 Well, we all believe in Allah, right? So Allah is the best planner. He plans the journey for us. It's for us to walk through it alone. Not with you. Yeah, not with you. You want to come closer? Or do I look fat? No, you look perfect. Are you perfect, right? Very thin. My makeup, okay. Oh, perfect. I'm not thin, don't lie. Hello guys. Hi. Welcome to Jay's channel. And she is Kristina from Malaysia. Wow. You're going to come soon, right? Really? Promise. Give me a call. Okay. Promise? Promise. Today I invited Kristina to ask some questions. And it was really interesting because you converted to Islam. Yes, I did. Like four years ago. I did this four years ago. But it was always in the dark. Nobody knew. I only came out like last year. Like people only start to know. So you didn't tell other people at the first? I'm Muslim. No. When things get really, really, really bad and then it pushes you out of comfort zone. I'm a divorcee actually. I was married like four years ago. Wait, did you convert because of marriage or? No, I did not. I wish I did. Actually I converted when I was dating my ex-husband. So that time he was my boyfriend. I was traveling at the time actually. And it was so nice. You know when I converted, I was overlooking at the sea. I was in a very nice place in Sabah. Sabah? Is it Malaysia? It's in Malaysia but it's at the east. So you have to fly there. So in the east you have Sarawak and Sabah. It's a different world there from the west. So and then when I came back to KL, I told him like we need to end things and we'd say bye. Because I had to find myself and then to figure out what the hell I just did, right? After one month, I found out I was pregnant. So we had to get married. Oh. Yeah. So it's actually very common in Malaysia like to get married because you have a baby. Okay? Career too. Career too? So yeah. It was like a marriage. We signed the paper. Just that that's it. It was no wedding. Nobody knee down. No flowers. So you kept your child? Yeah yeah I kept. My daughter is now four. Yeah so. So cute right? Yeah she's like me. I love you. Oh my god. Later show me the pictures. Okay I will. Okay I will. She looks just like me. Okay cute like me. Okay she got my eyes, my dimples, everything. How does she? She's four. Oh my god. Yeah now she's four. Cutest, cutest here. So what happened after that? He's the Buddhist. Yes. But how did you convert to Islam? Well actually converting to Islam is very simple. All you have to do is speak say your Shahada and that's it. And then you're a Muslim right? But I did not like go and register officially or tell anyone. So I had to practice in secret for like two years. Two years. Yeah. It's quite a long time. Yeah when I was married to him. You know it's hard right? Because our family is not going to like it. They're probably going to hate me. We never said anything. But we we led a different life. We had a different belief. It was hard you know. I eat different food. Didn't work. We tried. But it didn't work. It's not easy. Yeah. He decided to let me go because he saw that I wasn't happy. Yeah now I'm single. Like he knows that I'm not happy. So he's like. That's good. Yeah he's like. Just for your daughter too. Yeah yeah yeah. So we are not like you know. She don't need to lose one. Yeah yeah so like that. So we are on good terms. So I'm curious that what made you decide to convert Islam? Because I think it's not easy. Because you are used to like other culture. Like Buddhism or Christian things. So what made you decide to convert? I got sick of my life. Sick. Yeah I got I got tired. Someone's coming. Why do you talk to me in Korean? Like I understand. So cute. I'm sorry. Yeah I was sick of my life. So I decided to. I want to make some changes. It's not like an overnight decision. Like oh tomorrow. Like today I want to be a Muslim. No it's not like that. It took me like seven years to actually decide to want to do this you know. In the beginning like for the. So in the beginning like you. I do a lot of research. I study a lot. I hear stories. It always seemed like I'm just curious. Never seemed like I want to convert. Yeah it was only four years ago. That I met my friend. Yeah I met a friend in Sabah. Yeah she's a Muslim. Her name is Zafina. I met Zafina in Sabah. And then like usual. If I meet a Muslim friend. I will ask like you know like. Tell me this this that that. But I think she saw something in me. She said like. Like why are you asking all this? I'm like no I'm just curious. I got scared you know. I'm like oh shit. Oh shit. Then she asked me. Do you believe in one God? And I'm like yeah. Because I was a Christian right. For the longest time ever. And then she asked me. Do I believe if Prophet Muhammad is a messenger. And I'm like yeah. I think after hearing the stories for so many years. Yes he is. All she said was. Then you are a Muslim my friend. The God. The only God Allah. He gives the signs. Like he gives the chance to recognize that. So every time he gives the sign. There is a God. And if you become a Muslim. It will be amazing things. But many people don't recognize that. But if you focus something. Like in your case you have the good Muslim friend. So if you recognize that. Then you can find the truth. Like you can find how to live your life. Yeah. Like you can you can know that. I don't really see Islam as a religion. To be honest. I see it as a way of life. Oh yeah right. I agree with that. Yeah inshallah. I feel like the practice of Islam. Brings me closer to him. Oh yeah right. Yeah like how we pray and all that. I really feel him you know. In my heart. You can't be close to God. Yeah you you. It's so strange and scary. Like like like you know like. Oh my God you are really there. You know. So sometimes we live our life like normal right. We just we just go on with our life. We meet our friend. We go to work. But then I always think like. Every time you have you have a hardship. Like you feel trouble and all that. It's one step closer to him. Yeah because like if everything is perfect. Why do you need him? You care what I mean. That's why life there's always trial and hardship. And I know the converting journey should be. It's your own pace. It's your own journey. Yeah mine could be seven years. Some people could be 20 years. Some people could be like going through it. With marriage you know. Like nothing wrong with that. Every people have their own things. And Allah have mercy to them. And so I'm curious that when you convert to Islam. And when you say I'm Muslim to people. Are there any problems around your friends. Or family or people. Yeah oh hell yes. From family to friends. My friends are not so bad. So far I've only lost one friend. She was my best friend my closest friend. And the moment she found out about it. I can feel like there's a distance. I know she didn't say like I don't want to friend you anymore. I know she yeah. I was so heartbroken you know. We've been together not together. We've been friends for eight years. Best friend. She just and leave. She doesn't understand why I do this. If I do this. I will get backlash from the Chinese community. Why would you do something like that why. You know like you can't drink anymore. You can't eat pork anymore. I think after going through so many things in life. At the end of the day. You are the one facing it. So it shouldn't matter what people say. Of course it's going to be hard. It's never going to be easy. I feel that you just have to learn to not listen. Because people are always going to say something. Yeah right. Yes. Whether you have converted or you have not converted. There's always something people are going to say. You know they don't see that you're trying. They will never see that. Because everybody feel like they are great right. Everybody feel like they know everything. But it's not. They can't know everything. Only God knows it. Yeah. And only God does that. Yeah. I think nowadays a lot of people are trying to play God. You are not God. You know you can't just walk up to somebody and say. Hey you know you do like this is blah blah blah blah. Like dude like shut up man. You don't know about that person. You need to know what they are going through. Be able to give them advice. We need to remind each other. But I think people kind of like take advantage of this thing. I think in Islam manners is very important. When you speak to someone. You need to think about their feeling you know. Yeah respect them. Yeah you need to respect them. And you can't just condemn someone. Just because they are not doing things the way you do. Because everybody has got their own journey. Well we all believe in Allah right. So Allah is the best planner. He plans the journey for us. And it's for us to walk through it alone. Okay. Not with you. Yeah not with you. Not with the whole kampong you know. Kampong means village in Malaysia. So yeah I mean you can't remind but there's a way. You need to say in a nice way. You know like in private place. You know not just saying bad things on comments. Like I get DMs man. I get DMs. I get people scolding me. Me too. Yeah. You know like the hell. You too? Why? What did they say? Don't talk about Islam. Why you use Islam. That's why I kept telling you. There are a lot of mean people. They are very mean you know. The important thing is me and Allah. The relationship. Only me and Allah. Not others. So maybe I can learn from the other people's perspective and their opinion. But I don't need to depress because of their opinions. Yeah of course. But I mean it's going to affect you of course. Yeah maybe I can. Yeah it's okay. But it's a skill to learn. You get there. Yeah right. Yeah you get there. Experience. Yeah you get there man. So yeah I hear the most terrible things. I'm not going to name who. I actually have people telling me. As a Chinese converting to Malay. Malay and Muslim is like the same thing in back in my country. It's very cheap. Like they look down. Yeah they look down. They look down on. Yeah because very extreme people. Who doesn't understand or want to understand me. It's really mean. Yeah and it's my family who said that to me. Yeah I hear the worst thing ever. Like now if I receive bad comments. My heart is like a rock you know. Like this is already broken long time ago. Now I don't feel shit. Now you can say whatever you want. Yeah like I don't care anymore. Well you have the level. Yeah I think I think God has made me go through so much. God made you so strong now. Yeah now I'm like screw you man. You're like a strong stone. Like you can't do anything to me. Yeah like say whatever you want. As long as you're happy. Go ahead. Okay well I'm strong. Okay I love your opinion. Okay so it was really good to hear your story and your opinion. I can feel many things because I'm also Korean and there are not many Muslim people here. So I always think about how if I comfort Islam what happened to me. Like I think about that many times. But after I talk with you I feel much better. Well you can handle it so well. If I can you can too. Sure. It's gonna take time. Yeah. Thank you for watching our video and she was Christina from Malaysia. Yes. Thank you. Thank you. Okay so if I go to Malaysia I will contact you. Okay please. You have my number right? Obviously. Yeah. Thank you so much guys. Bye bye. Thank you. Bye.