 What's going on you lot? Welcome to my channel. If you're new here, hi, hello, my name's Lydia. Today, I actually look semi-decent. Don't let me drown Today I'm doing another tag video and I want to say a big thank you to Louise who found these tagged videos for me to do. Today I'm doing the Eat and Soda tag and I'm going to have the questions in the description down below. If this is relevant to you, I'd love to know your answers so feel free to take part in the comments. So question one, how old were you when your ED began? I have had issues with food for a long time. I was under Eat and Soda services by age 17, I want to say. I was also under CAMHS before then which is Children Adolescent Mental Health Services. So I've been diagnosed with an Eat and Disorder since I was around 14-15. I was diagnosed anorexic fifth and then recovered and got re-diagnosed as someone with EDNOS, which is the Eat and Disorder not otherwise specified. I was quite young, we found it happened. I didn't know it was a thing, I thought I was just losing weight, you know, not to eat anything. That's my mindset at the time, like it didn't seem like it was wrong or that it was making me ill. It seemed like oh I'm losing weight, great, maybe I'll have friends. Number two is did you decide to recover or were you made to? So this is a bit of both. Now I'm still struggling with my Eat and Disorder. I was kind of forced into recovery at one point because my body was shutting down, so being a minor as well I had to, like I didn't have a say in it among them. So I gained a little weight and then I started binging, fasting, binging, fasting and I got myself into a spiral that I'm kind of still in now where I either binge or I just don't eat. Number three, what were you diagnosed with? I was diagnosed with anorexia then EDNR and my current diagnosis is EDNR, what my Eat and Disorder is and how it manifests itself is through binging and starving. I can't remember myself through or that's one thing I can't do, like even the idea. Number four is do you binge? Yes. Number five is do you purge? No. Six, who have you watched on YouTube EDW? So I watched a YouTuber grab a book called Unique RKW, Law Religion, I drank the sea water, Soul and Girl. I watched a lot of like mental health YouTube when I was younger and I met Laura as well. Rachel from Unique RKW is still struggling with her eating disorder and she posted updates occasionally. It's kind of a shame that she's still struggling so much. And another Eat and Disorder YouTuber who I watch and I still watch to this day, who makes absolutely incredible videos is Envy, Malice, Mickey, also known as Mickey. She's honestly amazing. Have you ever signed up to a Proana website? I had an Instagram account that was linked to Proana. Just because I was curious and because I just I didn't want to be alive. I do know the bad of it. I know it's not good and all of that. I don't even know and say that I don't use anymore. I'm actually dead if you see it somewhere else video. I ripped apart like the whole guinea thing. Yeah, like no. What do you think we should do to raise awareness? Just talk about it. Don't be afraid to talk about struggles. Yeah, it's okay not to. Like you know, that's not gonna be shamed off. But if you feel like you can share your story, tell it. Because people will listen and the more people that share the stories, the more validated the disorder becomes and the more funding it gets for you know, treatment options and treatment development. And I think that's the best way to go about it is to just be open, be honest about it and talk about it. Don't be afraid to have a conversation. And I'm gonna say this is someone who has made videos for about 10 years now. When you talk about sensitive subject like mental health, self-harm, suicide, eating disorders, people target them kinds of videos to hate on. People will always hate and there is nothing you can do about it. And that is the less I'm still learning because there's still stuff going on with me at the moment where I'm getting large chunks of hate at a time, then no hate, then a large shit. Just you have to have a bit of a backbone when you post stuff on YouTube, which I don't. So things that's there to me do affect me. I try not to let them. I think the important thing to remember on YouTube is people will criticize you. People will be me and people can be horrible. And there's also the amazing side of the community, wherever. We all just try and support each other. There's the supportive side and the hateful side. And unfortunately, I know a lot of people that are on the hateful side. That's fine, whatever, they can do that. With that, I am gonna end the video here. Thank you for watching. Thank you for being here. 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