when a group of people living together it's a flash of the unconscious but also that's why some guidelines need to come in because when a group of people come together and none of us had any reference point of how to truly live together for the purpose of not making making it in the world you know the purpose is so different from our previous lives we're not in there to form normal friendships you know we're not there to try to manage every aspect of our life so we don't have conflicts with each other and we're not really there to have a goal that we're all can see and tangible and we know exactly how to achieve them none of it we're all working together and to say okay we want to wake up and we're here to do mind training together and what happens is projections happen projections onto the ones that close to you happen all the time so that's why some guidelines came in as a way to help guide and direct as a reference point how to do this to continue with this direction and actually even make this even faster because the temptation when we come together was we do not see projections as projections we see as people are difficult and living with people are so difficult and we just want to be left alone and we do not want to deal with those kind of emotions and the situations so the temptation is to isolate the temptation is actually to think something went wrong and the temptation is to hide and to repress everything that wants to come up to please to please each other so we don't trip our toes so we don't feel like we're we're unloved we're excluded so all of those emotions just come out of nowhere and it was so hard to face so that was the thing and also really nobody had a roadmap of how to navigate our own emotions the only road maps we had in this life was to stay away from those emotions stay away from people that you don't like you know if stay away from jobs that is too difficult and be around people that make you feel comfortable seek approvals have achievements in the world so you have a sense of importance and have a sense of worth and you have a sense of confidence in yourself and protect yourself protect yourself so that's the roadmap we came up with we came with so when we come together okay that roadmap wouldn't work anymore that's the roadmap to keep the ego that's the roadmap to keep the ego because that's the roadmap to say I'm separate I'm individuals other individuals that are outside of my mind I have no control over that realm and I actually have no control over what's coming inside either so let's just manage but the guidelines that that David heard for the community at very earlier phases where no people pleasing and no private thoughts so you can imagine already people are living together and we're just there to to get in touch with this unconscious mind and unconscious decisions that are running our lives anyways it's not like because it's on scene it's not really active then we come together and the instructions take the lid off don't protect don't put a mask on be authentic that's really what in essence no private thoughts can sound scary because if it is interpreted as at the beginning I know I had those thoughts if people know how dark my thinking are that's not to be shared that's not to be shared because I have judgment about everything and I am frightened to let people know and I thought no private thought would mean you talk about your judgment about everybody point your fingers at everybody that is not that is not what no private thought means so no private thought is the assumption the reversal of the assumption okay you have no private thoughts and yet that's all you are aware of that's from the course so that's all I'm aware of all I'm aware of is I'm a private mind having my own private thoughts and other people are having private thoughts about everything that's the assumption we live by so really the attempt is to go back to the direction Jesus wanted us to have a very practical guideline so we can go back to this awareness that we are one mind that's really what is underlying this guideline so the direction has to be reversed and the way we are doing it is not to reinforce projections it's not to say oh finally I can judge freely that's not not the purpose again the purpose is to forgive to forgive I believe to be my thoughts to forgive what I believe to be my private thoughts that's the purpose so yeah so I don't know whether we jump straight into the practical things of how to do it or you want to even but feel free to jump in anytime so because the purpose is not to just judge freely and justify the judgment and anger the purpose is to forgive but the first step to forgive is you have to know what you're thinking like the clip that we showed yesterday she she was pushed into this situation so much that she could not get away there was a moment where she thought oh there is a second bathroom here I have people around me I'm so grateful she got in touch with this gratitude and felt uplifted and yet the anger came back it's not fully forgiven so it's always going to come back so she really had to see the effect of her thoughts she got in so much pain with her own hatred she saw the thoughts I want to kill them back I want to revenge their evil people and she even so much so and she got into the thoughts that this particular prayer to forgive your trespasses I cannot forgive them so she got really clearly in touch with the things that she was imprisoned by she saw them and once you see them then you can make a decision I don't want them anymore help me take them away I don't want them anymore so the no-private thoughts come down to how it looks it really just as we need guidelines we normally share in the environment with guidelines how to share those so-called or believed private thoughts they're not real they're not justified but we believe so and we're holding them in peace so we have guidelines of how to share them we own the thoughts and we start from how it affected our state of mind I feel anger now I feel the emotion of fear and what is associated with those emotions are I think this I think this those are the thoughts so it's taking full responsibility you did this you did this is none of that but it's just look very clearly but I can even tell you I can take a step further to say if the intention to let them go is not the real intention then even do the expression session is not gonna serve the purpose of free you up the freedom and the release comes straight away when the desire of letting them go is there and then it seems to take the form of let's actually take a little off you can do it with someone you trust so that you don't have to pretend or filter thoughts you can do it with yourself in the end you can just do it in your mind with the Holy Spirit because you're so you feel so safe of letting them up but at the beginning because it seems to be triggered by people we just don't see it as our own thoughts and our own judgment it's the people and we're terrified to share those thoughts so the face in our community about letting go of those thoughts take the shape of what we call expression sessions or one-on-one sessions and again and again we stress the purpose when you come to a session really feel that you have enough of this pain and suffering you're ready to let it go then we take it from there then we talk about okay what are the emotions that rises up right now and what are the thoughts underneath it and normally people feel instantaneous release instantaneous and then that is even just release in the moment but really there are bigger there are bigger implications of those those sharing private thoughts because ultimately the purpose is to see that those thoughts are not mine those thoughts are ego thoughts and everybody having stories are making up stories from the same ego thoughts and believe to be theirs and I am not it's not really my thoughts because I was thinking again about what I said in the first night silent retreats I did when I was talking to one-on-ones with the participants they all have really solid stories about their issues which turned out to be the theme of the day from absolutely every single one of them but they have very very concrete stories of why this is their problem but it's so interesting because the next day the issues are completely opposite and then everybody is having the same issues but the purpose of sharing those private thoughts eventually is pointing at a total release not temporary release not release from a situation it's a total release to the point of leaping point that these are not my thoughts and I am not ego and I reach the point of the decision that I see I can make a choice to choose to believe these ego thoughts or not completely that is the master switch and that's a total conscious decision with that conscious decision there is no no victimhood in absolutely any situation no victimhood in pain in sickness no victimhood in being born or dying in this world because they all fall into one category they are all ego thoughts but that's really the point we are being guided and using our everyday situations and triggers and using all our mighty companions who hold the same purpose to go toward that release point total release point so that is one guideline no private thoughts and the no-people pleasing is again tied into that because you're going to take total responsibility for your state of mind you're not acting and behaving for approval of others for others to whether or not and say oh very good very good or to say thank you for doing this and doing that I like you I want to have you in my life we're not acting just to stay into situations dream situations our goal is to go inward in our mind and release the judgments so that we can experience a realm of forgiveness we're not trying to go in when we believe in the reality of this world you also believe that you're a victim and the workbook lesson from the course is I am not the victim of the world I see so even if we looked at other philosophies like their eastern philosophies that say that the soul just keeps incarnating and reincarnating and coming into form into time and space to learn its lessons until it learns its perfect lessons and then it doesn't need to reincarnate anymore and that's the common system well you really want me to blow your mind I'll give you something that's way beyond that if you think that that sounds plausible and believable Jesus said when you came to this world you brought the world with you you didn't come to a pre-existing world it's almost like you you were flying around you're like a soul and you've got a little soul backpack and what's in the backpack the whole cosmos is in the backpack fly fly oh I'm an independent soul and I've got a cool backpack because the whole cosmos is in there and all I have to do is open this one little button back here whew I throw out the whole cosmos that's why you pick your parents that's why you pick the era that you're born in you don't incarnate into it you project it out there's just one mind and instead of incarnating into a world that was already pre-existing before you got there and then you had to deal with this dysfunctional family no, guess what where the dysfunctional family comes from it's in your backpack you threw it out there if you're believing you're separate it's not hard to believe you could project a dysfunctional family and maybe even a dysfunctional environment maybe even holocaust maybe even concentration camps what seems to be all kinds of abusive situations it's all in there when you came to this world you brought the world with you that's what Jesus said now that can seem like that's mind-blowing nobody ever taught us that which scripture did you get that from of course the miracles like I said it'll blow your mind but also what it's saying is this completely aligns with the teachings of quantum physics the teachings of quantum physics which actually have been around about eight decades now on the block you know we've had quantum quantum physics is teaching that there is no world apart from what you think there is no world apart from consciousness you might say oh your consciousness whatever you think, feel, believe you will witness because you project it and not only that of course the miracles takes this beautiful quantum physics idea and says there's not even an inner and an outer that's what the course workbook will do for you it will teach you that there is no world apart from what you think why do you think Jesus has one of his early lessons my thoughts are images I have made he's making the connection between the thoughts and the images you may think that you're in a real barn room with real people sitting next to real but this is a collection of thoughts that has not left the mind of the thinker you're perceiving this in a quantum way and the only way you can be totally happy is to start to realize that this is all part of the same field it's all the same it's all unified it's all unified awareness it's all unified energy it's not really separate from other people all these thoughts have been collected together in a beautiful state of awareness that has no judgment in it that's forgiveness but you see how much you have to let go of in your mind private minds, private thoughts private souls you know people tell me what are we going to do we got a massive collective issue going on here and I say what do you mean seven billion souls that can't agree with each other it's a mess there aren't seven billion separate souls there's only one the soul is spirit and the spirit is one that's why we don't have actually a collective you know in the Star Trek they always talk, remember the Borg they're called the collective unconscious the Borg they assimilate other races and species into their collective unconscious wait a minute why not talk about the collective consciousness of forgiveness doesn't that sound more fun we're all the same one you see that's how radical forgiveness is and that's why these techniques of no private thoughts of people pleasing are just practical guidelines to use in daily living in fact when I went to China it was Naxin the first man that took the course of miracles to China I got to meet him his name was Naxin and he toured around with us to Shanghai and Beijing and Hainan we were in the van with him he was very happy and finally one day he wrote to me and he said ah David I see now that your two guidelines no private thoughts no people pleasing relate to the introduction of a course of miracles and I said what do you mean he said no private thoughts no people pleasing is practical application of nothing real can be threatened nothing unreal exist I'm like wow I never thought of that but they were given guidelines so that we could come back into our mind without blaming without projecting without getting all wrapped up in the emotions and who did what to us as if the world was happening to us apart from our choice and apart from our will when actually everything that we experience is exactly what we ask for these are the teachings of a course in miracles if every time you are tempted to blame somebody or to point a finger at somebody you simply remember these words it will snap you out of it instantly I am responsible for what I see I choose the feelings that I experience and I decide the goal that I would achieve and everything that happens to me I ask for and receive as I have asked wow if you jump into those words and as a living experience we are guaranteed peace of mind because you are not going to be throwing out this world as if it is external to your mind and blaming blaming your parents blaming your siblings blaming your teachers blaming your partners blaming your extended family members blaming your society blaming your government blaming your president the game game is how you stay asleep and the forgiveness game is how you wake up and that's why we are here we are here to enjoy the forgiveness game for a while the thing is everything feels radical in the ego's judgments living together and being nonproductive together in the world not trying to earn a living not having insurance not having a security plan for the future not putting a mask on not being careful to protect your emotions being truthful to yourself to your feelings all the time it sounds very radical but ultimately nothing real can be threatened nothing unreal exist nothing real can be threatened so all of the ego would say that this is chaos this is chaos that's how my mom thought it's gonna be for my life when I first stepped out of a very secure life of marriage properties and a business she just thought it's who is gonna look after if you get sick I don't know I will find out who is gonna you think you're just gonna live like that I need to find out I mean you're wrong okay then let me find out for myself I need to know that's in the end she and I have to reach the point because I cannot convince neither of us can convince each other in the end I had to say you might be right but this is what the court says and I have to find out and let me use my life to find out and then if it is wrong I find out too you know ultimately if it is all wrong then let me find out so how are you gonna what are you gonna do if you get sick let me find out who is gonna look after you let me find out you're not gonna be able to live like this let me find out so that becomes the answer you know I had no idea I'm just going one step at a time according to the plan and then finding out as I go and it's absolutely amazing because because no people pleasing basically saying just be truthful whatever John said to Jack in the movie last night it all comes down to just tell the one you love you love them and be truthful whenever you can and we can all relate that feels right to be true to yourself it feels right it doesn't even matter whether it's leading to the ultimate spiritual awakening or not just somehow feels right and Jesus talks about 10 characteristics of teacher for God number one we all know trust trust is the most important thing and all other characteristics are based on trust and after trust the second one is honesty and he says honesty is consistency consistency of what I think and what I say and what I do so nothing I say is in contradiction to what I think that is also no private thoughts if I hold private thoughts what is private thoughts except the need to hide and protect because they are private why are they private because I make them private there is some kind of need to protect otherwise they are just whatever their common thoughts the sky is blue so basically he is saying whatever you say and do and think in total alignment and not in contradiction with each other and that is the second characteristics of teacher for God and that is what honesty is and that is what no people pleasing is because people pleasing indicates that you are doing something in seeking for an external goal for an approval that is against people pleasing is not a form definition of the form is not saying that if you are being loving you are being people pleasing no it is more than attitude it is more like where you are coming from it is not really how you feel you feel you have to act a certain way to fit in be a responsible person or be some kind of person that you will be approved of by others and by the society and that is against how you feel that is the guidelines about you don't need to do that just get in touch with how you feel and find a way to express how you truly feel nothing real can be threatened that is what no people pleasing is so really it goes hand in hand with no private thoughts if you feel in conflict within yourself then share share that I am in conflict with myself because these are my thoughts and this is what I feel I have to do so those are how we use the guidelines because then every day you know there are seemingly a lot of tasks you know you can see the tag team they are constantly being focused on the functions are given but they are all backdrops in the end a lot of the the time and the mind are spend it on let's get in touch with how we feel let's get in touch with what are our true feeling what are our thoughts and are we in alignment can we find a way to communicate and not to hide and protect it so yeah I think it really starts to clear up this thing about no people pleasing is it runs so deep but really it's about getting in touch with that motivation for love inside you that you can actually live your life totally inspired by happiness without having to react and respond to the world that you have it all inside of you remember how I said last night in you is everything that is perfect ready to radiate through you and out into the world so for example when people don't understand people pleasing they think it's like well that means you should do what you want to do and pay no attention to what anybody thinks or does or whatever but it's still missing the mark because we're here to be inspired by prayer guided by instruction living an intuitive life connected to our source and living from a place of love recently and quite often people will say well how does this thing of no people pleasing can be hard in the text where Jesus says if somebody asks you to do something outrageous do it and then 100 pages later in the early editions now there's so many editions I can't even say that it's just gotten to be a mess but in the earlier editions 100 pages later Jesus said I once told you if somebody asks you to do something outrageous do it he qualifies that he says as long as it doesn't bring harm to you or to anyone else that's very helpful to add that last part on there and also but how does that fit with people pleasing if I'm supposed to do something that is outrageous and I'm supposed to do it anyway that seems like pleasing this outrageous person an outrageous request out there that seems like people pleasing so back to that example when I was asked to speak at that conference out there in the Bay Area of California and they said we're going to do this thing we're two ministers out there and we're going to time your responses we're just going to make a request to have a stopwatch on you so you can speak for a minute or two that might qualify as an outrageous request not that it necessarily would bring harm but that's a good example and in a loving way I went in and tuned in with Jesus and went along with the outrageous request which eventually turned into a lot of laughter all of us laughing together at time and that was the miracle so what we're talking about is if you have all of these acting for approval we'll say if you have a world of specialness and now you're going to please mom please dad please your siblings please your teachers please your course and miracles teachers I mean please please please please all over the place why aren't you connecting with the Holy Spirit and coming from a place of love and letting that be your motivations thinking miraculous thoughts because Jesus tells us what you do comes from what you think so you want to be having miraculous thoughts because they're going to inspire your actions your behaviors are going to flow from those thoughts it's not the other way around your behaviors don't change your mind you change your mind and then your behaviors can seem to shift and change when you've made that attitude adjustment in your mind because the mind is causative you always remember behaviors are not causative their effects mind and thoughts are causative that's so important this is like giving a full context for what the true meaning of this people pleasing is because as long as you try to understand it from a superficial level at just the level of persons and behaviors then it's not understandable but once you get into what you mean mean what you say have integrity how can you have integrity if you don't have an integrated mind if everything is occurring in your mind and all of the levels of your mind aren't integrated into a miracle into a divine flow then you have no chance of being having integrity because your actions will sometimes seem to be different from what you're thinking or feeling remember some of the songs we grew up with smile though your heart is breaking smile even though you're aching oh come on now that is people pleasing that song is draped with people pleasing just put on a happy face even though your subconscious feels dark and grim just put on a happy face when you're feeling dark and you're feeling suicidal just be nice just be nice wait a minute I'm feeling suicidal how do I act nice when I'm feeling suicidal smile though your heart is breaking you know it's the contradictions go on and on in this world where we've been so taught that we have to wear a mask otherwise we're going to be rejected otherwise we're going to be abandoned if we don't keep that happy mask and that peaceful mask on then people will leave you know we're pretty sure people will leave our life we're going to be lonely we're going to be all alone if we start letting up the unconscious you're saying no it's safe I'm with you you have to give yourself permission to get in touch with this unconscious you're actually going to have to allow some of those uncomfortable feelings to come up into awareness and Jesus even addresses that he says that in the early stages of your mind training the Holy Spirit must use contrast and at times must allow a certain discomfort to come into the mind why would the Holy Spirit want subconscious uncomfort coming into the mind so that you have an impetus and you see a need for change of your mind so you can say I do not like how I feel this sounds like rules for decision I do not like how I feel I must have decided wrongly you see this is how the Holy Spirit works bring it up let it move up but don't stay there don't linger with the suffering don't linger with the discomfort change your mind come back to your purpose come back to your reason setting the goal come back to your original decision from rules for decision decide the kind of day that you want and say to yourself decisions by myself this is the day that will be given to me those are the first two rules for decision that Jesus is giving us and he's giving us the most practical way don't censor those feelings but also when they come into awareness use it as a need to call on the miracle and choose again it's good stuff your hours are flying by here we are flying by but we just want to thank you we will have another amazing movie tonight we will go on another movie adventure it's like we go hiking hiking along on the green mounds during the day we go scuba diving at night into our unconscious letting the movies bring up all of our emotions and then we can rest and have sweet dreams and come fresh another day for some more dismantling and more undoing but it can be pleasant what I'm saying is don't think that dismantling and undoing is necessarily upsetting at times it can seem that way but the more you do this the more you have fun with your spiritual awakening I'm into the fun that's why I like to show these movies and I like to do things the way we're talking about because if you can't have some fun in life then what's the point there has to be some fun in awakening and I was very determined to find it now that I did find it I'm very happy to share it with you and keep an eye on the screen for this afternoon I know some of you actually missed the session yesterday because it wasn't mentioned but we normally have a session in the afternoon so just keep an eye if it is free we will announce it on the screen as well so just keep an eye at lunchtime thank you happy lunch have a great lunch