 Hello everyone, welcome to another Nark Survivor live video. This video is going to be very different. I have some things that I would like to share with you. The truth about Nark Survivor. I'm going to be vulnerable on this one. I just want you all to know that while it may seem I present this image, being this person who was victimised, maybe being this person who was moved on and has healed from everything, someone could easily get the wrong idea there, because more than anything I want to share information, I want to use my experiences to help people, but I think it's important to know that I am not perfect. I've made mistakes. I've done things that I'm not proud of. Sometimes I look back through my life and I think, wow, I can't believe you did that. I can't believe you reacted in that way. And there was a time where I hated myself for that. You know, as you know, there were occasions in my life where I attempted suicide and it wasn't so much to do with something that someone did to me more than it was that I just couldn't live with myself. I looked at myself and the mistakes that I had made and I hated myself. That's shame. It just eats you alive sometimes. I look at my videos and think, I just blame everyone else. Everyone's a narcissist. And while I have been victimised on many occasions, there have been times where I've done the wrong thing, where I've made mistakes. And even now, I still do things wrong. I'm far from perfect and it's hard, you know. I have been through a lot. I am dealing with some patterns of my own behaviour that I still need to work on. And it's easier said than done. But I think it's important to remember, no one is coming to save us. We are the person that we've been waiting for. A lot of people aren't going to understand. A lot of people will judge you and while you can feel bad sometimes, for everything you went through, and maybe the mistakes that we inevitably make because we are human, just don't give up on yourself. Don't give up on yourself. But yeah, this is the truth about Narc Survivor. I've made mistakes. I've done things wrong. I'm far from perfect. But then I look back and I wonder, do I regret the mistakes that I made? When it's like if I didn't make those mistakes, would I even be sitting with you today? Would I be helping millions of people around the world? Probably not. And I'm not saying that just because we do things wrong and it just works out for us in the end. That doesn't mean we did the right thing. But sometimes we've just got to make the best of a situation that we can. We've just got to do the most with what we've got. But yeah, there have been times in my life where I look back. I think to myself, why did you do that? Why did you say that? And of course there were times where I thought that I was the narcissist. I did. I would look back and I would think, only a narcissist would act that way. But then every time that I would think that, I would remember all of those times where I felt bad for people and I wanted to help them and I would feel so guilty and so many times I put other people's needs before my own. And every time I remember that, I just know, I know myself. And I think it's important to remember that instead of just focusing on all of our mistakes, everything we did wrong, don't forget everything you did right. If you've still got that passion inside of you for helping people, improving this world, that's something. But yeah, you know, I've done things wrong and I've been through some horrific situations in my life. And I know I've spoken about some of them in my videos, but there's some things I can't even say on YouTube. But I think you know, I think you can just tell, you know, when someone's been through something and it's hard to heal from this, it really is. It takes a lot of time. It takes a lot of work. But I've come a long way. I was so withdrawn. I used to have seizures, neck twitches. I was suicidal and now I can sit here and talk to over 100 people live. And I feel good. I feel confident. So no matter what you've been through, you can get through this. You can get to the other side where you're happy and you're able to smile and just enjoy life. Thanks for the donation, true love. It's just hard though. It really is. I mean, I think we all wish how we could just take some magic pill and be a better person. Who wouldn't want that? But it's easier said than done. So many people will just tell you after everything you've been through, they'll say you're sensitive or just get over it. I'd love to see those people walk a mile in our shoes. Would they make different decisions? Would they get over it so easily without any support? It's not easy. It brings you down. These narcissists, they can just do all of these horrible things and just forget about it. They don't think about it. They don't really care. They just blame everyone else. They'll never know what it's like to sit awake at night and just remember everything. You know what? Even after everything, all of the pain, I'd rather feel that than feel nothing. And that's how you've got to see it. When these people hurt you, when they make you look at yourself in a negative way, they make you hate yourself. They hurt you. Just be thankful for that experience. Be thankful that you can experience those emotions. At least you can feel something. It's all a part of the human experience. I can't imagine what it must be like for these narcissists who feel nothing. They can't be vulnerable. You try and get a narcissist to open up to you. And they just get very angry. But yeah, this is the truth about an arch-survivor. I'm just a guy on his own journey. I'm not at the destination just yet, but I have come a long way. And I think it's very important for us to share our experiences with people, experienced any trauma, and you've managed to deal with it. Your experience could be so helpful to many people. Thanks for the donation again, true love. I used to be so focused on superficial things, like wanting to be seen as someone who's successful, someone who's important. But all that really does is just separate you from other people. How can you connect to anyone when you're constantly trying to be better? And there's really nothing more valuable in this world than connection, serving other people. If you do that, in my mind, you are the richest person in the world. That's what I call true wealth. Thanks for the donations Sunshine State and Empty Tank. Yeah, that's the whole point of this channel. It's not about money. Although this is a company now, and of course, you know, this is my full-time work. I spend hours every day for years working on this. But right from the beginning, it was all about desiring connection. I wanted to connect to people. I wanted people to understand me, to validate my experience. And I got that. I got what I wanted. But now it's more about giving that connection to you, validating you, the viewer, making you feel understood. And have you got that from me? I don't know, I guess that's not really for me to say, but I would love to hear from you. If I've changed your life, please let me know. It would mean so much just to know that. There's no better feeling in the world for me than to know that I've changed someone's life. That is really the greatest feeling. It's great when you get paid. That feels great too. But knowing that I've changed someone's life, that feeling is priceless. Thanks for the donations, Ancient Pathwalker, Leafs in 2022, and Delcy Deluxe. I didn't know that I was capable of this, building this community, although together we built it. Together we achieved over 100,000 subscribers. It's like when I received that connection from other people, the validation, it helped me to realize my own power. And a lot of people won't tell you this, but the truth is the power is within you. All I'm really doing is helping you to realize the power within yourself, which was there all along. You are powerful. We all are. You just have to realize what you're capable of. A few years ago, my day consisted of waking up very late in the morning, having something to eat, going to get a cup of coffee, going to the gym, some days doing food shopping, and then I'd just go home and play my Xbox. That's all I used to do. But one day I just started to believe myself. I found out about this information, and somewhere inside of me I just believed that I could help people. It was never about money. I worked hard on these videos every day for over four months before the channel got monetized. It was all about just building these connections, spreading the information, helping people. Thanks for the donation, peace and love. If you want to be successful in life, don't focus on the money. Focus on serving other people. Focus on improving people's lives. I believe in karma. I believe that when we do good, it comes back to us. I didn't always believe in that. I just look at how much my life has changed. And I know it must be real, because I have poured my heart out day after day with the pure intention of changing people's lives, helping them to understand this, and I have been rewarded. When there were also a lot of times in my past, I just thought about myself, and all I got was problems. But then when I look back, the times in my life where I really did think about other people, that was when good came back to me. Whenever I had the pure intention of just helping people, being there for them, and without expecting anything a return, I was always rewarded for that. But yeah, this is the truth about NARC Survivor. And despite it all, all of the problems and difficulties, the setbacks, all of the pain, I wouldn't trade it all for what I have now. You might not see it right now. You might look at the things that have happened and wonder why. Why did that have to happen to you? One day, you're going to arrive at where and it's all going to make perfect sense. You're going to realize that every experience in your life leads you to where you are now. And it will lead you to where you're going to be in the future. And that's the thing, because if any one of those experiences didn't take place, if any one of them had a different result, you wouldn't be where you are now or where you're going to be in the future. And if it's not now, at some point, you are going to get there and it's all going to make perfect sense. And you're going to be so grateful for every negative experience in your life, no matter how bad it was. Because all these experiences really do, it just leads you to a healthier place in the end anyway. I would just like to thank you all for joining me on this live video. It's quite a long one. 36 minutes. But it really means a lot to have over 150 of you here with me this evening. I just hope that it's been helpful. Let me know what this video has done for you. As it helped you, I would like to hear from you. Please leave a comment. Give the video a thumbs up if you enjoyed it. And there will be another live video very soon.