 Hey guys it's Liana and I'm here today with my April wrap up. I read a lot of books in April. I kept telling y'all that my April TBR was madness and I was not kidding or exaggerating. I mean you saw my TBR and you knew there was books in addition to that that I was scheduled or set to be reading. So as is now public the TBR or the the wrap up of the booktube where chooses my TBR where Bethany sent me books to read and I sent Bethany books to read and we vlogged it so that's already on my channel. So like the four books on here that are from that I'm not going to talk about too much because like I have a whole lengthy video or I went quite in-depth about what I thought about each of them so I don't want to like waste your time. So I mean I'll mention them. They're in this stack but I won't be spending too much time on that. Anyway how many did I read? One two three thirteen books. The last time I read thirteen books in a month was last October. I know because I had 26 Halloween-ish books on my TBR and I read half of them and I was very proud of it at the time. So the first book I read was Destiny's Captive by Beverly Jenkins which I loathed and despised entirely and like probably the majority of the runtime of that booktube or chooses my TBR vlog is devoted to this book. It's like the first half of it is just this. So the new list to say I don't recommend. It's just in a nutshell. My response to this book is yikes. The next book that I read was The Lost Apothecary by Sarah Penner. I read this because as previously stated my plan for the month, no my plan for the year to keep up with my Book of the Month Club books is to read the previous month's Book of the Month in the subsequent month. This was my March Book of the Month so I read it in April. I am on track with this plan. I was very concerned about this book letting me down because I think this cover was real pretty and I have recently begun to identify with apothecary as ever since Alan declared that I look like I live in an apothecary or not that I look like maybe he thinks I look like I would live in one regardless of my living situation but where I live he thinks looks like an apothecary. It just it spoke to me on that level despite the purpliness of this cover. I liked it. I really did. I was I was hearing mixed things and I put it on my TBR people were like oh it's so good I can't wait for you to read it and other people were like oh good luck with that one and I was like uh-oh because when things are polarizing I'm already tough to please. Even the most popular books of the year are books that I often hate so I was like uh-uh. I quite liked this. I did not think it was groundbreaking. I would not say it's a favorite of the year but I really liked this and I don't really know I haven't bothered to investigate. I don't really know what problems anybody would be having with this like it very much was kind of what I would have expected it to be. People had me worried. They were like oh yeah I was excited about that but it was they let me down. I don't know what were you expecting. This book is exactly what it purports to be so if you don't know anything about it it kind of takes uh it's like a dual timeline uh present day and in the past and they kind of like are connected because of an apothecary. So in the present day there's a woman visiting London and um she kind of stumbles upon this like what was this apothecary at one time but it's kind of like it's this like back alley and it's been forgotten and like I mean there's like more to like how she stumbles upon that but that's basically like her like how she's involved with this or how she's connected to this because she stumbles upon what was once this apothecary. She has her own kind of personal life issues going on that in like not exactly not precisely but in their own ways mirror the events of the past and in the past then we're following like this lady who owned this apothecary as well as this young girl who sort of like came to uh came to the apothecary and ended up kind of working with and for the apothecary and this apothecary is one that like while it did sell regular stuff that one which is generally need it kind of specialized in kind of like not off the books because it did keep its own record of this as well separately this secret underground trade of like poisons and like women's remedies basically like for women who are in trouble somehow that they could come here and like if they you know the law didn't really protect women back in the day so like if a woman was being abused or something and like there is no recourse via the law to get out of this this apothecary would sell her a poison to kill her husband. So yeah I thought the intermingling of the plot lines was cool the way they kind of mirrored and paralleled each other but you know it wasn't this like on the nose where it's like exactly history repeating itself it wasn't but it was interesting like the kind of ways it's connected and in the ways in which it kind of comments on women's kind of like the place of women and women's rights as it was and has it is now and the ways in which women can sometimes still be second class citizens in the present day but the book isn't being just like angrily screaming at the reader that women should be treated better by the modern society it's not doing that like it's not like aggressively soap boxing or anything but it's kind of like pointing out ways in which society's biases and the role of women in society that like is presumed by society and this presumption is kind of projected onto women how that can affect women even to the present day. So I thought it was interesting I thought it was fascinating I was quite invested in all of the women characters that you know both in the past and the present it's not very long it kind of like it tells its story it's this little like slice like we're not doing the life story of the woman in the present day we're not doing the life story of the owner of the apothecary it's just this like little kind of slice of their lives that kind of is this paralleling chunk of it. So I think it handled what it was trying to do very well and it was interesting compelling cool atmospheric in short it it was fine like this is what I wanted out of it it was exactly what I thought I'd get out of it so I would recommend it I don't think it's like the best book ever but like it's quite good and it's exactly what the bookjack it says that it is so like that was great. Next book was a reread and that was Stone of Tears by Terry Goodkind I love the sort of truth books I recently did a podcast with Bethany over on the chapter through podcast I'll leave that link down below because she and I both love the sort of truth books and we kind of read them pre booktube pre books to gram pre or online bookish life and we've kind of been like revisiting them together because we're like there's not a lot of love for sort of truth there's there's not a lot of like for sort of truth there's a lot of derision for sort of truth so she and I kind of like bonded over like we like these books though and like aren't they the best thing ever no are they perfect god no was Terry Goodkind's like yes but they're pretty good like we had a lot of fun reading them back when we read them and like now rereading them we were like oh like were we just young and we like didn't know what good books were but like rereading them she and I were both like they're still really good like they're a lot of fun to read and like they're they're good best ever no have problems yes but they're just a ton of fun to read and she and I maintain that we like them and recommend them so I had a ball reading stone of tears um genuinely sincerely very possibly my highest like reading enjoyment level this month was stone of tears just because it was fun nostalgic escapist fun and like I talked about this a lot in the podcast maybe it where did I maybe I thought about it a lot I don't know but like there's very few fantasy series like since this was like kind of my first there's very few that I've read since then that have delivered the like pure whole mind and body escapism that the sort of truth books delivers where like I for the duration of this read am transported to a different world there's a lot of great books that have a lot of great world building fascinating characters that I love a lot and that I think are better written like do I think Robin Hobb is a better writer do I think Patrick Roth this is a better writer do I think uh Joe Abercrombie is a better writer yes I do 100 no question about it but none of them really transport me to like this like fantasy adventure that I'm just like living the way Terry Goodkind's books do and again they're they're not the best written we'll not say that but I am transported to a fun fantasy adventure that I feel like I'm like living with these characters and going on this quest and like it's exaggerated it's ridiculous but it's fun it's so fun so I had a ball rereading Summer Tears and like I maintained that like if you've just heard that Terry Goodkind was like a freaking weirdo he plus I'm sorry tear you know you were but you know get him from your library you don't want to spend the money they're they're fun next was another reread and that was Ruin and Rising by Lee Bardugo this wasn't such a fun reread um and if you want to see the live show on Jesse's channel because me Jesse and Joshana concluded our like reread of the Grisha books in anticipation of the Shadow and Bone show dropping um so you know the live show for Ruin and Rising is on Jesse's channel I will also leave like that link down below and like mild spoilers like this is a YA adventure romance fantasy so I don't think this is very spoilery but like I'll put a little something to indicate that spoilers are occurring and when they stop but basically like the first time that I read this I was so panicked about like the fact that I thought that Mal wouldn't be endgame and so then like I was so relieved when I finished Ruin and Rising that Mal was endgame and that she did end up with Mal and he was like the the ship that like I gave it five stars because I was just like oh they are together oh so this go around like I'm actually like paying attention to everything else because I wasn't worried about it I wasn't sitting there going this is probably the last time they'll talk or this is basically goodbye or like that's the closest they'll come to being together this is heartbreaking like I wasn't stressed about that I was just like yeah I know they'll be together okay so like let's do this adventure and I was actually paying attention more to the adventure and to like the magic and the actual story and I was like this doesn't make a whole lot of sense like none of this makes like any sense so I still had fun the characters are fun the world is fun I like it I have a good time with it but it is no six of crows oh next up is fireborn uh fires are amundas oh fuck fuck ow I enjoyed this I heard a lot I think it was over hyped for me to be honest then again I don't know I don't know um I did go into it I think I maintained tempered expectations because even though it was so hyped I was just like is it though I also don't like the new covers so I'm just like I would like almost prefer not to be into this because like if I'm really into this then I'll be even angrier about the fact that I won't have a matching set with this style of cover and I did like this so I am upset about that but I'm not like this isn't like my new favorite series of all time so like this isn't like if six of crows had a cover change in the middle and I'd be like this is more just like I do prefer this style of cover and in my perfect world because I would like to read flamefall which is the second one I would prefer the cover of flamefall to be in keeping with this style but no one asked me so fireborn is a YA fantasy that like I think was like it was underhyped to me a lot when it came out which is why I didn't really like prioritize it when it came out and then it was overhyped in the interim so I approached it with like with like we like leveled out at neutrality because it was like way underhyped and then it was overhyped and I was like these like average out to neutral so I went in neutral and it is I think I think it's good I definitely think it's good and I think it's definitely better than like a lot of YA that I've read recently that's like come out more recently because like I mentioned before that perhaps this is merely my impression like I don't have data to back this up but I feel like there's just like so much YA that's just being churned out by publishers that there is very little attention being paid to actual quality and again like that's a feel fact I have no data to support this beyond my own anecdotal experience but that's how I've been feeling when I've picked up new YA and I'm just like oh this sucks this is just like everything else they just put a new cover on basically the same old story and the other the time they did it was better that's how I've been feeling so this reminded me more of like older YA that was back from when I still liked it like back in the day when we had ember and the ashes and six of crows and strange to the dream or these were the YA big hits this was more in keeping with that era of like era which was like four years ago uh it is I think the latter half is much better than the first half the first half is insanely info dumpy it's a lot of telling and not showing a lot a lot of that and I feel like there are more subtle and organic ways to introduce us to this world it's doing a lot of catching you up to the political situation catching you up to who everyone is how this political system is supposed to work who the sides are how they all feel about those sides what the dragons are how they work and like there's a lot of interesting information there like I like this setup and I think it's an interesting us interesting setup to have to be telling the story in and to be had it introduced some interesting themes to play with it I would actually see in YA very much I just feel like it was delivered to the audience to the reader in a very like info dumpy way so I just I felt kind of annoyed and exhausted by the beginning of it where I was just like okay like please stop lecturing me like please stop encyclopedia spewing at me about the world and I would just like to kind of like learn it as I go but I just generally prefer to learn as I go a lot of books info dump and I always hate it the latter half really now like you got to pay off so all this setup for like this political situation um is actually like paying off in some very interesting character dynamics and some very fascinating kind of uh conflicting priorities and like gray morality etc etc so I ended up quite enjoying it and I thought a lot of those themes were handled in a very much more subtle and nuanced way towards the end where the beginning was again a lot of telling and not showing and I was like whatever but it like it got good so I feel mixed about it because like by the end I think like if I was rating them separately like if not that I think they I don't think this should be split into two books I'm not arguing that like all this this should have been two books I don't think that but if I was like you know rating the first half separately from the second half you would be like three and five and so I ended up giving it a four because like I think that that's fair right uh because the ending is like five star quality the beginning is like a three at best so I would say if you are picking this up if you're interested in the world that it's set up if you're interested in the types of themes that are necessarily introduced by the setup that's being info dumped at you that you there is payoff for that like she ends up doing cool stuff with that it just it takes a while to get there for this to be a truly excellent book like I would have preferred my introduction to this world to be just as good but overall I think it was a good book and I recommend it I would like to read playing ball next up was 100,000 kingdoms by NK Jemisin this was the patron buddy read for April and I had a ball reading this um I love love love love love the broken arts trilogy and it was actually really interesting for me going back to reading the first book that she wrote because I believe this is her debut and it was interesting seeing kind of like um like the prototype version of like a lot of themes that she actually ends up exploring in broken earth so it was kind of like seeing the like like the drawing board version or like baby Jemisin kind of like nudging those concepts and being like this is a thing that I kind of want to be doing and then she like full on does it in broken earth so 100,000 kingdoms was like I might maybe enjoyed it more because I was going the reverse order if I'd read this first it was my first ever exposure to Jemisin I still would have liked it I think she has a very distinct authorial voice which is like impressive that that voice is so clear and so distinct in even the very first book that she wrote you're like you open it you read the first like sentence you're like this is the Jemisin book just straight up but because like it wasn't just this story and these themes that I was like engaging with I was also engaging with like the metatextual like Jemisin catalog where I was like ah this is interesting to see you doing this like I in my mind till now this was unique to the broken arts trilogy and now it is unique to Jemisin in my mind but it is something that she has now done more than once this isn't something that is only done in broken earth this is a thing you clearly are interested in and like to do and we're already trying these things out here so I don't know I recommend I don't know which is the better way to experience it I can only tell you how I've experienced it but I think there was something to be said for reading broken earth first and then giving this ago because it's it's interesting to see and actually I mean I have a similar recommendation for Six of Crows and Grisha trilogy because I read Six of Crows first and I think it's truly excellent and then went back around the Grisha trilogy and if I had only ever read the Grisha trilogy like I wouldn't be all that impressed with Lee Bardugo as a writer like I still think the Grisha trilogy is like a lot of fun but it's like it's fine but because I read Six of Crows then I just kind of like had a lot more love for the world and also knew that Lee Bardugo like her ability to like tap into like character messy characters like she really like leans into that later so like reading the Grisha trilogy after you're like starting to see how she's kind of like going in the direction of being doing more introspection with characters but is like kind of sidelining that to tell the adventure story and she like must have realized that like her strong suit is this like character introspection which she really leans into in Six of Crows so in that case too I would possibly recommend reading it the reverse order. Any of you who's back to 100,000 Kingdoms I really enjoyed this I immediately went out and purchased the next two books in the series which are not so much this isn't a series where like this is like one story that's broken into three parts the other two books are like tangentially connected to the events of this book but it's not like a direct sequel in the traditional sense but I am fascinated by these themes I love Jemisin's writing style like now having seen that this voice carries over again it's not unique to broken earth this is just kind of like Jemisin's voice is a voice that I love and I'm excited to read more Jemisin and I'm I just chewed through this absolutely loved it can't wait to read more. The next book I read was The Lord of the- no if I wasn't this is my kindle um I read the Heart of Blood and Ashes by Mila Vane or the Blades and Bodice Rippers book club and I hated it I did like the heroine in it which again if you want to see my full or more thoughts then go check out the live show that was on Bethany's channel um where we all four of us discussed the book I liked it I think least per usual it was a barbarian romance emphasis on a barbarian and uh I think all of us agreed that we liked her a lot more than we liked him even like the people in the camp of loving the book it was too long I think all four of us agreed that we liked her better than him and that the book was too long I wouldn't now recommend but it is apparently quite popular in the romance space for people who like barbarian romances like people are like this is the one so like I can't claim to understand it but apparently people are loving this so if it sounds appealing to you maybe give it a go because people love it I don't know why next is another reread and that was Besser of Cold by Joe Abercrombie this uh was my favorite Joe Abercrombie book until the new trilogy started coming out so a little hatred dethroned Besser of Cold and then trouble appeased dethroned a little hatred this was my like nearly third time reading this I have I think already posted my review I was a little more on the ball with actually reviewing it like more quickly after having read it so I think that's already up non-spoiler I still enjoy this book I still think it's fantastic I still think it's great Call of Shivers is like one of my favorite character arcs in all of fiction and a very large chunk of his character arc is in this book it's not all of it but his character arc over the over the across the first law books like is a is a fantastic one and you really get a lot of them meet of his character arc in this book so I just I'm always here for that the main thing this book is missing is Glockdown but every book is missing Glockdown so yeah I again I talked about this in my my review I'm I I'm almost wanting to say I'm disappointed with it but only because of the first law books that I have reread this is the only one that I feel like is the exact same experience every time you read it it isn't different the other first law books like you've learned something along the way or you've learned something by the end that completely like recontextualizes the previous events so then upon reread you are now like experiencing this story and these events through a completely different lens because your like your view of it is colored by what you now know best of cool doesn't really have anything like that about it it doesn't end in a way where you're like oh oh um so rereading it it's just like a fantastic book so it's a good book and it's good to read a good book but it isn't a new experience rereading it and like having loved how fun it is to have that new experience reading other first law books it's kind of disappointing to not have that but I guess like the first time you read it like you'd know I I should have expected that because like yeah there isn't really anything about the ending that reframe is the beginning so it's a great time it's well written I love these characters love being in this world I enjoy it but it's not it doesn't have kind of like those layers of experience that the other books have so I guess that's a weakness in a way it's not an immense weakness but um that was my main takeaway next up I read rain and ruin this was another book that Bethany picked for me and I ended up really really liking this one in terms of just reading enjoyment out of the four books she sent me this was the one I probably enjoyed the most had the most fun reading this is a fantasy romance it is like 50 50 mostly like me or 60 40 maybe I don't know it is a strong fantasy story with a lot of politics and battle and a magic system and like all that kind of thing but it's kind of almost like the style of YA fantasy because YA fantasy tends to like put in a lot more of a romance plot than most like adult fantasy does so this is in that and keeping with that kind of style but it's for adults so it's not YA it is definitely adult but it's like YA and the like emphasis on romance and then it does have like adult content um related to the romance but I think I really enjoyed it for that reason because it feels like the best of like old school YA where it just feels like a great fantasy story but with this like strong romantic current and then we've like aged it up because like these aren't 16 year olds like they're adults making adult decisions um about their love life and I had a really good time it's a Middle Eastern inspired world which is really like kind of lush and the author is like her prose is very evocative so it was it was a good time and I really liked main characters and I would definitely read more from this author I enjoyed this another Bethany book uh fledgling by Octavia Butler I had uh I own parable of the sewer and had thought and intended that to be my first Octavia Butler but I haven't read it yet and Bethany sent me fledgling so fledgling ended up being my first Octavia Butler I overall also enjoyed this one this was of the ones Bethany sent me the one that I think is probably the most impressive the best like the best book but I had some problems with like the way in which the book is structured I thought were less quality than like the themes like the story itself the themes present in it what like the characters are doing the like concepts she's exploring etc is fascinating and unique but the the structure of the book is very kind of like info dumpy and kind of rushed and and things like that about it so like as like a reader like the reading experience like I thought it could have been done better but like what the thing that is being explored here and like the themes that are introduced and the concepts that are being played with was fascinating and really cool and really interesting so I definitely want to read more Octavia Butler again I still want a repairable of the sewer I own it so like now it's next up unless somebody again like scoops it and gives me some other Octavia Butler there for some reason I have to read so I intend that to be next but yeah I definitely recommend this um I had zero issue with this I don't super super duper get why anyone would have a mega issue with this but I'm informed that people have an issue with this so I'm like paying it forward giving you the warning that people take issue with the fact that the main character in this who is he like a vampiric other species and not a human person it is not and vampires in this world are not humans that are like turned they're just a different species it's not a human she looks kind of like an adolescent she looks like a kid but she is not a kid because when she's not even human and too she's older than she looks so like on the inside she is an adult making adult decisions so people take issue with the fact that this childlike looking thing does very adult things again I have zero issue with this because of like how it's framed this isn't a kid doing doing these things it's not even a kid that was turned into a vampire doing these things this is not even a human so like I don't care at all but again I understand that there are people that really are bothered by that so FYI next is another Bethany book and that was American Hippo these are kind of backed back because I was like coming up on the deadline to like be posting the video and I was like I gotta finish these I hated American Hippo very much don't recommend this this is actually a bind up of two novellas and two short stories so four all together that all take place in this world it is an alternate history America where the American government this is a real thing that was considered by the American government that is to import hippos and ranch them obviously America chose not to go with the hippo plan but in this book America did decide to go with the hippo plan but these stories don't really like explore that at all beyond just like FYI there's hippos like we're pretending like that did happen but we're not gonna like actually like go into that at all so that's these books aren't about that they just take place in a world where that happened if that makes sense and I would have much preferred a book that actually is about that and the repercussions of that which would have been immense there would have been incredibly like they're far reaching repercussions for if the government had done that book isn't concerned with that the book is a bunch of like it's a whole bunch of characters that in my opinion are very surface level and aren't like it I didn't think this was fun I didn't think it was interesting but it was boring as hell so would not recommend the second to last book that I read was a buddy read with Mara from Books Like Woe and Alan from the Library of Alan Sandria and that was Jamaica Inn by Daphne Jemaurier I think I mentioned this in the TBR video like we kind of figured out that like even though the three of us have like kind of wildly different tastes and interests our like Venn diagram crosses over and this like neat little nugget of of Daphne Jemaurier so we buddy read Jamaica Inn and I think all three of us really liked it and I think all three of us like Rebecca better so like that's kind of how we figured out that all of us would be interested in Daphne Jemaurier because we had all read Rebecca and liked it and we're interested in reading more yeah I I think I mean is it an incredibly atmospheric book this seems to be like basically Daphne Jemaurier's kind of thing is atmosphere setting a mood setting a tone really putting you in a place in time really putting you in the headspace of characters that are in this place making the place almost a character unto itself the location here isn't quite the like character that Mandalay is in Rebecca but Jamaica Inn and like though this rural remote place where this book takes place is like a constant like like the fact of that is it's more than a setting the fact of that is is present throughout the story in a very active way I thought it was an interesting exploration of some gray characters I likened it to grimdark in that like the characters aren't there is no like good guy the people like I guess you're rooting for them but mainly you're just kind of following them you're kind of just seeing what these people do in the situation and the author isn't trying to be like but it's fine because I explained it with this or like you know like I feel like in particular why I will do that were like the broody angsty bad boy who seems like the bad boy but then you find out his secret backstory motivations are that like he had to do this because he was forced to do it and then you're like oh he's secretly a good like the book doesn't try to do that like people are messy and they are a lot of them not good but it's just a fascinating kind of like slice of humanity in this rural part of England doing some questionable things so I think it's interesting the ending is quite a packed quite a punch I'd been kind of spoiled for it because I've seen a few adaptations of this none of those adaptations are actually as accurate as the Hitchcock Rebecca is to the book Rebecca for that reason like I was somewhat spoiled for what would happen but I will say that the way that it actually happens in the book if you like me have seen like the mini series that they did a couple years ago it's Jessica Brown Finley or if you've seen the Hitchcock one it's nothing like the book you are not spoiled for anything and you've seen some adaptations of this the book is different the book just is kind of wild so like if you're like oh I've already been spoiled for that it won't be any fun to read it you're wrong the book may surprise you it did surprise me of it in the end like overall like the events of the plot I was familiar with and knew what to expect but there's some very key details about how this actually goes down that are unique to the book that I haven't have not been present in an adaptation that I have seen and I was like oh okay so I would I would generally recommend this book um and I would continue to recommend it even if you've seen an adaptation because those little last ones uh it's interesting the last book that I read was oh god Northern Wrath by Tilled Cold Holt um I started reading this in January um and I finally actually read it and I was disappointed with this that's kind of why I didn't finish it because I was feeling like oh I don't know if I'm liking this and it was just breaking my heart because this such a Viking book and it's the first in this series the hanged god trilogy and I was so pumped to have like a viking series to be on board with and I was like by not continuing to read it I didn't have to have past judgment on it and I was just like oh yeah I'm reading that maybe I'll get better but I was like pretty sure that I wouldn't but if I don't read it I don't know that so this wasn't a horrible this is not my thing I didn't like how it was executed there are some things about it I mean like the viking lore and the viking neat things in it like I love viking stuff and it was done in ways that I hadn't really seen before at other like viking-ish books but a lot of the way that this is told um so I will say like I do recommend this but not if you're like me but a lot like the way a lot of things about the writing style are reminiscent to me of things that I strongly dislike in like John Gwynne's books or Brandon Sanderson's books to authors with immense popularity and success so clearly most people do not have the issues that I have so I have to think that this book may very well deserve your attention and reading of it because a lot of people love malice a lot of people love Brandon Sanderson and so those same people very possibly very likely would enjoy this so if you're one of those people if you love the faithful in the fallen series and you love uh the stormlight archive etc this may be for you it's it's it wasn't for me and probably will not continue with the series although the end did pick up a bit and made me almost kind of want to read on but like not really though which is kind of a letdown um I don't think it's bad I gave it three stars did I give it three stars thank you three stars the vikinginess of it like I'm always here for that and I did enjoy it more than malice I just found a lot of it to be quite childish and info dumpy and I feel like I say childish and info dumpy a lot of times about John Gwynne's books and well book I only read malice and Brandon Sanderson's books and again most people don't seem to have those issues it's just me so it's it might be great for me so yeah those are all the books that I read in what month April let me know in the comments down below if you've read any of these books if I've now inspired you to pick up any of these books if uh you love them if you hated them if you agree or disagree with me um our patron buddy read for may is going to be the shadow what was lost which I mentioned in my tbr um but mentioning it again because I was just talking about my patron buddy read and like I had a lot of fun buddy reading with patients so if you want to get in on that my patreon is linked down below or down it's up to you uh I post videos on saturdays other random times as well definitely saturdays so like and subscribe and I'll see you when I see you bye