 and reaching out for closure has value and is respectable and honorable, whether it ends well or not. And I felt the fact that I tried to reach to my dad knowing it would be difficult, the fact that you reached to someone knowing it would be awkward and uncomfortable carries value all at its own because of the reason you did it. You didn't do it to be embarrassing. You didn't do it to make someone feel uncomfortable. You did it from love. You did it to try and find a closure in something that you hoped they might welcome to. You did it from love, not fear, though you were scared of the outcome like I was and there's value in that. And so don't be hard on yourself. If your attempt to find closure didn't end well because I salute you in attempting to get closure and I salute you in going beyond a bad outcome and making something good of it, tying up the best you can and saying hand on heart, I did the best I could.