 Hello everybody. Welcome back to esoteric Atlanta. I almost forgot the name of my channel for a second. What life is this again? I forgot to press record. Well, for Stephanie's channel, you just missed me almost forgetting the name of my channel. Okay, so before we get into this, I go through these weird moments in life and it's happened to me since I was a kid and maybe it is part of spiritual development especially if you've been doing spiritual work many, many lives where all of a sudden, like my own name sounds weird and foreign. Like all of a sudden, my own self feels foreign to me and it used to happen to me when I was a kid a lot. Like all of a sudden, I didn't feel like, like, I don't know. It just, it felt very, I don't know if that makes sense but I was laying in bed last night and all of a sudden, I started thinking about my own name. I think it's because I recorded Monday mystery yesterday which is Robert the doll. So I was thinking about my name and how the kid gave the doll his name and I started thinking about my name being a family name and all of a sudden, it just felt very foreign. Everything just felt very, very foreign. Like I was just this soul, just what, which is what we want, right? That's the whole, that's the whole point of spiritual development too is to be able to rest into the soul knowing the soul is just like literally watching your life happen like it's a reality show. I mean, I'm sure if Patanjali lived in 2022, he would have called it a reality show but 5,000 years ago in the studios when he wrote them, they didn't have reality TV but that's basically what's happening. So anyway, so it's kind of funny. I forgot the name of my actual channel. So I of course, I'm joined today with my two of my besties, Emmy and Stephanie and we are going to be continuing our conversation on shadow work and basically our conversations on humanity because human being a human, I mean, I'm hurting, turning it into a verb here. Humanity is really hard and it's the zero with coffee. Zero with coffee. Coffee. Which we are going to talk about today. Yes, human being is very, very hard and we're all in my teacher, David Green, one of my teachers used to say it's insolvable riddle, right? It's like we're trying to learn how to be present and integral in our human lives without being attached to the outcome of our human lives because being attached to the outcome of our human lives means that we are not attached to God but to rather the label of property or nature, which is not eternal. But before we get into psychedelics, there is something I wanted to discuss again about karma and this concept of karma because earlier this week I put up a video about what consent looks like. Stephanie and I spoke about it yesterday in the Priory of Scion with these things and we're going to try to keep this on YouTube. So this thing, Abby has something to say about it too. And a lot of people are asking about children. She wants to be involved. Every single time I'm on a video with her around, she's got to do this. She's like, it's my show. What input would you like to tell the audience that you have to poop? That you wouldn't go for me? Next life, I know for sure I want her colon in my next life. No, she poops like four times a day. Most of my problems would be solved if I had her colon. One of my nicknames for her is Poopasaurus Rex. She's got a skinny situation. As Cindy said, it's the spooky dookies for Halloween. Anyway, I'm not a mother and so I'm glad I got my two friends here who are mothers. But I do understand the complexities of talking about karma and children because we do know spiritually, especially with the energetic body, that a child's chakras are developing as their body is developing too. We can know that a baby isn't born with its seventh chakra, only with its first one. We do understand that there is spiritual development as the body is developing as well. However, in saying that, the soul of the child is the same as it was when it was a day old as it is when it's 80 years old. According to the law of one, and this actually makes sense to me from a very logical perspective, yes, it is our job as adults to protect our children. As an aunt, part of my job is to protect my nephew and my nieces and I would give my life for them absolutely 100%. But there also is something we have to understand as well, and that's the boundary of the karma that the child has agreed to. What do I mean by that? I want to specify too because I think in the western world we have a very ignorant view on karma. All karma is, is cause and effect. That's all it is. It's your work. You know, the fact that I woke up this morning, that the karma of me waking up this morning meant that I took a shower and I'm here filming with these ladies. The fact that I put on makeup means that now I can turn the camera on and film. That makes sense. The fact that you look at it as cause and effect, right? That's all karma is. We label things as bad karma or good karma. But with cause and effect or action and reaction, we're looking at learning phases. So karma, again in the spiritual world, we call your karma your work. It's just your work. And we don't come to this human life to not work. We come here because we have karma we need to work through. We have things we have to work through. And so a child, even though in our society rules, children are not eligible for consent or whatever. A child though, according to the law of one, the minute they're born, they are responsible for their karma. So what does that mean? That means that that child's soul contract, our soul contracts, when we were born started the minute we took our first breath. Yeah? So that means that your child, the soul of your child, just like our soul sat down and created a contract before popping into your womb. They even picked, I mean Stephanie, we've talked about this. When the sperm and the egg meet, the energy of that sperm, so whatever the father is dealing with, if the father is in a low point or an angry point or that egg, if the mother is carrying the energy, the child agreed to that. The child agreed to take that on. We call that inherited karma. The child agreed for whatever reason that those energies needed to be present in their development to learn whatever lesson they decided they needed to learn. And so once that happens, once that sperm hits that egg, it's the child's responsibility then to work through that energy. It's not the parents. The parent you're there to support your children and help them, but you also have to allow them to make decisions and to kind of give them that free reign. Does that make sense? And so when it comes to this thing with children, and I know this is very, very confusing, but if a child is screaming in a doctor's office screaming no to one of these and the parents and the doctor enforce it on the child, then that means the parents and the doctor are going to have to then pay that karma back because they just broke that child's consent. All right? Now, if the child willingly agrees to this, then that's that child consenting for whatever reason. I know that's hard for us to comprehend in our bodies because in our property, our nature, we think we need to control, but you made a really good point yesterday, Stephanie, like we have to give up that control. We can set boundaries for our kids to try to protect them as best we can, but we also can't hover in control. Does that make sense? The law of one is very matter of fact about this. Mm-hmm. Yeah, I think a lot of parents, because they want to protect their children, they view their children as an extension of themselves. And it's really doing a disservice to them if we look at them that way, because then we try to take away their pain or prevent them from, you know, of course we're going to try to prevent them from having pain, but we have neither the right nor the ability to take away their pain. Their pain is their pain. They can either sit and do in it or they can learn and grow from it, but it's theirs. And if we're trying to take that away, because we see them as an extension of ourselves, then we're not giving them the opportunity to work through that stuff that they agreed to come here with and work on. And that's the whole thing you have to remember, too, is they agree to that. Mm-hmm. They agree to do that, just like all the pain we've been through. You think, go back through your whole life and think about the pain you've been through. We do pick our parents for a reason, because there are energetic components that our parents give us that we decided as a soul we needed to work through. And yes, you do kind of cluster and travel as souls together in a grouping. I get that. I mean, the interesting thing, I had a past life reading done. I found a lot of past life readings done, but a really, really, really long time ago. And it came up with my father, how many different relationships I've had with my, you know, that's the thing. My father hasn't always been my father in every life. In some lives, he was my friend. In some lives, he was a brother or a sister. And, you know, and so when we look at the compatibility with each soul, even your child, even though in this life they made an agreement to take on some of your physical energy through your DNA, they haven't always been your child. In some lives, they could have been your parent. You know what I'm saying? So when we look at the irony of that one, I mean, there were many lives. Listen, in the past life I did, there were many lives where I was my parents' parents, which makes sense to me because I mean, even at my mom's Stephanie, I feel like I'm way older than my parents, like way older. I feel like I'm ancient compared to both of my parents. And my family as well, I was always the weird one with the wise wisdom. And they're just looking at me like, what? Yeah. But there's, so you can go back a weekend. Like I've said this, like, you know, I've always said if I had a daughter, especially that I would really want her to have a really good relationship with her father. That was always really important to me because I didn't have that growing up. I don't have a daddy. I don't, my dad is, you know, I have a great, great grandfather, but you know, so, but even though that's something that's kind of a wound in me, I recognize it for what it is and I've learned a lot through that experience. And now I understand why I agreed to do this, Mary, go right again with his soul as my dad because I, there was something I needed to learn from that experience, right? And that's in Maya Angelou said, I know people are about Maya Angelou, but this is true. She said, your children are not a part of you. They just come through you. Our purpose for them is to make sure they have a roof over their head. They got food to eat. Their diapers changed when they're young. Just the guide them as much as we know how to and then you let them go. Yeah. I mean, you always will love them. Absolutely. You love your children, but there's only so much you can do. So I've been in a situation where my child has never been the easiest. Okay. He was an easy toddler, very easy baby. But by the time he was probably three or four years old, that's when things started to get a little wonky. And I was dealing with a child with a monstrous temper. By the time he turned 12, it got so bad that I was like suicidal ideation. It was that bad. So, you know, it's, he took on the karma of his father and his father's a very angry man, very, very angry man. He's a narcissist, very violent. But I had to learn to work with that and figure that stuff out. And I didn't even know about this stuff then. I wish I had so that I knew better. And I've gotten to the point. So yeah, some of it was, you know, childhood, these the heavy metal detox. You know, I had to heavy metal detox him. And now he is, you know, Bryce, he was Matt Tyler. He's a great kid. He's a really, really like empathic kid, psychic kid. He doesn't know how psychic he is, but he's very psychic, right? Very intuitive. He, he makes my dad, like he's such a good kid. But at the same time, he's a very negative kid because he's got a lot of karma built up in terms of whether it's, he took on mine and his father's or it's his own that he's built for himself. And this stuff right there, because he didn't actually take on your karma or his father's karma. He took the energy of, of what existed in your DNA. That's what I meant. That's what I meant. I was like, you're not going to, your kids are going to solve your problems for you. No, no, that's what I meant. I meant the energy. It came out wrong. So the, you know, I've had to deal with that for several years and it's been a learning lesson for me, but I've also had to kind of let go a little bit and say, you know what, he's got to figure this out on his own. There's only so much I can do and say to help him, he chose this. And I actually said to him one day, you chose this. And I kind of made him think a little bit. I'm like, before you were born, you chose this. And of course his reaction was, oh, you're talking about your hubu-jubu stuff again. But, you know, he's got to make a choice one day. Is he going to continue being miserable because of his past? Or is he going to move forward and learn from it? I can't do that for him. And I have to really let go and let him live the experience that he chose. Yeah. And that's it. Allowing them to live the experience that they chose. And we think about that too. We know with any type of spiritual development, there has to be deconstruction before there can be creation. There has to be friction in order for creation to begin. And so you look at your, like Tyler, for example, he is very gifted. He's a great kid. He's super smart. He's very talented. He's very intuitive. But he picked up a life pattern that was going to give him. So if you look at it this way, he picked a trajectory that gave him friction. That temper, that anger, that's nothing bigger friction than that internal friction. He picked that because friction is necessary. You can't have a perfect childhood and a perfect life where everything's hunky-dory and just great and wonderful rainbows and butterflies. And then in your 20s, all of a sudden you're this intuitive wise person helping people. So if we look at it that way, if you look at the obstacles your child is facing as not a burden or a curse, but a blessing, as something that was given to them in order to fulfill whatever they needed to do in this life, then you start to back off more and let them go through that. Of course, you're going to help them and hold their hand and guide them and you're not going to allow them in a situation that's going to in their life or something, of course, but you have to let go and that's kind of what the law of one talks about. And I've noticed, again, I don't have children, but when I was a kid, when we were kids, my parents were really not that involved in our lives. They were involved in the sense that they knew where we were and they knew what we were doing at school, but as far as what we were getting up to with our own friends or anything like that, they had no idea. They would take us to our piano lessons, drop us off, leave us come pick us back up. Now I see parents sit there and watch and watch their kids. You know, I remember as a little kid playing outside on bikes with my neighborhood friends, my parents had no idea where we were. We just had to be home by the time it got dusk. We had to be home. We were left at home by ourselves. I think I was eight years old the first time I was left at home by myself. We were just given and it's so funny. I've watched Stranger Things a few times on Netflix. It's filmed here in Atlanta. That's mainly why I watched it because I wanted to see landmarks. But I was watching an interview with the children who are acting in this series and of course it's set in the 80s. It was interesting because the director and the producers were saying that they had to talk to the children about what life was like in the 80s that no, your parents had no idea where you were. That was normal. If you just go out on your bikes and get into mischief and solve, we were solving problems ourselves without our parents intervention. In a lot of ways even though there are some things I wish my parents had done with me, I wish I had grown up going to a yoga shawl and seeing practices and being spoke but in a lot of ways my parents gave us that gift of being young and having to solve problems by ourselves. My mother wouldn't even step in if my my sister and I didn't fight that much at all really but the one thing my mom said once, you two are the only family you have, that's it. And then she walked away and the only time she would ever intervene is if it would never get physical, so she never intervened. She may would make us figure it out. We would have to figure it out for ourselves. You know, I remember in school, when I was in school, I like asked my parents for help with something and my mom would be like, I've already done this. You got to learn it. So there was more responsibility I feel like put on us as children that actually was good for us than maybe there is today. What do you guys think? Yeah, I agree. I parent more like how I was raised as far as like giving the kids freedom because I do think that that's valuable and important. But I watch out for any type of abuse, even subtle abuse like name calling and snide remarks and I do not allow that at all whatsoever and if it happens I walk them through the apology and forgiveness process and I emphasize the forgiveness because I think a lot of parents will have their kids apologize but the forgiveness part of it even if they don't feel like they want to forgive I'll still walk them through that so they have that experience and I show them and tell them the importance of forgiveness that it's not about the other person it's about setting yourself free because if you don't forgive someone you are the one entrapped. You are the one that's miserable you are the one that is drinking the poison so even though little kids don't understand just having being shown the process of apologizing and forgiveness I think is really important and my children that are adults now are able to forgive people and move on and I guess I just didn't realize how important that was and I'm seeing now that they're adults how important that was and I'm really grateful that I was given that insight and what you're doing is you're teaching them which I think is the best thing for a parent to do is you're not stopping experiences but you're coaching them through and you're right even let us say the word shut up growing up like if we said shut up to each other we got in trouble like that was disrespectful we couldn't say that you know and that way yeah you're teaching them walking them through life so that they can continue on the trajectory that they're supposed to do I know for me like with not having you know being more independent as a kid and kind of being having parents that were hands off when it came to that I think about I went to college in London when I was 18 years old I was traveling by myself at 17 I was in France by myself and then as an adult I was very easy for me to go on a plane and go to India by myself because I from a very young age we had to figure it out on our own and I'm grateful for that because my parents did that I was able to then fulfill my trajectory of what my soul needed to do without a lot of fear without a lot of hesitation I'm very comfortable in airports I'll figure it out that that's how my parents were and I think that I was the opposite so maybe it's taught from that experience yeah so I was raised by my aunt and uncle from the age of five and a half to 18 and I there was some things that I had a lot of freedoms with now my two cousins who I would consider brother and sister and God help me if any of them watch this particular video and it is what it is facts are facts so if they hate me for it whatever I don't even care anymore but they were definitely given a lot more freedom than me and I was always told I don't want you to end up like your mom you know so I was then smothered with you know I couldn't do a lot of stuff I wasn't completely sheltered but I was definitely more sheltered than they were and they were able to go fly off to different places by themselves but no problem by the time they were 18 now I didn't travel for the first time alone well I traveled to Florida by myself when I was 17 but that was it and then never again until this year and that was a very scary thing for me now meanwhile I kind of rebelled at 18 because of how I was raised and then of course had a child and I had to learn that way you know so I didn't learn that independence as a child I learned it as an adult stuck in a very adult situation as a very young adult still you know coming into that seventh chakra so I had to learn the hard way so in my experience with my son I found myself holding onto him too tightly sometimes because he would get bullied all the time whether it be by a teacher or another student in the class he's been bullied by his father he's been bullied by a lot of people and so I found myself having I struggled to let go it wasn't until about a couple of years ago I started to let go a little bit he's been staying home by himself for a short period of time since he was 10 he would get off the bus and be by himself for about an hour and a half until I got home from work and started off that way now he can be home all day by himself and he's perfectly fine, he's 15 so I mean he's only a couple of years away from 18 obviously so it got more and more time between where I could leave him home alone and he's perfectly fine and responsible now he can cook himself lunch in the microwave or what not he's perfectly fine safe though but in the last two years so last year I forced myself to just let go and his friend said I'm going to the fair the local fair down the street you want to go with me parents would just leave the boys to just do their own thing Tyler was 14 his friend was 13 and I thought to myself at that age I was going around the fair by myself because I did granted I was with a cool group of friends so I did have that type of freedom as a kid but I said okay God please keep him safe I'm letting go it was very scary for me but he had the time of his life he had so much fun and I saw the joy on his face of having that freedom and that independence and yeah he was pushed to go on rides he would have never went on otherwise by himself but he had a blast and he came home and for two hours straight told me all about it and I could see that joy and so this year it was like a no-brainer he actually walked to the fair all by himself because it was a walking distance and met a few people there so you know he I've learned to let go and in terms of his emotions he tends to repeat every day what he's upset about and I'm like okay so what are you going to learn from it what are you learning from it and of course he doesn't get it yet but it's kind of like a baby where you hold a baby and you say okay say hi to grandma you wave bye bye they don't know what you're saying but over and over again they're going to start to learn and pick up oh that's how that's what I do you say bye to whoever you wave goodbye or you say goodbye it's like one of those things so I know he's not going to get it up until probably 18-19 years old I understand that but I want him to start okay what am I learning from this experience why did I choose this path in my life yeah well now I was just thinking like man when we were young even when we were traveling with our parents we had to keep up with our own passports as a very young children like we had to make sure my mom wasn't keeping up with it we had to keep up with our passports and I was just thinking about that as you were speaking how young we were I think too what what you're allowing to happen when you give your kids that responsibility or give them kind of that freedom to have that responsibility is you're also allowing them the opportunity to make a mistake because that's how we learn is through making a mistake you know and that's how we learn how to why things are important and why they're not important is through the mistakes not from the things we get right now thank god I've never lost my passport if I had lost my passport as a child then my parents would have walked me through going to the embassy filing for a new passport what does that look like and so now at 39 I've traveled all over the world I've been all over the world multiple times I know what to do if I were to lose my passport I know exactly what to do something like that you go to the embassy so when you think about that mistakes are not they're not bad mistakes are necessary we were talking about which might be a good hinge into the psychedelics because we were talking about this before we started filming you know that you're on a you've mastered a level of spiritual learning when you can see mistakes or darkness as not something to be feared but something to learn from does that make sense and I think that you know there's this with this radio station here in Atlanta they call it the justification of America they'll talk about these stories of what kids get away with today that we never got away with when we were growing up not everyone got a trophy only the person that won got a trophy and there's just as much of a valuable lesson in that for the winner as there is for the one who didn't win you learn more from not winning than you do from winning what's that saying it doesn't matter how many times you fall down it just matters how many times you get back up yeah we learn far more from our mistakes than from when things go easy yeah I'm really good the subjects I excelled in obviously were history, English that's what I studied in school that's what I excelled in that's what I did in Los Angeles for a really long time the subjects that I hated were math and science math mainly I hated math I thought math was the the boringest, most uninspiring I hated it so much and I did not but I remember somebody telling me once my god you would make such a great math teacher because you had to teach yourself how to do this in order to get through your classes I would probably make a shitty history teacher because our English literature teacher because I can read a William Faulkner book and if you've ever studied Faulkner he's hard to read because he doesn't use punctuation he doesn't write and linear time but I was the I remember the first year I studied Faulkner was in my advanced English class in my sophomore year in high school and this is when I got really sick too but I could read a Faulkner book and tell you exactly what was going on I remember my teacher being like holy shit you get this and that's just how my mind works but math on the other hand that was not how and I told you guys before even in science I had a chemistry teacher in high school I asked a question in chemistry class and he literally like stopped the class and was like aren't you a brice like isn't your mom's family they're all doctors isn't that your mom's family why don't you get this heredically from your DNA you're supposed to understand this and I was like I'm sorry man I'm in my wheelhouse as we say now so I remember when someone said Ted you would make a really good math teacher that's because that's what I struggled with what I struggled with and same in yoga the teachers that are the best teachers out there are the ones who have struggled the most in their practice in their emotional life the ones that have been through trauma that's because they're relatable they relate to the student because they were once the student the last thing about yoga teachers is we're never not students we're always students and they understand friction and they understand they've gotten to the other side of sorrow they've gotten to the other side of suffering and so they understand the pains and they've learned how to work with it in a different way and so back to like the radio people saying the wissification of America is this why the law of one focuses so much on us stepping back imposing so much of our will on our children that we're creating a negative timeline by not allowing them to have their free will and their own consent does that make sense? because if you impose your will onto someone else whether it's your child or another person that's negative and yes it's a kind of a great area because there are things you are going to have to impose your will upon with your kids they can't run with scissors you could let them run with scissors and poke their eyes out but you have the wisdom of what's going to happen so this is a very interesting dance but when it comes to this thing with children there are no placebos guys the children who got this they got the real thing and as sad as that is as unfortunate as that is because some children have passed away we have to understand that the children a child's soul is the same as our soul they made an agreement before taking this life as to what they wanted to experience and they'll live again or they'll work through it I think a lot of them because a lot of kids now according to the law of one are in poor density bodies anyway so it might affect them differently than it would affect you and me because our DNA structure is different from theirs does that make sense? I know people are going to be upset about this but I would really I also think a lot of truthers are putting a lot of fear about this I'm not talking about the ones that are saying there's placebos because there's plenty of those but I'm talking about like some people just keep going on and on about the horrifying stuff about it don't listen to that that should not be a part of your daily routine is listening to that shit what you need to focus on is yourself and your own shadow work and everything like that and I think this is a distraction really and I think it's a spear porn there's so many different truthers out there saying it takes away your soul and all this other stuff and it's just like oh come on how do they know that and how could you possibly know that that's what I'm saying question everything you hear it's got to be something you do have to work through but what they're not grasping is those who did get this can they agree to that in their soul contract anyways there's no controlling who got it it is what it is yeah you agree to your time of death as well and as sad as that is I cannot imagine losing a child I don't know how I would be able to go on with my life and nephew or niece has passed away I could not imagine that but even for children who passed away they picked that before they took this life and guess what as a parent your soul was in an agreement with that child as well that you would experience the loss of that child nothing happens to you in this world big like that major like that that you didn't agree to beforehand or the experience to learn from it your soul you can't you can't sell your soul accidentally you can't do that accidentally you can't get this and then oops all of a sudden your soul is gone that's not how that works we know now what this nefarious group do in their rituals it's an actual ritual it's a full on summoning ritual agreements being made it's not they're consenting to sell it yes they are consenting to work with the demons they are in full awareness of what they are doing so if you got this that's not so the powers that be want you to think you took a mark of the beast but again that goes to religious programming it was supposed to be set up to make you think that you sold your soul but selling your soul is something that the person is willing consenting to and full aware of what they are doing yeah and they don't care regardless for money, fame, fortune whatever it is they are fully aware of what they are doing and I will say too a little secret if you do sell your soul you can always get it back because it's yours I've heard that from many people I want it back I know and void my contract I've heard that from many, many people so you guys your soul is your soul and I think too it comes from this thing as well that people are still very confused about the body the identity and the soul and these are two different things even though the body is the expression of the soul it's not the soul the soul is its own thing the body needs the soul but the soul doesn't need the body so if you get one of these and it changes your personality because I've seen that a lot of people who got this they've gotten very nasty but that's their psychological brain which is not their soul does that make sense so you as Emmy and Stephanie their soul isn't Emmy or Stephanie their soul is pure consciousness love it's just my costume right now it's your costume it's the avatar your dog, Abby she's not really Abby she's a soul I chose a funny avatar this time around a short stumpy you know I do look at, you girls are both beautiful but I do look at some people I'm like that's my choice what interesting choice when you were looking at the two people who were going to be your parents and you're looking at the full DNA spread of what colors you could pick from why did you pick that nose those lopsided boobs like I don't know why did you pick that I chose tits on a stump okay sometimes I think I was a guy even though I think I've been a female in my lives sometimes I think I was a man in the past life because of the size of my boobs I must have been really excited creating a female boy because these boobs are really big for my friends but anyway we can laugh about it right but next life it'll be totally different so for some reason we're a go through amnesia so our whole soul contract we're still trying to remember but for a reason for me I picked a white girl from Georgia with these two people as my parents for some experience so even the race even the medical history you have even though the medical history is your own issues coming through but you can inherit that energy karma from your parents which still is an emotional issue coming through that your soul needs to work on but everything you picked it for a reason there was some experience within that that your soul needed to learn or if you decided that this time you were going to be born to an extremely wealthy family there was some experience that your soul needed to learn about itself through the external forces that created that experience that white does that make sense absolutely so yes I want you guys anyway so that's your karma your karma and I don't want people to be afraid of karma there's nothing to be afraid of when it comes to karma karma is when people identify karma as a bad thing because they're like oh karma's a bitch you hear that over and over again it's misused though that word is so misused because like you say Bryce all it is is your work it's your calling an effect if you go to a job nine to five well that's karma that's your work and so you go to a nine to five job another aspect of the karmic reaction to that nine to five job is you have a paycheck right if you if you don't eat and you get really skinny that's the cause and effect that's the karma of not eating if you eat too much you gain weight that's the karma it's just cause and effect it's just action and reaction and that's everything within the physical world is based off of karma reaction and part of the yoga journey specifically is to be able to experience your karma let it play out experience the emotions but not holding on to the emotions so like Tyler for example you're saying he's reliving these things over and over again so part of his experience is learning how to observe the feelings of frustration see them for what they are but not hold on to them let them go because we as humans we put the label of that or good on things that or good we label it as such the action what happened to us is just action and reaction the action of having sex results in a baby if you look at it like that it's just the reaction to having from that sperm eating the egg but we're the ones that put that emotion on it that's what makes us human beings and that's what defines the experience yeah there are people out there I'm pretty like for me I tolerate pain pretty at physical pain pretty well for example when I broke my sacrum I finished my practice that day with a broken sacrum like I'm stubborn when it comes to physical pain but somebody else could stump their toe and spend the whole day crying about the pain right it's perception it's how we're perceiving something I hope that makes sense do what? even my parents just tell me that all the time that they never knew like if I was really hurt or not because I would just I just took emotional pain I'm a slobbering crying wreck but physical pain I could take it I remember when I was at the doctor for some reason as a kid they had done an x-ray I think it was when I broke my ankle as a kid they had done an x-ray and up and it got a bit of my shin bone and there was a scar on my shin bone and the doctor goes oh you've broken your leg before and I was like no my mother was like no and he goes yeah you have a scar you broke your leg he was like probably when you were little really little your parents just didn't notice but it healed itself and I think my mother felt terrible but I literally had a scar on my shin where I had broken my leg as a kid and no one I guess I just didn't say anything and I just kept playing maybe hobbled a little bit it healed itself but then so you see that if you think about perception just think about that with people I'm sure everybody watching right now knows people who can take pain and people who can't it's all the perception of the person carrying the pain so when people say you gotta toughen up you gotta you know it's um you gotta experience it but you also it's your perception does that make sense and we have to let our back to the kids like we have to allow children the experience so that they can create their own perceptions that they can live their own karma and their own Dharma because they are a soul just like you are your child is no different from anybody else on this planet they have a journey and they have a path they're a soul that's trying to know itself that's all they're doing they're a soul trying to know itself and trying to return itself home to God and knowing itself is how they're gonna find that that connection again with God and if we stand in the way of them experiencing their karma then we're standing in the way of them actually living that yeah so anyway I hope that makes sense but let's move on to second delix delix