 Hello everybody here, um, I just walked three miles for the first time Um, I feel good. I don't even look like it for real. Well, it is It with 7-eleven in the morning here, and I've been walking since 6 a.m It's nice and bright now, but when I first got out here was still so my dark I Feel great. I could probably go another that was 17 laps to do three miles Okay, how I did it was I turned on my audiobook. I set it to play I set the sleep timer for an hour and I just walked without Really paying too much attention Letting my app tracks how many times I go around but Anywho three miles well 3.06 if I'm sure I'll post this on Instagram or Twitter But this is that day. It's the first day. Yes I'm so I I'm just beyond happy Anyways, oh Man And my my neck meat and my belly are getting even more jiggly than they were Everybody here. So I'm doing the new route. You see the roads stretching out behind me and then up ahead All that yeah, it's pretty much downhill. Yeah, I'm on the way back home the new route almost all the way in The opposite direction. I'm walking now is a uphill So it's only like an right now yesterday. What did 1.3 miles and Today I did 1.5 or I'm going to be anyways if I calculated right could be more than that. Whoo. All right So this is still that second day. I'm literally sitting in a chair Chilling those are my bookshelves. I don't think you guys have ever seen that. That's my stuff. Yes I have a stuffed animal collection. That's them up there, but Sitting here relaxing. That's my guitar and walker and yes I was bedridden for six months and that's how I got up to go to the bathroom and that thing right there my guitars Yeah, all that water lamp with no shade Some of some more of my books like my Miracami collections up there Anyways, if you're wondering if I'm ever gonna go downtown and show the town where I live and all that Yes, I am but right now I'm really focusing pretty hard on losing some weight I want I got a doctor's appointment coming up in two months and I want to get down So hopefully I can either get off this blood pressure medicine or you know something I don't know but I'm doing two shakes a day and dinner not slim fast. That stuff's got too much sugar in it for me I'm doing this stuff called vegan essentials or something like that. Oh, yeah, I am My legs are like spaghetti after doing that this uphill stuff And I can't wait till I get used to this and I can push myself To do a full three miles with that first half one and a half miles uphill Because right now I'm doing base. It's basically 1.75 miles. I'm See here. I am currently listening to Jillian Flynn's Dark Places and I'm really enjoying it It's probably the best book she's written because I've read sharp objects and gone girl I hated the ending of gone girl and it kind of ruined the whole book for me I had a bad taste in my mouth afterwards if I reread it, maybe I'll like it more but sharp places was pretty okay But this one I absolutely love So this is still that second day Remember the nice blue sky we had Yeah Oh, that's gone now just pop up storm happens every year Every summer I should say All right, so I've been walking about three miles so far. I'm Probably about no two miles. I'm probably about a mile away from home. I just wanted to show you guys the kayak stream here in town Hope you guys can see that I had a bug on my ears. Really cool Here comes a truck, so let me go the wacky wailing wacky flailing waving inflatable arm guy He's having a bad day When you'll pop a storm turn into tornadoes what you see over my shoulder is from June 28th There is a dead space in time between June 28th and July 17th This is what happened on July 17th. Where are we? Why haven't I been posting updates? Why haven't I've been doing walkie-talkie? Well, I ended up in the hospital the full story is when I finally went to go see my doctor She bumped up my blood pressure medicine I've been doing so well and I still ended up getting the blood pressure medicine bumped up When I went in that day the day that she bumped up the blood pressure medicine I was in a lot of pain. My back was hurting. I had walked that morning. It was really dumb of me in hindsight but I went in and She the blood pressure was like 210 over 128. So she goes let's go. Did you take your medicine this morning? Yes, I did. Let's go ahead and bump it up take two pills a day. Okay, great. Whatever I came home and I continued to do my normal routine. I was walking and I decided to add Weight training to it also just 10 pounds just by said there's a whole arm workout. I'm doing on YouTube, but I Had taken the two pills that morning And I've been taking the two pills. I mean this is about I would say this is a course of three weeks I have been taking those two pills a day well this one day in particular on July 17th I Started feeling lightheaded and it was coming and going and a black spots crazy stuff like that Just feeling just very weird. I thought I'd gotten too hot So I went to go take a cold shower when I got into the shower. I Almost blacked out Luckily, I had a chance to get out of the shower This is yes It was the stupidest thing imaginable to be feeling that way and to take a shower, but I was trying to cool myself down Still once again in hindsight probably wasn't the smartest thing to Got out of the shower sat down on the step. We have a garden tub sat down the step and Everything just kind of went away. I don't know how else to put it You hear the thing, you know people say don't delight at the end of the tunnel kind of deal what happens is Your vision tunnels. I guess as you're dying. That's the best way that I can put it But I started to come back This is this sucks. I'm talking sorry talking about it sucks um So I Called for shell shell came in and got me helped me to the bed Which is I mean the door from the garden tub to the door that connects to my bedroom to my bed Is less than five feet? So we get me in there Get me covered up Because modesty whatever and she calls the paramedics paramedics come out my blood pressure when they got there And I was already starting to feel a little bit better. Just a wee bit better was 70 over 30 And that was I know my body I know my own body that was higher than it was when I was sitting on the edge of the tub I really think Had I've been in worse shape than I am now I know I'm in pretty bad shape But had I been in worse shape I wouldn't I just would have died right there on the step That's firm belief of mine because things were going away. I felt I felt the electricity leaving um, I Don't know how I mean I got goosebumps. Just just thinking about I did I can't there. There's no possible way for me to Unless you've been through it It's one of the only things I have never been able to put into words. I Don't know. It's everything was shutting down I could feel everything shutting down almost as if somebody was running through my brain flipping switches into the off position I just Even now it's hard to do it. It's difficult to talk about we're gonna get through this so I End up in the hospital on July 17 When they find when okay back to the back to the ambulance because the ambulance didn't take me Me being once again the idiot that I am I told them that if it got me worse that I would go to the hospital and By the time I said that I can't even put this in order of the way it actually happened This is how frazzled I still am and it is now August 7th. I think So almost a month later 10 days short of a month later They took my blood pressure again after Checking me out having me lie down lying sitting standing. It's called orthostatic blood pressure I don't know if you're familiar with it familiar with it. Jen if you're watching I know you are They did that and when I sat up my blood pressure came up to 120 over 80 roughly I think it was like 121 over 83, but that doesn't matter so They took that one. I'm like, okay. Well, I'm feeling better now You know, I'm good If I feel worse then I will Call you guys back or I'll go up there themselves and then the EMT said well, it's Free for us to come out here But if we take you you get charged for you know the trip I don't know if he didn't want to take me or if it's just something he had to tell me But of course my brain is like well, okay, I don't want to pay the extra money for the ambulance trip So let's go ahead and do the second option if I get worse again It wasn't it wasn't maybe 10 minutes after they left that uh, I laid I laid back down and everything started to Tunnel again. I sat back up Started feeling a little bit better But I took my blood pressure with the wrist cuff that my mom has my mom came over checked me out And she did it and it was once again 70 well this time last the last time at the house was 70 over 20 And she she of course being my mother rushed me to the emergency room I got up there and my blood pressure was maintaining around 80 over 40 roughly they pumped me full of fluids and I asked him as a I told I told him about my the upping the blood pressure medicine. They said yeah But that's not the only thing that's wrong with you You're dehydrated now get this kids I drink at least 64 ounces of water every single day I have a 32 ounce bottle that I fill up at least twice twice a day sometimes three times sometimes four times And I know you can drink too much water, but I think I know my limit um but I told her this and She goes that doesn't matter when you're taking that much blood pressure medicine because it's diuretic So as quickly as I was putting it in I was peeing it out Just simple as that. She said it was extreme fluid depletion and dehydration I said well, what can I do to make sure that this doesn't happen again? And she told me nothing really um your body either absorbs it or doesn't I I thought that was very strange, but uh My doctor is out of town right now and I've taken some time To to think about it, and I went ahead and I thought the day I got home From the hospital. I stopped double dose of blood pressure medicine And I've only been taking one since then since the 17th and like I said now it's August 7th A lot of stuff has happened since I ended up in the hospital. I've done a convention. I finished another book I've done a lot of stuff. I have I have convinced myself that I am okay But I haven't started walking again I Don't feel right. I don't and I know I need to get back on the horse But right now I Don't even want to look at the saddle you know um So that's where I'm at right now. I'm still scared And that's why it's been so long since you've seen one of these videos I Don't like putting you know extremely you know Extremely personal stuff online because people are quick to judge you know Now it's every single day. I get comments about my weight and It's every three months. I get told by my doctor. I have to do something. I have to do something I have to do something. I finally do something and this is what I get so but It feels kind of silly to do the outro So I'm not gonna do one. Bye