 Okay, hi everyone. Welcome. Thank you for joining in again. Yeah, I have David Huffmeister here with me today. What a blessing. Yeah, it's great to be back on this renowned show, Out of the Blue Conspiracy. Yeah, thank you. Because David is only really here for this week and then he will continue on with his spontaneous traveling in Mexico, then drop down to Australia for 10 days, Melbourne, and then Sydney. So then later on, actually, David and I both will be in Australia later this year for the first ever Crossing Miracle Conference in Melbourne on the last weekend of October. But before that, we'll be going through China and Japan for the very first time and China for the, I guess, the sixth time? Fifth or sixth? Yeah. In Japan, we were in the airport but that doesn't count. There we say, no, that doesn't count. You've got to get out of the airport. Don't even consider that. And we'll probably come from Europe. I would imagine that there'll be something going on to be another round the world tour kind of. Yeah, yeah. Because I guess I just also want to put the word out there that we all just feel such a strong call in Europe and it feels very likely that I will be in Europe this June and very open to join and to do some talks while I'm there. So let me know if you feel you want to connect in any way. And David would probably join a little later in the summer. We're also looking for center in Europe to be able to have a community that is happening more longer term in Europe, hopefully after this fall. Yeah, yeah. We're putting the word out. We've had some great experiences over there before in Alizena, Spain and some amazing long four and six week retreats in Mallorca. Yeah. Near Palma the last time we weren't too far outside of Palma. So we're just putting the word out to our friends that it would be great to have a base over there and see how it goes. But there's a lot of dear friends over there and we know there's a very strong call and lots and lots of invitations. So that might be good for us to kind of go through the invitations folder just to see because over the years I've had a lot of people contact me from England and all around so we can refresh those and see the call is still there. Yeah, it does feel like it's all the divine timing and divine calling and orchestration because it feels like Europe has just kept calling, calling us back every year. I think even for me it's probably the fourth consecutive year to go there every single summer for a period of time and for David it might be, I don't know, how many years you've been keep going back a year. I think around end of 2004 or 2005 was probably the first time I went over there. Yeah. So it's probably going on 12 years. Yeah. So it just feels like when the call is there and the spirit is just so eager to meet it in any way that is available because I was reading it yesterday talking about how much you want salvation and it says in the course that the eagerness of the Holy Spirit to give it to you is so intense that he can't wait and yet he will wait in patience. It's like you imagine the eagerness the Holy Spirit has to give it to you like this word intense. Yeah. Please, are you ready? Yeah. Let me give it to you. Yeah. I can feel that too. Like just, you know, when there's like this tinkle and spark to go somewhere it's just so eager and just so intense that he wanted to go and give and have this body used for communication because I feel like David has been allowed his body to be used in this way in the last 30 years just to go wherever that is called and because I was reading, I was telling him and I was reading this, not reading, I was watching this clip from a Sufi master and he was saying that in his spiritual journey and maybe in a lot of people's spiritual journey a teacher is really essential and the way that the teacher works with the student is the student needs to surrender to the teacher to such extent that you let go of all your pride you let go of nothing in front of your teacher you become a dust, you become nothing in front of your teacher and you give everything to the teacher as if you're giving everything to God then the teacher pulls you through, pulls you through pulls you through to whatever ego pride and attachment and preference and blocks and then the audience, one of the person from the audience asked him, how do I find my teacher and he said really it is up to the teacher to find the students so when the students are ready somehow the teacher will be informed at some level and he would just go out and he will meet the students and normally the students are really clueless having no idea that this is the teacher or this is my path or this is what it takes and yet the teacher would know and not necessarily knowing it consciously but the vibration or the teacher would just be there for you like always calling you and calling you and I just feel like what an honor because I feel even for me to even be able to have this opportunity to be up close with you and really truly watch and live with a mistake and watching someone traveling through time and space and talking in such a down to earth normal way and yet the mind is not, you can feel the mind is not in time and space, not hooked into anything not attached to anything, not believing anything and yet everything that pours out is so practical and it's purely out of love purely out of respect and purely out of just eagerness to help I just feel like I don't know how even to put in words my gratitude and the honor that I feel to actually be able to meet you and be able to just be in your presence and be pulled through to whatever that the ego wants to hold back and I really feel actually everybody here in the community feels exactly the same way I do yeah, eagerness is bubbling through all of us now and I think it's, you know, you start to realize that all I give is given to myself and the teaching and learning are the same and Jesus says there's no one who a teacher of God cannot teach because there's no one a teacher of God cannot learn from that teaching and learning is, we use those words but it's like a mechanism of conversion or transformation of mind coming back into the alignment with spirit and then whatever a brother gains whatever a sister gains is a gain for yourself so it's like people talk about win, win, win it's just gain, gain, gain everybody's being lifted together and no one is lifted apart and there is no lifting if it's not everyone lifted so the miracle is a sign of perfect equality which is just a reflection of perfect oneness and so there has been that eagerness I think at first, you know, it was a little strange to be going out on the road and meeting new people and that was maybe the students were showing up when I began traveling and I didn't know there was a lot more there was just droves and droves of encounters I would have but it still feels that same glee you know, to hit the road and go out and shine and share and have invitations and yeah, it just seems like it just goes on and on and it is a state of mind so it's not like there's not a sense of needing to travel or at first, I mean, when it first began I did feel like impelled to travel but there's never been like a sense of need with it it's just been like eagerness and glee and so it's fun and now it feels like we've gone around the world and done these things many times and it's just very spontaneous it's just where there's a strong invitation we're just sounding the trumpet just saying Jesus is calling us all out of the world out of the thinking of the world it's not really calling a body necessarily to be anywhere or whatever but it's to be called completely out of those thoughts that are concerned for the future or having any kind of regret about the past that way of thinking is just not our inheritance at all even talking about a center or a community that isn't really even the goal because if we ask ourselves why do anything there isn't really any goal informed to say this is our goal because whenever we have a goal actually it is inevitable that we started to defend this goal and we started to defend against all the other possibilities that we're not aware of because there's this desire to almost feel I know this is the best outcome and I know this is what I want this I know mine kick in then the defense kick in and it doesn't really matter even whether the goal is achieved the energy is just not open there's no openness anymore to the spirit and spirit cannot enter so really for us it's just feel this desire to be guided and to yield to I guess the will of God and the present guidance we talked about this morning there is no way we can have a long term plan because it's always the present guidance that take priority to even I want this I feel called to do this I feel attracted to maybe doing this but you know we can express when this kind of thoughts come out but eventually what we're called to do and I feel that is truly the only way to go to where God is to yield to every single calling or guidance in the present moment and that is at the same time a relinquish against whatever the ego is telling us where we want and who we are and it's like again and again and again and then to actually experience that is our joy and really there is no separate will it's not even that I will be done it's that I will and my will are one and thank God for letting me taste that yeah that's where the contentment is it's almost like there is a formula in this world it's like almost an unspoken formula of like want or desire and then strive and then get and then possess and then want some more and the cycle just goes round and round and actually that cycle doesn't take your mind anywhere it just like it binds the mind into sleep that cycle it's almost unspoken it's just not talked about people will say in their common dialogue at the time what do you want and what are you going to do to get it and work at it or strive at it you know we're taught to work hard and strive at it and to get it and to possess it and then it's still there's an emptiness Jesus says even what you get you know the ego will pull from your grasp from your hands and basically he's talking in the attainment of the real world that there is an alternative that the Holy Spirit will provide everything that you need for as long as you need it but the Holy Spirit would not have you linger in time so it's almost the reverse of all of that cycle is more that you come to this place of stillness and contentment and you leave the wanting any wanting it's okay to have once still come up and everything but you leave that to the Holy Spirit and in that sense you say Holy Spirit you provide the symbols the images the means whatever needs to come into awareness because from you they will come safely they won't come with any agendas with any attachments or any kind of grab or need or clutching you know they'll come very lightly and under the Holy Spirit's teaching you will travel light and journey lightly that sounds good you know ultimately he does tell us that the Son of God is no traveler in time and space so even traveling is just a metaphor but within that metaphor travel lightly and journey lightly is travel lightly within inside deeper within towards the light and that's very very comforting it's very very comforting so I feel just very honored and I feel like even these last couple days has been witnesses of such a buzz and swirl as lots of inspirations keep flooding in as far as just opportunities to extend I guess it's the best way to put it and some friends down in Sayulita, Mexico just offered the use of their house I think Kirsten and Ricky are going to go over there maybe next weekend and do a gathering and things just keep coming in that's basically how it's gone all along you know spontaneous invitation come here come there has been mostly in living rooms and basements and backyards and you know very simple symbols of backdrops of joining to come together and rejoice together with no concern of numbers how many people or you know the things that the world sees as so important you know those things are just a backdrop and you know I remember we were in New York I see Bridget there and Bridget was drawn out to the garden so she went out and just was in a mystical experience out there among the trees and among the flowers and plants and meanwhile for others they were inside and there was lots of healing going on lots of mirroring that was going on and that continues as well but we're all drawn deeper toward the love and toward the light and for that we can be grateful I feel like you know we truly can live in a state of just witnessing the miracles every day because that is truly I feel like we witness every day here even talking about Europe I had this thought yesterday and then just in the middle of one day 24 hours there are just already a lot happening and even a potential place for the center is already presented so it's like wow we haven't even looked yet so it's like that kind of speed and the beauty is that you know when we really truly relinquish the result or the investment in any outcome then it's really you know there is no effort because we're not making anything happen we're not preventing anything from happening and becomes just like a channel to allow to truly yield and allow any outcome to be presented in front of us and every moment is just dedicated to forgiveness you know watching whatever that is coming up not holding back really share our ideas and share our thoughts and trust that it is worthy to be shared it is worthy to our ideas need to be shared and it is worthy to be presented then we let the chips fall wherever they may yeah it's a lovely way to live just to follow your heart and let the inspiration carry you and then let all the chips just fall wherever they may and not really be concerned about where the chips are falling even that's the fun part, that's the freedom freedom from outcomes because the world of perception as I was saying on some earlier shows you know it was just put there to distract us to keep our focus be on the images and be on the make believe and to be on fiction and at some point you know when you get into your internal guidance you get tuned into your intuition to the spirit that becomes so profound and so powerful that the body's eyes still seem to see and the body's ears still seem to hear and pick up sounds and noises but it's as if you've just relegated them all into a category of not giving importance because your messages you're going to receive from within from inner listening you're not going to be interpreting you're not going to be trying to find meaning and get meaning from the world of images you're just going to be inner directed and it's possible to be 100% intuitive or 100% inner directed and then life's a joy as they say life's a joy and then you ascend from the place of inner direction so we talk a lot about practicalities and guidance and sometimes people they see what we seem to be up to around Utah and around the world and they say wow that's amazing or how is this happening and for us it's not it doesn't even feel like extraordinary in the sense it feels very natural and it's a natural expression from guidance and of course if you were listening to God or listening to the voice for God you would expect things to flow why would they not if the Bible says if God is with us who can be against us and that saying still holds true if the spirit is with us which it truly is no doubt about that then there is no opposition then there is no enemy then there is nothing to fight against and there's a sense of ease that comes from that yeah it's definitely like it's actually pretty organic it's not through planning it's not through past references it's present guidance that really bring us wherever we are I guess even this construct of community however it looks right now it's just through this present guidance step by step and nobody really knows because nobody had lived in community before so we had no clue where it's going and how to have a community that is so-called successful because that is not even the goal but it's really about just following what is going on and yet the life is so joyful because it becomes just allowing the miracles to come in and we just rejoice in that and the community can be expanding because now we're expanding to you know the online community and every part of the world is our community we can join without any obstacles of travels of time zones that is truly what this is about because I feel even I know you kept saying that you didn't really plan to have a community to start with and none of the people here right now thought I'm going to live in community one day I'm so attracted to that concept of community nobody did and if anything maybe like the opposite not really sure what this is about but I do feel there is a healthiness and just for me I guess it is helpful because it is guided and I can feel the healthiness of coming together and have a very unified purpose in everything we do because I feel if the purpose is split there is no way we can achieve anything maybe seemingly achieve something in this world but it's all really meaningless there is really no no way we can truly achieve anything but as soon as the goal is unified and I when you talk about win-win it's funny because I was just thinking about it before the show I thought really only the only win-win situation is when there is a unified goal and the only unified goal we can have is forgiveness because any other goal we have around the body if I gain you lose it's always you know dualistic it's not unified and forgiveness is the only goal that is going to make everybody win make everybody happy and then when people come together when minds come together for this goal it's extremely powerful and it's extremely fast seemingly very very powerful I think that's what it's been because we have a shared goal I mean there's been lots of attempts over the decades and centuries and I think you know we can think back to the 60's and all the attempts and communes and so on and so forth and co-ops and even like food co-ops like let's let's pool together let's grow food together let's let's share food and let's share possessions and share property I have some friends in England that have been trying for the longest time to get a property started some children they were all devoted and they got into all kinds of things and maybe like a legal lawsuit and all kinds of things but they got a message maybe within the last couple months things have come around and I think they're over on the on the eastern coast of England so there's things that seem to be hurdles and obstacles but that's because of the occasion of the purpose because truly if forgiveness is your purpose then instantly you do share something that actually can be shared because the Holy Spirit can share that and does share that with everyone so to speak and there's it's something that was designed to be shared forgiveness is a shared perspective and everything else in the world whether we get into trying to share resources or share property and all of the attempts to share anything sharing bank accounts and all those kind of things they will fall short they are just symbols and they will fall short of forgiveness because that's really all that can be shared and I love that the Course teaches that only the thoughts of God can be shared so ultimately that's what creation is about that's what heaven is about sharing this creative expression of God but that's within the realm of pure knowledge or pure spirit so in this world the only thing that we can share is forgiveness and it's just like smiling and just seeing the false is false and that's where there's nothing to get huff about there's nothing to be concerned about and things become light and laughable through that forgiven perspective so I would say that's the thing to consider what is it for whenever you're considering any kind of venture in the world it's not so important what the action is or the behavior but it's the motive it's the purpose underneath what is inspiring the action and we're all starting to get really tuned in to find what that inspiration is find what that purpose is and then realize the peace that comes from that and that's a little bit like St. Augustine love and do what you will many centuries ago St. Augustine said that and I think it's echoed today we're still echoing the same very simple statement of St. Augustine love and do what you will be in that alignment with your source and then everything will flow from that alignment and you don't even have to be concerned or worried about what that is or how that's going to happen yeah I know because I just have this movie in mind as we're talking this movie a Swedish movie called Force Measure and it is about the family went to the Alps and encountered Avalanche and when the Avalanche hits the husband just the first reaction was to run away and protect himself and leave the children and the wife behind and the wife stayed to protect the children in the end nobody really got hurt but the conflict out of that event that came up between the husband and the wife and the whole movie is about how they were trying to face that emotion and really when we were watching it we were just actually in you know like wow when there is no purpose of healing there is no real foundation to do anything because even when they were trying to communicate the purpose was either to protect a self image to deny this is what happened or to prove the other person wrong to prove I'm a victim so they have keep trying the husband and wife keep trying to solve this deep emotional terminal that happened through this event and there was no way there was absolutely no way that they could achieve peace in this event so I was just even saying you know in any relationships it's pretty easy to observe when the go is not forgiveness that comes up then you really started to feel there is really very difficult to go anywhere in the relationship and yet if the goal any relationship is purely forgiveness and it's a joint purpose it's going to be very very joyful because you're not in defense you're not in avoidance or in fear of anything that can come up because your goal is to expose it together and look at a way to have the spirit enter and forgive together you know I think it's very much that we are asked to pray and open up and listen and follow and then we will open our hearts and we will grow so to speak or expand our consciousness and even when there seems to be mistakes it's not like their lasting mistakes it's not like those mistakes have an eternal consequence those are just turned into opportunities in little barometers that doesn't feel good and then we go back and we go back inside to what was my purpose or what was my motive and recently Nikita and I were talking and having lunch with Judy scutch and she said at one point in kind of a past life reading she said she came very close and it was almost like very close to felt like enlightenment or waking up from the dream and then she made a wrong turn and seemed to have all this guilt and consequences it's kind of funny to think of it is one wrong turn and you are off onto a delay maneuver of guilt so that's why her feeling inside was for completion just that word came out of her completion and I really feel like that's the desire and the devotion when we come together we are here for completion we are here to reach and experience that state of perfect innocence that innocence that transcends mistakes that transcends even the possibility of mistakes that sense of innocence you are always in the right place at the right time so to speak you can't make a wrong turn that's what atonement or true forgiveness is it just holds nothing against yourself or against anyone else and to be a bringer of innocence oh my gosh what a great purpose to have for your life going around spreading joy, blessing everything and everyone that comes into your gaze how could you have a more wonderful purpose than to let your life so to speak in this world just be used for that and I just feel like it's happening like we're just all being showered with gratitude because of that and I do see that this world is just a call to witnesses so as I've kind of opened up and I've met so many wonderful wonderful people and experienced so much joy I really feel that it's just inside I was open to happiness and I'm calling forth the witnesses of happiness and for those who whose purpose is to share and communicate you will attract communication to you and here we are we're broadcasting, we're Periscope, we're on zoom we've got our studio audience that I could turn the cameras around show the lovelies here there's Eric I'm going to move one of the cameras around but there's all the lovelies gathered here we have attracted a lot of communication it just goes and goes and it radiates there we go it just keeps radiating out just bellowing out and keeps going and going and going you know and yeah what else is there really? I saw how I feel I think Jesus had described of course around this joy when you truly your only wish is to see your brother innocent and to hold innocence in your heart when you perceive someone he said no happiness or joy you ever tasted in this world will even come close to the joy you feel when you actually have this goal as your only goal and as you look at your brothers and everything it's beautiful oh do we have any questions in the studio or we can open it up okay so I recently was having some trouble just fighting what lesson to be on and I started the ego kind of took over and it was like my goal became to a book but I have actually started and stopped the course so many times and I was trying I had gone through lesson 70 and then I was in Canada and we did some lessons and then I tried to be on the same lesson that David was recording and then the group in Camus switched to another lesson and so then I skipped some lessons that I thought maybe I had already done and I'm probably about 10 lessons ahead of what you're recording right now and then I thought well maybe I'll just stay on a lesson for a while so David can catch up with me so I can be on the same one but anyway I'm just getting thrown around so much and it's almost like I want somebody to tell me okay just be on this lesson and yet I want to be able to someday say that I've actually gone through all the workbook lessons so and then I thought of starting at the very end and going backwards and I just feel like I'm being kind of oppressed by the ego and I don't know what to do so what do you have to say about that yeah it's what you're expressing is this the ego is so afraid of awakening and so resistant to the course it's almost like in Superman there's kryptonite and Superman is not so fond of kryptonite it stays away from it well the ego is this course is so direct but it's kind of interesting that there may be times I know when I first had the course I would pop it open like an oracle which there's nothing in the course that says use this like an oracle but that was an inspiration for me but with the workbook lessons you know it's interesting that he just gives an introduction and he says you may not believe the lessons you may actively resist the lessons it will not matter just do them and then he just gives two instructions so when you think about all the instructions we've had in the world in education and all the things we've went through to learn so many things it's kind of interesting that he has two instructions and it's just don't do more than one lesson a day and then as best as you can try not to make any exceptions to the lesson but that's a discipline it's really I think academia or learning to play the violin or learning to ride a bike or learning just about anything in this world it takes discipline we've subjected ourselves to that discipline in some areas and then sometimes we say wow this is a direct shot to forgiveness and self-realization and then we just observe look at the resistance to that discipline you know it's almost like we're more willing to to learn other things than we are to forgive our mistakes so I think it's just good to watch the mind and watch all that and then I think probably though if the course is genuinely your path there probably will come a point where you just kind of settle in and even for me this year of within the past year when I started recording a section of the text and then a lesson I did get some comments like what are you doing by golly 25 years you've been traveling and sharing this stuff and what are you doing reading from the course again but to me it's all involuntary so it just felt very natural but it did feel like there was definitely some kind of a commitment underneath it like to continue even when I was in locations one of my travels, my spontaneous travels where I didn't have any internet access I didn't have any cell phone access I didn't feel I didn't see to try to find a way to do it it was just like well when I do have access again I'll continue right on and that was just to be patient and say I'll just wait until I have the access and I'll continue on with the next one and just keep going so I think you're headed in that direction and you shouldn't be too hard on yourself as you watch it it's almost like the elevator I mean in the movie Revolver when he's in the elevator and the ego is kicking and screaming and pounding the sides of the elevator and it's a wild child it's like a bastard child it doesn't have a parent it wasn't created so it doesn't even have a parent it's that wild and it's very impetuous and it's very rebellious to the point now where you can start to watch it and as I was saying the other day thank you for sharing thank you for pounding start to have a lightness with watching it and not taking it on so heavily as if it's you because that's the greatest deception of the ego is convincing the mind that it is you and it's not and it never will be so the time will come where you'll just find yourself flowing from one to the next to the next and go oh how lovely okay thank you we said we might talk about community just because it's kind of a for many people still an ambiguous field or ambiguous symbol yeah I guess I started to read a lot of or maybe just come to my awareness that seems like a community of different focus started to bring up everywhere these days in different parts of the world people actually found out that living together is just really in ways very very helpful and I know there is this even a community in San Francisco where this huge house with 40 rooms and people entrepreneurs, millionaires IT artists they all choose to live together to share the resource and not just the resource as in the same kitchen and the same meal same grocery shopping or something also the each other's skills because when they come together there is just a lot of collaboration that spring out from you know you're living in your own home and trying to get something done you're completely on your own so it's by their choice to live like that to tap into this this wave of collaboration and communication as well really encourage communication so it just feels like almost some huge opening of people started to feel that we can collaborate in such a bigger way and open up communication in such a bigger way that's not choose to isolate and even having to you know just segregate living in a way of segregation but I guess everybody is probably just trying to find out the purpose the common purpose and the common goal because I also heard it and I totally agree that when the community doesn't have unified goal and purpose it's just not gonna last doesn't really matter the goal and for us I feel probably we choose the goal first, forgiveness each one of us as we were studying across miracles we choose to really follow and really take it deep in our minds and choose forgiveness and of course the form started just to unfold in this way without our control really nobody is in control of any of it and for certain people it does not unfold in this way but for for us in my own experience it did unfold and it still is unfolding in this way so I just feel you know it's not really something that we did or we are planning continuing to plan to do it's really something that is just unfolded on its own as we choose this purpose this focus and this collaboration and I just feel very very helpful you know of course forgiveness you know it is a word it's a concept, it's a practice but it looks in so many ways it's so practical when new people coming here I know this morning in our center Lisa brought up this handbook because as the community started to grow something come together as a kind of compilation of some principles or teachings and practical guidelines of no people placing no private thoughts on how they are and how to practice them she just brought it up this morning to say let's begin again let's remind our mind the focus and the purpose of us coming together and it really looks very differently you know it could look like someone is yielding his preference in food or in what he thinks is the best for himself by yielding to a bigger purpose or a guidance in the moment so it may look that way and it may look like chop wood carry water for some other people it may look like communication like this it may look like a relationship that comes together someone started to express love in a relationship context it really doesn't really matter what form it is it is the the purpose that's in mind that really truly matters and can carry us through whatever we're doing so yeah I think it starts to become just like a state of mind we've had so many interesting experiences out at our monastery because I remember last year with no one having lived in the monastery really over the winter it was just so funny when some of us went out there and I remember Jason telling stories of going into this octagon room where I had been and it sort of was a mouse you know turning the light on and this mouse just staring at Jason looking at him like what are you doing here almost like well I live here I'm turning the light on are you going to run no, are you running it just had this look like we're here we're equals and this is my home and the mouse actually look at Jason and turn around saying I'm going to show you my family because they're all here so he went back and went to his little hole or something and point to Jason this is where I live and my family is here and then he walked forward to just stare at Jason so there's like all happening telepathically and it happens with us at the monastery with you know there's everything from like goats and deer and cows and rabbits and so many chipmunks we've had stories, we had Stevie named one of the chipmunks we wonder because it was a blind chipmunk but it became familiar with certain voices and so it's like that's the family and you feel the love and connection we've had our cat sweetie here and we've had our experiences with tripod and different ones here but it's a state of mind of just acceptance it's like I think it wasn't there I think in the main house there were some bats that went home so it was all a thought process like you know what is my purpose am I going to try to get rid of the bats you know can we coexist and so on and so forth ultimately I think it's all part of this transformation of consciousness where we feel so connected and so one with everything that we don't seek to change the world we don't try to alter the world in any way we're the dreamer of the dream we really fully accept that and it's so peaceful but there's no contention there's no trying to make a change make a shift one time a friend of mine was going to come and co-host a a retreat with me and she brought along this woman and we put her up above I think above the bath house there was a couple rooms up where you had your room and before the retreat started I just kept looking up there and there was a bird that kept flying into the window I kind of nicknamed him kamikaze bird he just kept flying into the window and basically he continued on the whole retreat it was just a forgiveness lesson of thinking that that kamikaze bird had any meaning as he seemed to want silence in the physical sense and we know that silence isn't really physical but eventually I saw him trying to put sheets up over the windows and to try to capture the bird and to do all these different things and that bird was such a teacher in terms of letting go we're just to come to a state of non-judgment but it was quite for me I was enjoying the whole thing it was like some kind of Lucille Ball episode or whatever and so finally they got up there and put these big sheets over this window this bird kept pounding this thing, you see them fly off and come back and pound some more blasting into this thing and then when they put the sheets on one window it went around to the side window and it pounded away on the side window just on one room the room was drawing that forth and all you can do is watch there's really nothing to change I'm sure that's a lot of what I talked about in that retreat too I couldn't help but talk about that but that's what we're talking about just coming to a point where you don't interpret things good or bad or right or wrong in form and that's the peace that's the stillness especially community I think it just keeps expanding in your mind so that it just embraces the whole world you have a community of perception so that's what the real world of the happy dream is it's a community without boundaries it doesn't have a beginning it doesn't have an end the cosmos is your community and once you make the cosmos your community then you are on the tractor beam to communing with source there's no opposition and no opposite in source so that's beautiful sweet sweet sweet go ahead thank you well first of all it's lovely to see you both thank you thank you for talking about community because it's something that I'm with a lot at the moment as you know I've had a small mini community in my home here for about nine ten months and after the silent retreat in Finland I really felt to come home and just be here on my own in silence and it was it has been a very very helpful time for me and then I had a function with a silent retreat coming up in the spring here and I've stepped back from that because I really felt the call to stay within the silence and in stepping back and talking the journey about it I do see that I still have a great fear of collaboration of I've lived on my own for a very long time and this is a sort of new experience for me to be with people all the time and it's almost like you also talked about making what might appear to be a wrong term I don't know whether this is a wrong or right term in fact it's one of the things I've had to look at is right or wrong or good or bad or worse or better because they're all ego concepts of thoughts and I suppose what I'm really wanting to bring forward is this deep fear that's within me of this sort of close collaboration because it is something I would like to step away from well, let go of so that I can be at home either in community or not in community and at the moment I am spending my days on my own mostly in silence I look at a lot of your things and I meditate a lot I pray a lot I have quite a lot of Skype contact people just, I mean today I had three people contact me whom I haven't who are mighty companions who just sort of have come in and each of those conversations has been for me very helpful because I am asking all the time now to be to see all those I meet to see the Christ in them that's the way it comes to me and I do have very beautiful joinings in that and I suppose, I don't know whether I've got a question or speak to it but it's about have I made a wrong turn in some ways I feel yes and in other ways I feel no because something is coming forward but in a different way at the moment I don't know I don't know what more to say really but perhaps you can speak a bit towards it because you know I've had to look at a lot of what I thought was my own self-image I mean I didn't recognize it just that but that's what it's been my image of getting things right things looking right and things like that and you know really look at that as well I can talk about that what's coming to me is is it God and spirit love is just so absolutely generous this kind of feeling that I get it's so so full and so generous that ultimately it's message it keeps conveying is you can't mess it up you know you don't have to have a fear that somehow you can mess it up even when Judy was talking about a wrong turn and seeming guilt consequences she had a smile on her face because she said I'm here for completion and she's right in the tractor beam of that and that's that feeling like oh I can't really mess it up I can't really decide apart from love and so when I think of you and I think of all of the beloveds in Europe and all over the past couple days Europe's been coming to mind so much and lots of things ideas seem to be coming through very strong but I think of our last time that I was with you I think was in on Mallorca when we were in Amaras three houses outside of Palma and how that even happened being there in Ireland doing a retreat in Ireland from Amara up from Mallorca saying she just heard about me on the internet she shows up and she just blends right in in there in Ireland with all of us having not really known of me much before just kind of this is David and then go and then meeting me and then during that wonderful retreat saying can I have a one on one doing a one on one with her she just said I haven't in my life I'm just so much want to meet my soul mate and doing a one on one in that and saying can you help me with that and then at some point oh and by the way I offered my house to the Holy Spirit five years ago and they haven't done anything with it what's the deal why aren't they using my my offer and then even answering your own question oh maybe I think I'm to offer it to have some kind of a retreat or something down there and by the end we were just rejoicing in that and here we come down there and there's three houses on this so many hectares and we had that amazing I guess six weeks for you that was or however many weeks for people were having and then that little mini community you've had that kind of just sprung out of that very naturally I just feel the generosity of how the Spirit leads us and opens our heart up and so I think that's the spirit in which we come together in the sense that we're opening it's a very devotional path and there is no formula for it so we can't draw out some kind of formula and say just plug yourself in and follow the formula it has to be very intuitive and yeah what's been coming in over these last days is just that there's something coming this summer and it felt like some some touring Francis was feeling kind of starting off in England and then doing some touring and Kirsten said she felt it every time I talk about it and I felt a call but it would be some touring and then maybe some kind of coming together like we did in Palma at Amara's house and then something continuing on after that but it's really gentle and generous when you think that the script is written that everyone who plays a part and that everyone is always playing their part perfectly we just have to see the Christ in one brother or one sister and it will transfer to everyone and everything it's not a collective kind of multiple thing where you keep building and building and building towards a Christ realization it's just seeing one brother one sister without judgment and I also like the part in the Course in Miracles where it says a teacher of God can heal the world without a sound that's I'm sure that appeals to you as you allow yourself to go into the silence without a sound without an action without needing to meet anybody needing to even speak to anybody the presence of love can heal the world through the stillness and I think it comes down to more when you look at any decision that you seem to have in your life it's just you come very honestly to what is this for is this have a feeling of reverence with it does it have a feeling of deep purpose and deep meaning are my contacts even Skype calls or meetings is it very meaningful and purposeful and as that is the prayer of your heart then amazingly everything and every one in the whole cosmos just will mold and shape to reflect that to meet the mind in that and that is just amazing that's like at least a more song myself is ruler of the universe the capital self my Christ self is ruler of the universe I am not at the mercy of the world the world is there to reflect my heart my joy I think that's the way to look at it it's a discernment you're going through a daily discernment and to trust that the spirit will carry you through that's the one thing you can focus on you don't need to focus on anything else precious precious we're all staying tuned we're tuned in yeah I think we also want to trust the purity of our heart and our desire because we know that we want to be happy we want to follow the spirit and we want forgiveness and as long as we know that and we just allow the spirit to show us show me, convince me and make it obvious I don't miss it but sometimes I just feel like I also have to come back to say my desire is very very pure and I'm not really in the position to judge the form there is no judgment of the form it's always like how do I feel how do I feel and spirit please show me show me the way in form but it is not my concern hold the desire in heart okay I think I have this out of the blue show at 5 p.m. mountain standard time for the past few weeks and from next week I'm gonna change it to 10 a.m. mountain standard time which means that we'll be earlier in the night for Europe and it will be the morning time for North America so Friday still same day but earlier time 10 a.m. mountain standard time so I hope to continue to join with you and go deeper with anything that comes up in the mind in the moment oh it's been so great being with all of you so beautiful so dear yes thank you so much and thank you David for just being here for this weekend broadcasting every opportunity we had yeah I like it it's for me it's just walk down the hall and there my phones there's scope and just it's been just a joy and so easy too from all the travels around the world just so much fun and so easy so I just love you all I'm just so glad thank you bye