 Mercury's in retrograde. My emotions have been on a fucking roller coaster. That's cool and all but you're not gonna be nobody's ass What's popping welcome back to my channel for today's video, we are gonna be doing a chit chat get ready with me I really haven't done an official chit chat get ready with me because I don't know I don't think I think it was better vlog style for like five minutes and then I'm like I think they like it better When I actually sit down see what do y'all like what do y'all don't like let me know So yeah today will be a chit chat get ready with me life updates stuff like that What's been going on about my whole week because girl I've been going through it I've been going through it Mercury is in retrograde or whatever the fuck that shit is called like I don't know I've just been going through a lot of emotions this week girl. I just cannot wait to tell you But first I'm gonna tell you about this hair y'all like it. Oh bitch. I look like a crackin What is the vibe that you're getting are you getting Wanda from the holiday heart? Are you getting you're getting little mermaid You know which one like are you getting like stripper mommy? I'm like take all your man's money That's everything, you know every time I get colored hair. I feel like Alter ego like I feel like a different new girl, of course you do But anyway, so yeah, this hair is from beauty forever hair. This hair was dyed five times Barkendi it will be in another video It will probably be posted before this video and yeah, this hair was dyed burgundy five times It came black well like a natural Whatever, you know, and then it was dyed five times made into a wig bundles And this is a closure and then when they didn't look like a lace and I was really impressed with that Damn, so I'm just about to be styling this here cuz girl. It's kind of a mess right now I've been doing like yoga a whole bunch of stuff during a week And I kind of like my hair dirty especially when I'm about to curl it cuz it holds a curl better So I'm just about to curl it cuz I'm really want curls today cuz I had a straight the other day Do my lips look too big? I could lip plumber on Wow No, bitch, this is gonna be Wendy's I haven't had Wendy's in so long So I'm literally just gonna curl this hair real quick. And then once I get started with my makeup We're gonna get to talking we're gonna get to chatting. So I'm just gonna speed this up a little bit But yeah, this hair is beat and also my edges are left out because my stylist He really wanted to take care of my edges. So he left it out so don't be going to no silas that don't give a fuck about your hair for in under these weeks because at the end of the day one day you might not want to wear a wig and That shit might come off and you might not have no edges. Yeah girl. I've been having like a rough week I can always tell you so let me just get to curling my hair and we'll get to talk about brows and I curl my hair This hair is so bomb y'all. It's gonna be so cute Once y'all see me my makeup, you know, you know the vibes. So yeah, don't forget to check out beauty forever here the hair details The hair details will be in the description box below honey. So anyway, so I'm just about to put my foundation on I Really need to get a new foundation. I'm always using ours and Lancome double wear I mean as they louder makes I feel like it would be better, but I just been so Lazy and I haven't been able to do that. Yeah, I have been nowhere Like I'm so thirsty for a trip. Yeah, I'm so white Like can you not tell like can you not it's so annoying. I cannot wait to go on this trip in September I'll be going to Miami But anyways bitch, I've been so fucking stressed out like I don't know what is going on with the universe or me or What the fuck I've been on my period Yeah, Mercury is in retrograde So a bitch has been feeling crazy. My emotions have been on a fucking roller coaster Y'all this week has been the hardest week ever for me like I don't know what is going on or like When am I gonna shake this? Well today is a good day, but The past couple days have not been good for me. Um first, let's take a rewind back into the beginning of the week So y'all like these two big ass brands big ass brands a bitch was big happy and um So like as you know, like I'm an upcoming influencer. I only been doing this for like a year So I'm learning as I go especially with working with these companies They'll ask you to fill out these forms blah blah blah whatever whatever So they'll ask you to fill out a w9 form With bigger companies and then they'll ask you to fill out An invoice and this was my first time working with an invoice both of these companies asked me for an invoice Some like what the fuck is the invoice like I don't even know what that is I mean, I know what an invoice is but I was like, I don't know how that goes I don't know what the form should look like. I don't know like So one of the companies that contacted me they had um A form with they already had the invoice. Uh, I just had to fill it out I don't know. I'm new to this like I don't want to sound new But I am new like an employee. She was like, oh just google it like we were emailing back and forth You know, she's like just google it news that form. I was like, okay So then I'm like, you know, I'm just gonna research this I'm gonna ask my mama about this because my mom has her master's in business I'm like, let me just ask her So a researcher for me and I might get back to these people So then I'm like, okay. I'm gonna contact them back Whatever And then so the first company that already emailed that emailed me with the invoice Like I was following up with them blah, blah, blah Like I was so happy to be working with this company Bitch, I have not heard from that company I followed up with them blah, blah, blah Because I wanted they sent over the They sent over because we already had discussed like a month ago Like what my rates were blah, blah, blah And then this month they had contact to me like we want to move forward blah, blah, blah I was like, oh, yeah I was like, okay. Who like yeah, I'm gonna be making big money. So then um, I was like, but no But that was a whole that was last month when we negotiated those rates So it's like no like I want to renegotiate the prices the rates because my instagram is going up Like what and my youtube is finna be like at a hundred thousand. Thank you all so and again. Thank you all so much We almost there our family. It's growing period pool. So I'm like, no, I want to recess rate Read negotiate rates, whatever whatever Bitch, I have not heard from that company. I have not heard from them and I'm like, oh my god, like What the fuck? I'm like, I'm like over your big geek and I haven't even heard from them But you know what um the other company I had asked them um I was like, okay, we can move forward. I'm gonna fill out the uh invoice But I was like, I'm not gonna fill out the w nine form Because I feel like because another youtuber told me um That I shouldn't fill out a w nine form if I'm not doing like a long term Um contractor or anything like that. So I was like, okay So I just stick with that like and I don't fill out the nine forms So I was like, I'm not gonna fill out the w nine form. Is that okay? And then she goes Where's this I'm just gonna wait on this. I was like What you're gonna wait? I've been fucking waiting to work with y'all like what the fuck and this brand Uh takes influencers out on trips. So bitch, I want to go on a fucking trip I want to I want to blow your minds away to be working with y'all like what the fuck like I want to I want to impress y'all like I want to go on a trip. Like, you know, the branches look so fucking lit But I don't know like it's kind of so I was so fucked up on that because I'm like, what the fuck This is the type of shit that you work hard for so these brands can notice you and I'm not the one I don't reach my handout to work with a brand. I wait for brands to notice me And then that's when I move forward to work with them. That's the type of influencer I am I know some people do and I know some people have managers to like Move forward help them um get ahead work with brands, whatever whatever, but I'm just up and coming So I can't really um You know I don't really know what to say. So I just wait from brands to contact me And then when big ones contact me I get so fucking geeked like Because that's this is what I'm working for To work with bigger brands And get noticed and hopefully build my own empire Wait, I'm gonna put a little bit of this light one Of this medium honey and this is sun tan. That's already on my face Oh my god, my eyelash Let me just let this dry for a little bit. Um, so yeah, that was literally like I was so mad because I'm like, I'm gonna be making big money. I've been working. Woo. Woo and then it's just like My fucking parade has been rained on it's just so like uh Like whatever. So that was a little downer for me. And then also Okay, my instagram. I know it's not all about likes and stuff like that But you know what? Hold the fuck up this eyelash is irritating me another thing um, so for instagram for example My instagram has been doing so good y'all y'all been noticing like I've been getting like, you know 20,000 likes 40,000 blah blah blah my page has been growing like Whatever so this week y'all this week, you know, I have this new hearing And one of my my posts this week have not been doing good. Like I'm like, what the fuck like why has my Like usually with your pictures all my pictures usually hit the explore page That's how I get a lot of following because you know people mostly get bored with their own timeline And they go on the explore page to see who the fuck is on here and then that's when you know That's how you get to y'all following And my pictures haven't been hitting the explore page this week and I'm like, what the fuck What is going on? Like I'm getting so mad Well, I'm getting so mad where I'm getting to a point where I'm comparing myself to other people and I never do that I never do that. So I'm like, what the fuck is this really what I'm supposed to be doing god I'm like god God, are you like testing me? Like what are you trying to do here? Like I feel like everything's happening for a reason it's my journey I think that god is teaching me a fucking lesson beach because when I was uh at 90k Like literally I just hit it that day and I'm like, oh, yes, we finna be at 100k like I put on my instant snap and everything and god was like, bitch. No, no, bitch You better simmer the fuck down hoe because like no God like I'm humble like what do you mean? Like this is what I've been working for. This is what you know This is what you know what I've been working for like what's To build my name and to work with brands and to finally like Just create my own lane. Like this is exactly what I've been working for like So when I don't hit my numbers that I want I get so Uh, like I just feel like I don't want to do nothing Like I feel like I keep I need to keep brainstorming As you can fucking see I can multitask because I can't do my makeup and talk to y'all at the fucking same time. Um I compare myself. I don't want to do nothing Like I just feel like I need to sit and brainstorm on what I need to do or videos I really want to do what pictures I want to post what content I want to make Like I will literally isolate myself just so I can um Figure out what I need to do to uh Build my platform better. It's so fucking sensitive. So I didn't cry or nothing, but it was just like damn what the fuck like And then um, it just really had me like thinking like I get deep in my thoughts And then these are the type of times I feel like I should have Like a mentor or something somebody that's bigger than me Like I wish I could just talk to them like who's a bigger influencer and be like Oh my god, have you ever went through this like, you know, because you don't ever know like you always question yourself And it's good to have somebody to talk to but I don't have nobody to talk to Where I can just call them up and be like, oh my god, like girl like I'm going through this and then She'll help me like encourage me blah blah blah But the only person I can really talk to is my mom because she's the only one that I mean like Know what I'm trying to do for real. I mean my friends know too, but I want somebody to that relates to me, you know But you know entrepreneurs do that shit all the time They'll have a good week of sales or something and then like the next week it'll be like boo Like some bullshit But they never stop going. I mean they never stop pushing. So why should I why should I stop pushing just because one week as a week so I have to be my own mentor I have to be like bitch snap out of it. You can do it. You got this like You you didn't get this far for no reason like and I only been doing this for like a year So and this is my first year. So you need to relax like And I'm from a small city So I don't really be myself up that much But I mean like I still want to do good because I know there's people out there that want to really see me fail And really don't see this as really something for me, but I see it as something for me because And that's all that matters So yeah, just if you're going through something like this or anything Let's bring you down questioning yourself blah blah blah Just tell yourself you got this girl like you got this Beyonce probably Well, you know what? I don't know You know Beyonce probably has been through some shit. We just don't know it like In the beginning she's been doing this shit for years Yeah, I wish I had like a mentor to talk to to be like girl like I'm going through it Help me. Yeah, I know it's not all about likes and stuff like that like on internet instagram or whatever But when it comes to these brands it does matter Honestly, like that's how you get your um, what to charge them for right and stuff like that or whatever Um, I gotta leave myself up about it anymore. I'm just keep praying and keep pushing because I'm a real ass bitch and that's a real bitch is a little period. Oh and not to mention Um, I have I think I've lost like I don't even know like 45 words this week Like damn the fuck. I'm like damn Damn what I do what I did shit girl That's tea. That's what I've been going through So, yeah I just be having to push through you know on my menstrual cycle like girl I was like girl relax Y'all I need some dick like I have cowboy pussy at this point So for eyeshadow, I literally always use this. This is like my favorite palette And so I'm just gonna be using the now boardinging and the fox reel for my eyeshadow colors and this is the artistry palette from morphe Want this video to be out there. So maybe Manifesting I'm gonna be that big bitch one day. I'm gonna be over here making merch. I'm gonna be over here on the lia j Jackie on the set is going to essence fest as a artist as a, you know creator And y'all can come back on my channel and be like, yes She went through it like but she kept pushing through, you know Because I get so many fucking DMs about youtube and stuff And I will be doing the q&a question answer y'all can't ask away like I don't care I'm gonna answer all the questions. I already know y'all want the answers But yeah, I'm gonna be like a resource for y'all Because I don't have a resource learning as I go girl Bad as me it over I said bad as me look at this liner though. Y'all Bitch, bitches ain't fucking me with fucking with me with the liner. Well, I just seen somebody tag me in mingli Simmons photo Y'all honestly, I'm sorry not to like her Mm-hmm. She's not doing hot girls. See girl shit. She doing some Fucking, I don't know like why are you posting Bad niggas white leads everybody knows that niggas white lead ain't shit like she said posting him like girl Everybody knows that you really like him like relax Like he ain't shit first of all like and that fucking crazy psycho bitch that he be with I don't know his girlfriend or whatever. They really need to break up. They talk to the fuck And then a yokey she want to get on here like I'll understand that's her sister She want to defend her boo boo boo But girl you need to be going to your sister telling her bitch. Don't be posting him. Why are you posting him? Why are you posting him? Don't be trying to argue with the girl trying to sound all educated and shit Because you're going to harvard. That's cool and all but you're not going to be nobody's ass He stopped posting him mean like that's not cute We gotta get these girls together How do y'all say lori harvey scored us some other points that bitch was seen out with fucking p ditty bitch and he would she used to go with uh Diddy son just Bitch period and and top it off. There was fucking matching. That's that bitch just scored us the extra bonus points Periods that bitch is living her best life. She cannot give the fuck and I love it Oh, yeah, this is pretty Locals bright shine It looks like I'm literally blushing, but I'm not we cute So y'all I'm trying to get into hoops. So I'm going to show y'all the hoops that I just got I used to love fucking go hoops like go hoops used to be my signature I feel like it will look cute today and I'm going to put some of this of my gucci Poor feminine on it smells so fucking good. If you get a chance, please go Go smell it and think of me Wow, I really feel like a hooker or something Hoops though, let me know in the comment section if you like these hoops on me because I don't know I'm not used to them anymore Okay, let me um put a little outfit on and I'm gonna come back and We're gonna see how this works All right, y'all so I'm just ending the video right here on my vlog camera. I didn't feel like getting on my big camera I don't know. It's just a different vibe once I get on this camera But I just curl my hair a little more and then put on these silver Hoops they cute I like that the gold the silver vibe better than the gold vibe because It was just it's just a different vibe and then look y'all look what I got this little cute vintage Fine, it's gonna be so cute with this Outfit I'm just gonna curl my hair some more and don't forget this hair is from beauty forever hair details Will be in the description box below And I love y'all so much and I'll see y'all next video. Bye