 The Holy Spirit's use of symbols and of relationships, it's just designed to speed up the getting in touch with the anger and the rage and the hatred within. In other words, meditation is a very helpful, valuable technique and it can just seem to take years and years and many, many years of meditation. There's always those stories of the ones that have meditated for 10, 20 years out in the cave and then they get right back out in society and just completely lose it. Immediately like, damn, I really was making some progress in that cave and then you come out and it's like wow. And so that's the Holy Spirit's use of relationship. It's like whatever was really pressed way down there, really, really pushed out of awareness like in a deep sense of amnesia. That's why the world was made that you would forget that anger and that rage and that hatred. That you would forget the ego, the maker of the world and get so caught up in the world itself, the projection that you would never go down and lift that cornerstone of terror, of anger, of rage. And so in one sense, you know, from the surface it doesn't seem like a blessing. It's like, wow, I've got all this anger and rage coming up and it's almost like it needs to be allowed up. But it seems to be distracting me away from my shared purpose, the color in which I share, that joining, that connection. And that's where you really have faith in working with the Holy Spirit as he uses these relationships. Because, you know, it's like you can't just be content to kind of gaily glide along and then have these mysterious anger, fits of rage come up. It's like you really do need to get down to the core of that rage. You know, a line that I mentioned from the course over and over is Jesus saying, until you are willing to look upon the full extent of your own self-hatred, you will not be willing to let it go. What that means is, as long as you play games of denial, repression, distracting away from it, you know, as long as you aren't really willing to face it, to fully face it, it will still seem to run your life. You know, it will still seem to come up mysteriously at times and will just take away your peace of mind. So it's almost like the child that's having recurring nightmares until finally the child is told, next time you have that nightmare, turn around and look that monster in the eye. You know, really get a good look at him, look him in the eye. And oftentimes children will report that when they do that, then the monster turns into a play friend or to something that's lovable. It was the not looking, it was the running from this unknown terror that kept the game of terror going. It was the turning and facing it directly head on that brought an end to the monster. And it's very much that way in the spiritual journey. So that actually when things seem to get triggered and that hatred gets triggered, you're just on the cusp of the healing release, you know, through that triggering. Instead of trying to affirm your way back to heaven or Nirvana, you're like saying, well I know that I won't ever experience that heaven as long as I still have some scraps of hatred that are still, you know, out of awareness. So you're inviting that, the spirit is working with you, you're inviting that up. And it just seems to be playing out in terms of this relationship. And from this new context, you can't help but feel gratitude. Like wow, I was making no headway at all with this rage and then you came along and changed everything. And in one sense that's where the gratitude can start to really authentically well up because it would be like being trapped in something and seeing no way out. And then suddenly this way out appears in a very unexpected way. In fact you say, this can't be the way out. But it actually is the way out. Because we can actually start to really get in touch with it through this Holy Spirit use of relationships. And the temptation oftentimes is like when he talks about the holy relationship and shifting from specialness to holiness that there's a temptation to get rid of your brother to just say, oh no, I don't need this. I'm going back to meditating. I just don't need this at all. It's really to not push away the gift but to say, oh thank you for this acceleration. This is allowing me to get more quickly to that reinterpretation and to stop hiding and repressing it.