 Jag har en erfarenhet i min människa. Jag har varit människa för 41 år och jag får den här lösningen varje dag. Jag är en stor människa. Jag är inte lika bra. Men stort, min halsnamn är Johan och jag har sett att när jag uppdrags henne Johan, så har jag nästan alltid sagt de wronga sakerna. Men när jag uppdrags henne, den sonen av Gud, så ser jag att jag berättar från min hjärta. Och när jag säger, Johan, det är tid för att göra det. Kan du inte säga det i andra ord? Jag är så ängre. Och när jag satt, jag sa att jag lyssnade på de wronga sakerna. Men jag vill göra det. Och jag gör det tills jag vet att det är rätt. Och så ser jag att jag har en människa. Jag satt på hans människa. Det är ganska bra. Ja, förra veckan, fullt av liv. Och så satsar jag på den här lösningen, igen, eller tillbaka till världen av physicalitet. Och jag är inte lika bra med det. Varför satsar jag på det? Det är en fullt av liv och lösning. Och jag satsar på den här lösningen, och sånt här. Varför satsar jag på det? Varför satsar jag på det? Och vem satsar jag på det? För att jag inte är nån. Så jag ser inte så här. Det känns som om det har hänt. Ja, det är en del av lösningen. Det är kläderna. Jag tror att det ska vara i början av lösningen. Du har satsat på kläderna i början av lösningen, men de stäcker på det enda. Jesus säger att ego vill fråga många frågor om det här lösningen har ingen ansvar för. Hur kan det vara möjligt? Vem kan det vara möjligt? Det är en lösning. Vem är det som gör det? Kan det vara så? Han säger att det inte finns en ansvar, men det finns en erfarenhet. Det finns en erfarenhet som kommer att enda däremot. Så det är bra att veta om det. Det är inte som om det kommer en koncept. Och han säger, aha! Jag har hittat koncept. Jag har hittat The Holy Grail. The Holy Grail of Concepts. Jag har hittat The Motherload of All Concepts. Jag har hittat det. Men det kommer en erfarenhet som kommer att enda däremot. Han säger, varför vill du inte återkanta för om den här erfarenhet och hitta allt man behöver att ha den här erfarenhet kommer till dig. Tack och tack. The scribe of the Course of Miracles Helen Shuckman skrev, de senaste skrev, det här är en del av Bill Thedford, som var bostad. De gick till så många chanser. De sa bara till Jesus en dag. Kan vi bara fråga en liten fråga, innan vi får så mycket med de här chanserna? Hur har det hänt i den första platsen? Jag kallar det den numera ena frågan. Många är alltid runt i världen och frågar om det här. Jesus sa att man kan säga att du tror att det har hänt i den emotionala rollercoaster som du har hittat. Så har du sagt om det. Du tror det och det ser ut att vara riktigt för dig, även om det inte är riktigt. Och så, det är egentligen det som jag har talat om, när vi frågade om hur det är possible att hitta, eller till vem det har hänt, eller vem som har gjort denna beslut att gå från bliss till helst. Vem är den som gör denna beslut? Underneath the question is an assumption, and of course the assumption is that it happened. You wouldn't ever ask the question. You couldn't ask how did it happen unless you already assumed one important detail, but it did happen. So what Jesus is saying is it never really happened. But I've got a book that is in words, because you believe in words. There's no words in heaven, but you believe in words, so we're going to use words. He even says the words are symbols of symbols twice removed from reality. So the word just is a symbol for the thought. And the thought's not even real. We have a word called table, we have a thought called table, but there is no table. Or if some of you have seen the matrix, there is no spoon. So basically we have to get into a mind training program that will dissolve the question in an experience where you have miracles and more miracles and more miracles and your mind gets more and more trained to think habitually with God in the miracle state of mind and they're still perceptual so it still involves synchronicities and oh I can't believe I met this person oh I can't believe they called just at that time and told me that and all those kind of wonderful synchronicities you need lots of those to prepare the mind for revelation which is pure light. It's not even a perceptual experience at all. In fact nobody can talk to you about revelation because it's not transferable with words. Like when people have a near death experience and they talk about maybe going through a tunnel or seeing relatives and then when they get into this light they say the words fail they use words like telepathic and universal unconditional love but they say the words are so crude for this experience. So what you do is you start to say okay I'm not going to try to figure out that question because the ego is asking the question the spirit is not asking how did the impossible occur as the spirit knows it didn't but the whole book is aimed at the atonement and the atonement which is the correction is the awareness that the separation never happened. What does that mean in practical terms? It means that no matter what the script is showing you you are not fooled by the images In fact with Jesus the script showed at the end as a man strung up on a cross that if any of you have seen Mel Gibson's movie The Passion of the Christ from the ego's perspective it was a bloody mess whipping and blood splattering everywhere I went to see that movie with my mother and my mother was sitting a few seats down and when the blood started to really splatter I was like this here kind of these gasps like it just was this is someone that the Christians look up to and worship really Jesus it was a bloody mess and so it brought up a lot of guilt feelings and a lot of shame for people around the world I was going to Argentina and the Holy Spirit said watch the movie because they are going to ask you a lot of questions about the movie or have seen the movie so you can talk about it So in the end you keep opening to these miraculous experiences and when you get into this miraculous state of mind you realize that all things work together for good that really the Holy Spirit can still come through you with helpful instructions with reminders with things that will still come through you you have no investment in an outcome because when you let go of the ego you are no longer concerned with the outcomes of the world peace of mind has become your outcome we are used to thinking of outcomes in terms of the form how did it look how did the story end how did it turn out we want to know what does the picture look like and he is saying be happy as long as you want the picture to come out in a certain way but if you release your expectations your attachments and get so into the Holy Spirit's purpose that you will find that you are in the present moment that everything is perfect and always has been perfect you just didn't see it your perception shifts and you realize oh that's what they were talking about in the bible all things work together for good for those that love the Lord for those that are in line with the Lord and in a course of miracles Jesus says all things work together for good there are no exceptions except in the ego's judgment now there's a phrase that I've talked about for many years that's in the workbook and Jesus says the script is written the script is written that sounds pretty definitive that sounds like destiny for years in philosophy people have been saying how much choice do we have do we have free will are things determined can we really change things or not and I've explored it in the course and what Jesus is really saying is he says in the clarification of terms that free will is what you were created with but your free will is for perfect happiness and then he says the striking thing he says there is no free will in this world oh my goodness no free will in this world no wonder I didn't have perfect happiness maybe I was looking for it in the wrong place maybe I should have been going within for the kingdom of heaven to find my perfect happiness in meditating and sinking deeper into my consciousness instead of looking for it as the country song says looking for love in too many faces looking for love in all the wrong places you know maybe I was looking for it in form and I was always disappointed because it was never meant to be found in form when I was young people would say oh it's God's will that that country got invaded or it's God's will that that plane went down or whatever and I used to think it doesn't sound real good God's will that the plane crashed it's God's will that he was on it and he died at that moment oh what does God is telling people when to die Jesus is saying no no no God's will for you is perfect happiness even your function in this world people say well what do I need to be do I need to be a scribe or a prophet or a healer that's just the form all God wants for you is to be happy but it's the happiness that comes from within you not because you got the raise not because this outcome turned out the way you wanted to that's more ego happiness and it's very temporary all of us have got we've had some successes where we went yes finally I got what I wanted but it's very short lived it's very temporary then we're on to the next conquest the next pursuit and the ego keeps shifting the goals so that we'll keep grasping like for happiness always never letting us it's very frustrating on the human plane because you come so close sometimes and you're just like who is moving the marker I thought it was really close but it's like you can't you can't get there so he's saying the sooner the better that you start to realize that the happiness is within you so there was a family therapist in the United States called John Bradshaw and he used to make funny things on the chalkboard about relationships he would say a typical way people look at relationships is one half plus one half equals one you know when people say oh I'm searching I haven't found my other half yet or sometimes people will even say they're better half or whatever you guys it's a half half half John Bradshaw was a family therapist and he wrote it one half plus one half equals one and he said you know the only problem is it's not an addition sign there it's a multiplication sign so one half times one half is one fourth you feel less you get involved in the relationship you feel worse than before you got into it you feel like a quarter of a person and you think what did I do wrong this is supposed to bring me happiness but then he would say okay keep the same multiplication but one times one equals one come from your wholeness come from your sense of being in your source being aligned with God and then watch how that manifest and that reflects in the world in your partnerships in your friendships in your relationships I went from being a shy guy that was over in the United States that was voted most quiet and now I seem to have all these friends all over in all these different countries and we have such a good time we really it's a very joyful time we get together and we laugh it's some dark stuff it's very nurturing and supportive there's no trying to figure it out or to point the blame it's very very nurturing but that all comes from a shift in consciousness where you just say okay I need an experience to show me who I truly am to show me my wholeness and what I have believed in the past has not served me and it has not got me to where I want to be I want to know my wholeness so it puts it turns it around so that when you start to ask questions instead of asking the question how did this happen in the first place which is the ego just spinning its wheels hoping that you'll just get caught up in those kind of things which really have no conceptual answer you start to turn the questions in on the ego when you feel irritated upset, annoyed at somebody or something you start to say what's going on with my perception of this person or this event what is it that I don't like about them that reflects what I still believe about myself or about the still in my awareness you start to see that people are more like mirrors than these autonomous creatures that think on their own and act on their own and tell the story of a man, a friend of mine he was a course in miracles he got involved into a course in miracles him and his wife and their daughter was murdered I think she was in her early 20s and they opened a healing center in her name and I spoke at that healing center and they ended up doing all these attitude of healing groups and course in miracles groups and he went through such a healing process that they caught the man who who had murdered their daughter and he went to the prison and the spirit guided him to go in there befriend this man and write a book about healing and this man was in prison with an artist and asked the man to put the art the illustrations in his book on healing that's the way the Holy Spirit guides to really, really release the grievance and it was such a great healing and him and his wife were married for like 32 years and I went down to visit him one time and he just looked at me and he was devastated his wife of 32 years had left with another man a younger man and moved to Greece he said David all these years of forgiveness and everything I've ever done they seem to go out the window I have envy, jealousy rage I'm hatred I'm going along thick and I'm cruising along and that we'll be like on the movie on golden pond we'll be with our white hair just rocking on our rocking chairs and holding hands and saying well we really handled that ego didn't we and everything he goes off with a younger man moved to Greece he was just he was all tied up and I finally looked at him and I said Jeff we have to talk about a few things he's like he had a dagger in his heart his sweetheart had left him after 30 years of marriage and all the healing and it felt like he was just twisting the dagger so the first thing I had to do was grab the dagger and go wait a minute people are not people they're just reflections of your thoughts so let's start taking a look at this and he's like okay and I said tell me what was going on before she left for Greece with this younger guy and she said well she said she's about 10, 12 you're younger than me but she started to get very concerned about aging he started to have wrinkles he was about 10 years old he started to get wrinkles and she started to get a little nip a little plastic surgery to prevent the wrinkles and I said what was she acting out for you what was that thought for you and she said a fear of aging I said very good she was acting out your fear of aging he's like wow and then I said I don't know a fear of dying I said aha there you go she was acting out your fear of dying and so we went through it as if she was a character that she was acting out his beliefs for him so he could get in touch with his beliefs cause he's talking about feeling abandoned rejected he felt them all and then he was like the more he talked I said well you know she still loves you this is all just playing out so you can look at what you believe and release these beliefs and heal you want to go back to God so we spent some time talking and I said how do you feel all kind of lonely isolated in this big house now by myself and I don't know if I have to go back to work I'm retired but I don't know if I can support myself in this big house I said yeah let's be practical do you really need this big house for just you so I took a walk met some guy who wanted who was looking for a house in that area so let's move quickly and then he said and I'm depressed my sweethearts gone it's lonely I'm isolated I said well don't you've been doing healing work for all these years where are all these people well they're all around in Florida I just haven't seen them for a long time do you have the biggest party you've ever had in this house if you're going to let go of the house let's light this place up so we got on the phone he had bunches and bunches of friends we did a big gathering he brought a woman along he said she's got the potential to be my new girlfriend he brought her by her get your family we just had a big celebration party we also talked he said well I write these fiction novels little short stories that are very metaphysical I said well show me some of them they were great he writes these great metaphysical short stories they are so inspirational about how to heal your mind and how to release attachments and all this and this he said I just never had the time to write them he got the timer and then quiet times together too he said now if you could do anything if you could do anything in the world right now what would you do my friend was from Mississippi southern part of the United States and he said in his southern Mississippi accent go fishing go fishing I went ah that's your meditation you don't have to sit in a lotus position you don't have to breathe in certain ways when you go out there with your buddies and put on those high boots and stand up there and you're having so much fun and you're feeling connected with God that's your meditation that's the form that looks for you you don't have to do yoga or tai chi or some of these other forms that's your form out in a creek bed and with your buddies fishing and you're feeling connected with God he said that's right that's why I want to go fishing and Holy Spirit just worked through me to kind of pull the dagger out and say no no no you're perceiving that the worst possible event has occurred in your life but it hasn't this is part of the script of you going back to God and all you have to do is be open to take the steps for your joy and your happiness and it turns out he ended up he ended up getting remarried the girlfriend, the potential girlfriend they sold that house he moved on he didn't stay in resentment anger, jealousy, envy all the typical judgments self judgments that were just killing him emotionally it was like no you can shift so that's how it works no matter what the event is there's always a higher interpretation which is the Holy Spirit's interpretation beyond that I'll give you a clue of where this is all going there really is no such thing as linear time I mean it's totally a fabrication of the ego when we're younger we go to history classes they draw the timeline on the chalkboard with little arrows they start off with all these events and they put a little dot and they call that the present moment and they teach us that the present moment is between the past and the future that's not even true this is a whole fabricated bunch of lies all of history one time Jesus was talking to Helen Schuckman and he said the most astounding thing Jesus said to her history would not even exist if you didn't keep making the same mistake repeating the same mistake over and over history would not exist if you didn't keep making the same mistake over and over oh that gets my attention tell me more about this mistake that he says what healed the world was over long ago that he's already accepted the correction that the Holy Spirit has already solved the puzzle of this world it's already over and done and I'm still reliving this crazy tiny man idea over and over and I'm making up history as I go along all of history is just make believe yes so that's why you need the training of the course of miracles for example because he says at the beginning of the workbook we need to introduce new time ideas because these old time ideas that you have are driving you crazy I mean you're really really you're like living in a hell that you've made up because you're playing by these old time rules some of you have probably read channel writings that talk about parallel lives it's simultaneous all time is simultaneous it's only the ego that strings it out and puts one image and one event before another and makes up this whole belief system that time is linear as if it's going to take time now to go back to God you think how many lifetimes how much inner work do I have to do the ego made up the whole thing there's an astounding line in the course of miracles the ego likes the idea of return to God I had to stop a minute the ego likes the idea of return to God because the ego can make the idea extremely difficult frustrating and difficult he's like saying you don't even have to return to where you already are you just have to have the experience and where you already are in the kingdom of heaven you don't even have to return to something that you never left so he keeps planting little clues in the book he says this is a journey without distance to a goal that has never changed I went back looking at the bible I said maybe he said some stuff 2000 years ago about time he did I was I am oh that's fascinating grammar fascinating grammar before Abraham was I am the present moment is before time it's not this little blip that's squeezed in between the past and the future the ego wants you to believe that it's just this little blip squeezed in front of the past and the future because it wants you to downplay it the ego teaches that the past is full of guilt just this tiny little blip of nothingness that's covered over and now the ego says you're going to make the same mistakes that you made in the past and the future and that's why some Christians talk about burning in hell because they follow the ego's theology out and that's exactly where it leads if you're guilty in the past you've got no power in the present to make a change then you're condemned to the future that's part of that old fire and brimstone mentality burn in hell so Jesus is saying no no the present is before time was before Abraham was I am he was teaching it back then that you can free your mind from illusions so much and work miracles have miracles performed through you and more and more have states like Jenny was talking about where it was timeless where you start to forget about time and some of you know the term amnesia when you have amnesia about an event you forget about an amnesia about your identity or something this whole cosmos is amnesia about love you know look at it I mean the wars the conflict, the disease you know the everyday stuff that you see on the news anybody who would say God created the world or how many years they've read it in the bible or how many years they've had to preach to him you know if they stopped for a minute they would go well God really must have messed up if he created this world and it looks this way but maybe the ego invented this distorted world as a device to keep the mind asleep and forget that it's Christ forget the divine love time is part of the trick and time is very relative I travel to all these countries you go through different time zones you know when we talk on the internet now it's like we call oh sorry it's what 3 in the morning there nobody can keep track of all the time zones and everything but it's really just an invention in fact we were in Australia and we were on this plane this guy sit next to us and he's got his cell phone he said it's crazy time is crazy and this is not a course of miracles student this guy just started off talking about time he said time is absolutely crazy he said let me tell you what he said I go home and I land and his house is right in the middle of two different states provinces or states in Australia and he's right on the timeline for the cell phone plan so the part of his house is an hour different than the rest if he makes a call from the front of his house he can get major charges bills of hundreds of dollars in the back when he's calling during the free time if he makes a call from the wrong side of his house he gets huge bills he said this time thing is crazy he said you walk along my neighborhood you can be in this time zone or that time zone and he said it's such an invention and I said yeah this wasn't even a course of miracles student just someone who was just observing the insanity of it and in fact my mother was always trying to send me birthday greetings but a couple years ago she always likes to be on time with the birthday greetings or phone call or whatever but I had flown to Australia so I had crossed the date line so she called me from what she thought was my birthday I said you're a day late she said I am not actually you're talking to me I'm in tomorrow that's when you start to fly to Australia and you do you take off you fly back and have the longest day ever you fly over there you take off and you land and it's two days later you land the plane lands did I drop a whole day somewhere in the Pacific Ocean and then when you take off from over there you take off and it's morning of whatever the 11th and you fly fly to Fiji and over Hawaii and you get to the United States you go into the United States and it's still the same days you've been flying for hours and hours and hours and hours and it's still the longest day really, literally but that just shows you how time is such an invention and when human beings put so much faith in it then they get concerned about being late they're concerned when they get early am I too early? they almost have to apologize am I too early? you're late you're guilty wait a minute who invented this thing in South America they got a whole different standard than up here I say the gathering will start at 7 o'clock and maybe by 9, 3 or 10 they're just beginning to come in for the gathering and he's like oh yeah it's almost accepted there's like a two or three hour grace period when starting something so it just shows the different cultures it's totally relative we don't have to get so stressed about things when people talk about relationship issues health issues economic issues issues with the environment with governments, with society time is at the bottom of it all and the sooner you start to realize it's a time issue then the faster you can be free from all of it if you start to realize that linear time is at the bottom of it all you think you have problems with your children or your parents or neighbors or whatever it's time that's way down there there's a movie that came out that's in my movie watchers guide called Dark City and it's like if you took a course of miracles and you put it into a full length motion picture that would be like what Dark City is it's dark because this world is dark and the more you see it it's all telepathic and the whole construct the projection and one of the characters decides that he needs to wake up and so he starts going through this wake up experience and he's very frustrated but all the other ones are sleeping and he's starting to wake up and he starts to get these telepathic powers and psychokinesis powers and so forth I said this movie one time to a course of miracles group that I worked with for years and it was so deep that the whole group fell asleep during the movie and these were course of miracles students they were like some of these I don't know but I took it down to Columbia some of these places where they've had civil war, kidnappings drug cartels where's your husband he was murdered back in such and such where's your son oh he got kidnapped a couple of months ago imagine you're having this conversation they really are into a course of miracles down there there's like somewhere between 50 and 100 course of miracles groups in Buenos Aires Argentina alone they want the real Christ they're tired of this hierarchy of popes and cardinals and bishops and old sacrificial theology and punishment wow that didn't work a long time ago but they were desperate for the truth for Jesus' message of my kingdom is not of this world I'm calling you out of the world think about it, if you were living in a society where there was murders, rapes, kidnappings drug cartels where the buildings had bars all over them to prevent vandals and everything that might accelerate the work with the course of miracles a little bit because you would start to say I'm not going to be fooled by the fluff of this world anymore love doesn't make this world go around like the romantic song says it's guilt guilt spins this whole cosmos spins this whole world and the sooner you start to see that and go inside you start to get in touch with the real love that's inside of you and then you just want to just everyone you just want to just share it you want to do anything that will save time for everyone your whole life becomes just a mission of grace and of love where you just want to share love with everyone in short time make them have an experience where they can see that it's just a trick so I've actually been invited in South America to a school to speak twice to the children of the school it was a school that was founded on the principles of Gurdjif so the whole school was founded on the principles of undoing the ego so I had to laugh I said well that makes sense that if I got an invitation to speak at school it would be the school for undoing the ego they were all very attentive very taking notes they weren't throwing paper and running around you they were like oh this is important 16, 17, 18 imagine being 17 you got your whole life before and you don't know what to make what sense to make of the world and then you get a teaching that says that living your time isn't real and that you can work miracles and escape from time they're like okay let's get going here let's get started let's get busy that's exciting for me to see people young people with their eyes sparkling I show a lot of movies I was in South America and I was showing this one movie called Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with Jim Carrey such a deep movie and Holy Spirit was ripping through me with all this commentary and everyone got happy there was a quantum physicist that was there there was these young people imagine young people that are dating maybe they're 18, 19, 20 years old they come down after the movie they're holding hands with his glow in their eyes because they realize that they're not destined to a life of struggle like their parents had that they can understand these ego dynamics that are trying to ruin their relationship and I just spent the last two and a half, three hours getting all the ego's secrets away it's going to try this with you and this but be ready watch out for this and this and this this is the real purpose they're like 18, 17 years old but they're so happy because using the movie I've been able to explain in graphic terms how to avoid falling into the ego's trap with relationships which makes them feel like hell anybody who's gone through a relationship that's really dark knows it's just like a ripped your heart out but it doesn't have to be that way I took the same movie to another part of Columbia and then over to two parts of Venezuela and I was showing this movie in Venezuela with lots of commentary and at the end of the movie this woman came up to me with tears pouring down her face and she said David I've been studying the course for 17 years hoping for one experience of God's love one blazing experience knock your socks off without a doubt God is real hanging on doing my workbook lessons practicing for 14 years and then in the middle of your movie she was there crying she was like God is real God is real her life will be changed forever one experience like that just opens up gets the ball rolling for many many miracles so to me that's that's a beautiful thing I see how the spirit can use movies and music and gatherings like these and many many different ways to reach you in a way that you can hear it in a way that you can accept it that the Holy Spirit knows your belief system knows your preferences knows all your ego tricks and knows a way to get through the defenses and to reach your mind and just shower you with love so much love like high voltage love that just keeps you just floating floating all the time so for me it's regardless of the form it just feels like joy I have met so many people I have my phone numbers on the internet and Skype I use email I try to make myself really really accessible and then when people contact me that's why I go places that's how I came to Sweden Anna invited me to come to Sweden she started very strong and we should invite David and that was it that was back in 2005 so I've been coming we even have a peace house established Anna always says her house is a peace house too with six children too that's a real interesting peace house you can maintain the peace with six children but we have one in southern Sweden in the car too that's kind of growing a little bit too we're coming back there and doing retreats longer retreats where we sit around watch movies together eat together maybe meditate together take a walk over here in Europe we've already got a little peace house going out of Sweden there's one over in Belgium it's not like the camp of church I have no goal to try to I have two guidelines at our peace houses no people pleasing and no private thoughts so you don't have to take bows of poverty, chastity and obedience you just have to be willing to lay it all on the table and to trust that there are people there that love you and trust you enough that they're not going to jump on you and criticize you for your private thoughts but they're going to be part of the Holy Spirit's plan to show you that those private thoughts and that you're innocent and that you're totally loved and accepted and it's a great feeling I guess you enjoyed that about coming to Cincinnati breaking all patterns like even now you still will have a hesitation but then you'll say might as well point it out there it's not that private thoughts are bad no private thoughts but Jesus is teaching you have no private thoughts all the thoughts in your mind that are real you share with God and you share with the Holy Spirit so that's what we mean by no private thoughts well over all these years of teaching and sharing and putting stuff on the internet there have been people and your joy and I want to join with you in purpose we're not teaching anything about special places special people darshans and vortexes and all the typical spiritual he was saying no like the core says the holiest spot on earth is where an ancient hatred has become a present love you know whenever we forgive that's holiness that's the remembrance of holiness so people come in contact with us we were just down in southern sweden at a cow farm what was it Vestra bygård small little place and she had us at the cow farm like the second time I was there and we had a beautiful gathering and then four people just came up and said we want to come and visit you and I said well that's fine and you can just email or write for a period of time maybe come for a retreat or whatever it's just to open it's just symbols there's nothing special about any house or about me or about anything it's just symbols of starting to give yourself permission to open up and to sometimes people come and they just pour out their hearts a woman I met in France she she said I just started crying and I said what's the emotion about and she said when I was 22 I had this experience of union with God and with love and with oneness and she said I've slowly drifted off into the ways of the world from 22 on to 40 so when I met you I recognized I remembered the joy and I'm mourning and grieving my sadness we're having allowed myself to drift off into bitterness into darkness and close my heart she said I can even remember the exact time when I told God you're not going to give me that relationship I'll show you what a close heart is and going down this spiral of feeling isolated and lonely and whatever then she met me and she was like I remember it I can see it in your eyes so she said she wanted to come to the peace house she didn't have any money some man donated her a round her ticket so she could come over for 11 days she spent 11 days with me we went to restaurants just have drove around Cincinnati just backdrop talking about things working through after 5 days she said uh oh I think I'm too dark it's not happening nothing's happening I said well you still have 6 more days left don't shut off the process yet and then finally around the 10th day she started to get more the bubble started to pop emotions started to come up and she started to feel the sadness and allow it to come and then she broke through the bubble we went to the airport taking her to get her on the plane back to France she just popped through this big dark bubble and when she got back to France she just kept sending emails of all these miracles she was working at a job at a law firm that she hated she despised going into work every day they came to her and she said no I quit she quit her job and then her severance pay was 5 times what she thought it would be and her unemployment check in France was about as much as her paycheck I'm getting paid to study of course in miracles it was just the next step for her of releasing these limits these deep seated beliefs unworthiness and limits that she had placed on herself and starting to see that she was deserving of love and then we just visited her and she took us up to Mary Magdalene's cave and a channel came to her house and did a reading for everybody told her she was married to me in the past life and she didn't like that and everybody was like hey how's my ex wife doing it just gets happier and happier when the bubble pops you can start to feel all lightness come in and she didn't even know if it was possible and I said oh yeah don't worry God is very powerful you just have to have the willingness to turn and then things start going the other way things start going the other way we're all in this together this is precious time for us to come together and expose these ego tricks that kept us bound and guilty for so many years seemingly in the dream and now it's time to have a wake up party somebody was asking me the other day they said are you going to come back for another life I said no this is it for me it's like the Truman Show good night you can't say good ridden though because when you have this experience you see that it never happened you don't have grievance so it's not like thank God I got away from the grievance you don't make it to heaven and tell your war stories heaven is the awareness that there are no war stories so it's really very very joyful to give yourself over to this experience because then I feel like really honored to not have any grievances I go around and get to meet all these people and even when someone is talking to me and saying something like emailing me or saying oh I went to one of your gatherings and I didn't like it and I was disappointed and you start to feel all the love in your heart and your only desire then all you see are opportunities everyday is like a flood of opportunities to share love you know when I was with traveling a few years ago and a waitress I could tell she was very nervous she was walking around and she was very nervous and I finally I said is this your first night and she said yes this is my first night and I'm very nervous I'm really scared to take the order I said listen I said I'm going to make an order here but you can do whatever you want if you bring that food here and you come late and you dump the whole whole plate of food in my lap I'm going to give you the biggest tip that you've ever had or she was just her first day of waitress I'm not too difficult to do but she just smiled as soon as I said that because I was basically just teaching her with symbols you can do no wrong your presence is so beautiful you don't have to be concerned about the waitressing that'll just come you can do no wrong all of a sudden she got so confident she's been waitressing for 20 years everything changed but it was a reflection of my mind that I was seeing her I was happy and whole and confident and she flipped around right away in fact I have the story that I sometimes share I have a friend who's a course in miracles teacher he was just recently over here in Europe and during 9-11 when the towers, twin towers came down about 11 days, 11 or 12 days after the towers came down he and a group of course in miracles students walked in to ground zero they walked into the city and it just it happened 11-12 days earlier so you can imagine what they were walking into he was in such a miraculous state of mind he was in total joy all the way in and then when he got in really close he saw a little short Japanese man who had a little checkered sport coat on and the Japanese man his head was down he was going so terrible he seemed to be in deep grief and my friend who was a miracle worker had the thought whisked through his mind what if my joy could be an affront or an insult to this man's grief and as soon as he had that thought which is ego thought as if there is such a thing he smelled all he felt the heat he smelled all the dust up his nostrils his ears he suddenly was aware of all the surroundings that he was standing in when he fell out of the right minded or the above the battleground perspective of being with the Holy Spirit and I said what did you do he said I called out Jesus I need to get back in my right mind he called out for the miracle and he was able to very quickly get back up into the miraculous state of mind where he could come back up and be in alignment and then he said the funniest thing happened he looked he was back up in his right mind he looked and the same Japanese man turned to him and looked him right in the eye and said in kind of a rhythmic rap nature like rap music I can see by the way that you feel that you know that none of this is real this is my one I said wow that's a shift in perception from grieving to that kind of a witness but that shows you the power of the mind that everything you witness is a reflection of where your mind is at so if you change your mind that's how you can see a happy world not by trying to you know solve the world's problems which are in the billions and trillions one at a time but by actually taking 100% responsibility for everything you perceive and just saying okay I got some cleaning to do I got some agent forgiveness I watched the news okay I got some I got some work to do 100% responsibility for just being mistaken and being open to the spirit to show you another way and it's there see the world from a different perspective Jesus had to see a different perspective when he the body was on the cross and bleeding the spikes in his arms and legs and he said forgive them for they know what they do you know that would have been a very inappropriate comment from somebody who was suffering on the cross like the ego would have us believe but he had transcended the body he had transcended guilt he had transcended pain and suffering and the world was simply a movie for him he had freed the guilt in his mind he had resurrected long before the body came out of the cave at the end he had resurrected prior to his public mission he had resurrected his mind so if you meet some Christian friends you can just tell them well the resurrection occurred before the crucifixion see what they do and then just explains the mind the consciousness raised up into purity and into oneness I and the father are one that's not a man speaking before Abraham was I am never ready to stone him when he let that come out of his mouth like how you young whippersnapper Abraham all of our traditions and you're saying before Abraham was I am like fighting words but the ego couldn't understand he was just giving the simple truth you know pure innocence so it's good all of a sudden it all starts to come together and all starts to make sense those things that you know were perplexing I used to I was raised a Christian but I didn't like that line in the bible I am the way the truth in the life no one comes to the father but through me I was like oh people in China that never have heard of you and it just seemed to be the most exclusive kind of thing and then I was on a plane and Jesus was saying that was the Holy Spirit speaking that was just the universal inspiration that's there for all of us saying I am the way the truth in life it wasn't a man speaking I was like oh I'm sorry I was so angry at you for that that line it was just again my misperception of who was speaking you know from a man to a spirit all of a sudden I was like of course it starts to make sense ni är till att ask ni är till att ask men vi var ute ur lokalen det kommer inte att hända mig ok it's so much of all this it does make sense to me experientially if it's kind of something I don't understand and I wonder if you can explain it a bit more how come that God created Christ if I understood it correctly in a way that he could have this kind of dream yeah that's a dress in fact everyone's somewhat familiar with the biblical story Genesis where it said God created man in his likeness and image but if God is spirit and God created man in his likeness and image that means man must be spirit the ego has turned that around and has made up its own God in its own name in its own image a fearful God an angry God a punishing God but basically it comes around to this thing in the Genesis story it said that Adam and Eve were in paradise with God and that God said whatever you do don't eat the fruit from this tree the tree of the knowledge of good and evil which to me again you have to see this is all just symbolic good and evil is duality if God and paradise are perfect oneness then it would be like don't take a bite out of that tree because once you start believing in duality you've got love and fear and heaven and hell and a mess but it's an illusion so in a course of miracles Jesus says that that God didn't have anything to do with that tree God didn't because people would say to me why would God put such a tree in the garden she should know better if he's a perfect creator he should never put that tree there and that apple looking so red and you know no he should never have done that but no Jesus said no that's a metaphor for the knowledge of good and evil is for duality but God didn't put that tree there God created a perfect being and God only knows that perfect being that he created in fact that perfect being Christ God gave everything to Christ all the skills and abilities of creation not in form but in spirit he gave all his creative abilities to Christ so Christ even has creations and of course in miracles says that we have creations that are waiting for us to wake up it's almost like having long lost children that you've never met that Christ has creations that are so wonderful and beautiful as spirit but we can't know them as long as we're asleep and dreaming so the teaching is God knows only spirit God creates only in spirit and God and Christ are really living in the same mind except there really are one spirit except there's only one difference that God created Christ and Christ did not create God the ego jumped on that said you want to be number two oh you come with me I'll show you how to be number one you don't have to settle for a second class citizenship of being only the Christ I'll take you to a place where you can be the kingpin the queen you can make yourself any way you want and you can keep doing it as much as you want you can reinvent yourself over and over and over any way you like it and that's what the ego's trick is it's like come with me and push God out of the picture the ego says you've already separated from God so now you better settle and compromise for this and this is what the dreams about now God there's a great line in the course where Jesus says one sentence in the beyond idol section he says God knows not form wow that's a pretty powerful sentence God does not form people I've heard interpret that people say oh my God he doesn't know about us well it's the us part that's why he's little pieces of flesh that seem to be so important people get all sad and weepie he doesn't even know about me believe me there's a much greater realm than the world of time and space so God knows Christ and Christ has creations now the Holy Spirit is simply a symbol of a bridge back so the Holy Spirit remembers God and also remembers Christ but also is able to work with illusions because the Holy Spirit knows they are true