 The eye wanting that I associate with request, this thing has to go. Your picture, that eye wanting comes with a picture attached. You've asked a question by yourself, so to speak, in the rules for decision terms, and you've said an answer in your own terms. That's the picture. The other day when you were talking long distance to Val, and Val seemed to be upset, I remember you saying, well, it seems like maybe you had a picture in your mind, Val, of how the trip was supposed to go, you know, that we were in your mind. We were to come out there, became loops first, and then go down to maybe Seattle and California and maybe across the country or something like that. And, you know, that was, you were coming and helping guide to the point of seeing, yeah, if you have a picture set, if you have an investment in the outcome, then you still must believe there's some kind of a form that would be best. And the whole purpose of everything we do is coming to hold the torch out in front so the speaker stay in that place of right-mindedness, where you see you're the dreamer of the dream and things are orchestrated. And there isn't a sense of personal requests, that the suggestions or requests or whatever you want to call them, as they come through you, made when you're lined up with the Holy Spirit and just trying to be truly helpful. And there's no charge attached to, you know, how it works out. The gift is in the giving. The suggestions part of the gift. And there's no expectation of when the gift will be opened, if it will be opened, how it will be opened, you know, how things are to go, how things are to unfold and form. That's really the distinction we're trying to get at with everything we go into. And I was mentioning earlier today that I guess she has a list for groceries and there was a list for individual coffee, packets, whatever. I mean, again, even with all the logistical things, the stuff we've talked about is that as long as the mind believes in specifics and it believes in the ego-belief system, it has an ordering of thoughts. That's what it means to be wrong-minded or believe in the ego, is to have a hierarchy of illusions, including preferences. And the key thing we've attempted to talk about over and over has been, you know, just examine, just watch those preferences. As you continue to start to see the judgment or ordering of thoughts offers nothing of value, then you will question it. You will get so set on your one function on your single purpose. As Rhonda was just saying, all you have to do is think one thing, that you're the dreamer of the dream. And that's the simplicity of it. And as you do that, you see that you can't be the dreamer, you can't be back from it all and continue to judge and order and have hierarchies that they don't go together. All the peace and joy and love comes from being in the dreamer position and from seeing the world differently and giving it another purpose and not being ordering and judging and fragmenting and all the pain and misery comes from ordering, judging and fragmenting and perceiving yourself as caught in the dream. So like even with the request for coffee, it's kind of like as long as budgetary or as long as there seems to be enough money in the envelopes to buy things and it doesn't seem to be get too extreme. You can see history where preferences and whims taken out to the nth degree could seem to get into all kinds of logistical things. Well, we'll just get everybody. And I have a feeling I'll have to deal with that real soon because I'm going way over budget with filling everybody's trust. And so far there's been enough money because I had a cushion in there for money that I had saved up, but now it's dwindling past. And that's when you come together as part of the logistical meeting yesterday that was about buying the foods that are easy to cook or not even easy to cook. The pantry is stuffed full. People are going to have to start eating that. I don't care if they don't want to cook. Maybe it's not such a good idea to ask people for any request if that's what seems to be pushing out of the budget. I think this whole thing is going to be an experiment and I just, as I was leaving the store today and adding up in my mind what I've already spent this week, which is way over $100, not way over, but somewhat over $100, I just thought, well, it'll be interesting to see how this works out. And then when I came home and could hardly find any room in the pantry to put the few things that I bought because I really didn't buy that much. But it was $40 worth. I thought, well, this is funny. I'm going to buy groceries and I can barely fit them in the cupboard. That pantry has never, ever been that full since I've lived here. Is it full of things people have requested in our money? Well, yes, but now they've changed their mind, apparently. Because initially Tom said, oh, I love these rice things. And then the other day he said, I don't want to cook. Well, and you know, you said you like the rice things and you like the ramen. But then you said you don't want to cook. And so I think, well, OK, one week you say one thing and then the next week you say another thing. It'll just be interesting to see how this works, you know. Cookies and Kool-Aid and coffee. You know, again, what I said initially, when I, about the suggestions, when there seems to be, there seem to be a mutiny of, you know, I want some certain things that the whole idea of a suggestion to have. But I remember initially saying, why don't you just have, people have something, maybe one or two items. And I remember making that suggestion because you can see the other end of the swing or the pendulum. The first end is the mutiny kind of like, hey, I exist too. I have preferences and I want to be noticed. And the other end is, oh, this is kind of nice, this list thing. I'll just keep filling it out. Well, I noticed that, like Tom had requested, his two requests were coffee and salad dressing. Well, there's probably five, eight bottles of salad dressing in the house. Either in the refrigerator or in the pantry. But he wanted a different kind. So we have one more bottle and he wanted coffee. Well, there's, you know, a whole bunch of coffee in the house too. But he wants a different kind of coffee. So it's just, it's all duplicating stuff that people want something a little bit different than what's already here. It's not like we don't have salad dressing, that's for sure. And your sense is that if it's on the list they want it now, about when the other stuff runs out. Well, people put it on the list. I went to the store, it's what I bought. My sense is if people put it on the list, I'm not the babysitter here. And people put it on the list and I have the money, I'll buy it. And when the money runs out, then I'll call a logistic meeting and say, okay, you guys, how do you want to handle this? Because I'm just the messenger here. I'm not the babysitter. I'm not the one that's going to say, oh, excuse me, you asked for salad dressing a certain kind, but you didn't, you know, you need to, I don't want to have that rule either because that feels like being a mother to everybody. I'm not trying to step away from being a mother to two people. I don't want to take on more. For being even a mediator, like with the salad stuff, if there was a crust for salad stuff or green stuff and then it doesn't seem to be eaten or starts to rot, the mediator, you know, can't be the one in the middle to have to answer for that. I bought more lettuce and there's already lettuce in the refrigerator but people say they won't eat that lettuce, so now there's two things of lettuce in there. You know, I mean, it's stuff like that. It's questioning the preferences too. I mean, that's why we had to, I don't, you can't even expect, you know, people that aren't into the course and can start to even start to grasp some of the things that these are. I can't expect, I don't expect Mandy or Matthew or Tom Kern to really start to see the underpinnings and the metaphysics of why it's important to watch their food preferences or any preferences, for example, but with everyone else, this has been gone into very deeply. That's one of the main things that Tom and I talked about when initially when we, when you guys left to come up here and we went into things and talked. It was like after several days it was, the awareness was kind of like, oh my gosh, I never realized how strong my food preferences were and how many I had about the kinds of coax even. It wasn't just about eating out or specific things, but even as specific as the kinds of coax. The Coke from McDonald's. The Coke from McDonald's. The Coke from Burger King, that kind of thing. It seemed to vary minuscule. And yeah, when you're in that mode, they seem to be important. And, you know, they have to be questioned. And I may just go for a week without buying groceries until the food supply goes down a bit. You know, I mean, if all the chips get neat enough, all the peanut butter and jam gets eaten up, all the bread gets eaten up, and people will have to cook pasta or rice or something. I mean, I guess. I'm just, I felt myself too today stepping back from it and just saying it. Well, I don't know what any of this means and I don't know what any of it's for, but I, you know, I'm just here to watch what happens. You know, and I just felt myself going to the store and getting what was, the only things I got were what was on the list. I didn't get anything else. And, you know, just had the thought of, well, I'm just going to watch all this all unfold and how it all works. You know, the whole thing of each what's served, another step of that would be each what's there. Can you imagine the followers of St. Francis? Sometimes they went for days without getting anything. A loaf of bread and then sometimes it was a loaf of bread or something like that. You can imagine them just all sitting around and saying, ah, we're running out of such a question. I don't want to cook. You know, it gets, the preference is to run a muck is what it gets down to. I'm just, I get it all, I get all this stuff. I don't want to. It's not worth it to me. I, you know, I've spent enough days being not at peace about it and I'm not going to do that anymore. And I'm not going to engage in fights with people about it. It's good for all of us. You know, and, you know, I am open to suggestions. I am open to whatever anybody thinks they'd like to do. I mean, right now it just, no, it seems important to me. And, you know, and I see it as an opportunity just to look at stuff. You know, just to experiment with all of it. I see.