 Hi, it's Bridget. Welcome to above-life channel the purpose here is to inspire your spirit and to fill you with hope Today I am recording without my microphone because I'm just sitting on the couch. I was actually going to do a meditation and Then I started thinking about Marilyn Monroe So I thought I would just turn on my camera and start a chat with Marilyn Monroe from the afterlife If you've watched above-life channel before, you know, Ms. Marilyn Monroe has a playlist here You know that I like to connect with her and I feel I feel a kinship with her and so I Wanted to ask her specifically though about forgiveness So let's talk about that today All right, Marilyn can come on in. Oh She's so sweet. I have a really tender heart today and my heart feels tender and maybe it's because I've been doing some mega-channeling in my groups, you know ascended masters and Goddesses and deities and saints and all that stuff have been coming up. So maybe that's why today. I feel tender in my heart So right Marilyn, can you talk a little bit to us? She's so sweet. She's just smiling and she's like hello Bridget She It's always so sweet you guys. She's so so so so sweet. All right. So can you talk to us about forgiveness? I'd love that energy for you to share with us about that because it seems like you have this incredible ability to forgive And so I'd like to be able to share that with the viewers here Because the channeling that we do is about healing too. And so let's talk about that Okay guys, she says it's not it's not for me to say it's not my place to say How to go about about that I'm not really sure you could say that I'm an expert in that I don't know what makes you believe that I am so good at that Bridget what she's saying I think that in the afterlife Marilyn you and I have talked a few times quite a bit and You seem to have you've had a lot of experiences in your human life and you in the afterlife seem so forgiving so able to heal and Despite the things that you had to go through and experience and so I think That's what I would like to know like did you Were you always just a forgiving person? It's not part of our nature or in the afterlife. Is that something that you learned? Can you talk about that a bit? Everyone has a chance to I think everyone has a chance to Be the the best version of themselves that they can be And that requires a love that is far greater than what It seems to be possible when you're a human and Maybe it's because of the afterlife that I have this renewed Feeling that you are connected to about forgiveness I don't really know that I can't say that I I Tried to forgive or I was intentional in it. I think I really feel like it's a A survival thing It can suffocate you if you have hatred hate in your heart Or if you hold on too long to a grudge it can just make you just playing crazy That's not something that anyone needs My dreams to have a family was one of the greatest Saddest quite devastating really parts of my lifetime Being able to come to terms with that or just accept that was very very difficult and and I Even upon my death. I didn't I didn't actually accept that I I really thought that I could have a baby at least one just one. I just wanted one one child one healthy beautiful child and I didn't even care if it was a boy or a girl. I just I was one healthy baby I thought joe and I I wanted To be the kind of mother To be the kind of family That a child would serve I would have liked to have that with joe But I don't really believe that he Really wanted to be a father But I'm not entirely sure. I think he would have probably done that had I Really pushed it and he knows that he knew that That was a part of me that I wanted to settle down and into the life of a mother and I suppose maybe Others other people sort of know you better than you yourself. I think for forgiveness Myself for myself. That's that's the one thing that I would share from the afterlife that That is something that comes true for you for for all of For everyone everyone can You can have that peace Even after there's been so much pain I never really Felt like I was worthy of Being given a child I'm not really sure that I believed in my heart that my lifestyle could support that that that I wasn't in Contradiction with my my career and my mother My desires for my career and my desires for my mother for motherhood. I I suppose She says the universe which I think is interesting the universe had different plans I wasn't angry or mad at god or anybody else. I I really just felt like It was because of me you could say I blamed myself but after knowing you know after Realizing there's not There's no one really to blame and meant not having a child wasn't a punishment wasn't a withholding for me from happiness Happiness was a choice that I had and I I couldn't bear the loss and Others in my life as you know betrayed me as well I had a lot of betrayal. I tried so hard to trust To trust love You could say to trust my heart, but I I fell in love way too easily I really did. I really do say that that's I really would I would admit that and I don't regret that I don't regret that part of my life that part of an existence is simply a Something that I was looking for something. I was chasing love and To forgive myself or something like that. I'd know and really I know what you're asking without saying it because we've gotten to the point where we've talked a little bit about things related to relationships public and presumed relationships, let's say that Yeah, so let's say that Marilyn public and presumed relationships that you had or perhaps maybe we'll rumor enough And relationships that people hear on the youtubers universe Feel like caused your death or influenced your your passing your untimely death And so let's talk about forgiveness related to that and the circumstances or the relationships you had that Some people feel Resulted in your death whether you took your life or someone else or other people were involved Which you and I've talked about and I have very strong views on You can watch that on the playlist my friends at above the channel Here on the playlist So Can you talk about that? You know, there are some things that a girl never tells You know how I feel about this Bridget. We have had conversations. We have had many many Dialogs about this and I don't feel like it's anyone's fault, but our own It's my own fault. It's on it's it's my choice And perhaps did I act irrationally? At times yes Maybe obsessively yes Mental illness most certainly played a part in that and my patterns as you would say my patterns my choices of Of drinking and and medications and all those things. Yes And my need to be loved to just be loved to have that attention that acknowledgement is Is all I ever really wanted, but I needed it constantly and it wasn't enough. It was never enough one man one person One caregiver. It was never enough for me. There's so many rumors and so many false Accusations and assumptions that are made around me and my life and Those are from people who don't even know And I'm not really I'm not really angry. I'm not upset They don't know they just don't know they didn't know me. They think they know me. They can analyze me now Looking back upon my life and then draw all sorts of conclusions, but they didn't they never know and they never will know They will never know me really know me Or understand the relationships I had or the desires I had or the means I had for for The men in my life that I was that I that I had in my life that I was drawn to that I wanted so desperately to be loved by them and To say that I need to forgive it would be more so to more that I would need to forgive the media and the social conversations around the discussion around my end of life experiences When really they don't know what they're talking about no one no one has the full picture No one knows but me no one They can speculate they can talk and maybe that's where the forgiveness comes and maybe that's the forgiveness To just not care you can't care about what other people think of you and The pursuit of your own happiness and taking care of yourself is something that I Misunderstood or miss she says misinterpreted. I didn't allow myself to let myself be loved within by me I needed that outside. I needed that the validation of a man I needed the attention I I did Not because I was conceited it wasn't any conceit It wasn't any of that it was the need to be loved and just to be to be treasured and valued and validated and and and just so So appreciated and trying to fill that that empty place without a family was so hurtful for me that it confused my Reality with my fantasy I saw I thought things were possible in those relationships when The men were married and When you fall in love with someone you just fall in love. I fell in love over and over and over again And I don't need to forgive myself for that Forgiveness isn't something that I can teach you I'm afraid Maybe in the terms of maybe what you would relate to better is to think of it as Not caring as much about what other people think of you or how they're going to judge you What they're going to write about you in the papers after you're gone because they can say or do or judge or Write anything they want to It doesn't have to be true as you know, you can see that now I don't have do I really have to say that you can see that now Far too much time is wasted on that You see my desire my seeking of love and attention was not Was not for public status or icon status It was truly and genuinely for love It wasn't for the money. It was for the The attention and the love I think the closest thing to forgiveness and to knowing forgiveness is to know love And you see Bridget, I never really knew that Until now and now that's all I have. Wow, that was almost Wow, that was almost like a transformative channel is Marilyn. Thanks, mare You know, I love you. I appreciate you coming and and sharing and I hope the audio works on here you guys since I didn't get up to grab my microphone But thank you so much, Marilyn. This has been a channel here at above life channel Hopefully to inspire your spirit and fill you with hope but myths Marilyn Ms Marilyn Monroe from the afterlife. What did you think of this channel? Go ahead and put your comments below I'm interested and curious to see what you guys have to say Thank you so much for watching. Remember, this is your life. It's your life now So live it just live it. This is Bridget. Thank you so much for watching