 apologize about the wind apologize about the wind this is really the first windy day in Denver in 2019 kind of crazy so I get a test the wind resistance of this Solomon jacket today and yes I've all man you're not even gonna be able to hear me I might as well not even all right I'm gonna give you an update up on the trail you gotta you gotta know when to hold them and know when to fold them I'm turning around didn't even make it to the top of Mount Falcon today right in front of me right here is probably I would guess about a three maybe three and a half foot deep snow drift and like listen I'm trying to run up here but it's just not quite working not quite working today so we are gonna turn around I still want to tonight talk about mental toughness back at the house but I fully realize like listen we're runners I'm not a speed hiker I'm not trying to hike up mountains I'm trying to run up mountains and like listen look at this snow drift like anyway I'm not like sinking into my waist but it's probably about whoa halfway up my halfway up my thigh so we're gonna turn around and come back to fight another day if you know what I mean like you win some you lose some when you're training like it's all about that long term outlook so I'm gonna attempt to jog back down through through this all right gotta film inside the car cuz yeah it's windy again down here at the bottom not sure what that's all about all right that did not go as planned I don't even know how far went probably four or five miles not very far I was hoping to go at least 10 today so that's alright though in running like it's all about that long-term game that I'm always talking about but my brother and I were actually talking about this this past weekend is not being afraid to break up the volume of running that you're hoping to hit whether you measure in minutes miles kilometers vertical gain however you measure your volume of training instead of looking at it on a weekly basis think about it on a monthly basis or even frankly quarterly I think quarterly is almost is frankly pretty brilliant saying to yourself okay I want to hit 350 miles this quarter 400 miles this quarter of the calendar year and that just takes a little bit of that pressure off that you might put on yourself when things don't go to plan out on the trails when you hit three to four feet of snowdrifts today like that was not a runnable course today overall and so I had to call it and guess what the Sun will rise tomorrow I'll be able to go out a little further tomorrow hopefully supposedly a snowstorm is actually on the way but anyway I'm hoping to be able to run tomorrow pretty good because today and that's like I'm basically what I'm gonna do is flip-flop my training days from yesterday for today because today ended up being pretty easy all right I digress I'm heading back home gonna get ready for the live stream oh man my pity party is over my pity party is over thankfully I have my wife true love Bridget to just to vent to after the live stream does not work oh it's like listen I'm just trying I'm trying I'm a creative person I'm not a technical person I didn't go to you know I didn't go to broadcasting school and listen I love the artistic side of film production I love the the running side of YouTube I love being creative with you and sharing stories and I love like I'm good at angles and a little bit I'm pretty good at sound and music selection but I'm not good at the technical side and what really really is frustrating is that a half hour before the live stream goes out on air it's working and then it stops working and then it just freezes and I get this spinning wheel of death that you see on your screen right now and it just will not connect well so I'm not gonna give up I'm not gonna give up I'm not gonna give up I'm not gonna give up and that is the key word is perseverance the key word for today is perseverance cuz oh I'm just as you can tell a little perturbed a little perturbed and I'm not gonna give up though cuz I'm here with you I'm with like and I know you're here with me and like it didn't work and listen it's I really perturbed makes me frustrated because you are carving time out of your schedule to sit at a computer and iPad a TV a phone and just to love is here that's the key word is perseverance perseverance with the capital P capital P right here oh we're trying you're doing honey you're doing so good so sorry that's okay that's okay and I was like yes never never give up never give up never it's a revolution sorry it's so tight here they could you love for the peanut M&M's delicious oh so good in just one last point nothing went right today nothing and that's okay that's okay this is part of being human things will not go you know as we plan all the time but this morning when the vlog published at 5 a.m. it didn't actually publish like like the view count was stuck at zero for like five hours it didn't show up in people's subscription feeds you probably notice that and then today on the run running through the snowdrifts wasn't expecting to run through snowdrifts today and then the live stream tonight so nothing really went well today but that's okay right as humans we got to learn to deal with these things as runners we definitely have to learn to deal with adversity because there's injuries there's bad workouts there's getting lost in a race I've done that before and therefore the question of the day has to be what is your go-to action when you face adversity whether it's in life maybe you fail to test you know maybe you struggle in math that's how I that was my big I struggled in math in high school like that was not my subject maybe or maybe it's something and running so how do you deal with adversity what is your go to action maybe it's sitting down and drinking a hot cup of tea maybe it's you know calling your best friend maybe it's going for a run maybe it's hitting a punching bag I don't know so anyway I know that's a pretty open-ended question of the day but as I am trying to process the day I'm like you know what maybe YouTube has some insights for me because I need it right now and yes we're going to try to persevere today January 24th for another live stream attempt basically I'm going to go inside and start researching for the next 12 hours or 24 hours like why is this happening because this is now the second week in a row where it's really been an issue and it should not be happening right it should not be happening so I love you I gotta stop and sorry today was just whatever we made it through glass half-full let's keep fighting together mmm see beauty work hard love each other mmm see you tomorrow