 You know, you and I are both Joseph Campbell lovers and in mythology specifically in Buddhism Nietzsche talks about these young talk. All of them. Anyone with two marbles knows this The problem with talking about anything is we're separating from ourselves like this like third entity is like Oh, it's not really part of us. It's not me in reality like if you look at Buddhism or if you look at mythology look at like the hidden shadows in ourselves is About accepting it part of you, you know, Nietzsche has a great saying be careful to cast out the devil from you because you're casting out the best part of you Everything is like a double-edged sword. Yeah. Yeah, so we are best qualities are our worst quality. Yeah, so instead of instead of negating it Like people like to label it. All right There's a Vedic saying if you label me negate me and people like to label something Well, you know, I'm angry and like my primary dominance is like anger, right? That's kind of like my substrate I'm anger and cynical. I'm like, I don't trust people, right? Instead of saying, oh, this is a horrible trait of me like I need to eliminate it. You're never gonna eliminate it It's gonna become worse, you know, Joseph Campbell's definition of the devil is the definition of the devil is Internal energies that you have ignored and not love and they manifest to become your very own devils You become your own devil because you don't accept them. You don't recognize them You don't love them. You don't incorporate them as part of you, but they are fucking part of that which you try to Abandon that which you try to strike off will often end up owning you. Yeah, it's like impossible. Yeah, it's you You can't run away from yourself. Correct. Can't just all of a sudden be like, all right. It's it's gone Yeah, there's no duality. Well, I read this book by Maxwell Maltz Who was for cyber cyber psycho cyber? Long time ago it is honestly the most incredible book and I've read a lot of incredible books, but like from the perspective of just succinct how to and like an understanding of the framework of the mind as like This this some goal oriented organism and what happens to the mind when it doesn't have a proper goal And what happens to the mind when the thinking patterns have become destructive, you know, it's it's absolutely mind-boggling in terms of how much I've I've gleaned from this from this book about like my past and thinking about you know How I used to think how I used to see things how I used to react to them And so I'm able to now go back in time kind of rewrite a story, so to speak and in frankly like change my emotions in some sense surrounding certain things and I think actually with this MDMA therapy, I think it could like Like a whole nother level I think it's at least for me. It's done a lot of good. There's a bunch of other therapies out there. I think There's no panacea Dude, you know what what's crazy is going back to this whole Soviet Union thing and you know coming from the Eastern Bloc At that juncture in that time and space Mental health wasn't a thing like Well, you got a problem suck it up. Mm-hmm, you know Drink That's how people tell what their problems. They drank, you know themselves into the an early grave or a stupor And it's it's so unfortunate. It's so unfortunate And so many good people have been crushed by the weight of their own minds their own issue, you know so many of our ancestors like Therapy is important But I firmly believe that like the type of therapy that will do the most good is the type where you're not just Ruminating on the past hurts and bring them up, but you're really thinking about like what is it that you can do today? Correct. How can you think differently today to like switch it up because it's like if I sit there and talk about that That I'm weak that I you know if three months ago and I was like 30 pounds heavier if I was just Pissing out myself for like being heavy But I didn't go to the gym to actually do anything wouldn't have done a liquor good for me. So you bring up a good point I'm a firm believer that so-called willpower scam Just like in computer software, there's a substrate and you have Whatever computer language you want and in the environment to behave a certain way different environments. Okay I'll give you example right now. I was at a gym really beautiful gym downtown Toronto right in the core around Eden Center Has everything you can possibly think about I never went why because it lived too far, right? Simple as a logistics So I found a gym close to me close as possible I actually got a co-working like a office. I do one hour a day right a litter Across it. What happened? Well, I go there every day because it takes me less than 10 minutes to get to the gym It's like seven minutes from my front door and so Going back to the therapy The problem is it's not just you within this computer code It is you plus the context that you're in so if you are Obviously always starts with you voice first. You got to work on yourself You know, there's a roomie saying yesterday. I wanted to change the world But today I'm no yesterday. I was clever on to change the world today. I'm wise when I change myself But that can only go so far if you're living in a very bad substrate So like if your wife Well vice versa husband wife or wife-wife has a husband whatever if they're the opposite and now evolving with you growing with you Good fucking luck. Yeah, if you're in a negative toxic environment, like good fucking luck Yeah, it's like, you know, your genes, you know, are the gun environment pulls the trigger You have to change your environment. Yeah And it actually brings you back to like the whole topic of habits and why they're so powerful well, you know You've been creating this habit of going to the gym by defaulting yourself into it by making it super easy for yourself No, no resistance. Yeah, exactly like resistance man Like we do things we use the phone because there's so little resistance with using the phone That's why we're so addicted to it. Right feels good um So yeah, I'm I'm totally in full agreeance there like I totally get that Yeah, so that's the thing is like I I have friends of mine to do a lot of therapies Then I asked a question like one friend is like 20th time doing something You know work by now Like 20 times in, you know, there's that counter thing too where it's like a lot of therapists, you know And I've gone to a few therapists where it's like Kind of been like, okay. Well, you know, was this really worth the value because they just kind of sit there and let you talk And then okay, sure that's cathartic to some degree. Yeah, but like I'm coming here for tools, man I'm coming here to learn something to like incorporate it into my life Not just coming here to like Blab and blab and blab about the past. I've done enough of that, right? Like I think for human beings, it's It doesn't come natural to think positive. Honestly for most I think Um, and that's like an evolutionary adaptation a negative one Unfortunately, because like we have to concentrate on the negative in order to escape from the tiger or whoever We have to see those negative things and build negative patterns to ensure that we're ready for it's a safety precaution. Exactly Potentially to happen again. So it's like we don't we're not born with a manual for the brain, right? And and very few people understand it and very few people teach it and it's kind of you're on your own Okay. Well here go out into the world You're lucky if you learn enough like so many of us have so much Free-flowing anxiety throughout the day about ourselves the negative self-talk the monkey and the brain like You know and we go to therapy and we talk and we talk and we talk and sometimes literally just going down and chop down a tree No, go and chop a damn tree down. Not even a tree, but um Use your body, right? At least yeah, at least for in the west like I think it's seldom the people experience Real I want to say living but experiential Nature experiences brother, you know, I mean like real like I used to go partaging a gunkman park I'm talking about no food. We brought rifles in case of a bear fishing rods And 60 ounces of vodka There's the eastern block in yeah, that's right And uh straight up partaging like no food. Yeah, literally no fucking food We had to tell crazy bear encounter stories and partaging for seven days Like it's we had to fish we had to catch great fucking time. I remember like thank fucking god I did not grow up in social media or cell phone. I was the last generation before the new generation 34 um It's seldom that I hear people do stuff like that sell them that they experience nature they go in and they experience Dude and and it's such an integral part like all the science Frankly like look, why do you need science to tell you you need nature? But okay, let's say we do. Mm-hmm all the science confirms that it is the healthiest thing for you next to like exercise and diet You need nature. Yeah, and for me, that's always been another pivotal part That's helped me like Become a better person live that concept of rte is stepping out Into that kind of darkness so to speak going on big trips whether through the Himalayas I hiked there for a month and a half. We were shooting a documentary Dude, I got so sick that I was sick for a year and a half after from I just bacteria or everything really, you know everything altitude Bacteria I had some sort of single cellular organisms like it was just nuts and I was on Fucked you up a type of antibiotic and antiparasitic and I was a mess when I came back I was 40 pounds thinner. Yeah, and I came back and My is a little off topic But it's like I actually had to come back and do more adjusting living here than I had to going over there