 Your childhood it strikes me would be a hit documentary on Netflix and people would not believe it if they had filmed it Your childhood I don't think people would believe How difficult it was and I don't think you Fully acknowledge that sometimes I don't somebody said recently you've experienced as much Sadness as in or hardship as anyone I know and I was like I don't think I because you just genuine I was thinking about it recently because I watched the at the beginning of that It was like a cults documentary and I went oh Neil was had a worse childhood than that so talk us through the be gives the beats for anyone that hasn't seen it the beats of your childhood childhood father was violent alcoholic He would drink that's already a movie. Yeah, this was life. This was life. Yeah, that's kind of the main thing Like my father was violent and at that point you're all you don't know where the violence is coming from Why how often and it creates kind of this whole thing in psychotherapy about where you were born Like I'm a middle kid. So my mother had all the anxiety around the first kid and then the second kid She was there would be more relaxed and you feel that you're more relaxed as a second kid, right? You were born where in the sequence and yeah, they don't have a theory on that because there's not enough of them There's no theory. There's no book about well if you're the 10th kid, you'll be Neil Brennan My mother was it my mother was in labor for 45 minutes 45 minutes, I mean literally walked out. Yeah. Yeah, I was she looked over and I was walking next door Yeah, it's with an umbilical cord. So no love from your father and man itself admitted I did not love you and on his deathbed which part of the deathbed took left wrote me out of his will Well, yeah disinherited. Yeah, and a consciously lost his mind consciously disinherited and Told you that he didn't love. Yeah Yeah, it's pretty heartbreaking to be your friend sometimes because you I can feel I'm like tearing up. It's it's awful It's just awful and then I look at your relationship with your mother and the I'm privy to a lot of The list of rules which you you sort of name check in yeah I name a few of them bunch of TV rules like a lot of laundry rules a lot of sandwich rules You guys probably all had sandwich rules, right? I'm so obsessed by that you had a list of rules that would put up by your mother that are again Heartbreak upon heartbreak like the food the laundry the rules the lack of warmth No, she was really warm in her own way and in her defense She did stuff that was like incredibly thought-of-a-like every night. She would warm the plates up for dinner Right, she made dinner warm the plates up. We all have more. It's like a nice thoughtful thing to do for instance I and I I'm more I just spent some time in my mom Just there's a straw there I can almost reach the warm player. No loving your childhood in any in any way that anyone else would understand. No, no No real empathy. Yeah, but a warm plate. So that's something if you're thinking about having kids not as tough as you thought Warmer plate that'll do. I mean it really feels like that's I could say the same about yours buddy for real Yeah, but let's know I got it But I'm just saying like that's why I don't have a ton of you've got no self-pity which is Remarkable and also a giant amount of self pity like there I spent a lot of time feeling sorry for myself in my life and then at a certain point I Had a story in blocks that you told me to cut And I didn't for a while and then I Did when I taped it so I was like I don't I can't keep harping on this It was a story about shitting my pants like either disobeying my father or Shitting my pants and I chose to you guessed it shit my pants the self pity Pull in my in my spirit kind of went I just stopped two three years ago I think we talked about this because JK Rowling had a great line on it Which is it's tough love at its toughest where you go. We have to have a statute of limitations on Childhood grievances. I don't know what age is because it's definitely not 18 if someone comes to you at 18 Yeah, I had that childhood you go. Oh man. You're okay. You need a hug You okay someone comes to you at 25 and says at a really tough childhood But you can't be meeting St. Peter at the gates going My dad did you see yeah, my dad was a dick. Yeah, you had 40 years you come on Yeah, you have to get that's about the calculation for me is that at around late 40s I was like I guess I got to just stop doing this because I don't a lot of that before that was a lot of anger at My dad and my mom and I like I was happy to talk about in fact three mikes was written as a The dad part was written for revenge and at a certain point. I was like don't can I give him? I don't want to just go slag him on stage. So I made it more I Put I put some empathy in it of like what did I owe him and what was his life like? Yes, I mean his life was I mean grew up in the depression who even knows but I think you want to correct that as a parent. I Would agree. Yeah, I mean what's the line in blocks? Both my parents were born during the Great Depression They were nice enough to bring it with them That was a Derek Delgadio line the director man and again obsession with fairness. It's a line in your special It's a great line give the credit to the guy that gave you the line It's like remember what I used to do for a litter. Yeah, but it's but it's it's interesting that thing of like your The grievances, which is your first big block Holding I mean I thought the next special if you just did you could call it grudge match And it's just all of the things where it's the other great line in blocks we go I gotta be the only person who has ever asked a question Would you rather be right or would you rather be happy and I was like And knowing you I go well that's bullshit you'd rather be right I mean like the idea that you're bullshit in the audience right. Oh, it was a tough decision I got the same my mouth. Yeah, you're right. I'd rather be happy. Right. Yeah, that would have gotten let's move on Hey, did you like that? Did you like that? Yeah, did you like it though? You want more don't want to work would rather watch videos of me grab ass with people first Go up here to subscribe and then go up here to watch more clips This is like when the weatherman