 you guys huge low bun um and it's messy all I did was I was supposed to be um hold on this is my hair from yesterday and I got lazy did two flat not two two twists and all I did was pull this back yeah she is serving you messy mom yeah yeah sorry I always cuz I have asthma it is Tuesday and I am about to fix me some breakfast just like some waffles egg or waffles I know not good for you and some strawberries because I have an appointment later on this morning with the nurse at my surgeon's office because you guys I need to turn that ball your mouth my phone I'm getting some discoloration on my breasts those you don't know I had a breast reduction in May of this year I went from a triple D sometimes double E depending on the brand and the brand of the bra to a full C a man girl 38 full C and so what's the point you know it's so funny is that my minimizers are apparently so well that people who see me like my girlfriend who saw me yesterday she's like you look really good you've lost a lot away and I say girl it was my titty I got a breast reduction she's like really she's like you fly it makes me look so much smaller even when I went back home and I had one I had one aunt who just kept looking at me and finally I let her know I whispered to her to the side she's like Vibb that's what it is they call me Vibb back home she's like Vibb I've been looking at you child yo your breasts so good yeah so anyway I got some rice over her boiling I need the whole show so what's the point I've been getting discoloration which you know from my Google research and looking at some other women is it's common or not uncommon I should say because it is Tuesday I'm trying to cook my husband some lunch today because he didn't get much tomorrow for work and get much tomorrow so I'm just gonna whip up something some wild rice and have some black rice in there too that I've had in there for a couple of weeks and I'm too afraid to try it has anyone tried black rice wild rice includes brown well the world rice mixture I has half includes black rice but this is like pure black rice I'm gonna wait till I have some time to make that so I can experiment so y'all been I've been back to eating carbs not to say I had reduced I mean I have completely stopped but I have reduced it but my thing now is coconut rice when I tell you that it's some good eating girl until what I do okay this is what I do I make my rice and I've gotten to the point to why I make my rice like the Latinos make it I make it in a skillet and just steam it Africans and West Indies would we typically use a pot but I use I do like the Latino so girl maybe I'm a black Hispanic and I don't know it so I use a skillet and once it's done steaming and all that I pour in like one fourth of a cup of unsweetened coconut milk put a little bit of cilantro on top girl I could eat the whole pan if no one's watching all right y'all it's time to go to the appointment look I didn't have any coffee today I just decided not to sometimes when you have something like the anxiety like I'm going through right now this year this not this year girl every other year around this time of the year I get seasonal seasonal you do to you know stuff and I do have a video coming up I think I'm gonna go ahead and edit that and post it in a couple more weeks y'all can't see me hold on but anyway girl I didn't have any coffee today cuz I sometimes I think that the caffeine can make it worse a I did not have any coffee and so far I'm still feeling good I need to go ahead and take my supplements and medicine besides that CBD oil let me check something real quick you guys I before we leave the place is only about 40 minutes away like but I you never know accidents or whatever um who's I gonna look up okay I just posted on YouTube I really do love this new future with YouTube where you can as a content creator where I can post either a poll ask you guys questions you guys can response I like that being able to interact like that so I just posted whether or not you guys wanted me I should have done a poll but I didn't I posted whether or not you guys wanted me to review this hairdryer let's see what the comments say okay six comments so let's see yes please I've been looking at hairdryers both heat and non-heat you know what you you you doing the most maybe I could do heat and non-heat on maybe I can do that then my hair would be messed up we'll see yes please hire the comb attachments on 4C yes please yes hi y'all so I'll go ahead and do it um you know what I'm thinking about our wedding anniversary I it's not till next year April was like tax day or something April 15th I may recreate my entire wedding style put on my dress and everything y'all like seriously I'm thinking about doing it I've seen someone else do that and I thought it was really cute so I'm thinking about recreating the hair and the makeup that makeup slate too that makeup was really beautiful I make up for my wedding but I will go ahead and recreate actually that hair is what I'm recreating now this week 50 and get your together so yeah I haven't had any coffee so I'm but I am drinking peppermint coffee peppermint tea you know what she has is big-ass blow-up and the damn snowman is on his hands and knees with the butt up in the air yeah I told you my neighborhood be doing the most for the holidays yeah y'all was thinking about stopping by JB school and dropping him something off you know cuz sometimes you got lunch with them and I think that may make it worse he that may make it worse I'm not gonna do that so yeah like I said it's just a phase but I'm just I'm just surprised I'm surprised that even another parent was like JB was crying I said yeah he's like JB is typically the one that's consoling other kids I said I know you telling me I know he was like wow I would think he would cry I'm like thank you I know hey you guys so I'm here my doctor's appointment I'm a little early so we're gonna do like a little quick chit chat then I mean it's gonna be like less than 10 minutes girl and I'll give you guys the timestamp so that way those of you who don't really care for my vlogs you can get to the you know chit chat or maybe I'll put the chit chat before so girl let's talk real quick yeah I got like eight minutes I'm gonna talk about what's going on these YouTube streets you know TV I've been watching and just it's something random comes up in my head we're gonna talk about it so he's driving way too fast I should guys like this place no girl what you gonna do with that I have been watching a little bit of just random people having you know really watching a while and I was watching a video from naturally fashionable who her and her husband have been living in Kuwait for a while and this video was how long let me get some tea cuz my voice hmm first of all I like her because she is a no-nonsense and she was reading people in a very PC manner in a very southern hospitality I'm shading you and you really don't know um excuse me the video was about Jill Scott who was those you don't know Jill Scott is a well-known artist music artist what is a Neil soul which I like some of Jill's music and it's been a while now a couple of weeks ago Jill Scott was pretending to be performing oral sex on her microphone so youtuber naturally fashionable made every you know basically talking about how war has class gone you know and that it was inappropriate for Jill Scott to have done this being that she's a mother to a young child and she's an older woman and now I do agree with her on a lot of talking points that she brought up I really did now I did not watch the whole video because they were dragging her in the comments when I tell you they were dragging her they were dragging her but this is the thing you guys most of the women who are making those comments are young girls young girls who probably don't even have children and not to say that you can't have an opinion if you don't have any children but your perspective on things and this is coming from someone who felt like I could say anything about you know when I didn't have kids and it totally changes once you have a child and it makes you think okay maybe I should do it in because quite as it kept sometimes I be wanting to do videos on a little rated R rated PGX but then I think about it okay I am a mom I also have to think about my brand that once you put something out there it's out there so do I is that a ref do I really want that to reflect me okay no I don't so we ain't gonna go there we ain't gonna talk about anything I think that our morals are out the door you guys I really do now yes people have talked about sex before cuz I saw someone made a comment you know this is nothing new you know look at Patty label songs and you know Tina Turner songs they were talking about sex back then but they were using what metaphors it wasn't all out there it wasn't I don't think I ever saw Tina Turner using a microphone and pretending like it was a damn penis yet no not on stage no but now yes there has been R&B artists doing stuff stuff that are sexual in the 70s let's just put it out there but that's what their concerts were known for and I know that Joe Scott she has some sexual explicit songs but to do that at a concert I don't know y'all first of all cry is the cap she wasn't doing anything extraordinary to me so I was like okay well where's the well where's the magic at I don't understand you know everyone's going crazy I'm like y'all do I think it was age-appropriate there are older women that have oral sex so yeah but I'm not like a huge Joe Scott fan and so I'm not of you know I'm not a fan enough to be offended by it you know so anyway those of us who follow Justin J we know by now that he has been diagnosed what he revealed a couple of weeks ago that he is HIV positive and you guys I have her had a hate-love relationship with Justin and I've mentioned this before I am subscribed to him and and it's all it's all for me personally with Justin and a lot of these controversial youtubers when they go back and forth from bickering but there was a point there where I felt a lot of people were ganging up on him and I'm gonna name drop it was your James Carwell it was Sean Bradley it was what is his name one of the glasses I don't I'm not subscribed to him I felt like it was just a bit ganging and I felt like it was bullying and so I was a little sympathetic towards him was like oh and then I also see where he's come from I've seen the growth so when I saw that video and he you know he was in good spirits and sometimes you have to smile through the pain you know and he said how he's going to use his platform this is what I am wishing from him and that what I would hope from other people who decide to use their YouTube channel vlog whatever it be I hope that we get into this is how to prevent this instead of okay this is what we do now because I think that's the real way to make a change is to prevent other people from actually contracting HIV or A you know teach our young children young adults on what not to do what behavior we should avoid you know cuz it's so much easier to now say okay now this is what I'm gonna do now that I have this disease you guys and he may do that he may you know like I say use his channel to educate people on the things not to do so it is really unfortunate you know yes treatment is out there but having a disease like that you know I don't know anyone personally that has had HIV or AIDS but for what I can tell from other people that have had it is not just you know taking your medication it's like a overall health struggle and a lot of these immune suppressant diseases come with a plethora of symptoms oh gosh so yeah my heart goes out to him and I was so heartbroken when he and but I was it was very courageous of him to have done that and I think regardless of what you stand on as far as what you view of Justin you have to admit that was very brave of him to have done that I know there was room was going around that well someone was about to out him regardless of that regardless of if he was on the verge of being out it was still brave of him to come on cam and admit to that so you guys I'm about to go into my doctor's appointment real quick and yeah I just want to say that besides that I'm catching up on the real housewives of Atlanta I'm done I always say this every season but I'm done with candy using Porsche as her storyline I'm sick of Porsche I just can't believe that Porsche is in her what she's in her late 30s acting like she's 20 something years old I mean tat getting matching tattoos with the hot dog guy her now her fiance who she's also pregnant by and her mom act got miss Diane is a geriatric thought I'm sorry I had to talk about somebody mama like that but she's pushing Porsche into this having a baby and getting married and I'm like she's known this man for a few months all right y'all I'm an out of my doctor's appointment and now I'm just sitting up here girl girl a $50 copay just for her to tell me I need to start put more lotion on my titties seriously I know I'm sorry I have basically have eczema on my lord have mercy so anyway what was I talking about okay so real housewives of Atlanta I can't do it I just gotten to a point to where I'm not even watching the full episode because I just I don't know the only storyline I'm slightly interested in is Evers is that how you pronounce my Eva I know she was that old y'all not she's not old but she's only a year younger than me she's 37 why does she act so immature she doesn't necessarily act immature but she acts a lot younger than what she comes off I thought she was in her late 20s early 30s a girl between her miss Diane Porsche's mama I feel like I feel like candy I feel like candy is the type of person who doesn't really have she doesn't have true friends she knows a lot of people she has a lot of business acquaintances but I feel like she's the type of friend that can get on your damn nerves if they're why because she's complaining about the same thing over and over you either do something that you hush up like I she would be that annoying friend for me that I would love from a distance you know love from afar because you keep talking about cuz I could just see the expressions on when she was talking to Don one and Todd about Porsche I could see their experiences like not again girl you still talking about this that's how they look to me I had finished up with how to get away with murder girl that fine Frank I cannot wait for walking dead to see fine Frank the actor who plays Frank on how to get away with murder is also on fear the walking and I told you guys about that a couple of blocks ago again one of those shows what I'm always like this you guys there are certain shows that I do look look at and that I watch from like seasons and the walking dead was one of those that I was watching from season one then I stopped because I started having nightmares but then I started back up but this season is ever since Rick got flown away I don't like this season that much but girl I watched the last episode and I was I don't know if I want to be able to do this because I'm like the zombies are talking of the zombies talking there is not the zombies talking there's another group of people wearing zombie skin or some shit so yeah I can't really watch that anymore so it's really not too many shows that I'm watching I did download the Brit box I love me some British TV and I bench watch Vera which is a very good crime show I told you guys the British does crime very well but now I'm watching Vera someone uploaded the they uploaded the series or the seasons on YouTube so that's for free so yeah you guys not a lot on TV like I said some of the YouTube videos I did catch up on a lot of them I not I do see quite a few quite a few of people doing vlogmas I really do like a natural hair for you I believe that's her YouTube name I love the sisters she's very I don't know how to put it I can't put her in a box and I like that and I believe she's a type of person she doesn't want you to put I can't categorize her channel or her personality for that but she's very straightforward transparent and I do like that about her some of the other people I was talking about I had to unsubscribe for and I'm gonna name drop because this is who I am a Christy mom for you I had to unsubscribe from and Olivia with the living with the webs I had to unsubscribe from them I'm not gonna go get into it just I'm not watching them what really ticks me off though not nearly ticks me off but you can unsubscribe from someone and then their videos still come up and they're suggested or recommendations and I'm like what for so I'm not gonna do this so Christmas is around the corner what are y'all getting for me so look I know I'm not I know that I'm not the only person that buys himself something for Christmas girl I already started you hear me I already started one of the things I definitely want to get is a hair steamer and once I do get the steamer I will be officially reviewing it now I am up to the point to where right now I am deep conditioning once a month with the steaming I want to do that once a month so I will more than likely when I do my deep conditioner I will be steaming with it because the only time I've done a true steamer with with an actual hooded steamer was women's or let did it and let me tell you my hair felt oh my gosh you guys my hair felt wonderful and been out here in the area it is extremely dry and Phoenix hence my my dr. It is it's really dry here in Phoenix so it really does help if you have a steamer I think it would help even if you're not in a area where this dry climate but be not in the desert I live in a desert like no I live in these called the Sonoran Desert and yeah so yeah I'm good definitely gonna buy me a hair steamer I'm trying not to buy any makeup however I saw a LA girls palette and I'm a type of person why is that flag half mass oh because of George Bush why did I think he was already dead y'all like so I knew that his wife passed away by for some reason I thought that George Bush senior had passed away a couple of weeks after that I don't know why I'm like what he been what I'm anyway I'm sorry the flag is half mass in front it's always wondering why and I'm gonna send it that they gonna postpone our mail tomorrow because of his death I'm like what I might know my camera to get back I mean rest in peace and honor glory to God I'm like you know so much has changed when it comes to these holidays and you know sometimes you guys I know there's like a really big commercialization of it especially here in the US I mean they start putting this stuff out this year they started putting the holiday stuff out in late August and that is absolutely ridiculous and I've tried not to fall into the traps of all that this is what I saw until I was bring up one of my neighbors has one of those old school like 80s nativity scenes like that though plastic ones and with the wise man and Jesus of Mary and I seriously want to go whenever I see that I'm like and they're all white I know how I feel about this you know you have the the old school nativity scenes and every you know the wise men are all whites you know nowadays I will say nowadays I've been seeing proper representation of the wise man being of color at least really or at least one of them in real chocolate girl they they make them real chocolate to make up for the other 210 ones try not to decorate with that type of stuff because I don't see it being a proper representation of the way things truly were I don't even I think about it I don't even go out my way to have anything with Santa Claus on it and for those you don't know there are other characters when it comes to Christmas you know what I mean and what country is that word one of the characters is some short little black leprechaun named Pete or something Pete or Patrick but yeah girl you got like black Pete show and I first saw pictures of black people all those white people running around with black faces I don't know what country that is in in Europe but they have a character called black Pete there's crumpas there's other character due to pagan ties that are tied to Christmas which is why I'd shot jay we can take pictures with Santa Claus but I don't go out my way and be like oh let me get you these Santa Claus stuff girl no we ain't doing that now I'll be looking at the figurines on that black Santa the black Santa is cute but I'm not gonna buy it unless it's like 75% off even then I don't know anyway all this is all over the place I know so we're gonna get back into the vlog but I want to put a chitchat in the in the middle of this okay hold on y'all let me see y'all I have to start eating better I had water burger yesterday I've been eating out a lot more which is not good I'm just I just real quick went back home just because I need to go back inside this is personally go to my work ooh deeper than her just upload y'all deeper than hair you two were deeper than hair she can slay some hair now what what the hell's going on all right y'all yeah I thought I was so good to hang out with my friend and I like I said in my last vlog I really need to start doing that more often and if not do that have some type of adult time which quite frankly I have been you know every two months I've been either having lunch with a friend or just having some adult time with other adults so yeah that that hasn't been a problem but I guess my thing is that I need to hang out with my friends that are here more often locally more often um alright so I was gonna tell y'all I completely got sidetracked and forgot I have an event I didn't forget but I haven't been preparing for the event that I'm going to be vlogging this coming Sunday and so Ms. Ehrlich just an honor reminder she's like get your get your phone charges girl you ain't got to tell me get your phone charges get your business card but why y'all I have or had two types of business cards I have a business card that is you know for me being a beauty influencer I don't want to say that youtuber I have that type of business card and then I had I'm sorry I'm trying not to judge people and judge young young people but this mom she has a little girl around JB's age and she is puffing on this cigarette like you are really not only are you doing yourself a disservice but your child my father quit smoking when he had kids it was hard but he did it anyway sorry yeah my brain it's how my brain works so I have two types of business cards let me put this up here and I have to run in y'all I have two types of business cards I have my business card for when I was selling my hair on hair oil and I was also at one point I was trying but nobody wouldn't do this I was trying to do natural hair consultations I mean I spent so much time creating a form compiling less I mean I literally spent months month at least half a year on research for natural hair consultation but no one's gonna do that because one there's so much free information out there why would you go to someone for natural hair consultation and I know Ms. Urlet try and she's she has some ideas surrounding them I'm not gonna go into detail because she may not want that information out there but I did approach her and let her know that I think we should co-app and do like a series of back-to-basics and back-to-basics deep conditioning back to basics detangling and have her do my hair you know what I mean y'all but get very detailed and it would be specifically for category four hair excuse me I'm spitting boy for hair and this is Ms. Urlet's passion she loves hair she's been doing here for 25 years or something like that and it's it's interesting coming from she's someone who actually watch YouTube and watch youtubers she sometimes comments on things that youtubers do because those people don't have the knowledge when it comes to hair and texture you know what I mean hey y'all home now I'm gonna divide up these vlogs because I've already uploaded two blocks for y'all this week and I really really don't feel like editing any more vlogs to load up for this week because I have two hair related videos to record film and of course I have the event I'm gonna be going to and then we have a lot of stuff we're doing over the weekend that I'm gonna try to film a little bit there so yeah when you have a lot editing is the hard part so I'm not gonna have time to edit edit is what I'm saying on Saturday karate was canceled the guy canceled karate lessons which is fine but JB goes I try to have him to go three times a week but since he canceled yesterday I mean sorry Saturday he's gonna go Thursday and Friday which is tomorrow the next day and thank the Lord his school since I noticed it was basically like we're gonna be offering child care services during the winter break I'm like amen so I call same day and I was like let me go ahead and sign my child up so out of the two weeks I just signed him up for four days because my husband's gonna be off all that week I'm gonna be taking off the week before two days and then into Christmas those first two days I have off but so I was trying to see if I could you know find some other parents to do a play day but people have plans and that's why I try to tell my husband I'm like again it's it's really doing you know our family in this service being away so far away from our family back in Texas because typically around this time you send your kids to the grandparents house right so they go to the grandparents so they have some type of family vacation and my husband you know he's off for Christmas but it's just JB night for the next week and a half and I'm like it would be it would be so nice to be next to my family because my mom is gonna be off you know she usually takes off you know to be next to my family I'm gonna try not to be that way y'all trying not to think about that because I was starting to go down that path those you don't know I don't live we don't live anywhere near our family everybody is back in Texas includes including my husband who has a lot of family in Dallas so we don't have any family here no close no close close friends you know like I was saying earlier I haven't seen some of my friends in four or five years the only close friend I have that it's almost family is Ms. Wanda I know she's gonna be busy with her family and quiet it's again I don't like her sister and she knows I don't like her sister so we don't really I don't reach out to her to do families type things around the holidays because I can't stand her sister and I've got to the point to where I can't control this when you say some dumbass shit in front of me one thing I'm also gonna do you guys like I have briefly mentioned I'm having some issues with my laptop these dang on computers like honestly these computers now have a shelf life if do they have a shelf life they only have a life of like five years so you spend over a thousand dollars for sometimes less than that my Dell raggedy I still my Dell which costs $800 didn't even last me a year that's a lot it lasts me like 13 14 months this laptop I got in 2000 2016 and the keyboard is dying and so to have it looked at at Apple will be $100 and then to have it replaced we're probably looking at around $300 $400 total to have the keyboard replaced now I was reading that I could do it myself you know but the pain is that there's like 20 plus of those little bitty mini screwdrivers that you have to use I'm not doing that I don't have to deal with this laptop anymore so I think one of the things I'm gonna purchase with my income tax is an iPad you can because I use my I only use my laptop for editing videos that is it a hell you can edit videos on an iPhone now as long as you record your your media on your phone there's tons of people who record edit and upload on our iPhone but I don't want to do that because I have some extra stuff I like to put in my video so my husband bought an iPad this year he spent some coins though he yeah I just want a basic iPad with the keyboard which should be no more than $500 he spent like $1100 on his iPad hey y'all this be the last week where I'm vlogging on this old camera look JB's like that's my camera I'm like I know baby so Canon has already shipped off my camera so I should get it by Tuesday and just a heads up you guys I'm doing a lot of vlogging now since I'm not doing vlog miss technically and I want to I want to hold off till I get my camera to do my hair videos because it makes a big difference I think I am gonna push out that chunky twist video out though chunky twist video because y'all been waiting on that for about a month always gonna rain y'all it's been raining here it's Friday it's Friday and I'm ready to sway you you're gonna get a backhand drop in JB off at school child JB's gonna be off for two I like y'all it's gonna be like 16 day straight this is what it looks like right now wish I could show the mountains but oh there's the mountains back there you see that yeah yeah I didn't even want to upload y'all have to excuse the side I just did a video on my camera my car off girl I just uploaded a video on blowing up my hair I was struggling on wanting to even upload that video like it's so girl I'll go ahead and do this chunky twist on this old camera it's Friday like I said I have a 101 with my manager this morning I'm still toying around where they're not I should go to the gym don't even have water on me tomorrow we're gonna take pictures with Santa right JB girl look at this hair you can't even can it can y'all see it all right you guys I got my sage in yeah I thought I was kidding got my sage in gosh I really need to sage everything open you can see here all the drawers everything open you want to make sure everything's open apparently I girl did some research on this I've seen people sage houses and stuff before even when they just bless houses not just but blessing houses why reading the Bible and so everything's open the front door will be open I'm gonna sage myself down sage JB now again make sure everything is open because energy can be trapped behind these closed doors girl so yeah you guys I know some of y'all thinking that is crazy no this is something that people have been doing for hundreds of years and as long as I feel like that as long as I believe it in my heart and I declared in the name of Jesus Christ I am good okay let me go ahead and burn this and get this started y'all why we were supposed to take pictures with Santa that line is crazy that's like it has never been this many people here JB we're not looking at drains so where are we gonna go we need to go tell me a salad you guys surprise surprise look where we're at JB got a silver dollar of a World War Navy that stopped by I guess he's handed these out during Christmas I told you we don't have these are old people anyone over 60 70 he said he was 92 he gave JB a silver dollar they reminds me of my childhood we used to always get silver dollars my sister and I you guys that was good my salad was good we're right across the street we're in Paradise Valley we're right across the street from PV mall and this mall is dying its color is a dying mall is what they call most malls in America's are dying but there's an actual YouTube video on this particular mall and JB's actually been looking at it so anyway when I first moved here this mall was the bomb mall but they've been closing shops I mean the last time we went in there a couple of months ago there was hardly anyone in this mall and a lot of stores had closed it is such a beautiful day we decide to stop at this park they also have an outdoor an outdoor market look at those beautiful ducks I think it's about 75 degrees right now it's beautiful y'all look I try not to do where is it we're gonna go to the outdoor market in a minute let's look at this leg I didn't even know they had this interesting look they can they that pigeon you need to stay about 20 feet away from us hold on baby no we ain't going to that park you still gotta go to the we go to that park we're not going to what's the name you can see from over here it looks real nice let's go over here to the to the farmers market yeah I try to stay away from these former markets because there was someone who had a crush on me hey hey JB this way we're gonna cross this way that's going out towards the street there's there was a guy who family owned a I need to be careful what I even say cuz you never know who be watching your videos girl he was sweet on me I think they just now putting stuff out too maybe they're putting stuff up I don't know vegetables my word look at these collard greens this is what this is what collard greens supposed to look like look at look at this look at how big these are are you guys that was interesting but JB right now child this is an open field so he's having fun can't even see me how about now that was interesting and look I saw the guy's father there I didn't say anything he doesn't know who I am I'm pretty sure that's his father based on the pictures that I've seen of him yeah that was his father they own a some food business as I'm gonna say like I said you never know the reason I don't want to reveal a lot you guys cuz I know people who don't have as many subscribers as I do and people in the Valley who live here will start some drama so I don't want to say much