 Being molested at such a young age, when it was time for you to freely have sex, how hard was that? I don't, you know, I think I kind of just, I don't know, I would just say this, I was ashamed of myself. Like, I've never had sex with Snoop's dad with my shirt off. Like, we've never had an intimate moment. We just had sex and I had got a baby. Yeah, we on boss talk one-on-one. One-on-one. Yeah, we gonna talk. Everybody did when it came to like Snoop dad. People don't really like to believe my story and my books gonna tell it all. But I was kind of forced into that situation. Oh. Because, okay, so we linked up just on some stuff one night. And in my mind said, I'm like, that's just it. Like, we had sex, okay, there's nothing after that, right? But he had a different plan. So he was so abusive, so it put fear in me. Imagine, I'm 14, I'm like 95. He was abusive the first, you know, to me abusers don't ever start off the first night. They usually like, who you in? And once you fall in love, whatever, then they start doing all of that mentally. You ain't nothing. This, this, this. And then they start to hit you and all of that. No, it was about a week. Let me say this before y'all going any further. If she was molested from the time she was four until she was six or seven, just going into a relationship on the whole is something big for her to even have to try to understand and deal with. So that already was a cloud in order for her even have to even try. You know what I mean? Going into a relationship with somebody after you already been mentally and physically abused. And now you house to house trying to figure it out. It can't be easy even to try to deal with a man period. Right. That long a older abusive man. So that's the, I think that's something to be talked about in itself. You know what I mean? So I get where you coming from when you say you was in fear. Why not be in fear when you already done had to deal with situation coming up when it came to sex? That was a fear. That fear is automatic at that point. Right. So that's the whole game. I think that's something to, you know, a lot of people go through and don't even talk about. A lot of being molested at such a young age when it was time for you to freely have sex. How hard was that? I don't, you know, I think I kind of just, I don't know. I would just say this. I was ashamed of myself. Like I've never had sex with snooze dad with my shirt off. Like we've never had an intimate moment. We just had sex and I had got a baby. But it took a while. Like after I think I got married or something before I was even be comfortable in my own skin, you know? And so molestation just carries so long and honestly, I'm in like I said, I'm in a healing season now. Even healing from that is just still triggering because certain hands look a certain way and certain. So it's just a lot that comes with it. Yeah. And you never got counseling from anyone because I heard you told E that you got counseling from God. You didn't see counseling from anybody? Yeah, I haven't had counseling before like that. Like my grandmother used to try to force it on us. It's like 11 year olds, but I haven't been to counseling. Wow. God is our counselor anyway. He's so good.