 You know you're referencing August and I have to like look behind me and think August is way over there Looking at the clock, and I'm looking at that too, and I'm like two is so sassy. It's like my name is Bailey My name is purple Well, I have what you call spatial sequences. My type of synesthesia is object personalities You know I form a synesthesia is sound to color synesthesia Synesthesia is a neurological phenomenon where one sensory stimulation or cognitive pathway leads to an automatic involuntary experience in another sense or cognitive pathway Synesthesia comes in a few different forms and even within a form each person's experience differs Well, I have what you call spatial sequences And that's where your brain kind of takes a timeline and puts it into a pattern so basically For my year July is like way over there January's right here December's over there August is Way over there, and it kind of just goes in a little circle My type of synesthesia is object personalities So I give numbers and letters and those kind of things personalities and moods and genders I guess and Yeah, you know I form a synesthesia is sound to color synesthesia So I hear sounds and I see colors in response to them and also I have graphene synesthesia So I see like shapes with colors too. So on a day-to-day basis. I see color and everything I can't control it. So everybody's voices music Sounds everything has color to me and so since I see it so frequently it just kind of goes to the back of my head Like I don't really you know pay much attention to it It's not like everything is so distracting because I'm seeing all these colors But um it makes life more enjoyable. I think it adds a little spark to life Well on a day-to-day basis anytime somebody's planning something. I have to think about that location I pretty much just plan In the space around me. So so if somebody brings up something My memory will just like feel like it's way over there, and I'm like, okay Yeah, it was probably in June July area Basically all my memories are just stored into that space too So I just kind of mentally walk myself over there and just kind of look around and I just all these memories will pop up But brown that location and that pretty much helps me wear Where things are and stuff. I don't know okay, it's like and and Look at it. It's just like doing a little thing jumping having fun. It's happy It's really happy, and it's just like out there like sticking its arms out like Okay, okay Three three has a distinct face So ugly. Okay, but three is so annoying. Oh my god. He's really needy and he's like Why are you not doing this for me? Why? When I looked at the alphabet s and t had like this conflict and s s would bully t and I don't know. I guess it's cuz they're facing each other, but s has a really like mean Cruel attitude and she uses her curves to get what she wants. She's so sad And then t is just this lanky little boy who wants to fit in and he's like I had synesthesia my entire life. So I never really thought that I was different. I thought everybody had it It wasn't until I was in eighth grade that me and my friend were sitting in gym class And I was just we were just kind of bored and I turned to her and I was just like so Tammy What color is a to you and she was like what then like what what colors a and she's like I don't know what you're talking about and I was like come on don't play stupid with me What colors a and she's like no Bailey really I don't know what you're talking about and I got really kind of freaked out Like what's what's wrong with her or what's wrong with me? I didn't know and I started feeling really like Just really weird like something's wrong with me Like I don't know what it is and I don't know if it's bad or and I was just really confused for a long time until finally I was in class one day in my My English teachers on class and she had this whole bookshelf and on the side of one of the books It had it was called a mango shaped space and it had The the letters on the side of the book were all different colors And they had different like fuzzinesses and textures and stuff the way I see them So I was kind of like hey I kind of see the alphabet like that But not exactly those colors and I just was interested and I pulled out the book and I read the back And I figured out like this girl has the same thing I have and I read the whole book and I was so excited to know that Yeah, I was different, but I wasn't crazy. Something wasn't wrong with me I was just I had something different and so I found out that I had synesthesia Through that then once I started talking to more people I started realizing that other people do have it and so that was kind of cool to help my friends I have three friends now who have synesthesia who never knew they had synesthesia before I Get this letter from my cousin and she's like. Oh, yeah, I Realized something I read this book and it had this girl and there's colors and letters and blah blah blah blah And it's called synesthesia and I'm like oh I've heard about that. Let me do some research So look it up and I'm reading and there's all these different experiences that I can relate to I come to school And we're talking about synesthesia and I'm like oh, that's kind of interesting and I just kind of put two and two together And I was like wait, I kind of have that that kind of is what's going on up here. You know People's voices have colors to me music has color to me names have colored me the whole alphabet as each letter has different colors and then The way they're pronounced might change the color a little bit like my name's Bailey So my name's purple, but then the rest of the colors the last of the letters I mean throughout my name kind of changed the color of the the strong B Because like the L is orange and then the Y is kind of yellow for me A and four are the same color and that just makes so much sense My cousin has synesthesia and sometimes we'll talk about it with each other and he'll say like the the letter L is blue And it and it just like it doesn't make sense to me. It's like how can that even be possible? It's orange Me and my other friend. I met who has the same thing. We always talk about like Stupid phrases where people say oh, let's move the date back and we're like move the date back that means you're moving it like Like closer to me not like farther away, which is something it's the language and You how your brain works isn't meshing together Synesthesia for me it can affect my moods because I have anxiety pretty bad. So like if I'm looking at Let's say I'm looking at a poster and it's in like one words in cursive one words in a bold like Helvetica or something like that and it just irritates me because they're like two different things And I'll be looking at that and I'm like great now my mind's like thinking all right Well, that word is a whole different feeling than this word when a letter is a capital It has a whole different like adult feeling to it sometimes and if it's lowercase It's a different personality so like capital e that's like Royal Lowercase e happy go lucky little e Sometimes people say like oh well, then you must be really great at remembering these things and like you know Names and stuff and I'm like not really because it can actually hinder my remembrance of people's names like For me Samuel and David have like the same colors So I might meet someone to be like oh hi my name is David and then like a week later. I meet that person. I'm like crap Samuel or David just just silly things like that happen all the time and it's okay though You just work through it It's irritating Especially when people use the you're making it up thing which I think every synesthete experiences You know you're you're just really creative. You're just really Imaginative you're just insane just cuz we have synesthesia doesn't make us Like freaks it makes us intricate and significant people who have this Sometimes don't want to talk about it just because they don't want to be judged I guess but it's something you can't control like for anyone with synesthesia their experience is automatic if I just think about the Letter a it's automatically in my head pink. I don't have to even think about it when I hear a sound It's automatically that color. I don't have to sit and think like oh what color was that sound? I might have to think of how to describe it, but it just comes into my head so immediately and I think anybody with synesthesia can agree with that in my head. It's completely normal. I'm like Doesn't everyone see that? Well finding out that I had synesthesia If anything it really changed my perspective About how different people can see the world in drastically different ways Well synesthesia is like a huge influence on me because it really changed how I look at things and like Creativity is like the basic rule of life pretty much and when you think about it all these different letters and Numbers they all have their own stories and personalities And it's just like we're surrounded by these billions of people that we don't even know But they've all got a story to tell and they all have something intricate about them And it's just like hey these little numbers and letters have the same exact thing. So it's like look at that I think synesthesia has made me more creative because You're so used to having these strange abstract connections all the time, you know shapes light music light Space Time just all these strange connections and that's really what creativity is is finding the connections between two Ideas that you've never really thought would connect before so beautifully. So I think You know being a writer being a musician Those two things have really been influenced by my synesthesia having that unique perspective gives me The vantage point to understand other people's perspective. I can know This person thinks that way. It's like oh well I think this way and I see something dramatically different that I know nobody else in this room Probably can relate to so I like giving that experience to people to help show them That they're not alone and how they're so dramatically different Everybody has their own unique Flavor to the world. I kind of like it. I like to be different. So it's it's nice I mean some people don't understand it, which is okay for them But I like it some people have art. Some people are musically talented. I am synesthesia Synesthesia has changed my life definitely It's not just a way of thinking but really it's a way of seeing the world and I wouldn't have it any other way