 Hi, hey, good morning Welcome to above-life channel the purpose here is to inspire your seared and to fill you with hope this morning We're gonna have a chat you and I are gonna have a conversation. I'm actually live streaming this Monday morning. It is May 1st Happy Beltane for those of you who follow the wheel of the year or about tonight as some of my Celtic wheel friends would say so Today instead of doing a traditional celebrity channeling, which is primarily The focus of above-life channel. I'm gonna have a conversation with you about what happens with death and loss through that process because I've recently went through it and so thank you so much to those of you who have sent to me condolences and And Just loving prayers for my family my grandmother who was 98 years old for those of you who don't know. Let's catch up. Let's catch up My grandmother who was 98 years old Left this earth. She transitioned the last week on Thursday And she went into hospice care last Saturday. I started to go see her on Sunday so I went Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday and did all of the things that a granddaughter would do especially when My as my father's mother My dad wasn't available to do it So my grandmother had two sons my uncle and my dad and my dad was the oldest So he would have been the one that kind of takes care of things and because he isn't available I of course would be the one that would do that and so I'm the oldest of the three of us my siblings I have two other siblings so I Also have the unique Capacity to really hold space as you well know Especially if you've been in sessions with me as a psychic and as a medium and my work here on above-life channel It's just a sliver of a fraction of what I actually do in all of the psychic Skill sets. Let's just say I have a lot of different Psychic skills. We'll say it that way as far as working with energy holding sacred space Mediumship communicating specifically with the afterlife very comfortable in that arena. I've been doing that for 18 years professionally This is my 19th year and at the same time I Actually started this journey in 2004 Two years after the death of my father because I didn't grieve really my dad died very quickly Over like a six seven week period of time went into the hospital or six weeks It was about he was diagnosed with HIV AIDS Fulblown AIDS in June of 2002 and then he went into the hospital in July in 2002 and he never came out so At that time I was pregnant with my second child very very pregnant with my second child and It was a whole process of going to the hospital making that pilgrimage back and forth and back and forth to the hospital when someone is in You know critical care acute care even palliative care hospice, which my dad moved into at the end of his life I was not aware of my psychicness then I had a lot of visions and things happening and But I didn't acknowledge I just It was different. You know, I didn't really embrace or embody or accept that as actual psychic abilities or or experiences I just hadn't had those aside from paranormal stuff. I had tons of that growing up We should have a conversation about that I don't think above-life channel you guys really know all this stuff about me Because I have used my fairy grasshopper YouTube channel for years to talk about this like for years I've actually had another YouTube channel since 2012. It's so lots of stuff here background-wise to fill you in on so my actual journey my opening awakening started two years after my dad died and It was a whole thing. I actually buried his ashes and At that point and that's when kind of the opening happened for me So I wanted to talk about then in this context about now that his mother Transitioned in the afterlife and I was there for that transition. I was there In the wee hours of the morning actually early early Thursday morning She died and I was there when she took her last breaths and it was just her and I and the same happened for my grandfather So her husband who died 15 years ago. I was there when he took his last breaths as well And so kind of interesting how this has worked for me Yeah, it's just it's kind of crazy special for me to be there and so and thinking about that it's brought up a whole bunch of of of Additional information and healing opportunities for me personally about grief and the grief process and the awareness of how death is so different for different people at different times and There's not one size fits all when it comes to living and also there's not one size fits all when it comes to death Dying and it's not just a literal physical body death But also we have been dying in so many different ways as we go through life transitions as we change our body ages Are our lifestyles change? I mean look at the whole process with COVID so many of us If we didn't change then you're changing now like you're feeling the aftershocks of that 20 20 Oh my god stuff that happened. We're constantly and consistently as energetic beings, which you are Looking to understand looking to have a connection and more of a expanded sense of ourselves So that we can manifest so that we can make ourselves The the version of ourselves that we can be comfortable with and and proud of and confident in and and And aware of ourselves self-aware and not reacting or responding to all of these old Paradigms and cycles like I think about who I was when Like I go back to now because my when my dad's mother died and I was there last just last Thursday I was thinking about all of the things about it brought up so much about the grief and the dying process with my dad that was 20 years ago and So it made me very aware that we should have this you and I should have this conversation about grief and about dying and how We're constantly in this cycle of life endings and beginnings there's such a Sweetness a bitter sweetness between these these These processes that we've kind of separated living and dying when really I mean life We think about life linearly because obviously our bodies do expire at some point but then what about the spirit and which goes first and I just I've I had this kind of profound shift a bit or perspective That came through and with my grandma's death that was very different than with my dad's death than with my grandpa's death just it was just different and I thought we should talk about this and acknowledge that A grief for one thing grief Isn't something that has a beginning middle and an end It has multiple stages as you know If you've followed or participated in a grief group or gone through therapy or counseling regards to grief By the way, if you haven't and you've had a traumatic loss of somebody in your life Like significant loss a child as a partner best friend a very close family member Go to counseling for it because your brain needs to also process So there's so many levels of you that need to process Death and loss right So many parts of you. So your mind needs to process it. Your mind has to process it. So does your heart Okay, so does your body because your body holds this energy It's like a tenseness And for some it could be fear like heart based fear could be dogma like religious trauma or Or just this this fear of not feeling good enough connected to some old pattern of I'm not enough I'm not good enough. Therefore if I die what's gonna happen or just fear of the unknown The fear of I don't know. I just don't know what's after this life Like am I just done or maybe fear of loss leaving your loved ones? Like I'm gonna leave my kids are they gonna be okay or Is my spouse gonna be okay that kind of thing, you know that unexpectedness that That we like consistency right we like to plan we like a rhythmic nature to things We like a linear understanding of things beginning middle and end it doesn't always work like that in fact Because the body you think of as this thing that has this expiration date, which it does It also is extraordinarily intuitive very psychic it holds information for you And so sometimes when you're going through a process like a dying process of a loved one somebody in hospice care palliative care and or just Revisiting loss You yourself will feel things in your physical body And and it seems like we very much neglect our physical body when we are caring for someone else You know this true because half of you are probably in this scenario It's probably why you're watching this video. Okay, and so i'm telling you get support that you need Okay, things that you can do for your body just consistently eating do the water Um make sure you're getting out of the house or getting out of the hospital or the care center and you're going for a walk You can't just sit inside look out the window and see the sunshine go out and stand in it for a few minutes Have have a cup of coffee maybe or decaf tea Water and just breathe the air Just be outside even if it's raining just be like uh, I just need the freshness of the rain like that Or the feeling of the wind on your face simple things like that Take let the body have its sensory support because it needs sensory support Just as the heart does need validation for the emotions that come up because in grief and in loss The easiest thing to do is be angry Think about it this way without just a physical death think about the death of a relationship like a divorce you Are going to process different stages of grief as well in that because it's a massive massive change it is a death of something that once was Okay, you might also experience this as when your kids go off to college You there literally is this grieving process that does happen Those of you who know or your kids leave the house or whatever it is They they go off to the military or they move out of the house There is this massive change that happens from your time as the parent and you shift into a different type of parenting And so there's this major massive death of what was The time that was and now it's new So there's this new time. So you have to kind of recalibrate and resituate yourself And there are powerful and profound questions. Here comes the brain work That you will encounter when you have any kind of death or loss So loss could be job loss. It could be a kid's moving out. It could be divorce. It could be any kind of massive shift In your life experience that is a death That is a metaphysical death that is an energetic death treat it as such And recognize you're going to feel this loss and it's going to cause you to question everything about your life And that is okay. That's a check-in point Utilize it. It is not a punishment. It is not happening because you did something bad. It is not a consequence loss It's not a consequence If it is a consequence It is a consequence of living fully There is a risk to living fully you will feel loss and even if you don't live fully You will feel loss. You will experience grief in your lifetime many many times Let it be an ally not an enemy And when those emotions feeling their emotions, it's so much easier to be angry and nitpicky And crabby than it is to be sad and I know because anger feels much more powerful It feels more passionate and like I have strong energy of strength When the truth is the sadness the sorrow is what you need to clear and cleanse you you need to let yourself Be vulnerable in that state of sadness and sorrow you need to be brought to your knees sometimes and cry and Cry on the earth let your tears hit the earth and the crying will randomly come You might be standing in line at the grocery store for checkout and you hear a baby crying and you start Balling your eyes out and you have no idea Why that just triggered a release for you because it's new life. It's fresh life It's a cycle of life It might not even be even remotely directly related at all to you and your grief process or your loss experience But you are feeling and the feelings will just come they will just come out So if you make room in space for that yourself to feel those feelings You will feel like you do have a little bit more control over the process of yourself You will be able to manage the energy within yourself, but by honoring what your brain needs to process and think about Counseling online support groups that kind of thing regardless of whatever kind of grief you have It might be a physical loss of a relative or loved one. It might be a a financial loss a big thing like I got divorced or I Had a a business that failed and now I got a I'm filing for bankruptcy whatever that is for you There are massive losses that people are experiencing right here right now. And so we will not Devalue the intensity of those deaths because they are deaths So In this process and experience that I've had recently I was really able to see And to feel that even after 20 years after my dad died I still have opportunities for healing from that experience It isn't to cause me more pain sometimes pain piggybacks on itself and you will redirect your pain into something else Try to fix it like oh, I'm going to like change my life and I'm going to get a new job And I'm going to focus my pain for a purpose on that and then I'll feel powerful and get my power back And that happens for a while and that works and then eventually you have another loss and then it it kind of piggybacks It keeps kind of paying it forward a little bit And so sometimes You'll have a loss that seems subtle or small But it will become huge for you because the grief is continuing To show up To show you to give you an opportunity for yourself to pause and to heal to clear out the The emotions in the heart to let yourself honor yourself by letting yourself allowing yourself the room to heal To to express your feelings. Just get it out. It's like venting. Don't you feel better after you vent sometimes? Don't you feel better after you have an experience where you've really heard Where somebody actually hears what you're saying and then they're compassionate towards you Like that's what that's what we do in session. You know, that's what we do in our Intuitive coaching session my psychic or that's what we do, right? So like, you know, because you always tell me you feel so much lighter I'm like, yeah, because you expressed you were singing and heard and held So you can do those things for yourself. You can use journaling You can use meditation. You can use essential oils You can use Physical body movement walks yoga Just sitting in a chair and rocking rhythmic repetitive movement to calm and soothe the new nervous system So that you can release and identify what you're feeling Get help from like a social worker A counselor a great coach a feelings coach something like that to just really get the support you need I recognize that some of those things seem very privileged But there's also tons of resources online. I have even been on tiktok. Oh my gosh, there's so many somatic therapists You got to find the good ones use your intuition people use your discernment not everybody grades Okay, not everybody. That's a therapist or counselors great. I know I know I get that They're people they're human So find something that resonates with you and be open to receiving guidance or new tools or trying different things like EFT tapping To help calm and soothe the nervous system. This also honors your physical body and the energy that's in your body Um using your the chakra system like in yoga to clear and cleanse and to just connect and move and flow Maybe go swimming. Maybe take Take some time to just go out in nature and sit on a bench and just breathe the air There's so many different ways you can connect to the energy flow And to your body which is really holding a lot of the information and the opportunities for healing so Okay, my friends, this is a lot. I know you guys guess what I have a new client today. I'm pretty excited about it And I'm looking forward to talking to them shortly here in a little bit That's pretty exciting. I am accepting new clients for my psychic and coaching work. So If you're interested in that there will be a link in the description of my video so you can book a session with me I also do video sessions too that are Kind of mini sessions where you can get kind of what's like a reading basically Um, and those are a little more affordable too. So check that out after but I really wanted to have this conversation. I want to go deeper I'd like to have another conversation with you specifically about the dying process like what happens to the body because I have had such a profound uh perspective from The recent death of my grandmother and really seeing how The human body Functions versus the spirit how the spirit functions and I know that For my dad's death looking back in retrospect and then my grandfather's death how it felt and it felt very different from my grandfather's death felt very different than my grandmother and It wasn't like either one of them struggled more or there's this perception Oh, we should have a conversation about this There's this perception that people are like hanging on they're waiting And sometimes that's true. Okay to be clear sometimes It's true And they're usually hanging on for you Because you are having a hard time because you can't quite get there or you have to work and you're worried And so they do try to hang on until you get there so you feel better It's not for them Don't make the mistake that the soul of the person Needs you to be there in order for them to feel complete. No They have angels and guides and spirit helpers and they are Master of their own destiny. They are not Just you need to come and clip the cord so they can go. No No, no, no, do you really think you are one person in your family has that much power? Please stop telling people that that really Is not the truth and that's really painful to family members who cannot get there The fact that you weren't there doesn't mean you don't care It doesn't mean you don't love them. It doesn't mean your loved one doesn't know how much you love them Of course they do and in spirit form. We all know they have access To you and what you share and what you say and how you feel So when you say hey, I'm sorry grandma. I couldn't be there They know They're okay with that just because your family isn't that's your family's problem They're just redirecting their energy anger their grief turning their sadness into anger and projecting it on you Now that didn't happen to me That doesn't happen to me But I have had so many sessions with people just like you Who have had experienced grief and loss of a loved one where you couldn't be by their bedside and you have guilt for that And I get that that's a real thing, right? We're human. We're gonna feel guilty sometimes and when your family Is like trying to tell you that you have to say goodbye. You need to show up or they're not gonna die It's like a huge Not truth. That's an untruth And the the fact is that the family wants you there because the mail feel better, you know, it's like Stop layering on guilt during grief and loss. It just it does not it should not be here It doesn't belong here But it is a natural human part of the process and I think that part of the reason why the guilt comes in is to help you Heal yourself so that you don't choose to accept the guilt burden for your family About the death of whoever You don't have to carry the guilt burden You get to choose to love yourself more deeper more profoundly With the support of the loved one in the afterlife regardless of what their values or belief systems were religious leanings In this lifetime in the afterlife. They would gladly lift off the guilt from your heart and take it For you and fill that space back up with beautiful light pink compassionate energy of love. That is the truth If we really believe even if religious practices and various spiritual practices Would just truly Understand and embody what they're touting about love and acceptance and embracing that Then there wouldn't be the need for the guilt projections There wouldn't be the need for this. I gotta be there. That's a human thing. That's a human thing The love is eternal it always exists. It doesn't die That is what the soul holds on to to connect and communicate with you That's what it is It's love There's no guilt or shame or pain in that Okay, the purity of the soul and the spirit connection to you and with you and through you is love Even if you're mad at that person Even if you have unresolved business And you're holding grudges. It does not matter. You can release that at any point in your lifetime or never That's your choice as a human person and in the afterlife as you're dying it will Transmute it dissolves So I wish we kept our own personifications our bodies in the afterlife because I would love to bump into some people That I know have very different viewpoints and opinions in this lifetime than I do and be like Would you like to say I'm sorry now? Oh, hi Remember how you thought I was going to a different place which was very hot I'm not turns out. They accepted you here, too. Isn't that great like I really wish it was more personified, you know, so that people would understand but I just know I just know you guys I've talked to so many dead people. Okay You just have to trust me on this, please Please can you in this moment? Can you just let the grief dust settle Into a vibe of understanding that the reason why there's grief is to promote opportunity for healing And to acknowledge that you have had connection and that is why you came into a body to connect That's the purpose of your life stop asking me what your life purpose is it is connection How you choose to do that is your choice and you get to use your unique skills And your cool interest and what lights you up to create that through your life You are a living life purpose. You are a living Beautiful energetic being that is hosted in a beautiful gorgeous body Which sometimes is rickety and complaining because you need to take care of it And like you need to take care of your heart Don't let the guilt settle into the heart. That is what is in the heart space that messes up grief grief is an Opportunity it is grief is a pure pure energy It is pure and it travels the different stages Through you through your mind and your heart and your body and your soul so that you can feel in those stages Permission to heal and to connect in deeper to just really root into this lifetime Because that's the purpose It is not to cause you pain it is to relieve Pain that you're already carrying and I know this I know this because it's happened to me when my grandma died I felt this Opportunity open up once again To clear more of my own grief that I've held within my body within my heart and My soul won't accept carrying it So it kind of disconnects my soul in ways to my truest beautiful self Because it the soul won't carry the grief it doesn't see it like that grief is just like a bridge for the soul It's just something you walk through you pass through To get to the point of light You don't have to be dead to have that experience don't die and then figure it out Please don't die while you're alive live So release the guilt as much as you can because that is something that is a projection on to you It has been there Projected on to you from any point in your lifetime and it just amplifies just the volume turns up on that And it just gets bigger the focus on it gets bigger then so now You have the opportunity we have the opportunity to clear some of that out and so I felt so much like in my dad's death because even with My dad's passing so my grandparents were there all the time in the hospice. They were right there by his bedside in fact when my father left the earth my grandma and my mom held his hands his mother and his wife were there and At my grandma at my dad's funeral at the memorial service My grandparents very church-going Lutheran people um never All the people that were there helping there were tons of people with all the old ladies with the bars and it's 20 years ago So, you know, they're all like I don't know like in their 70s and stuff and they're all like Making bars and cookies and they're helping everybody and they're hello and all this stuff And it's so sweet and wonderful, but everybody thought dad died of lewis. He did not but That was the the place that my grandparents were comfortable at and that was the last thing before the AIDS diagnosis Was lupus that he potentially had lupus or something like that So that was the story And instead of like being super angry about that story or needing to like break through that I just let them have that space and so did my siblings and my mom and stuff. We just let them have that because That energy of guilt or shame connected to pain we haven't even touched on the shame part But that guilt energy and then the not knowing the the feeling of being Betrayed maybe not really knowing your child's like them not feeling comfortable to share with you who they've been their whole lives Like there's a whole bunch of stuff that they had to sort out. I think and I don't know if they ever really sorted it out But that was theirs to process so for me To be like that's not right. Let's clear this up. That's not that wasn't my place my place was to manage and handle my grief and the guilt that I had around That experience and I am now processing that guilt now. I feel it myself. I didn't feel it at that time necessarily I did like everything right Supposedly and now I'm at this time in my life where my life is massively to shift it and changed And now I feel it So you will feel it but use it as information to help lean into your own personal healing process And show up for you. That's the point That's the point and when you allow yourself to heal. It's not like a oh, I'm done. Everything's great It's not like taking Tylenol and the headache goes away the headache comes back. It might get a little bit lighter But it's a process of tending to and caring for yourself just says you would have loved one when they were transitioning and I want to speak to some of you who Maybe you feel guilty because you couldn't be that person that was the caregiver And you maybe would have wanted to be but you just can't do that. You just can't handle that stuff, you know And the dignity and how to handle that with the the person and their body and I had a huge Awareness of how much I have shifted and how much I've grown in my capacity to really hold space with my grandmother Because I thought I wouldn't be that person either and I was with her and You know holding her hands rubbing her hands and touching her face And I fixed her wig. She had a wig I fixed her wig and stuff and I just hey I anointed her multiple times to help her in her journey in her transition and You know, I opened the window shades because everybody it was always like dark in there. I'm like come on You know, this doesn't have to be a gloomy depressing thing. Let's just This might be her last day on earth. Let's let the sunshine touch her body through the window. Let's let it you know kind of thing and just Really honoring the physical body as much as the spirit of her And so, you know putting the chapstick on the lips Because of the breathing through the mouth as many of you have heard that experience There's so much here. And if you want me to share this story more in depth, let me know And maybe I would do it here or maybe on a sunday morning coffee I could do it But I don't want to like bombard it with my own personal stuff recently because I'm working through this right now I really want this to be about you as a viewer of above-life channel and I want you to get more More more understanding about yourself and about energy and about who we are as people And what this really means and why we even have above-life channel Is to be able to look down upon our life's experiences and put things into perspective and the fact that we talk to dead people They have so much wisdom Then we should be able to be more spongy and appreciate and soak that up So you don't have to live through there you live their pain But when you do identify with their pain or you feel sorrow for somebody that's famous for example when they die And a lot of people feel guilty about that I why do I feel bad about Prince? I didn't even like his music. I wasn't really a fan Which they call them fan by the way So don't call yourself a fan because then people will know on the prince category that you are not the original G fam. Okay, just just heads up on that. But so That kind of loyalty. It's a big deal. You know, it's a really big deal and so and that's fine But the reason why sometimes you wake up when somebody dies that you never really you kind of knew about but you didn't really connect to Is because there's an opportunity To release your own personal guilt Your own personal grief and your own personal loss Some of the things that you are feeling activated or sad about Are the same exact reflection of things in your life that you feel regret over remorse over or like, oh my gosh Why didn't I do x y or z? It could be about that relationship you lost It could be about the job change you've never made It could be about the thing you never chose to do in college or it could be it could be any number of things But the reason why we connect in through the loss of somebody famous or well known is because it's an opportunity to heal To clear the resistance and the path so you can be a better Version of yourself and the better version isn't better by somebody else's standard It's it's opportunity to feel feel good and to experience life in a way that's Zestival and joyful and you deserve that and that's why you came here That's why you came here for the balance of the things The good and the bad the light and the shadow the sad and the joyful These things always exist at the same time. It's not one or the other. It's always an and there's always a balance It's always both. Do you see it's always both There's nothing wrong with you if you've suffered a lot of loss It just means that you have this incredible incredible capacity for healing Incredible like processing so much like that's amazing. It doesn't feel amazing I will give you that I will give you that but this is why you have support this is why you have tools This is why you have people and resources and online stuff. That's free tiktok and instagrams and youtubers and all sorts of people that are super incredible coaches and therapists and counselors who Are sharing with you their shit for free It's free you have access just find what is an alignment for you and devour it like vitamins And then if you need additional assistance you reach out and you get a coach You you hire somebody you get a counselor you go to a group you find a group online There's so many opportunities and resources Care enough about yourself to do that Okay please That is the moral of this story. All right So I'm going to say hello to the chat. Thank you so much for being here for this Conversation it is not a channeling. It is a chat And let me know if you want me to go deeper and talk more about like the dying process pieces that I saw I might do that on a sunday morning coffee If you're interested in that I know there's a lot of people dealing with grief and actual hospice care and loss of loved ones that way Especially post-covid I think so if you're interested in that and I know that there's people that could appreciate that I will do that Let me say hello in the chat and then I gotta wrap it up because I gotta get ready for my session I gotta get my coffee. Actually, I think I'll have tea I think I'll have tea. It's a new client. I don't want to overwhelm them With too much of my energy Let me say hello to you Let me dial it all the way back Good morning. Your voice is so calming. Thank you Jay. Appreciate it. Hi rebel. Nice to see you Hello Carolina. Hi from Chile. Hello. Thank you Hey passion pixie. Yo, good morning Hello, Elizabeth Hello, Ottawa, Canada Hello, Lynette. Good morning to Marisol Marisol did I say that right? I hope so Hi, Lisa. Nice to see you. Hello, Jennifer. Nice to see you too Hello, Joanie. Nice to see you as well. Thank you all for being here today. I appreciate it Oh Sweet You guys are wonderful. Thank you for being here And thank you for watching here on above life channel on youtube. Remember the purpose here is to inspire your spirit. Whoops Session reminder to fill you with hope And to encourage you to live your life. What's the whole point? It's to live your life. It is your life and you get to live it Just live it. Thanks for being here