 Hey you guys, so how are y'all doing? Anyway girl, let me get this stuff out the way background. Sorry y'all I order a bunch of clothes from Sheen shine whatever you want to call it. I will be doing a haul This is so embarrassing. I will be doing a haul in a couple more weeks once all the clothes come in um I'm gonna be doing my makeup And half of my hair so y'all it's for for July happy for for July if you celebrate for for July If you don't okay my husband gave me a lecture on why black people shouldn't celebrate for for July I get it Alex. I get it, but I know you still won't eat this barbecue. So Y'all let's get into I'm gonna do my makeup y'all we're gonna jump right into it no time wasted You know how we do it. We talk about what's going on in my personal life What I'm watching on YouTube and what I'm watching on TV now one thing I want to say is shout out to really Believe your I should know your name by now. You've been following me for years really me She's commented on my last To check that my skin looks great. What am I using and what am I doing? I will do an updated skin regimen But you guys I don't do a lot You know what I do? I Stay out of folks business and I pray and I try to be overall healthy I'm not as healthy as I could be right now, but I try to be healthy So y'all let me go ahead and jump into it personal life is going well. I got up early this morning and I did a lesson plan for JB for summer school for the next two weeks and Poor JB y'all a couple of days ago. He's not a couple of days ago two nights ago. He woke up vomiting non-stop for a couple of hours and Baby when I told y'all was tired the night before I only got five hours to sleep that night I only got another five hours. So the following day I really really slept So my husband being a smart man that he is smart fine man that he is He said that you're not washing your hands, right? You're not washing your hands properly to JB. He's like you you clearly have some type of gastro issue because you vomiting and you having diarrhea and sure enough it cleared up within 24 hours it cleared up so he's fine We're gonna be doing a little bit of homeschooling and I'm What else is going on? Nothing much y'all. I've decided when it comes to the move. I'm not gonna share a lot I'm gonna wait until we got things done and settled but you guys will get Updates, but I'm not gonna over share a lot. I just want to keep that part a little private So I'm not gonna really be talking about that part a lot of girl. Let me turn this down. So I look like as hell I am not this light-skinned. Is this okay? I Have noticed that I've been a Little short with JB a lot more than I have been And I'm gonna get emotional. I know I am a Couple of day and I am one of those parents that I do apologize to my child when I feel like I'm sincerely in the wrong I do apologize and I learned that from from mr. Like boy. Hey girl. How you doing? I need to post a video anyway I've been a little short with JB and as Mom sometimes when we get really stressed we can we can be that way, right? So a couple of days ago. I was so short with JB and I said, you know, I'm so sorry, baby I'm so sorry. He said that's okay. It's okay. I've gotten used to it Y'all my heart sank when he said that Because I really don't want him to get used to me being that way I don't want to be the yelling mom and and even my husband said today. He's like, why are you yelling at him? I Don't want to be that way. I know JB knows I love him and I care for him But I need to have more patience and thought instead of just jumping to the gun So that really and I told him I said a couple of hours later when I had time to think about it I said that that was really eye-opening for me And I don't want you to feel I Don't want you to be okay with that. I don't want you to be used to that because that's not right So that's something I really need to work on and I notice about myself and I'm gonna be praying about that like seriously And I know that when you pray for something God would test you so if I'm gonna be praying for patience and how to react I'm gonna get those situations to come up more often But yeah, that broke my heart when he said that because I don't want my baby to Feel like cuz I honestly and mommy if you watching me, you know, my parents really don't watch this my mom was that mom She was very short. She yelled a lot She gave out spankings and this film if I explain to her so now I don't do that Cuz JB rarely gets a spanking But she wishes very angry all the time and and as an adult and as I got older She explained why she was that way which I'm not gonna share on my channel because that's that's personal She explained why she was the way she was but I don't want to be that type of mother to my child So I don't want to repeat that cycle of just snapping So yeah, that's all what's going on with personal life But as parents we really do need to to notice when we're doing stuff that is not, you know, right and try to correct it Try to correct the behavior But child JB even told me and I know he the baby is just eight years old But he told me y'all he said Cuz I mentioned something about kids and he said oh, I'm not having kids. I said what what happened to Boris and um Abigail y'all he used to have He used to have make-believe friends that were his kids I think he was he's developed them when he was like five years old and they were his children and their names were Boris and Abigail like what type of German ass Eastern European shows you watching Boris and Abigail And he was saying stuff like okay mama I'm can you fix me a snack and you can't can you fix Boris and Abigail a snack too? I'm like what the hell so I gotta feed you and your damn imagine if it's held on Child I did this all wrong. You see you see how you be when you be drinking Don't drink kids. I'm gonna put this over it though I did that all wrong but I'm gonna put this over it that'll fix it I Supposed to do the maroon in the crease and I accidentally did it on the eyelid, but that's so great We can fix it see see we fixing it right now All right y'all my wings are in the oven here in a second. I'm gonna put some foil on it What I'm watching on YouTube so Just today miss Angel a.k. Let me not say her name. She's like you be Tim. Okay girl Nezzie naps went live and girl. She's still on live. She is setting her hair as he naps is doing her starter her twist for her locks and girl look I Went to go run an errand. I went to go bother miss Lori. I started my size and she's still setting those twists She's been on there for six hours Oh Lord she I think she's she's doing mini two string y'all I need to stop this foundation is getting everywhere She's doing mini two string twist Which a lot of people do to start locks and I honestly would love to have locks you guys But I just know that I wouldn't keep them in I Know I wouldn't because I love to have my hair out loose and flowing Um But yeah, I'm gonna couple of y'all or scrub to Nezzie you probably already saw she's starting her locks her lock journey I'm really excited to see it How things go We talked about you know She has several textures like most of us do but that's too brown. You see that that's way too brown It's too dark. You see you can even see it. Hold on y'all and so She has that Her hair is Almost how's this? She's she's in my pee me. She's 3c4 a4b. I Really do think you have some 3c in there angel. Don't fight me. Don't fight me um But not a lot of 4c now I do think that you are probably 4c at one point you have more 4c4b like me This is so ghetto. I'm using this light-ass concealer to light me up She's not even coming out either This is not coming out this is cakey as hell, but this is gonna work. Let me show you it's gonna work. I promise you So Yeah, remind me never again to act like this on camp ever ever Now let me put some of this stuff up um So, yeah, yeah What else I'm watching on YouTube. Okay, so Nancy did her locks. Okay girl. I've been watching Gordon Ramsay's kitchen nightmares Yeah, I Think no, I know a lot of Damn plan a lot of these shows are highly scripted even the kitchen nightmares is scripted So one of the craziest episodes was with Amy's bacon company I hear and lovely Scott stairs on a Amy's that shit crazy though. I follow it I got in on Amy's Instagram channel. I follow her Instagram Amy Her and her husband who is an older Greek man. I think he's like 20 or 30 years older than her Hasn't been deported back to Greece you guys Anyway, but Amy is a great cook. I will say that a great baker to Fabulous baker her stuff is beautiful on Instagram. So I follow her follow her channel Child she's crazy though. She was one of the few people that I'm Gordon couldn't help but they also had stated on another channel Amy and her husband at the time that The show edited out and they put together clips to me to seem like they were to make it seem like they were You know a certain type of way. I do believe that I really do but I also think that again She ain't all the way wrapped up but Gordon Ramsay Y'all I like his show but he Has some dirt on him. I think he has a mistress who even wrote a book about their affair Yeah, so We ain't gonna really get too much into that shot out to chocolate capricorn. Hey girl She had recommended a young lady's Channel to me her name is old Steph Co and the video I watched of hers was pretty Privilege and now at first when I saw the title I was like girl these Millennials will come up with anything but the more I watched it and Was really looking at her other videos. I began to understand where she was coming from that there is a Certain way that we as human beings treat people who are good-looking There's research on this. I mean, sorry. There's research on this. This is this has been proven that people who are more attractive Get treated better in society. I won't go into detail, but Every job that I've gotten you guys where the a man was the only interviewer I've gotten Every job that I've had what only the man was interviewing the job was my interviewer. I've gotten it. No problem Hell one job. I Trashed that interview and I know I trashed it whatever, but it was very interesting to hear what this Stephanie is her name. I think she's cute. I don't find her unattractive. I wouldn't say this is an ugly person She has beautiful skin. She has great teeth. So that's what I look for but I'm not a man You know what I mean, but she and thank you again chocolate carpet capricorn. Like I said the only thing That I feel very conflicted on she has several videos and her channel is booming She compares herself too much to other people at a young age like high school age She would say things like oh my god, if I can't get a date here How am I gonna find a guy that's gonna want to date me and initially get married, you know what I mean? Like I saw this pattern or I'm witnessing this pattern of how she viewed herself as a young girl Through you know a young adult and now womanhood and now she's 37 years old So has another video where she says, you know, I'm not going to have children and that's okay So she already made up in her mind that since she hasn't been successful at dating online dating and dating in general That she won't be able to meet someone and fall in love get married and have children and I just think that's very disheartening um I Would think and I will say this and this is what I responded to check chocolate Capricorn I do appreciate her Transparency and her being honest because I'm pretty sure there are tons of young women who feel that way However, I know women who look worse than her at least to me on our outside who are married with kids Who found love and you know what I mean who? Have that confidence and didn't stick themselves in a box and say I won't be able to do a BZ You've already said it you've already declared it out loud It may not be you having those children physically it could be you it could be you adopting children It could be you accepting his children as your own. You know what I mean? I just feel I'm a very optimistic positive person I believe in the visualizations and all of that and having a vision board and said this is what I want to be This is where I want to be at in a couple of years. I try not to do age On it because if you would have told me a while back that I would have been in my 30s married and happy kids to me That's late as hell. I should have done that 10 years ago, but I didn't do that I said, okay, this time span and if it doesn't happen, we're gonna make the goals in this time span You know what I mean? So like I said, I appreciate her honesty. She's You guys let me just add this because I have went back and watched some more Stephanie videos and I do like her I've actually subscribed to her. So, you know, my views and opinions are coming from someone who hasn't had to date in the last 20 years So I can only imagine the challenges Especially with all these folks being fake, but honestly that is where this sermon comes into play You know, a lot of people when they meet me for the first time and they like, you know Ask me my opinion of someone that they I'd be honest and they're like, wow, you can come off as a little judgmental No, no, it may be judgmental to you, but discernment. Okay So I went back and rewatch Stephanie's video where she said that she's not going to have kids and that's okay Unfortunately, she did suffer a miscarriage and that's very unfortunate She didn't mention that the guy wouldn't have been a good fit anyway And I do admire again that she holds herself accountable for you know Choosing to be with someone like that again, but this is where the sermon comes into play y'all She was a little sad She mentioned she was a little sad and actually depressed back in 2020 after seeing a post from another woman Who met someone I believe on either online or something they fell in love got engaged Let me tell you something y'all we really cannot compare ourselves to the things that we see on social media social media is so toxic The imagery that we see is fake and we've seen this happen time to time again I find honestly the people that are always Posting by how great their husband is their wife is how great everything is they those are the ones that are almost Overcompensating for something honestly the people who are out there having these great marriages husband wife with the 2.5 kids They ain't they ain't posting on Twitter and Instagram all the time because they're busy living their great lives You know what I mean? So I just want to say that she's not giving herself I Don't know what what you call it girl She's confident I do get that but do not give up on yourself so soon I feel like she's she gave up on herself so soon too soon Y'all talk to me those you who in your 40s and 50s. Let me know she's 37 years old I feel like she still has time to find love. I feel like sometimes Especially as as women we we feel like the clock is ticking we have to do these things by these This timeline by the who says so who says why? Yeah, I'm very interesting young woman Keep saying that because she came off as very young in my opinion So, yeah, yeah, yeah, so girl I'm moving on from that Tabitha and Wendy Williams. First of all, I Understand that a part of Wendy Williams jobs job is to talk about what's in the gossip whether it be internet, you know Viral stuff celebrities the internet celebrities, but the way that she came at Tabitha and her 20-plus years Marriage Wendy, which is very tacky to me. What do you want? What? Why are you so upset? I feel like Wendy is just upset and bitter for no reason. I really do. So baby Tabitha's read her Graceful elegance read was everything And I and I really do feel when they come from someone like Tabitha unlike Monique I really do feel like it comes from a place of sincerity and a place of love. I really do feel like that because she's Boy, I need to go back and listen to that video But I do feel like a console because when I see Tabitha's videos and when I first heard about that her I discovered her on Facebook and she was doing some vegan stuff because she's vegan, right? She was doing some vegan Sponsorships and I just saw this likeness about her and I didn't realize she was actually a little bit older than I thought she was She has his youthful appearance. She has this positive light I love people like that just positive energy and just light and I'm just attracted to that type of personality and I guess for your for you for you who don't know Tabitha's husband decided to retire. He's a police officer And he was supposed to retire a couple of years ago, but now 15 years later Tabitha was like you good, babe. I'm doing good now. Why don't you sit back and Wendy was like, uh-uh Who are you coming for her like that? But baby Tabitha did not waste any time No time at all so good for her So y'all what else am I watching Was watching this kid, I guess he's a tech talker and he had some videos Call what do you do for a living? And so he's knocking on these random people door girl again and talk about privilege Not going on these people doors and basically asking them what do they do for a living? But one thing I find very interesting is that a good 70% of the people Were entrepreneurs basically they had their own businesses Beautiful houses his name is Aaron Benkulmer or whatever girl And most of the people when they you know, they answer the question, you know Let him know what that they do for that they own stuff They have businesses they have businesses overseas and so they have employers They're not working for someone else. I guess it's what I'm saying if they are they are CEOs of like an IT company Seriously, so yeah, that was interesting. All right. Yeah, I know I'm doing this pretty fast, but Javis get on my nerves You know, let me finish doing my hair and makeup, but maybe I'll come back on camera and show y'all what it looks like TV good girls. Yes Yes And you know what was interesting about the actor of money many money many Montoya is that he's very He's very private. I actually like that and I appreciate that He's very private with his social life. He's very private on social media good girls was canceled He has not spoken out at all about it at least from what I've seen on on Instagram. I don't really use Twitter that much anymore He also Is Understand this he said when he's on set. He's very professional like he kind of thinks that some of his other Co-stories where she was a little bit more open, but he's very professional to him. That's a job. So he's not Um, you want you want a muffin? He ain't like that. He's there to work. He's there to be real. He ain't there to be your friend Okay, this is this is work So good girls and good is was good Handmaid's tail sees the finale was Everything I'm like, we're giving you spoilers, but it was everything. Okay. I think that June has gone off the tail And a y'all that actor who plays Nick is fine to me He is fine and those of you don't know his father was actually either a producer or director for the HBO series With Jill Scott the number one detectives agency and the reason why that series did not continue is because The actor who played Nick his father passed away and another man passed away So they couldn't even keep the series, but that was a great series on HBO. What else am I watching girl? I watched Again, which is one of my favorite movies about don't try I try not to watch it a lot because it's it Memoirs of a geisha that but one thing I noticed in this movie. This is Japanese movie. Oh, it's about geishas Which are Japanese culture the actors and excuse me the actresses are Chinese Like the one girl actually played in Crouching Tiger hidden dragon. She's Chinese and Gong Lee Who played in one of my favorite movies curse of a golden flower? She's Chinese too And the other girl she's Malaysian. I think there was really only like two or three Japanese act actors on the set But anyway, it's a great movie. I haven't seen it in a while One thing that I went back to look up just for my own, you know Researches that geishas really don't have sex with their clients. They're there for entertainment watching memoirs of a geisha a beautiful movie to Yeah, so what else have I been watching y'all did I see another movie there was My husband making all this noise like a damn dragon The girl that showed me up. He said I could use any bathroom. I want what's wrong with you Okay, you right Alex you right um what else did I watch I? Haven't continued to watch manifest. I don't think I'm gonna continue that there is oh girl. Oh my god I'm so excited R. L. Stein has a new series about like a cool 90s I even remember this. I cannot wait. It is on Netflix. I'm gonna watch it y'all I'm a huge R. L. Stein Christopher Pike actually a couple of years ago Christopher Pike responded to my one of my comments when I tell you I was in total like I Was star struck at that. I'm a nerd though y'all I read I haven't really finished a book in a while But I have tons of bucks read a good novel in about three to four hours Don't mess with me, but I got people messing with me so I can't finish it So y'all let me cut this video off. I'm gonna go in here and finish my food I know miss Lori like when you doing