 Hey everyone, I hope you're well, welcome back to my channel. I don't usually start my vlogs in a bun after coming out the shower, in my bathroom, but I feel super fresh. I did a very good workout at the gym. I did what I do, I did legs and booty, and you know when you get your proper sweat on and all I did was like weights and resistance bands and like that kind of like hit workout stuff and it really got me sweating, so I felt really good. And then I came home and showered and here we are boys and girls. We are going out tonight. Why was I talking like that? I don't know, guys, trust me, sometimes I go through these loopy phases, but the main point is that we are going out tonight. I'm going out with my friend Natalie. It is the 28th today, it's actually Mickey's birthday. If any of you guys have watched my vlog with my friend Mickey, happy birthday to you. But it was also my friend Natalie's birthday on the 19th of November and I wanna take her out. We're going to Amazon Echo. We were both on holiday during her birthday, so we're going out tonight instead, which I'm really, really excited about. I'm basically just gonna get ready. I feel like doing like a TikTok transition thing where like you look like this and then you look pink, but I'm just not that skillful with TikTok. Like I make TikToks and they look like, I would say they were made by a child, but children are way more skillful than TikTok than me. So it would look like it was made by me basically. So guys, if you have any actually good recommendations of places I can learn to edit TikToks, let me know because your girl has no idea. Like I'll film the intro bit and then I won't know how to like add on clips or like I don't know how to like adjust the clips to the length that I want. So yeah, I have no idea about TikTok. But anyway, I have just moisturized. I'm gonna curl my hair and then start on my makeup. It is 6.50. I'm meant to be at Nats at 8 p.m. And I think I'm gonna be a bit late. I think we'll be there by 8.30, but it's fine because dinner's not all later. So we're just gonna chill. I have Christmas hamper together. It's so nice to have had a few days off of work. I am going back to work on New Year's Eve nights, literally going back on the 31st at 9 p.m. So I'm gonna have my little New Year's Eve countdown by myself in hospital. So yeah, it feels nice to have had Christmas in that whole week off. Well, this whole week off. So I'll go back for New Year's Eve nights. And you know, it's part of the job. I feel like loads of people would be like upset. But I feel kind of like New Year's Eve can also be quite like disappointing sometimes. Like you'll make big plans with those people or your nearest and dearest or whatever. And you end up kind of going and it's a bit like deflating. Like I don't know, in my opinion, it's like overpriced and deflating vibe. But like the only time it'll be sick is if you're on holiday because it doesn't really matter like what you're doing. Like you'll just be on a vibe because you're abroad anyway. So maybe next year, if I'm off and I'm not on nights, then I will be abroad on New Year's Eve and you guys will get a completely different vlog. So manifest that with me. Anyway, let me start getting ready and I will pick up the camera again like halfway through and I've done my hair. So I must look so different to you guys. Also, my hair is curled but like I need to brush it out. But I am going to do my bronzer and then my blusher and then I put the glue on to my fake eyelashes. I haven't done false eyelashes, stick-ons. I think in like months. I think probably since, if I did them when I was on holiday, literally I can't remember the last time I did them. I don't really use them that often but Simon got me these for Christmas day and they didn't use them, so I want to use them now. And I don't know why. Have you guys seen my beauty YouTubers that was like, I'm gonna go off camera to apply my lashes? But it's like, why? Or like, I'm gonna go off camera to apply my eyeliner. It's like, why? So I'm always like really confused why they don't just do it on camera. Like as in you don't even need to do it in the actual lens, but like just do it in front of the camera and no one's gonna judge. I need to fix this blusher situ because I put on too much oops. Okay, right eye first. Also guys, I cut like the front of my lashes off because I don't like it. When it's the whole eye because I feel like it comes off and it doesn't look good. The front of false eyelashes. So I just use mascara. I really need to blend out this blusher guys. It's actually bugging me out. But I think eyelashes look good, right? The trick is to let the glue dry for like two minutes because then it's really tacky by the time you put it on your eyelids. So they like sit in place really well. My uber's warm in a way. So here is the final look. Do-do, do-do. Wait, my bag as well. Here it is with the bag, with the bag. Okay, I will show you better later because I feel like that was a really shit outfit reveal. Natalie, birthday girl. Show us your outfit. Shall we switch on the light? Can you switch on the light? I just wanna show everyone how pretty you look. Oh, look at you. So sexy. I actually can't cope. You're sexier. Sorry. Sorry, he's sexier. I'm not gonna lie. But wait, Bentley's getting jealous. Hey boys, hey boys. Okay, be nice in front of the camera. Guys, by the way, this is Banksy's cousins in case you guys haven't met them before. They are definitely a Pomeranian vibe if you get what I mean, because they're very energetic. You guys see Banksy do this all the time, literally. This is such a Pomeranian thing, isn't it? Yeah. And they're such womanizers. They are such womanizers. They get so many girls. Boys, if you're watching this and you want a dog that will help you get girls, get a Pomeranian. Okay, super sexy. We are having pre-drinks here before we go out. And that doesn't know where we're going, but we're doing a surprise dinner to finally celebrate her birthday because I've been wanting to do that since her birthday, which was on the 19th of November. Same as Sol's, so. Wow, I used her. I was in Rome. So you were in Rome, we were in Dubai, and we're finally doing it now, guys. Better late than never. But we also can't let it get this long between seeing each other like, because I really missed you. So we're going to go out and you guys will see where we're going. I think I already told you guys when I was getting ready where we were going. How did it leave before me? It's actually a trick, you know? The trick we do is a magic trick. Anyway, we're going to finish some TikToks that I filmed when I was at home. Follow me on TikTok, Pajon school bunny, and you'll see them. Like and subscribe. That's what we're eating. We are guides for the Eve. So, you're going to be brought me up to Amazon to take power, and you're going to go to the Amazon to eat. Tell them, I don't know, like eight times. I'm going to go up to the Amazon, I was like. She was like, you've got me a bit overdressed to the Amazon rainforest. I'm going to go now. Hello. A miracle course. Nice. I'm going to go the other way. We have some free filet. Parsnips. We have some truffle. And we have some cauliflower. And then, I don't know, we have that dessert next. The potatoes and broccoli. Because we're healthy. Healthy. We had the empanadas at the start, which I didn't think I showed you, but it was really good. There's something left. I'm going to let enjoy the meal and keep drinking. What's going on? It's hot. It's hot. It's hot. It's hot. It's really hot. What's this? It's a little bit hot. It's like a little bit hot. It's a little bit hot, but it's not as hot as it looks. Really? You know why? Because it's that time between Christmas and New Years. Exactly. Guys, I'm making eggs for breakfast with sunflower oil spray. Feeling like the pillar of hell. Feel like you should join me on that journey. Eat last night for the first time. And I only drank about two sips of my cocktail, which was basically ice at that point. So I didn't even drink alcohol. So I'm on a fitness journey. I'm probably drinking a little bit tonight because it is my gal, Mickey's birthday party. I don't have to sell on that thing. But anyway, other than that, we are continuing on a roll. On a roll. So I'm making an omelette with tuna pesto, which, as I say this, I feel like I've already ruined the course of how that makes the tuna pesto because I've been speaking to you guys. Be happy. My dear friend, John West, to the rescue. Sugar, you get so flat. Pouring this in after I've trained. Pour of the oil off. This is what it looks like right now. And then I need to add in some pesto. And he's got some light under here, so you guys can actually see your gal. See me cooking because, you know, master chef. I just put two full bowls of pesto. That should do. Guys, honestly, culinary queen right here. I literally freak out for myself. Like, 10 times a day. Because I'm like, you're going to be about at something. And you're going to need to cook some pesto. And I just don't make... I make good food, right? But it's just stuff like this. Like, this is not a pesto. Who do you know that has tuna pesto on there? Like, it's just unconventional, like, made up. And not really. It looks quite divine though. And I didn't use any added oil. I mean, the tuna was in oil, but the oil didn't come out. So this is all grey oil. So this is my omelette. It actually looks much nicer in real life than it does in here. And here is my coffee. Hello, everyone. What are you having for breakfast? I'm having birch's and... Wollat and honey and bread. Sangek. And chai. And chai. Also, my curls actually lasted quite well. Look at that. Really nice. Yeah. Oh, my God, my parting like this is not the one. But the reason why is because I actually clipped each curl whilst it was still hot. And then I unclipped it when it cooled down, so I clipped it up. And then in the end, I hair sprayed it all. I learned that from Sol. Sol is a hair queen. If you guys want to learn stuff about hair, go on Sol's channel. Also, my hair. Well, my hair is very nice, too. And I'm joking. No, your hair is very nice. Thank you. Yes. Please come and have a Sangek. My best friend's got me this mark for my birthday. It's one of my favorite. I think it is maybe my favorite mark ever. You're that he bought this cheese from organic, neo-organic Turkish shop. It looks like sausages or carbas, yes. Salami. Salami. But taste is like nothing. That's how you know it's healthy. That's why. I've just been doing some admin work. And I find it mad how it's already so dark outside so quickly, like so depressing. Why England? My mom was moaning this morning about how bleak it is. Come on, England. Fix up. But basically, as in work done, I wanted to show you how cute these presents are that Natalie and her boyfriend, Max, got me. So cute. So basically, I gave them a Christmas hamper up and they gave me a personalized Christmas hamper back, which is really cute. This is basically the hamper, which I thought was really sweet. I do hamper for my best friends at Christmas. It's like a new tradition. I started it pretty much this year and last year. But I want to keep on doing it and I try and make each one, like, not personal, like super personal, like a... But just give a little touch to it that's personal. So whether it be like something for the pets at home or like, I don't know, just something that's a little bit that I make all of them myself, basically. So I just want it to be a bit from the heart. So it was really sweet that they gave me one back and like, in their own way, which I think is so cute and just very, very thoughtful. So the first thing in here is a dog-bloody pop for Banksy, which is just so cute. The second thing is a bottle of tequila, which is very me. If anyone knows, my spirit shot of choice is tequila. And then the third thing was a Polly box, which contains this. It is such a pretty color. I feel like the camera is showing it really, like a bit darker. There we go. That's like the true color of it. And it's like this gorgeous cut-out detail dress. It's just so pretty. And like, she made sure I didn't have it already. She was like, I stalked your Instagram to make sure because I love Polly outfits and stuff. And it's the right size as well. So thanks, girl. So yeah, I just think it's so cute. I just thought I'd show you guys because I was super thoughtful. And she also got me some crystals because I like believe in like, pods of energy affirmations and crystals. And they haven't arrived yet, but I just thought that was just so cute. So thoughtfulness goes such a long way, like I just found all of this so sweet. So thanks again, you guys. I love you. I'm gonna do some revision and then I'm gonna hopefully hit the gym even if it's for half an hour just because I feel like I'm on a roll with it. So I don't wanna mess that up for myself. And then in the evening, I have my friend, Mickey's, birthday party. It's not even parties like a dinner. At May Hills, I love May Hills. So yeah, gonna be going out with the girls. Had a good birthday, mix. We sprinkled confetti everywhere. And it was quite lit. Christina screamed. Didn't you scream like a crazy girl? I used it twice. My hair is so gross, but I'm going to the gym. So I will shower and wash my hair after it. Particularly today's New Year's Eve. And I am on nights. Think I've already said this a million times to a million people. I've probably even told you guys as well. But I don't know. I think part of me thought we probably won't have a New Year's Eve. I just thought, you know, COVID cases are rising. Maybe Boris will shut down the country, which didn't happen. And then I kind of was like, oh, I don't mind anyway. New Year's is always a disappointment. Then I got invited. So I'm not joking, not one, not two, but three very cool New Year's Eve plans, which I had to say no to all of them. So yeah, fair to say this morning when I woke up, I wasn't the most excited about the fact that I have to go to work. But I woke up at two in the afternoon. Technically I woke up at 10 a.m. and then I just did not allow myself to get out of bed. So just to force myself to go back to sleep. And then I woke up at two in the afternoon. This is to try and help with obviously the transition over to night shifts. So yeah, I'm gonna be on night shifts in the next three nights. But what that also means is that I get three, no, two extra days of annual leave on top of my normal annual leave because I'm working on two bank holidays. So if you work on a bank holiday, usually hospital staffing is minimal. It's because like doctors get bank holidays off for like certain shifts. So because of that, because I'm not getting my bank holiday off because I'm working in on call, I get what we call a day in lieu. So yeah, that's good. It's like boosted up my annual leave time, which means that I can go away and also do more work. That being said, I'm more productive when I am like at work versus when I get leave. Like when I get leave, I feel like I take the day really slowly. And fair enough, I am like tired and I do work a lot and I deserve to take things slowly. But I don't tell myself I deserve to take things slowly. Like I'll beat myself up about like being really slow or about taking my time or like taking an off day. Like I'm like, oh my God, you had one day off sepi, which you were meant to do x, y, z, blah, blah, blah. And then I think to myself, well, technically that isn't even a day off, is it? But why am I to do list is so heavy for stuff to do when I'm not at work. I really should be taking advantage of my days off. So anyway, I'm going to the gym now. I'm gonna stop by the post office to drop off some stuff I should have dropped off like a lecture a week ago, but hey, here we are. So last night I spent about three hours watching Stephen Butler. I really hope I'm saying Stephen, his name is Stephen or Steve. But I believe it's Stephen Butler. On diary of a CEO. Oh my God, I'm in love with this man's mind. Like the way he thinks and the way he talks and like he will fully ask the person that he's interviewing the questions that like are on your mind. And yeah, I'm just obsessed with that series and I watched the one with all the from the gym paradox and it was just so mind opening and they both shared some tips that I really want to take on board. So this morning, like when I told you guys I woke up and I wasn't too thrilled to the fact that I wasn't going out and enjoying myself and living my best young life like the rest of my friends are and instead I'm going to work. I reminded myself that I should actually take a moment before I get on with my day to think about what I'm grateful for. And I think New Year's Eve is probably an incredible day to think about what you are grateful for. But if you can try and do that daily in your practice then it will help to create the right mindset for you to go on to have a good day and a mix of probability of you having a good day higher. So yeah, I'm just going to take a moment to think and reflect on the things that I'm grateful for and express gratitude and just tell myself that I'm happy because I am. And yeah. I just finished my workout and it was very, very intense. You know when you're like dripping in sweat I can tell you how much I worked out because of my parking. So if my parking expires in 10 minutes I worked out for 50 minutes. So yeah, it was a really intense one. I did legs, bum and abs. So I was just saying basically that I need to make sure I'm warmed up probably because the exercises are quite intense and I haven't worked out properly in so long that if I don't warm down properly then I'm going to be really sore for ages. So that's what I'm going to do now. So I just got home. I went to M&S and picked up these two. I'm going to have the chocolate one. It's basically protein shakes. And then I'm going to make myself some salmon. I'll make one for now and then one for my night shift. And I'm probably going to have that with like quinoa or something. Let's see what I have. I also have sweet potato, but sweet potato and salmon isn't really the one. So yeah. I also feel like I'm going to get more hungry and want more than one meal. But like there's obviously nothing open. So I'm thinking should I be mindful and make something for that or should I just try and force myself to stick to one meal and be more healthy? Because last night I had like a midnight snack at 2 a.m. So I need to kind of make healthier choices. So this one that I'm prepping for later, I've put salt, pepper, chili flakes, and paprika. And then I'm going to add some olive oil and some soy sauce to it. So I'm going to rub that all then massage it in and leave it in the fridge. And then I'm going to like fry it and fry it like spray just before I leave. But just thought I'd show you how I marinated this one and then the other one I'm going to marinate in sweet chili sauce. And have it with the quinoa. No, it's bulgur wheat, sorry, not quinoa. So I made the bulgur wheat and it is all ready but I'm still kind of full from the protein shake. So I don't really want to eat yet. I'll probably make my dinner in like an hour or an hour and a half. So I'm just going to go shower now and basically get ready for my night shift. I hope that you guys have enjoyed this vlog and this kind of in-between period between Christmas and New Year's where everyone's like, I don't really know what I'm doing with my life. I feel like I was semi-productive but I had a lot of fun at the same time which I'm glad about. And I can't wait to see you in the next vlog. I love you all so much and a huge happy New Year from me.