 And we are live! Welcome to the free art show season 2, episode 6, where I, Kim Dias Holm, also called an Ungerhard Holm, draw your requests and put them up for free use. So how it works is that you request me to draw something, I try my best to draw it, and then I put it in my gallery for free use under a Creative Commons license. So you can download it, you can copy it, you can change it, you can do what thou wilt with it. You can even tattoo it or sell it as long as you put my name on it. Hi to everyone in both the YouTube chat and the TikTok chat. So, let's start. I think we will start by doing an Ink Monster, and I have an idea. Maybe draw the Chimera. Hmm, hello creature piraturi, good to see you. Good evening on both TikTok and YouTube. We've had a liking contest between TikTok and YouTube. So far I think YouTube has three likes, and TikTok has 700 likes. So you need to press the like button a little bit more, YouTube. Can you draw Dragon Ball Zed characters? No, I cannot. But I will draw something else. So why can't I draw a Dragon Ball Zed character? Well, because they are copyrighted and I put all my art for free use. If I were to draw Goku, do you think the owners of Dragon Ball would be pleased if I put Goku up for free use and say, hey, everyone can make money on this character? Would that work? Now, fan art is, in fact, mostly illegal, but people generally do not care. And as long as the owners don't care or find it too much of a hassle to stop fan art, people get away with doing fan art. It's mostly illegal, but doing fan art and then putting it up for free use, that would be frowned upon. One could say frowned upon. So the first request of the day is just a random comment I got on. I don't remember if I got it on the YouTube or on the TikTok. I got it one of those places earlier today and it was for a cactus. And I thought, yeah, maybe a cactus monster. Dragon cactus. Dractus. We can try to make it a Dractus. Can we make it a Dractus? Hmm. How would we make this a dragon? That is the interesting proposition. How could we make it? A dragon. I don't think I, I think that if I had seen your comment just mere seconds before, I think I could have done it. But as it stands now, I don't think I can do a Dractus. So remind me of that later. Why did I start painting my nails? Why not? Why do you have to say no hate after such a comment? Isn't that a little bit strange? I started painting my nails to, you know, I started doing it in the 90s first to signify, you know, most of all, that I'm not straight. Because I find the idea of being straight not only boring but slightly disgusting. But I am in a straight relationship, being married and all, but I still don't want to be associated with being straight. So that's a good sign. Easy to culturally decode. Had a top wings come from the two open arms. Yeah, I did see some possibilities for that, but I didn't see the possibility for that actually turning out as cool as I would have wanted. So I will draw the Dractus another day. This will simply be a completely normal cactus monster. And then after that we can take some requests from the audience or I have also some thoughts about things I might draw from requests I've gotten on the TikTok and the YouTube. Normal cactus monster. Yes, a completely normal cactus monster. Nothing weird about this cactus monster. It has five likes on YouTube. Hello, how are you? Thank you. I just managed to come home from a short run, six kilometers slow running. So I just managed to come home and hit the shower and straight down to draw a cactus. A completely normal cactus monster. The straightest cactus monster you've ever seen. We've gotten a comment saying that it's one of the things from Mumetrola but it's not a hattifnott or a numelit. Because that would be copyright violation. Hi, I don't know if you remembered, but I'll ask you if it's okay to have the hattifnott and skull art or tattooed. Yes, all my art is available for free use and I'm honored whenever anyone wants one of my pieces on their skin. I think that is completely amazing and I enjoy it so much and I would be honored if anyone got the heart and skull drawing tattooed on them. I'm in fact thinking of getting it myself because I have an idea for how it could look. Could you make me one of Blackpink? What is Blackpink? Isn't that some music stuff? Can you do a biomechanical monster on your TikTok next time? I can probably do biomechanical monster at some point but I ain't no geiger to say it's like that. The biomechanical isn't something I'm strong at so that is a reason in itself to do more biomechanical stuff so maybe I should do some biomechanical maybe I should find my inner gigit and yes Blackpink is some music stuff so that means I can't do that because again that would be copyright violation and if you get the hattifnott tattoo or any other tattoo of my art please remember to send me pictures or videos or tag me if you post it online I'm so happy when people tattoo my work it is kind of amazing to think about the fact that there are many dozens of people with my art on their body for life thank you for reading my message you're amazing thank you so much thank you for commenting and everyone on both TikTok and YouTube do comment and I'll try to read all the comments but I have to watch the page as well so you can't get to every one of them and this drawing I'm drawing now I forgot to do the timelapse to press the timelapse camera because I have three cameras running but I forgot the timelapse camera so this one is just for you guys and not for anyone else so it's exclusive no one else will see it except when I post it for free use then everyone will see it so I'll forget everything I said but the point is this one will not be made into a TikTok or YouTube shorts video the drawing process will remain just for you guys watching either on TikTok Live or the archive version on YouTube and if you want the best view of what I'm drawing then go to my YouTube because since the YouTube gets archived the YouTube also gets the best camera okay? screen recording sender I am recording this for YouTube but the quality of such a timelapse wouldn't be quite up to the standards I want in a video and it's okay I mean it's just a silly little nice little cactus man and no matter if it's something done for the archived version on YouTube or if it's done for a video or if it's done for whatever it's done for the point is to work on it until it's done it needs to get that level of finish and get done done deal and right now I'm just seeing that the outline was a little bit weak that's okay I have the talent of drawing but I lack the training so what do you recommend for me to become professional? you said it you said it in your own words training I recommend training comment on YouTube was let me see the YouTube comments disappear of everything aside from your massive talent your work ethic always inspires me you just do the work son and it's impressive so pro thank you and that's sort of that ties into the other comment on Tiktok if you want to get professional you have to learn to do the work and while you are learning to draw you never stop learning but while you are primarily learning doing the work means doing the practice it means taking the practice seriously it means finding exercises doing courses finding tutorials drawing from life drawing figure drawing buying books reading books following step by step drawing drawing drawing doing the work to get better putting in the hours you will never get better if you don't put in the hours and it's boring to hear it's boring to say but that's the key you have to put in the hours and if you're professional it means the work almost no matter what but that said I'm bipolar I have my ups and downs my biggest sort of weakness as an artist is that my bipolar is often keeping me from doing the work so I can do these little short burst drawings no problem even though I'm in a depression but getting through the main body of work is really hard so the bipolar definitely does interfere with my ability to be professional but I've still managed somehow barely for many years when you draw does your mind guide your hand or does your hand guide your mind I feel I overthink you have to do both you have to do both so one of the fun things about doing all these ink monsters and stuff is that it's a lot about reacting to what's happening on the page so something happens on the page and you react with your mind and you react with your hand for me personally I don't like doing too much work that is hand only so I have much admiration for artists who can plan out a sketch and work hours and hours and hours on that sketch and then work hours and hours and hours on finishing it because at some point that becomes all hand work and very little mind work and then I get bored I've done it I prefer not to do it I prefer working in improvisational forms because then I need to keep my mind engaged all the time but not overthink take quick decisions try them out see if it works and then iterate okay, what shall we do for our second drawing today? we've done a correctus what will drawing number 2 be? take a drink of water your interpretation of the day of judgement the chimera, yes the chimera so what are the elements of the chimera again? could you do a larger more detailed version of your signature? I can do that but it's just a self-portrait so the chimera is in mythology it has the snake tail goat's head and lion let's do a chimera let's do a quick chimera remember to record it so I'm going to set up my recording now now it's recording we're going to move the correctus and then we're going to do a chimera how will we do our chimera? we have 10 likes on our YouTube 2,400 likes on our Tiktok so you're lagging behind YouTube and if you want the best view of what I'm doing and what I'm drawing then head on over to YouTube because that's the good camera monster library and sounds really cool yes, that sounds cool I feel hesitant about doing it in this live basically because I am a bit exhausted today and I'm imagining that drawing a librarian I would have to draw a the way I'm imagining it now I would have to draw a library and that sounds like a lot of work but this chimera sounds like less work more fun and maybe we'll do one drawing after or two drawings after that we'll see I have a request that I really want to do that I've been requested for a long time and that I've prepared by reading up on it and thank you for sharing the live that helps a lot so let's let's do this chimera but let's try to make it a little bit let's change the brush to a little bit looser brush and let's try to make the chimera a bit darker than your usual give him an angry face looks like a rooster at the moment it does look like a rooster at the moment maybe we can switch and just do a rooster but we won't I'm trying my best to watch both chats both on YouTube and on the Tickety Talk which is of course kinda hard so if you have an interesting question or you have something you want me to talk about and I don't see the comment wait a few minutes and comment again don't spam but you know don't fear posting it twice how is the game coming along so that's the reason why I am really exhausted because we have a deadline for the outcast Silver Raiders RPG which is currently crushing it on Kickstarter we can say crushing it it's doing ridiculously well on Kickstarter and but we have a deadline which is actually before the Kickstarter is over and since the Kickstarter went well that means we have the opportunity to we have the opportunity to make the game and that opens up opportunities to enter it into competitions and stuff and that means deadlines so right now I'm working my ass off to finish all the illustrations next week so that we have time to enter it into a competition and I honestly I honestly don't know if I'm going to make it I think by this time tomorrow I will know whether I make it or not but you know I try and you know today I've made I think six different pieces for five different pieces for four outcast Silver Raiders and they all look pretty decent so I see a lion that's because I'm drawing a lion that's correct but it's not just a lion it has some more things as well that you will see so hopefully I can finish the illustration for the game next week and we can enter said competition but I sort of right now today I managed to do just enough pieces that there's still a small chance that we can make it and tomorrow I have to do a lot more pieces so I have to do I think there are some days I need to do about 10 pieces which is kind of insane hello sir and I have to do those pieces without the quality dipping too much I mean the quality has been up and down because you have good days, you have bad days, you have good drawings you have bad drawings but we've kept a certain standard and I need to I need to continue meeting that standard even though the art has definitely changed a lot during the process the art has become a lot sloppier and looser and darker and grimmer but that is is not a result of time management it's a result of me getting more confident with what I want to do with the art and that Isaac likes what I want to do and that people react and also getting more confident working directly with a brush and not doing all the not doing all the penciling and that stuff all the early art for the Kickstarter was fully penciled and done the traditional illustration comic book way and that's not how the ending the last few pieces are made and and I can show you some of the pieces afterwards I guess hello good sir your art is fantastic much love thank you so much I don't know why I became Borat at the end of that sentence but it happens sometimes we all become Borat am I still located near or in Bergen yes in a little solace right outside Bergen any other questions so do you guys know what a chimera is well one of you hopefully know since one of you requested the chimera but the chimera is a monster from Greek mythology I think it's one of the ones that's probably lifted from it Mesopotamian from Middle Eastern mythology because you know a lot of the Greek mythology is taken from there evolved from there but the chimera is this creature that is part lion part goat and part snake and it has become the de facto word for any mix of different creatures any time you see different animals mixed into a new kind of monster that is a chimera I'm literally going to Bergen in the new year to see your art in person excellent fantastic so I do have stuff at Galilee Fjallar even when I don't have an exhibition up you can go and ask there and they are glad to show my work there part lion, part goat, part snake 100% badass yes there are human chimeras too so what's the definition of a human chimera we don't mess it up it is a how are you thank you bonita bonita art and illustration is in the tiktok chat very good realistic artist very different style from me I once did a little paint over on one of my ink blots didn't you where you could see what she saw in an ink blot and that is exciting I want to do more of that 12 likes on youtube and 6,900 likes on tiktok so we have a lot of work to do youtube thank you very much thank you you keep freezing that I can't do anything with I can't do anything with internet connection sorry to hear that sorry if I'm freezing hopefully the archive version on youtube will be great hopefully so if you can't see what I'm doing on the tiktok stream then head on over to the youtube stream and see if that's better how you're bipolar how you're bipolar that is a strange question do you mean how am I in my bipolar cycles right now I am in the longest and deepest depression I've had in quite a few years but on the positive side I am a lot better than I were in my deepest depression just a few years ago and I take a I choose to see that as a result of me keeping up my exercise my running and also daily arts practices and mindfulness practices and all of that stuff and I think that even though it doesn't make me cured from my bipolar I do think it makes me better than I would have been so mmm just love your methods and creativity thank you punita thank you so much so what is a chimera in humans a non-crazy crazy cat lady on tiktok says that if you as a Saigot have absorbed some of your twin you can become a chimera I thought it was something to do with absorbing your twin in the womb at some point so the word chimera is used for a lot of things love how it turned out thank you was it your idea because I yeah I love how it turned out as well probably number this as a part of my ink monster series but I don't remember the numbers today oh yeah thank you for sending roses over on tiktok on youtube you can't send any sort of gift because I'm not monetized there yet I'm working on it um you are great thank you um but it's going very slow building a youtube audience right now but I am definitely going to do more I have some interesting things planned as soon as I'm finished with the outcast Silver Raiders Kickstarter um okay and one of the things I want to do more on youtube is actually to talk about more about mental health because I find it strange that there's so little content comparatively little content about art and the mental health on youtube compared to how many artists I know who are struggling with mental health so someone on tiktok asks it was a question because I'm depressed for a year or two now I don't have a thing what I'm interested in but so happy to see you drawing thank you so much so um the way my bipolar works is that I have been depressed in some sort shape or form since I was 12 years old every single day in some shape or form and that sucks but my bipolar also has these periods of let's I have more like this better like that I also have these periods of hypomania that comes much less less regularly where I'm very creative very energized don't sleep and if I don't watch the sleep patterns I will crash and fall into a deeper depression and you know when I'm talking about good periods and bad periods I'm really talking about periods of mild depression and periods of moderate depression um uh and there's an interesting comment on YouTube saying I don't think I've ever met an artist who didn't deal with some kind of mental health struggles like seriously musicians, visual artists, writers yeah I sort of agree and also the artists I've met that don't struggle there are commonalities between the artistic process and uh bipolar cycles that that I think are worth exploring even if even for artists who are not do not have any diagnosis and I also see there's a ton of content on YouTube like what to do with burnout how to avoid burnout what to do with art block how to avoid art block how to get out of art block and I see with a lot of these artists will sort of find a solution for how to deal with let's say burnout or art block and they will make a great video about how they finally manage to um to break their art block to break their burnout and once and for all be creative and then two or three or four years later they will make that exact video again learning the exact same thing again and I suspect that there is a thing with creativity that has some sort of cycle that is similar to the bipolar cycle so that's just my theory but let's do one more drawing on this free art show what do you want me to draw and David Ketchers how the art says I struggle with it as well yeah and I get after starting to talk about mental health on tiktok especially because I did I did talk about mental health on my social media for many years but it's not really until I got on tiktok that people started caring but after I started talking publicly on tiktok about mental health I've gotten so many comments and messages and also comments in real life from artists saying like from some great great artists and some of them say thank you for talking about this I want to talk about my issues more and others say thank you for talking about this I will not talk about my issues but I feel I feel the same way and I or have similar issues and it's been so many of these types of comments both in public and private that I feel that as artists we need to do to talk about mental health not just in terms of that one burnout I got over or even that one depression I got over because there's a lot of art videos about that one depression I got over but not so many videos that go more in-depth about how these problems tend to re-occur do we have any more requests an owl or a crow yes so on YouTube we got a question hi I let us see what the question was on YouTube I think my biggest issue with creativity is I get frustrated when something isn't coming together the way I want or just that creative block which is frustrating so yeah so you need to you need to yeah what can I say you need to get over the frustration of things not becoming as you want your art will never become exactly as you want it and the reason is very simple the reason is because when you become a better artist when you train your art skill you also train your imagination so your imagination will always be one step beyond your skills and it should always be one step beyond your skills otherwise I'm sorry to say it if your skills is one step beyond your imagination you're probably a boring artist sorry so with that comes a sense of disappointment again and again when you imagine something beautifully and then it turns out that it's just another drawing when you get it down on paper and that really really sucks I can't say how much that sucks but you have to get used to it and one of the great things about random ink drawing exercises is that it helps you get used to it because when you're reacting to what happens on the paper then you don't have that very strong visual imagination to go by you're reacting to the paper you don't have the time to fall in love with the idea of what you draw and that's one of the ways that doing this inkblot art is helping me continuously it's making it easier for me to accept the that there is some difference between what I get down on paper and what I have in my head and there are other exercises that could probably help do the same but what are we drawing now I have downloaded so many images of very scariest artwork characters excellent I hope you have downloaded my images because all my images are up there for free use so please do download them there are a lot of ways to support me as an artist, you can support on Patreon, you can support by subscribing on YouTube and commenting and watching the videos and doing all of that and TikTok and sharing and all of that is to use my art all my art is available for free use and even if you just use it to download it and put it on your phone as your phone background that that is supporting me because someone might see your phone background and say who did that kind of want to look through your art and find something I would like to draw on my own in my own style do it, I love to see when artists interpret my work good or bad I love to see that and that is one of the things that you are allowed to do with my art because I release it under a creative comments license you can not only copy it, but you can change it to your own art I still haven't said what I'm drawing because on YouTube Matthew commented that he wanted me to draw a scarecrow and at the exact same moment I think someone on TikTok commented that I should draw an owl or a crow so I thought about maybe I should draw a scarecrow but a scarecrow would still just be called a scarecrow so there's no pun there scarecrow is just a scarecrow it's just a scarecrow that looks like a crow I can't make it into a pun but a scarecrow maybe that can work and you know when I decided that this would be a scarecrow this exact moment up until starting to talk about what I'm drawing I thought I was drawing a scarecrow but nope it is in fact a scarecrow owl so sorry to Matthew that on YouTube that I couldn't draw your scarecrow but I hope you like this scarecrow instead and to you on TikTok who wanted a crow or an owl I mean this has to be the perfect combination hasn't it I love how do you apply your negative space focused art style if you want to draw something you would think about negative space the same way for me the primary function of negative space is how to lead the eye and that is because I come from a comic book background but if you want my views on negative space and please please always call a scarecrow because it scares crows yes that's that's true probably I don't know it sounds true if you want my more in-depth views on negative space and how I use negative space then go to my YouTube and check out the video I did about a year ago a five minute video on on negative space it's in my thinking about art playlist I think that playlist subsists of only that video but there will be more you should get his get a raise he's outstanding in his field he is standing out in the field I assume you're talking about the scare owl your art is so phenomenal always so inspiring thank you for sharing your talent thank you for sharing your comments we're up to 14 likes on our YouTube and 8500 likes on the TikTok so again YouTube you're lagging behind you need to press the like button I like making puns like that yes I liked your pun thank you for the opportunity to request a drawing this is a wonderful experience to see it drawn, thank you and I will be posting the video of the Chimera and of the scare owl and hopefully all of you will share and enjoy and watch when I post the shorter videos as well love your work, thank you so much and I haven't said this enough, this stream but you know I've had there's been probably a thousand people or two thousand in the on and off in the stream on TikTok and a few dozen on YouTube if only one percent of you supported on Patreon that would help me more than you can ever know Justin says I'm doing solo backpacking trip to Europe, I'm starting in Bergen so I can see your work in real life excellent so wow that is I mean that is kind of amazing I'm really flattered so if I'm in town and available then perhaps you can see my studio which is in the center of town as well so what does the Japanese or Chinese symbol you write on your art mean it's not the Japanese or Chinese symbol it's a self portrait of me in a hat with glasses and yes it's done in the style of a pictogram because it's a pictogram of me no, no I was talking I was talking and I didn't see oh oh oh no scare crowd I thought I made a mistake but it wasn't a mistake it was planned along it's the scare crowd rescued in the last minute I know you said the YouTube would have the best view but I like the TikTok view better don't say that to anyone I'm trying to grow the YouTube and yeah I'm the YouTube view is in horizontal format while the TikTok view is in blah vertical format so so that's the difference and especially if you're watching on your phone yeah probably the TikTok has a better view of the art so I take everything back I lied to you all and I'm not sorry I didn't know I was lying but I'm not sorry at all no pictogram for this one I made it there ooh so today since I have been working for so long on the stuff for the Outcast Silver Raiders RPG currently on Kickstarter I will end it here but let's first see how the Outcast Silver Raiders Kickstarter is doing actually let's see how is it doing ooh 630,000 out of 175 thousand so that's that's more than 300% that is doing really good TikTok got 10,000 likes now yeah and YouTube got 16 not 16,000 but 16 so let's do a couple of questions answers the last questions before I end and what kind of music can inspire you good music can inspire me good music not so much good music very much and I when I'm not drawing on a live I often draw to music I often have soundtracks it is a lot of dark music for my art it's a lot of metal a lot of alternative metal and stuff like neuroses and ices and ruins of the beaverast and loads of that kind of moody stuff that keeps me inspired for the art for writing if I'm writing I have all the years since the 90s I've always listened to plastic man with the album consumed minimalistic techno that gets me in the writing mood and in real life I listen to a lot of different music a lot of country a lot of old rock a lot of a little bit of hip hop a little bit of everything also you can only hit like once on youtube yes I know the game is rigged but I like that the game is rigged because that's just like real life the game is rigged can you draw me something that I will tattoo I have wolf and a brown bear you can find thousands of pieces that are you can find in my gallery for free use go to the link in my bio find my gallery and you know find so much to tattoo tattoo but have you talked about the bear I'm more than a brown bear you are a real nature talent I love your pictures from the city thank you I have been mumbling and fumbling for too long now let's see what we drew today we drew a cactus and we drew something more we drew a chimera and finally we drew the scarecrow this has been fun I'll see you all next week when I will be doing more requests so send me your request that will be fun too I'll end the YouTube first