 what's up team it is your biggest fan the real Casadero and I can never I can never I'm always worried about the focus let's see alright team so in this video we're talking about how to fight depression and for those of you who don't know who I am I am a former United States Army section sergeant and former development operations administrator working for Insight Global at Microsoft and I was fired from that job in 2018 and that's where I started to like really not not even then right I went into depression but I didn't realize it I had never really thought about it right because even in times when I was depressed I was I was I was pretty busy and it wasn't until I like stopped and like really took I wouldn't even say took a break but it was when I wasn't busy when it basically when I wasn't busy anymore then that's when the depression sets in and so again I'm no expert I'm no I'm not a professor I don't I have no medical degrees I have I haven't taken I've taken course like classes in the in the military because you have people in the military people in the army who get depressed especially after like deployments people are really depressed because you leave for a year and you come back and like your wife your wife was sleeping with the neighbor and she was sleeping with the neighbors neighbor and and then sometimes like both they I mean you know or your husband your husband was cheating with your best friend or your best friend's best friend or your aunt or your uncle I mean people do weird stuff it's just a wild world out here team and so you get you we come back and like you may leave and things seem okay and you come back and like your whole life is in shambles people come back home and like their their family's gone like they just packed up everything and moved or you'll get guy you'll get people who come back and you know their best friend died while they were in combat and now they did they just don't know what to do and they don't know how to communicate with their husband anymore because they've been gone so long right you know so that's the kind of stuff so you go through these classes and stuff as a nco but again right I'm not I'm just giving you my experience what I've been through and just sort of how I'm dealing with it and how I've dealt with it in the past and how I've dealt with it and didn't even realize I was dealing with it when I got out of the army like when you're getting out you have to go see well number one after every deployment you go see some sort of psychiatry I think that's a I think that's a terrible thing to do because you have people who were gone for like 12 months and then they come back and and they just want to go they just want to get back to life especially the people who have who have a happy life or they believe their life is gonna be happy they just want to get back to like living a normal life right you know wake up at 9 go to work come home at 5 and that's not the case in the army you wake up at 4 and you go to work at 5 and you run four or five miles you exercise go to the gym whatever and then you you shower you your personal hygiene stuff and then you go to work from 9 but depending on your job and your rank and where you work at I mean a typical day could be anywhere from 12 to 16 hours I mean you just don't know sometimes you get duty and it's 24 hours straight like you go to work at 9 in the morning and you don't leave till 9 the next day and you don't sleep the entire 24 hours that is done on purpose for very specific reasons related to you know the military but that's that's just the way it is team so so you we have access to these facilities but a lot of people don't want to use them because they just want to get back to their lives and then on top of that you're in this profession where you don't talk about that kind of stuff man you just got to go do it and you're doing things that normal people wouldn't do like who I mean I don't know man I do know I do know it's it's a different kind of life and every everybody experiences this I'm not it doesn't make soldiers any better than anybody else everybody goes through this and some kind of what it is all relative some people are depressed about their jobs some people are depressed about their family some people are depressed about their friends some people are depressed about video game who knows whatever team this is how I realized that I could get beyond this and it's doing something for me it was just doing something and doing something that gave me meaning in purpose and when I say meaning in purpose I'm not talking about like you have to go out and change the world some people get depressed and they they come to this place and they're like okay look I got to do something but it has to be meaningful and purposeful and I have to make this impact and they go down this road and I mean it could it could turn into disaster this is how Hitler became Hitler like this guy was depressed because he could not express himself artistically in the way that he thought he should be able to express himself artistically and that led to other issues which led to relationship problems and him being able to meet people and identify identify with people and then one day Hitler got involved in politics because that was a bigger purpose for him he was going to he was going to make Germany a better place and so that's what he set out to do and in the beginning it seemed like a worthy worthwhile thing but we all know how that story ends team so just I would say beware of that I don't know yeah I may go down that road I may be the next Darth Vader I don't think so I try to think out into the future even with just making these videos right I don't want to record a video that somebody takes the wrong way and then they go out and they just do something completely insane I I would like people to get to know themselves and to get to know who they are in question everything question why they feel the way they feel why they think the way they think why they have these political viewpoints they have and then when they ask those questions to ask even more questions like what is the cost if I do this thing if I try this thing like what is the cost like what is the real cost what is what is the what is the what is the benefit right and then compared to what what if I compare and I got this from from us from a guy named Thomas soul he's old now old man Thomas soul is probably I don't know in his 80s maybe really smart guy an economist a black economist and he asked those three questions he asked him from an economic standpoint right whenever you come across an issue where economics is involved you ask what's what's the cost what do I have to give up and what am I getting and is this thing that I'm getting beneficial and is it beneficial compared to what and and what what is what is the empirical evidence of it being so and I learned to question things like that and before Thomas soul I learned to question things like that in the army because even though you're in the army and there's doctrine and how to do all kinds and how just about how to do everything how to tie your shoes there is a way to tie your shoes right you put the the right goes over the left when you lace them up like this is in a book they tell you how to do it but everything is rooted in some sort of system and it was I realized this when I was when I was younger like probably like my first five to six years in the army I started to uncover all these things and then that's when I started to like really make my ascent into the the higher ranks where I would be in charge of people and equipment and different missions and situations but every there is a system for everything but they do it that way in order because the military knows they know they know how people operate and they know what affects people and they know what depresses people and they know how to pull people out of depression so if you can take everything and you can put it in a form that's easy to find when somebody has an issue you can point to that thing you say follow these instructions and as long as you are focused on something you can't let the demons of depression creep in so that's why I say focus on something that is beneficial something that makes you feel good but don't pin yourself to like this large overarching thing start small team and it doesn't have to be an impactful meaningful thing it just have to it only has to be impactful and meaningful to you if you like to build puzzles then build puzzles and just start don't even think about it the problem of being depressed as you think about stuff you want to do and you go man I don't want to you know you start thinking about all this hard stuff that's associated with it strip away all that crap and just start with one thing team just just one thing right right maybe you have always wanted to write and now you're depressed take out a notebook and write one sentence and then put the notebook away if you want and then tell yourself you know I don't feel that good but I'm gonna come back here tomorrow and I'm gonna do this again and you just do that in the end of in as you do it the ideals will come and before you know it you'll be writing whole pages and then whole books and you'll and you will have come out of depression you won't even realize it you won't even know what to call this new feeling but when you seek back into depression you know what to call that you'll call the depression the other thing you just call you call normal and this is why we have life then we have depressed yeah people then we got depressed people team but that's how that's how I dealt with it that's how I'm dealing with it now if you watch some of my previous videos you see like life hasn't been easy for me team but it shouldn't be because it's life I'll see you guys in the next session