 Where are you trying to drum up enthusiasm and the interest and time and effort to stay involved with something? Because wherever you're manufacturing energy, that part of your life is telling you this is something that you should not be involved in anymore. It's exhausting to keep trying to find the internal resource to involve with someone or with something because you feel obligated to, because you feel expected to, because you feel without you it'll collapse or it won't function. Whatever the reasons are that we tell ourselves it still requires us. It has taken a massive toll on your limited energy reserves and resources that you have that could be spent on something far more energizing and far more progressive in your life. So ask yourself, where are my manufacturing energy because it will kill you?