 guys yeah it's been a hot minute or has it been two hot minutes I think it's probably been a long time it's almost been a month since I've recorded a video holy cow actually that's not true I did record a video but there was a bit of drama around it I mean I shouldn't say a bit a major amount of drama around it that I took the video down so it's been a month overall since I've visited with you before and like a lot to catch you guys up on so if you're curious you know the drill stay tuned so oh my gosh anyways I it's Sunday I'm hoping to get this uploaded so that you guys can see it Sunday afternoon sometime I know the Patriots are on this afternoon and I'll have plenty of time I'm not planning on I'm going down to visit Jane I know none of you don't even most of you don't even know the story yet but let me just tell you since our since the last video let out first I'll get the drama out of the way this is going to be sort of a chatty thing all over the place but I'll get the drama out of the way I had recorded a video about a wig from a company called I am wigs and they had sent me two wigs that were squished together in this funky box and I contacted them I said I wanted you you know why don't you just take it back because I wasn't going to record it if this is the way you send it to you know a so-called influencer what is it going to be like when you send it to people that aren't on YouTube type of thing so they apologize they went all over the place oh no is the new shipping company blah blah blah blah and so they were sending me these messages one after another and I was just ignoring it and then one day I got two new wigs in the mail and they were packaged beautifully they were packaged absolutely beautifully and the wigs other than the gray one was not my color the wigs were surprisingly high quality I thought so I said oh right I'm going to give these people a second chance and I recorded the video and I published the video and I did it on Instagram and I did it on YouTube and and then I realized oh it's Marlene Fab and Glam who had posted something about someone being a scam site and I was like I you know I contacted Marlene and she said yeah these people steal the photos and they sell poor quality wigs and all this stuff and they just scam people and I then got really upset I reached out to the company and they said no no that's not true blah blah blah and I'm like going holy you know I don't want to be in the middle of this right so I took my video down and I took my Instagram stuff down and that kind of really shook me because when when I talk about something you know even in that video I talked about the first two wigs coming could you know squished in the box and all that I explained it but when I talk about something it comes from me comes from come how I feel about it you know it's I'm not like an influencer that's making a ton of money on YouTube I don't make thousands and thousands of dollars a month on YouTube I'm lucky if I make two hundred dollars you know maybe so I'm not I'm not anyway near that level and I never I never will be so when I talk about stuff it's because I really like it or I don't type of thing so I was so so bummed and that kind of I think threw me for a major loop because there I was publishing this video and this as far as I know this company ended up being a scam company and that kind of burst my my confidence level right up being up to judge people or being up to judge products it really burst my confidence level so I said alright I just after I took it down you know I had a good cry had a good little meltdown onto the next thing you know and then one thing happened after another I think I mentioned in my last video that was published that I had joined the gym so I had joined the gym and I joined Planet Fitness mainly because I wanted to be able to go to gyms all over the place and I knew that Jay and I were going to be going away camping and this was for labor I think it was Labor Day weekend yeah Labor Day weekend and I wanted to be able to take advantage of those locations which successfully we did so we did go camping and I recorded all these little bits and pieces of video which I'm probably never going to do anything with but because I intended to do a vlog but then the whole thing with the wig thing just kind of burst me really really set me back so anyway I'm going to close some pictures because we did go camping we had a great time we were up in old Orchard Beach area a little beach called Pine Point Beach and I'm going to insert a video I know I shared this before we went there for sunset and there's they there's a drummer is there they're just it's it's like I think it's I'm not too sure if they're all Native American or what the whole story is they didn't ask but they would they drum and the moon comes up and it was just really mesmerizing that part of the beach is so really nice and flat you can walk a real long time anyways we stayed at Bailey's which is a favorite campground in that area for us it has a beautiful pool and we just it was hot hot hot Labor Day weekend after a crappy summer Labor Day weekend was super super hot it was unreal but so we just really had a great time Labor Day weekend and I'm not going to put the vlog together at this point in time because it's too far back but we did go to the gym while we were there and I found a gym in Portland in South Portland and we went to Planet Fitness both Jay and I and about this time he had already heard he was going to have hip surgery so we knew his hip surgery was going to be September 18th so he was really trying to you know strengthen a little bit stuff like that especially with his arms he's been in so so much pain for so long that it's been it's been insane for him you know he hasn't been able to walk like he wants to walk he hasn't been able to go off like he wants to go off so many different things impact your life you know when you're in pain right that impacts your lifestyle your things that you like to do well his pain level was way way up there so we were both like yes yes you know finally get the hip replacement surgery done because the beginning of the year we're gonna he needs to be very mobile because we're gonna be doing some different things the beginning of the year and I personally can't drive the RV it's too big so he needs to be mobile and and you know fully together so he had his surgery on the 18th it went extremely well the doctor said he came out of it with flying colors all of this stuff they send you home from the hospital that same day he had an interior I guess in the front you know so I guess that was most the easiest way to do it and they sent they sent him home it came home Monday night I brought him home it was pouring rain so it was a little bit difficult getting in the house as you can well imagine but we got him in when that was all cool and then he couldn't get comfortable just couldn't get comfortable on the easy chair then he couldn't get comfortable in bed it was a really rough night for him Monday night but I figured Tuesday would be better but we knew that the first two days it would be rough well Tuesday morning he got up wanted to get up and then I got up because he had to go to the bathroom and I wasn't gonna let him go to the bathroom alone so I had to walk or it was getting ready he said to me that he felt a little lightheaded I said okay just sit there and don't move I'm gonna go out into the barn the shop as we call it when my father used to have the machine shop actually I'm filming out here I'm gonna go out there I'm gonna get a bucket and you can just I'll help you just pee in the bucket I don't it have to get up and go to the bathroom so I ran out here to get the bucket and ran back in I wasn't even gone four minutes three or four minutes I mean if five minutes would be an absolute stretch when I went back in the bedroom he was on the floor and I was like I was like oh my gosh and at the time I went back in the bedroom and oh my gosh what did you do what happened what happened I told you to stay put he was just starting to come come to he had passed out and apparently he he he had thought he was just lying back but he went this way and he he doesn't even remember hitting the floor he doesn't even remember going he just thought he was going on the bed lying back and he argued with me for a good 30 minutes I'm trying to get him up I couldn't as he said he wanted to try to crawl I said Jay you can't crawl he's had hip replacement you can't do any of that so finally I just started to cry and he said alright call somebody because I went to call 911 or whatever they just they're gonna come with the fire department I said alright I'll call the police department non-emergency line so I did that I called the non-emergency line explained what happened they said we're gonna have to initiate rescue they're gonna have to come over you know so they did long long story shot he went to the hospital they checked his neck they checked his x-rays he fractured his new hip my gosh and he was still dizzy and and lightheaded and so his blood pressure when he was lying down his blood pressure was okay but when he sat up it went way down when he tried to sit up or stand up it was like way way way I mean way way down dangerously low so they admitted him to the hospital he couldn't come back home so he was in essence in the hospital since Tuesday morning Monday was a surgery Tuesday he went in since Tuesday morning today is Sunday yes Friday he was finally stabilized they figured out he was very dehydrated there's some other condition I can't remember the name of it that drops your blood pressure especially when you dehydrated and stuff like that so they finally were able to stabilize him and all that he still couldn't get up he still couldn't do anything on his own so he's in rehab I went to rehab about five o'clock Friday and and so yesterday he had a little bit he had his assessment close today Sunday so we won't really know what's gonna go on until Monday but Jay's in rehab his spirits are super good and he's able to be a little bit more mobile obviously than when he was in the hospital so I'm like thank goodness thank goodness thank goodness you know I just want him to be able to come home to be able to walk you know to be able to be strong and be Jay again he's a big guy I couldn't get him up he's six two I think and he's probably about 240 and he's got a lot of muscle on him so he'd be too heavy I just couldn't get him up off the floor and it was just one thing after another oh my gosh this is probably gonna be a long drag-out video that's where he is he's being taken care of I feel a hundred percent better although being alone at home is not something I'm used to so I'm adjusting and I'm kind of liking the fact I don't have to cook for anyone because I just don't cook I haven't cooked since he was here but yeah so I also haven't gone to the gym all week because I've been going to the hospital every day and I had a real estate transaction and I know some of you asked me to tell you more about the prices and stuff like that I'm gonna link my real estate YouTube channel somewhere maybe in the description or up there so you guys can if you're interested you can see anyways I listed property in a town it's very and I'm not gonna say too much because it hasn't closed yet but so it was a very hectic weekend the weekend before his surgery because we did two open houses and then I put another sale together and I'm gonna do inspection on that on Tuesday so it's been my real estate business sales which is what Jay and I do as independent contractors has nothing to do with my job with my company I work for a real estate company as a training person so I went very part-time in that position now my real estate sales is like getting very busy and that's okay so it's just been a crazy crazy crazy time frame super busy I just didn't have time for videos and I'll tell you when that week thing happen that kind of blew my mind so I also talked about the fact that I was gonna have my very second facial I I've made no secret about the fact that I went in March and I had some not not in another I can't remember the name of it it's like the Botox but not that brand or that name brand on my 11 because it couldn't stand my 11 so some of you that watch all my videos you know I've talked about that anyways I went to a nurse practitioner esthetician she's absolutely lovely beautiful beautiful kind-hearted sweetheart not anyone that believes in over injecting I just love her philosophy she's a nurse practitioner and she has a family practice etc so I felt super comfortable with her and she did my 11s and I absolutely loved the results now my nobody ever noticed much at all until I told them and it's such a minor change but I see it my husband says even when it wore off he never he said I don't see what you're talking about but anyways I see it so I was talking to her and I had set up an appointment to go back and have them because I did it much first and I could see my 11s they were pretty severe and all that stuff and they're still here right now because it hasn't been that long but so I made an appointment to go back and she had opened up a place in writing Mass as well and it is it is called on Haven aesthetics oh my gosh what a beautiful I'm gonna close some pictures and link the website but what a beautiful beautiful spot and her business I mean it's just set up really really nice I went in there before my injection for my 11th and 11th and I had a facial I had a facial by a lady named Theodora and oh my gosh she was absolutely she was absolutely fabulous she had studied for I think two years in Europe and she worked for a number of years in Europe and then came to the States and started working and she's an esthetician and just really you know really working on on I think helping women or anyone feel as good as they possibly can anyways I absolutely adore Theodora she did an amazing amazing facial on me absolutely loved it it was perfect and then Elizabeth who is a nurse practitioner she introduced me to her partner Crystal who is also a nurse and two of them have started the on Haven aesthetics and I tell you if you're in the Massachusetts area their pricing is amazing their service is amazing and they care they care they listen to what you want and they really care so I just got a little bit of a booster here and I probably will go back at the end of getting an appointment to anyways for the end of December to go back because then I'm going to be not around for a while at least up here so I wanted to you know make sure I'm going to link all of this information below but I can't I highly highly recommend anyone that's especially in the Massachusetts Southern New Hampshire area and if you're looking for someplace where you can really feel super comfortable you've got to check them out so I wanted to tell you about that because it only had two facials in my life my first one not all that great it was more of an uncomfortable experience but this one with Theodora I mean she made she just pampered me and it was awesome it was really really awesome I absolutely loved it so other things that I've been doing basically is I have I've been trying to find a bathing suit and bathing suits are really hard I mean I have my favorite bathing suit is this old green and it's starting to get so worn out you know in a bathing suit if you've had it too long it's just get so worn out I've always loved the straps on this in the back and you can see them the straps are just really really pretty but this is my favorite bathing suit it's a one-piece obviously I'm not going to get into anything whatever so I have been looking online and I've been like trying to find something similar but you know I know I'm not going to but just just trying to find a bathing suit you can't find a bathing suit right now and I need to have a bathing suit so I found this company called Cup She I saw it on Facebook and I'm like you know you you order from these companies and they're kind of like you know iffy and I was really worried about that so I kept reading their reviews and all that and so I said I'm going to go ahead and order so I ordered two vins it's ordered the screen one I do like the straps there's just a little bit of what I don't like sometimes the white shows here from the lining but I love the back the back is really pretty and it fits me awesome and I'll tell you the quality for an online one-piece bathing suit the quality has been really really good I really like it I ordered a second one this one I really like a lot but I might send it back because I feel the straps are so thin I'm almost worried that it isn't going to hold me up it holds me up so far and I like the color it's a purple again the quality of these the lining is coming out I don't know I don't want to pull the lining out because then I won't be able to return it if I want to I don't know if I'm going to return it I just yeah I probably won't the prices are amazing and for an online company I was like holy mackerel so I did buy that I also had this summer because I knew my green bathing suit was going to be history soon I had gone into Target and I don't shop in Target and I bought this bathing suit target I like it a lot but I think maybe I don't feel like it supports me I'm Chesty I really don't feel like it supports me on top as much as I really really need to be supported on top so I like bathing suits and I you know I like bathing suits I need to have a bathing suit because I'm going to be in warmer climate and I don't want to be skinny because I would look you know awful and I wear a lot of my hope my rips girth's Hawaii you know when Jay and I went to Hawaii the beginning of the year went to Maui and we stayed in Lahaina the western part of Lahaina in a very small Airbnb I'll link that here for those of you that haven't seen it and we stayed in this really nice Airbnb in a small small complex and I don't know if it's there or not but all I wore every day was I have several of these this is probably the latest one and the one I like the best because when you wear a solid color baby suit like my black one this rip skirt looks awesome so anyways I was looking for clothes to wear summer type clothes because of the fact that we're going to be in a little bit of a warmer climate it's also why I want Jay to hurry up and get better so yeah not easy to buy a bathing suits up here is certainly not easy to find ones that I like that fit me I oh I also got these little clips I should have I got four of them they're flip flops can you see them these are the clips you put on the back of the beach chair and it kind of anchors your towel to it I should I should have probably saw if I could get maybe football ones or something for Jay because I don't think Jay is going to want to flip a flip-flop on his beach chair but those and Jay and I celebrated our anniversary we went out to this is all prior to his surgery we went out to a place called the Sea Glass which is one of our favorite restaurants that we go to it's a special occasion it's an expensive restaurant but it overlooks the ocean and it's just it's just so pretty it's so so pretty such a pretty spot so we went out to the Sea Glass we had gotten a gift certificate we went out and celebrated our anniversary on clothes and pitches he a few to say and we just sat we had an ocean side table and it was it was just wonderfully relaxing my meal was wonderful Jay of course got his favorite oysters and he loves those things and they were good I can't remember what else he got but our food was perfect and then afterwards we went over to Salisbury Beach and we walked around and the Sun was just setting over Salisbury Beach over on the western part of it overlooking Salisbury Harbor and it was so pretty we took a bunch of pictures the backsplash was amazing absolutely amazing backsplash it was so gorgeous and the reason why we almost didn't even make that sunset is because after dinner they had the Sea Glass they have this really cool gift shop called Buy the Sea gift shop Buy the Sea and it is a lot of handmade items and just different kind of pieces you know from jewelry to pocketbooks to scarves to you know to all sorts of like charms and stuff like that my favorite key ring I bought there it has like a starfish on it I love that key ring it's so pretty anyways we went in there because we had gotten a gift certificate and they give you like $10 for each $50 you spend off so I had like two $10 gift certificates to use and I went in there and I ended up getting this necklace I just thought it was so pretty I don't know if you guys can see it I thought it was so so pretty I love it and you can you know make it shorter if you want or longer if you want to get this necklace and I got this little matching little beady bracelet and then I got these earrings I thought the earrings are so pretty I haven't worn them yet but they've got like a little bit of a pearl and a little it's like a flower I just thought they were really really pretty so I got those and I just you know I've I've been on a shopping spree I actually got two sundresses at Old Navy now I wouldn't even call them sundresses but they're sort of they're right on 100% right on the first one as you can see here is a very flowery sort of like a little bit of a longer short sleeve very light material so they'd be perfect and warmer climates and certainly perfect if you were going to be on a cruise or something like that and you just wanted to have like a dress thing to go over and the second one is black it doesn't look good on the hanger at all but on me where you can I can pull it down a little bit off the shoulder I can't wear off off the shoulders but I can pull it down and and a little bit and it looks really looks much better on than hanging but I bought those two I'm really excited about our future plans and I don't know I'm like oh gosh you know hurry up Jay and get better and come home and all that it's it's different being home alone you know it's different especially if we used to having the companionship and it makes you wonder it makes me think anyways you know I've gone through a lot of loss these last three years with my dad my brother and then my mother I'm so lucky that I have my children and I have my grandchildren and I have my husband I'm so lucky in that sense and it just made me think being here all the things that he does that I have no clue how to do you know like for example I've pumped gas maybe three times in my life I'm gonna have to pump gas and I know I can do it I just put my mind over it I gotta do things like change a water filter soon and I'm hoping they'll be home so he can give me the directions and just all those little little things that you know he does that I never think about I call them the blue jobs I do the pink he does the blue you know so now I'm gonna have to do I've been doing more blue jobs since he's been in the hospital obviously it makes me appreciate the fact that I do have my husband with me and I think of the women you know my age or even younger or older obviously who don't you know and you have to go in on your own it's like I've thought a lot about that I've thought a lot about that this week because it's like I need to know where things are how to do things how to access things just in case I'm not obviously anticipating anything but just in case I need to do that because then I will feel self-sufficient maybe self-sufficient you know that's what I'm thinking about anyways like I said I have no idea how long this has been I apologize I'm sitting here rattling and there's so much more I want to talk about because I bought these compression bags and you know some other stuff but I think I should end this here and just say if you actually stay to the end thank you so much I know I just going on and on and on and hopefully life will just get back to somewhat normal soon but thank you for those of you that have been reaching out to me especially Barbara Barbara you always reach out to me always and I so appreciate I so appreciate it I really do I went into my other email and I saw an email you sent and I said my god she even sent the email because I know who had left a message on another video as well and I haven't even paid attention to that email account in the last couple of weeks because it's just been so crazy hectic but anyways I just want to say thank you all and thank you Barbara always reaching out and Sheila oh my god my friend Sheila those of you that know Sheila simply Sheila aka life with Lily I want to say she's like the sister of my heart you know we're not really sisters but she's been every day every single day are you okay are you you know what's happening so even though she's far away I feel so blessed to have such a close friend she just you know I got up this morning and there was a message from her and I'm like oh you know she's worried about Jay how's he doing how are you doing and stuff like that so I'm a lucky lady and I know it so thank you all and I will end this because it's gonna be 40 minutes I should have timed it but thank you all so much and I hope you have a wonderful wonderful week and go patriots I hope they win today that'll make Jay happy bye guys