 So that to tell you the context of where my life has gone is I decided simply that okay I would take Jesus up on this. I would do whatever it took. I would leave no stone unquestioned. I would go as deep as I had to go into my mind. I felt that there was something fishy about this world. I couldn't really put my finger on it, but I knew that I would get to it. There's something fishy going on here, and it's not heaven the way I'm looking at it. And I also, from reading the Bible, I mean to be up on a cross to say things like forgive them for they know not what they do after somebody's driven spikes into your arms and legs, I thought well he must be seeing a very different world to honestly say forgive them for they know not what they do from that position. And I thought if he's like the way-shower that's going to form me and he's left a little bit of a roadmap through the Gospels and through the Course in Miracles, he's left a very clear detailed roadmap and simply said follow it. Here it is. I offer you the way out of the escape from illusions, the escape out of attack thoughts. Follow it. I said it's in English, it's not in Latin or Greek, you don't even have to translate it. It's got workbook lessons, it's a very practical course, it's beautiful even, it's got Shakespearean blank verse. I mean I thought I got no excuse, really no excuse at all now. So in answer to your question I simply followed it and now I see the world differently. Not from a state of denial like an ostrich kind of burying the head in the sand. I don't want to see that war so I'm not going to look at it. I don't want to see that war so I'm not going to turn the TV on. To actually having a transformation of consciousness where you see with the Holy Spirit, you see the blessing in all things, you see the good in all things, you see that all things work together for good. All it's not love is a call for love. Yeah, all it's not love is just a call for love and since you have all this love to give away you're happy to let it shine in whatever situation whether it's in Argentina or Europe or anywhere. Any place you go you feel like you want to be a beacon of light, you want to let this love and this light pour through you to convince yourself that you are that light, that it's not a part from you. If you are that light. That's good news like the Gospel said it's really, really good news. And as I was sharing with you, the way I do it all begins with a simple choice. To go for the happiness, a simple choice. Go for the happiness and not see the misery, not see the war. I guess I'm just confused. I'm thinking about the fact that I teach in a very impoverished community. Abuse coming to school through the eyes of the children and I can't deny that that's happening. I have to be there and help them. That's what I feel that I'm here for. I mean to say that the war is there and I'm going to use the war of poverty because that's what I live daily in my job. I can't be in denial of that. I don't have to do anything that's a perception problem on my point when I have these children with bruises and crying and sadness. I don't understand your answer to now. Oh go into it deeper. That's why we have two hours in the morning and two hours in the morning. Because it's not something that you necessarily, I mean with willingness it can be grasped in an instant but actually it seems to take time to open your mind to this stuff. It's kind of like, I always use the example of Mother Teresa. Mother Teresa just reached a point in her life where she wanted to be of service to the poorest of the poor to help to be a shining light in this world. And initially she started kicking people off the street as the first thing that came to her. Whether they were poor and they needed nourishment or they had disease or whatever the second was just to nurture and love them. Initially in terms of awakening you have this altruistic kind of feeling inside of you that you want to help. I sort of got into the helping professions myself as well. I got into vocational rehabilitation, worked at Goodwill, worked with people that were blind and deaf as well as mental retardation, schizophrenia, personality disorder. Worked with poor people just out of the desire to be helpful. That's where it starts. Because you have it inside of you wanting to help. And just like Mother Teresa started off wanting to be helpful she had a very deep faith that she really wanted to learn to live and to experience the Christ, to experience Jesus fully. She would even tell him or none. That's what it's really about. We may be pouring cups of water for people and giving them food and doing this to their wounds, trying to help them with their wounds but really what this is about is about seeing the Christ and everyone you meet, seeing no differences. Being Jesus' arms and legs and mouths on this earth, the love of unconditional love. And so it starts there. It starts with where you perceive yourself. You Holy Spirit has to work with the mind where it believes it's at. And if you believe in this world, you do believe in the things of this world, the poverty, the abuse, the neglect, the things that go on. This is still an overall context of things and misperception in the sense that God didn't create abuse and God doesn't create poverty and God doesn't create neglect and disease and strife and pain. They have to have a source, but God isn't a source of those things. So where the Course would take it is the Course Jesus starts to say these are illusions, these are misperceptions because what comes from God is real because God is real and love is real and everything that proceeds from love is real. Just like in this world you get apples from apple trees and oranges from oysters. You get love from love. You don't get sickness and disease and pestilence from love. It'd be a pretty cruel creator if that's the way it was. And it would be a pretty... God couldn't be all knowing and all loving and all powerful if such a mistake could occur that those attributes could be so twisted and distorted that they would turn into disease and hunger and pestilence and abuse. I mean that would be a... I don't know about all loving, all powerful, and all knowing. I went through those attributes a long time before I started to realize I don't think God has anything to do with this world at all considering what God is the trace and characteristics of God. This world isn't like God at all. So that's the first leap you have to start to open your mind to is the idea that in the Genesis story we were taught that God created the heavens and the earth. And then Jesus is coming along and he's coursing miracles and saying, well, God created the heavens and the ego, the distortion, the error, the belief in separation projected the earth, projected all the time and space. And people will say to me, wait a minute, this is a pretty vast cosmos. The mountains and the valleys and much less the clouds and the stars and the galaxies and the black holes. That's a pretty big thing we got going on here for an illusion. And I said, well, that must be a testimony to how powerful the mind is that's behind that whole thing. If the big bang was a big explosion based on separation like a hurling apart, dividing apart then the mind that had the power to do such a thing or to seem to do such a thing must be pretty strong. Very powerful. That's the Christ mind. That's the mind of Christ. That's a very, very, very powerful mind. So you can see that where this goes is that there's some very deep metaphysics behind all this that I'm going to talk about today. And what's so loving and gentle about it is the spirit, the Holy Spirit meets the mind exactly where it perceives itself to be. When I thought I was a book rehab manager I had to use what was an animal to not partially mistaken but completely mistaken.