 I was counseling someone who was trying to overcome legalistic thinking. He had attended a church that preached fear-based doctrine. He lived in constant paranoia and torment, wondering if God was going to abandon him for any and every mistake. It took about a year for us to work through his religious stronghold. Then one day it was like a light bulb turned on and he had a realization that God had saved him, that God would help him to live holy, and that it wasn't a sin to fill joy. I'll never forget what he asked me. What am I supposed to do now? Just live in peace? He had been so programmed to believe that God wanted him tortured and tormented and living in the constant tension of shame. He felt guilt for enjoying the blessings of peace and love and joy. I told him, listen to what you just asked. You're right at the door of freedom. You're finally getting glimmers of peace. Allow yourself to trust in God's goodness. Rest in him. And he did. Maybe you need to do the same. As you work to live holy, you must learn also to trust that God will complete the work. I dare you to believe in the goodness of God.