 I think in some ways, that's why the mystics and the saints, you know, went off to live in the caves and the woods, is they started to tap into this deep, deep unconscious sense of rage that was there. It probably had the thought like, oh, this is not going to go over in my family, my society, my job, my whatever, my position. And so, I think that was part of going off, and I think it was very helpful for me. I mean, I actually felt like going off and living in the woods for a while, which I did, which a lot of rage came up there. I actually went off to a house in Kansas for a while, cut it on eBay for like $6,000, and I needed like a three bedroom house to really bless some rage out there in more than just a small space. But it actually is more helpful in an initial way. It really doesn't help as you go on a little bit deeper, because how it helps initially is there's so much training in the mind, cultural training about swallowing emotions, stuffing down emotions. There's an enormous amount of denial and repression that's part of the self-concept that might say that Jesus says when the belief in separation was taken seriously, it was a horrific feeling. And so, actually that's the reason that the cosmos was made, the whole cosmos, the Big Bang was about trying to dump that horrific feeling and that guilt out somewhere else and to kind of alleviate it and get rid of it. And then when that really didn't completely do the trick, didn't suffice, then the mind got into a lot of denial and forgetting and dissociation, and we call that amnesia. I'm going to have to invent the power to forget. It's too horrific to hold in awareness, so I'll just forget it. Kind of like that movie Sphere, I don't know if anyone remembers that with Sharon Stone and Samuel Jackson and Dustin Hoffman. They go through the whole movie and all these monsters and underwater dramas and everything going on, and then they start to realize it's their own mind, that there really aren't monsters outside, that they're just thoughts. But at the very end of the movie, that's that clip that we show a lot, where they just all hold hands and agree to forget, because they don't know how to deal with that much power. If my mind is that powerful and I could have such horrific thoughts, just vicious thoughts, then is there any way out of it? What if I can't handle that power? Okay, let's just forget it. So there's a lot of denial and repression that seems to be used, and then these kind of expressions of the anger, and they talk about whether it's beating the bataka sticks, or beating pillows, or screaming, primal scream, and there's so many different therapies, and even a lot of breath work, rebirthing and a lot of circular breathing techniques designed to get down into your mind like a roto-router, just go right down into these core emotions. At some point, you start to realize that there is a basic assumption behind a lot of these techniques, and that's that you have to get it out. Except if everything is mind, you can't really get it out, and certainly you can't get it out of the body, because you're not really a body. Even though there's a lot of expressive therapies, it's almost like the underlying assumption that somehow it's in your body somewhere. And somehow, if you violently swing and scream enough, that the little Tasmanian devil that's in there somewhere, hiding in the... they don't even use words like cellular memory, like the evil is in your cellular memory. If you just breathe enough, or scream enough, or whatever, that somehow it will come out, and it really... you can't get it out because there is no out there to get it out to. And that's what metaphysics and authentic healing does. It starts to take you to say... like Francis was saying, it's thoughts. It's just, these are like thoughts. These are not external causes. You know, that's where the victimization mentality comes in from the belief that it's out there, and it's doing it to me. Or even that it's in there in my body. In fact, Jesus has about nine chapters in the Course in Miracles devoted to special relationships. And at one point he's describing it very graphically as if there's this great gift, this great precious gift that you deserve, and your brother has it. And your brother is keeping it from you. This precious gift that you need to be happy and peaceful. And not only that, but your brother has it and is keeping it from you and has hid it in his body. He's hid it away in his body. And of course, we all know, Jessica was talking about relationships. When you get into the relationship, you know, the words can come out. Can you just give me whatever, give me my space, give me some lovin', give me... You know, can you just give it to me? And it's like there's this underlying deeply buried unconscious belief that somehow your brother has something that you don't have and is withholding it from you. And there can be a lot of rage that comes like that. Almost like just give it to me, you know, as if like you stole it. Or give it back, like children are playing. One sibling steals something and says, give it back. Mom, make them give it back. And that's like this thing that gets acted out in all these relationships. And in more than relationships, it can be acted out with the environment. Like I just haven't found my peaceful spot in the world yet. I know it's out there somewhere. If I could just find it, you know. So I think you start to realize that really no amount of screaming is going to bring the solution. And yet there's this sense that you certainly don't want to hide and protect anything. You don't want to play hide and seek with yourself, with your own mind. And that's where these opportunities, like these gatherings, or some of you who aren't here, don't know about it, or if you're new, like Jessica's here, or Francis. We have expression sessions on a daily basis at about 12.30 for lunch, where there's an open talking about things. It's not, they're not really like scream sessions most of the time. But it's more of just like not feeling that you have to hold something in that you can talk about, or whether it seems to be good and joyful and miraculous or not, that you can actually bring it up and talk about it, that it's actually encouraged. And so I think those kind of experiences will serve you the best. And some of the old ones, like going down canyon to scream or whatever, probably would have the same kind of feeling like, I think I've been here before and done this of, we could say, metaphysical or spiritual systems that will still try to pin it in the body, like we talk about cellular memories, and there's a lot of that that's in there. And then if you believe that, then again, it's like you can't help but feeling like a victim of these cells. You know, it's like these damn cells. And it'd be all right if they didn't have these damn cellular memories. You know, I mean, even when you watch movies like What the Bleep, and you hear Candace Perth or something talking about, yes, and every cell you have has its own memory. It's like, oh man, what a mess I've got now. How many millions of these cells are going on in there and they've each got their own memory? How are you going to, you clean millions out and they've still got a few little rebel cells hanging on there, you know, and you're a victim. I've been with you all the time. Really weird. Yeah. And it's like, so it's, so you start to get this sense that more and more with the mind training that everything is mind. In fact, Jesus says, mind reaches to itself, it does not go out within itself, within itself is everything. You within it, and it within you. And it's, wow, wow, I never, nobody ever described a mind like that. It's like all-encompassing is the word he uses. And so when you start to look at these thoughts, there has to be a release of really believing that these thoughts are real. You know, that's going to be the linchpin that pops it. You know, it's like as long as they're believed to be real and they seem to be tormenting, then all kinds of beliefs can come to reinforce that, that they're stuck somewhere or, you know, that you have to somehow escape. But it's good to just start to open up to this idea that you can't get them out of your body. Because a lot of effort can be put in that. And if you look at the medical model, you know, when they talk about cancer cells, nobody talks about cancer cells that are like floating in the air over your bed. You know, they just never talk about cancer that way. It's always these like rebel cells eating away in the body. And, you know, that's just another version of it. Another version of it would be voodoo, as if like somebody sticking pins in a doll can harm you, you know, or psychically, you know, psychically being harmed by evil energies or evil entities and so on and so forth. You can see there's a lot of seeming layers to these beliefs that the evil is somehow outside. They even had a counseling call today of someone who's been working with the Course for many years and working with some clients and a group of people. And it's kind of like, you know, you're doing all this spiritual work and then you get a client from a mafia family. So it's like this, you can start to describe some of these energies as homicidal, suicidal, you know, really dark kind of things. And yet, of course, the belief is still that this entity or this demon or this energy is outside. And it has an effect psychically, very much like voodoo, you know, that somebody can actually harm somebody. And in many societies this is called like magic, like black magic and things like that. But it's all belief, it's all just belief. And the good news is at any point you could just stop projecting the error as if it's some thing, some energy, some person, some world, something that was done in the past or whatever that seems to be real and causative and you could simply say, I have no use for this at all. This is not serving me at all. This is not empowering me one bit. And then you practice transferring the training but that's a real common belief that I find. It's very pervasive through a lot of spiritualities somehow that it's in the body and that you have to somehow figure a way to get it out or do it enough to get it out. You know, be a lot of repetition. Feel it enough, pray enough, say enough Hail Marys, do something, you know, enough. And it's not really a matter of quantity.