 The illness comes because of the fear and anger in the system. It's not the other way around that you're ill, and that's why you're afraid and angry. It's because this fear and anger keeps on taking over. You allowing it to happen to you, then at one point the illness will come. There's no way around it. It has to happen that way, and it happens that way each time. The thing is, why is that fear and that anger there? Now, in your case, you have suddenly come across a teaching which tells you, no, don't go into the cosmic experience. It's great and fine, but you're going to have to come back into the body anyways. You're going to have to deal with this reality around anyways. So that's not the place to go. Be here. Be present. Remember, your actions are governed by the ego, and when they are governed by the ego, by the ahankar, you're in trouble.