 I can remember I had just got into this really super bad fight and I was considering leaving. I was going to move to Northern California I was just I was gonna go live with my brother for a while because I had to get away from LA And I had to get away from her and she had no idea that I was planning to get to basically cut myself loose Because I think there's a part of me a part of my subconscious that realized that this is a really fucked up situation If I stay in it, I'm gonna end up killing myself or something really fucked up It's gonna happen and so we had this really super bad fight I was over at her dorm and I was looking she just stormed off and went into her room and just you know It was probably some stupid jealousy bullshit And I can remember sitting on a couch looking at her bedroom and looking at the door that was the exit of Her house of her apartment, right? So I'm looking at the door to her bedroom I'm looking at the door to the exit. I'm going I got a fuck Literally have a choice this door or this fucking door over here And I'm glad that I took the door that was the exit that left out of that because that was the point at which I'm like Something is wrong here and I need to get out of this situation And as good as I think this possibly could be mom in my blue pill fantasizing Thinking that this is gonna work. It was never gonna work. And then like I said, there's this instinctual Impulsive side of me that said, you know what fucking I'm out and then that's when that's when of course She thinks something's wrong and I haven't called her to say it's okay, baby I'll see you later Yeah, I wasn't checking up on her because I was gonna leave and that's when she calls me That's when she says I'm gonna kill myself if you don't come back then suddenly as I've you know picked up my my fucking balls And I've made it about me and I'm gonna get the fuck out of dodge. I'm out of here that's when you get this complete 180 in her in her You know her perspective so now it's she's I can't live without you I'm gonna kill myself if you guys if you ever leave me all of this shit That's that's designed to rope you and pull you back in and then so now you finally come up with the balls to walk out The right door and she's going to try to rope you and pull you right back in and you think oh She must really care for me. Maybe this could work out. Maybe I could make things better Maybe if I maybe this is it. Maybe I'm changing myself and she really wants to be with me No, it's bullshit you need to leave That's why I tell guys do not get involved with the PD women because this is what will happen You will leave you'll say hey man a fucking I'm out. I'm red pill. I know my shit, you know She's gonna do I'll kill myself if you don't come back. You know, that's what it's gonna end up being So don't get into those situations in the first place. So what how do you get out of that? How do you pull yourself away? I'm glad you I'm glad we're kind of finishing up with this is like How do you? Disengage yourself from this bullshit and it is hard It is one of the most difficult things I have ever had to do in my life because I didn't have the Manisphere I didn't have the red pill. I didn't have any of the stuff that I didn't even know what would be PD was at that point And I'm dealing with it. I'm trying to pull myself out It's really sort of an act of will that you have to do that But at least now you have anybody listening to this or seeing this in a chat or whatever At least now you have a knowledge base at least you can say I knew better at least you can say now Okay, here's what here's the signs that I'm looking for Use that to your best advantage and walk out the right fucking door Don't go back to what that you know to that situation And if you're locked into this and if you have kids and if you're married in that, you know what, you know By a condios man, I hope you're okay But you need to you really need to make that decision From a red pill aware perspective and you need to walk out the right door