 Is it recording? Is it going? Do I look decent? Yeah. Hey, what's it you guys? Welcome back to my channel. My name is Lydia. I'm in mental health videos here on YouTube pretty much every day and I'm outside filming and it's weird. I'm also probably going to fall over because I'm walking backwards in crappy dolly shoes from Primark. Life is fun. Don't let me drown. Oh, it's recording. Yay. Tilt it out there. I'm short. So today we're talking about BPD and the stigma and why it's crap. And I'm someone with BPD. You guys know that. You're going to walk into a tree. So today we're just talking about all the stigma and kind of just doing shit. This is what life is like with BPD. I have a shiny bag. So you guys know I've had issues with migraines. So I'm going to get what basically fire as much pain relief as I can. Because my head hurts and I don't like it. The logic isn't it that. Also I'm dying my hair when I hit 4,000 subscribers and I can't wait. Because I haven't died in a while and it's this sleep. Let's go get drugs. So we're getting food. I am living my life because I'm a normal human being. Just like most other people with BPD. We function in society. It's funny that people are always like oh you just manipulate people. Do I manipulate you? No. Do I insult you a lot? No. Do I take the mick out of your age a lot? No. A little bit but not a lot. A little bit. All right grandad. I also had a happy meal because I'm mature. You know a broke ass student. If I talk about money I'm manipulating people according to Twitter. So Patreon link in the description. Cool perks, cool giveaways. We're going to be filming the list of people on Patreon later which is fun. I'm filming in public too. This is really weird for me. Like they are actually wanting to talk to the camera. It's really weird because like anxiety is a thing but I'm also so drugged out my head that I don't care. I should stop talking. Self-pity ends too. This is a big thing that irritates me. I never know how to act around people so I just try and go along with it and play a role I guess. Maybe I should be a drama student. Fucking performing arts. Can put on different personalities with who I'm with. It doesn't mean that I'm like faking who I am but like I tend to change depending on who I'm with. Like I think most of the like I act a certain way around certain people. How is it you and me? I'd probably be fucking around on a spinny chair. Like when I'm out and about I tend to be normally like pretty self-conscious and um anxiety. What fun. How do you want to put it? Like you know what I mean? Yeah. The siren girl because it hit me when I was filming. Story of my life. What am I doing? Watching YouTube. What happened yet? Hopefully. Is that all I'm gonna die of my hair? No, I haven't got past 50 views yet. Turn left. Turn left. Turn left. Turn left. Turn left. Do you want to do a kiss the camera? You're trying to kiss the camera by the looks of that. No, I'm filming everything.