 for another pinktober is pinktober stream this is last i almost had last year's image but it's not last year's image it's yesterday's image came and every day i've been doing this i've been saying i'm a little bit more tired and you know today was about it was an exhausting day and today was an exhausting day and today was an exhausting day and that's how it's been going the last five days of this it's been more and more exhausting because of other things happening during the day so i'm pleased to tell you all that today has been even more exhausting the most exhausting day of october so far but that's not an excuse is it it's not an excuse to not draw my my inktober is pinktober stream happy spooky season yeah i i i have a feeling that this inktober is pinktober will be my least spooky inktober ever uh but it'll be what it wants to be that's the point happy spooky season okay today's word from steward samples pinktober prompt list is tongue tied and this is number oh five hello okay so since i'm more exhausted today than probably any other day i've been doing inktober this season at least i will try to make this the stupidest and easiest drawing but i will avoid drawing any any um punks we will start with this one and i'll basically close my eyes and i'll not close my eye i'll make some general outlines like this i don't know why i did this i had an image in my head and suddenly i'm researching no maybe this image isn't a good image in my head oh well change it a little then your work still amazes me thank you so much i think i've even if i've been very much let's give you very much exhausted for for this inktober is pinktober so far i have i've managed to do something pretty good every day okay anyone have any questions while i wait for this to dry just a tiny tiny bit you are awesome brother things are not often hundred percent thanks for being you thank you a lot of the way you work so spontaneous and exactly the opposite of the way i work yeah i i do also work more planned once in a while but that doesn't that doesn't make for good youtube videos and also it's a lot of fun for me to to work spontaneously so now even if i plan projects i plan in areas of spontaneity okay so while this is drying just a little bit let me remind you all that all october on my webshop den ungehardholm.com you can use the code inktober 23 that's inktober 23 for 20 percent of everything originals merch coffee cups prints dancing lessons no we don't sell dancing lessons you i don't know if i managed to say anything there thank you we are french just heard from a norwegian teacher about vin monopola imagine our surprise english please we will be switching all sorts of languages we will be speaking norwegian how the pubada didn't come to chocolate we will be speaking spanish hasta la vista baby we've been uh we will be speaking french we will be speaking german we will be speaking italian we will be speaking japanese we will be speaking danish actually we will be speaking the rest of the live stream in danish yeah this joke will not get tiresome ever so i'll just be going well there won't be any polish kurwa that's the only polish word sorry close your ears polish people try hindi i i don't know enough hindi sounds to to do hindi coming from someone who doesn't know a word in japanese how norwegian is similar to danish it's very similar but but the some words are different and the the pronunciation is kind of different so at least the norwegians have a bit of problems hearing what danish people are saying to be fair danish people are having some problems hearing what danish people are saying because they swallow their words which norwegian dialect is closest to i don't know probably southern dialects like christensson okay say namaste and you know in filipino i only can say words like mananangal tikbalang and kapra i should know somewhere aswang i want to say you have a great mind as an artist and i wish it was the same for me i know you know i have a lousy mind for a good mind for art lousy mind for life so that's a fair fair trade sleep token is a band that i i i've just heard a little bit and i've loved everything i've heard but i've never sat down and gotten into them yet but that is probably a yet thing because the things i've heard are great okay let's uh uh oh where did it go do you speak bokmol or ninerst bokmol i speak grøyt mol so so i don't really have much of a dialect i um i i just my my dialect is a mishmash of pronunciation errors and and different i my badgunsk is very poor and i've lived in badgun all my life where did you draw learn you're crazy people say egg or cordan but i can't say either egg or cordan because i say jae och vårdan but in my head i'm speaking perfectly bergen dialect it just comes out wrong i say um imagine being us and realizing 150 days into learning a region that dialects exist yes and dialects in norwegian are more severe than in a lot of other languages because of the the geographic isolation where um the dialects have uh evolved into each of their own kind of thing i don't know why this guy's tongue tied i like him okay severe is the word it is norwegian dialects are more severe than at least english i mean there's you can find areas within miles of each other that are more different than you know american and australian greetings from south africa painting looks like donald trump on a windy day it does have a certain resemblance to donald trump and to to to to boris johnson but i don't know who or what it is it's just i just have to do something comparably easy today this guy's amazing also with a voice of a storyteller love the knowledge and creativity you bring thank you so much thank you so much well this is a good look quite deep question feel free to skip if mood isn't right how do you right and recognize you're in a dark place and how do you get myself yourself out it's um recognizing um yeah that's a good question it's youtube and art your full-time job yes what what did you do before uh that became so i've always worked with art and been shit poor for like uh 20 years always living hand to mouth and i'm still kind of living hand to mouth but you know i have prospects of being able to start paying down debts and stuff now because of youtube because of my web store because of my patreon so if you want to support on my web store use the use the code october 23 on den ungeherholm.com for 20 off if you want to support on patreon that's very appreciated if you want to support uh on youtube with super chats that's much appreciated and if you don't have the money to support you can just download my art and copy it and share it and use it and even sell it and that's supporting me nice art style thank you this one it is came out different from a lot of other stuff i've done but it's still it's i still still think it feels like me but we will actually just take a moment and like this neck thing looks like a wall yeah my friend recommended your art to me and your style inspired me to continue drawing i was in an art block yeah so the best way to defeat art blocks is to draw just draw just do it dammit why is there a bunny next to him i don't know if i like the bunny i'll let that one be i think we can sign this one and then i'll answer the deep question as well as i can it's very silly and i enjoy it thank you i this was all i had had energy for today so uh so i'm very satisfied better than expected yeah okay i'm satisfied do you like horna from finland uh haven't listened to them that much i believe i've drawn one image of them live at blastfest i think or i just missed the concert i don't remember so i don't have a vivid recollection of horna i know that i've seen them a little bit let's turn the camera around hello everyone and so i got the question that is a little bit um um important to to try to answer as best as i can and i'm not sure that i can answer very well but you know we we try so how do i as a person with a bipolar type two diagnosis notice that i'm in a oh thank you for sending a super chat how do i notice that i'm in a depression and how do i get myself out of it okay so noticing the depression is it's not easy but it's um it's comparably less complicated than getting out of it everything at least for me gets harder when i am in depression especially for me the early parts of the day uh i function less and less uh my head fills up with negative thoughts uh i the lower i fall into the depression the less control i have over these thoughts and they include also a uh heightening of the intensity and frequency of suicidal thoughts i have suicidal thoughts basically every day but i don't care when i'm not in a depression when i'm in a depression i have more of them and i care so so uh that's basically how i notice but before i fall into depressions very often i feel like as if the depression is sort of knocking on the door harder and harder and wanting to get in um and i think i started feeling that way about the depression wanting to get in and standing at the door knocking when i started using exercise to um to help stabilize my depressions so uh i can tell you what happened last year last year around and last year i had for three years more or less successfully managed my bipolar disorder with exercise and i had had you know a month of depression here and a month of depression there and but that's not much for me my um my bipolar type two is signified by long and frequent depressions so having a little bit of a depression here and a little bit there over three years that was best period of my adult life then last spring i started feeling the depression coming and knocking started late winter and it just got more and more and more intense but i managed to keep it away through exercise and then summer is usually the worst period for me and i went on family vacation with my kids and my wife to spain which was sort of a very dangerous situation because if i fall into the depression while on vacation with the kids uh that's not a good place to be and also when you're on vacation in a different country with your family you have nowhere to hide you have to be there all the time so i stuck it out and i did morning runs almost every morning and i was in tip top shape and then as soon as i got home things started to fall apart uh but i managed to keep on training i entered a um uh 10k run and i did a lot of stuff but but things i was sort of gradually losing grip and then about september last year i just knew i just knew that now i'm now this has gone from going down towards depression to now i'm in depression and exercise stopped more or less you know i i kept exercising like a couple of times a month but with very little gusto with very little you know it was real exercise and then um all through um all through the year i was in that depression and then summer came and we were going to spain again and i knew that i had to i had to make it work somehow uh and then despite uh being still in a depression i managed to buy a gym membership in spain and i started exercising uh and it made me functional but it was very hard to be functional so i managed to enjoy that vacation as well as i could and not ruin it for everyone else um and let's say um yeah right before leaving to norway i i was sort of in this mental state of i have to do the exercise all or else the depression comes uh and i was in the gym while it was too full of people and i just carried on and did some dead lifts and uh i hurt my back and um that meant when i got back to norway i couldn't train and it was it was a really shitty period and all up until maybe around early september like the launch of starfield i remember this because the first week starfield launch i didn't do much except you know uh get out of bed try to get the kids to school play starfield sometimes make dinner or have my wife order pizza and then play starfield and and somewhere in the back of my head i knew that maybe even though i was feeling really really shitty that something was loosening up a little bit and then i started to take that opportunity and i had done this a little bit ever you know even before the summer i started planning a training project an exercise project which i will be doing videos on on youtube but but i'm not ready to reveal it and um i started doing as much as i could to make that uh that a reality to make to force myself into exercising again and i knew that if i if i were to successfully do this project which is still secret i had to start the 15th of september and when the 15th of the september came around i had done a lot of these like uh half an hour slow walk i had done 10 minutes training here half an hour here i had uh said yes to doing things with the kids i had said i had started moving with more purpose and with more go with more life and by the 15th of uh uh september when i started exercising hard the the person was somehow gone and i don't quite know if it was because of things i did or if it was its natural end point and then um and then maybe the exercise helped me come up to a another level uh and now you know i'm completely exhausted i'm completely drained and i wake up tired but i don't feel depressed so yeah uh please forgive me if this is too personal no need to reply but do you ever have trouble eating properly during your depressions yes sometimes i eat way too little because i like starving myself during the depressions and sometimes i eat way too much so like um this year of depression i didn't really i didn't really eat excessively and i did have the these periods of going way too long without food just in one day but you're longer than comfortable for me but i was also stuffing my face with chocolate and chips at anything that would you know you know compulsively and uh i gained 20 kilos on just stuffing myself with shit and i wasn't coming out out of a diet or anything like that it was from eating normally to just when the depression comes stuffing my face with everything that made me feel anything that tasted good and made me feel guilty so yeah eat good and healthy yeah i do that now i think that was i think that was all i have energy for today we did make a fantastic tongue-tied thing for in october is pinktober and if you like this art and want some of my art then you can go to den ungeherholm.com and use the code inktober 23 for 20 off on everything in the store all the originals all the prints all the merch if that's too expensive for you then all my art is available for free use you can download it you can print it you can copy it you can change it you can even sell it as long as you put my name on it and sharing is caring sharing is supporting and if you want to support me without buying my stuff you can go to patreon.com came home and that is all for today and i'll be back with another inktober is pinktober tomorrow hopefully less tired than today this was so fun thank you so much bye bye