 Hi, it's Bridget. Welcome to above life channel. The purpose here is to inspire your spirit and to fill you with hope. Today, we're going to be channeling having a conversation with Phil Hartman in the afterlife. So this is an unusual session for me as I'm entering into it because I don't usually channel people or aren't drawn to people who had suspicious or difficult deaths. So Phil Hartman was murdered by his wife and I try to stay away from like drama and and the kind of the energies around that because death isn't the definition of someone's life. It's not the reflection of the wholeness of the bodies of work that they've left to hear for us that the legacy that they have that the talents that they shared and Sometimes they just become famous for their death and I don't I have a really hard time with them myself. That's a personal thing for me So why Phil Hartman then you're probably single-bridge. Why are you going to talk with Phil Hartman because I feel his energy and part of that is probably my own doing because I've been watching a vlog channel and You guys may have heard me mention it before days with Jordan the lion I love days with Jordan the lion I have been watching it for quite a while and I thought during this time when It seems like the economy is a bit slower in things I wanted to be able to go back and support other youtubers that I really Know that that's their source of income. That's their livelihood is just youtube being a youtuber And so days with Jordan the lion is one of those ones that initially with above-life channel and got me interested in Hollywood again, and I've always been interested in Hollywood, but You know actually seeing someone walk around Hollywood on Hollywood Boulevard and see the stars on the the walk of fame and seeing the Chinese theater Seeing the sights the iconic sights that I have seen physically myself in this lifetime because I've had several trips to California in my childhood and my teen years and that and And always felt an affinity to it And so I thought I wanted to go back and watch some of his videos and just literally leave it on Like as much as I can in the background just so that he can get More minutes more viewers more likes that kind of a thing, you know Because that's how you support youtubers, you know, that's how you do it Especially people who do like a lot of ads and stuff in their In their channels or in their videos and that kind of thing. That's how you support them, right? So I'm like, I'll come and do that again. And one of the videos that came up on the screen was the Phil Hartman House and I thought Do I really want to Watch this one, you know or listen to it in the background have it going in the background while I'm you know Doing the dishes or making dinner and I thought Yeah, yeah Because when Jordan portrays it or shares the story, he's very open very sincere And he's not about like all that drama about it necessarily but there is a curiosity that comes through I think And that many of you as viewers Probably are drawn to in video. So let's get to the channeling. I know some of you're like Bridget get to the channeling Well, guess what? It's my channel and I'm talking to Phil Hartman. So You can wait for me to get to it and so I suppose I don't really know why I'm channeling Phil Hartman I have no idea So let's bring them in and find out shall we? This video is being recorded in May on May 5th, 2020 I'm not sure if that has anything to do. I feel like there's a child. I feel like a daughter a young girl I feel like almost like kippy like long hair pretty. He must have been married before Um because I see two Like spouses Like I feel like I'm looking through a picture book like a photo album And somebody's birthday isn't I think in May or June. There's a birthday coming up up and coming coming up And so Phil I know you from I want to say Saturday Night Live, but I don't think that's right He's definitely he's a good writer you guys like it feels like he's a really good skit writer like a really good writer And so he may have very well written for Saturday Night Live. Um But the The connection is the news radio show which I watched did you guys watch that the news radio show? I watched that so that's how I remember you Phil is from that. Um, I feel like you It was probably the 90s then um This is energy of this dry humor and I appreciate that being a midwestern Person um, and then he shows me an eye state. So indiana or illinois showing me an eye Uh, I don't know if like on a show that he did besides the news radio guys. I don't know. Um What's the illinois or the indiana? I think it's illinois I think it's illinois um It's almost like a sports team thing or something illinois something something indiana or illinois Okay, I can't hear i'm not hearing clear. Audiently. I'm seeing the information And i'm not seeing a whole picture. I'm seeing like pieces like kind of sentimental things He's showing me kind of sentimental things And I see a martini glass too like alcohol like a martini glass um Do you want to share what the best part of your experience as a person was like what are what are you most proud of or what are you most Um like to be remembered for He says yeah writing he said you got it you got it writing the ability to write right creative to be creative and right to write He said that's the when things really come together and there's this cohesion. He says you can give a really good, um group of actors a kind of a foundation or a base and Then they can take it to levels that you didn't even expect they could go to You know, you have to kind of lay the groundwork though You have to have kind of a solid concept first and then then it's just You know, would you consider yourself more of a comedian or an actor? Or what would you consider yourself a comedian a comedic actor? He says a comedian is is um Probably more how I would be described um a humorous actor maybe But writing writing feels like a really important thing so I just loved it. He said I just loved it There's a lot of joy you guys in acting and being in a group of people and seeing what comes from the idea He says like an idea and he kind of you know what he shows me you guys is that um Whose line is it anyway? I think that's the name of the show. There's a show with like um Oh, I can't think of the guy's name. I can see his face He's uh, I can't even think of his name right now But where there's a couple of actors from a show drew a carry from his show and then they like You know do kind of impromptu extemporaneous speaking stuff and um That kind of it's like a show I wane Somebody wane is also in that show was in that show Um some really interesting actors and stuff like that like he's showing me that like that's the kind of like I would want to be in that he's like I want to be part of that that would want to be part of that Did you have any famous um actors or mentors or anybody that you looked up to or favorites? He says I wasn't always in acting, you know, I wasn't always in acting That was I think that was stated on the blog actually. I think Jordan On days with Jordan the line, I think he said I'm trying to remember I think he said that you did like graphic arts or artists like art design or something like that before So it wasn't like acting was a thing that you learned and did or whatever Um, but did you have any like who were your favorite actors? And he's like looking at me like laurel and hearty like he literally shows me laurel and hearty You know in the three stuges and stuff like that like that kind of slapstick kind of funny real impromptu Acting he says He says acting um, then he shows me robin williams interesting. What is the deal with robin williams? I've met robin. I've met robin williams. He says Um, he came here after I did as you know, he says as you know, he came transitioned after I did but he Real deep He's a real deep guy Real a lot of talent there. He says a lot of talent there a lot of talent um He says we didn't run in the same circles, but I did I did meet him a few times and Um, I've been able to you know had interacted or had conversations with them It's kind of what it seems like almost like he ran into him in a club or a comedy club or a kind of social thing or something um I mean he says Joe Somebody rogan joe rogan. I don't know I had that name sounds really familiar to me. Does he have a show? He might have a show or something Joe rogan like comedian kind of type um And I don't know why he shows me him not sure why you guys um, but he mentions him And I think he's kind of like um Kind of crass with the words he uses and things like I think he swears a lot I think um, that's kind of the vibe I get and comedian. He was committed to or he is committed to Um, I know that I can't think of where he's from. Oh, I think he's from fear factor Isn't he wasn't he like the fear factor host and I'm sure he's had a lot of career before that But that's how I know remember him. Um, okay Phil. So let's talk about Let's talk about the tough stuff. Can we talk about the tough stuff? Yeah, he said, yeah, he said, you know the whole mystery There's really no mystery here. He says there's not really there's not really that kind of romanticized mystery around my death He said, you know, I wish if I could have written a different ending it probably would have been something more um Well, he said, okay, so Can you say that again? I can kind of hear you but I can't totally hear you It's almost like smoking like he shows me smoking. He said like he thought that if he For his death, he thought that it would have been more likely He would have expected himself to die from like a heart attack or like lung cancer or something like that Like that kind of thing is like I would have expected my health to be an issue for me a problem for me Not my wife Okay, now my wife now It's true though that she did your wife did have Some mental health stuff because that was mentioned also on the vlog. Yes. He said, yeah, yeah, she's crazy. She was really Really volatile. He says really volatile. Were you ever afraid for your life? Were you ever afraid of that? You know at times it's more um He never really think it's gonna be that bad like you never really want to believe that someone that you loved Was um, you know capable of something like that. You don't really want to Believe I think how bad it is So would you say something to people that are in situations like that dealing with mental health? Yeah, yeah Get help get help and don't stick around don't stick around you can't Put on yourself the blame or or the the job of making that person feel better or be better be healthier because they make their own They you know people make their own choices They make their own choices. I would have expected I wouldn't have been surprised if she would have When on her mood swing she has a bipolar some kind of bipolar disorder. You guys is what it looks like um, or she had He says I would have expected her to to kill herself. I wouldn't that would not have shocked me at all um because at times she was so miserable so so angry at the world and I I kind of blame myself in a bit, you know, I mean For for the relationship part there's a part of blame if you're gonna sign blame or sus blame is There's a part that I mean I could have done things differently too and That doesn't mean there would have been a different outcome though So I don't I think it's really important to say to people who are in a situation dealing with mental health of someone that they love or care about that Yeah, you can do the best that you can but that's it. You can't you can't make Someone make different choices that that's really something that you do not have control over and uh So are you angry or do you how do you feel towards your wife now in the afterlife? He says oh, no, I'm not angry. I forgive her. He's like, I'm not angry. I'm not angry I'm not angry I'm not um It wasn't totally surprised he says okay, so my understanding from the blog that I listened to was that you were sleeping and she went out and then she came home and went to your room and killed you And so while you were sleeping or were you awake or can you talk about that at all? Or I mean is that poignant? Is that important? I wasn't surprised. He says I wasn't shocked. I wasn't scared. I wasn't afraid because we we'd had really difficult um Confrontations like that before he says like that before but it was never I didn't really expect her to actually Oh, this is tough. I don't want to see this. There's a lot of blood you guys Oh god, I hear I don't like being clairvoyant isn't fun Um, he says you don't have to he's like don't look don't look He says I couldn't believe it. I was I was shocked and I don't think that there was a gun That's the thing. I'm not quite sure how If there was she shot him a lot because there was a lot of blood I don't think I don't even hear that. I don't hear it I don't hear a gun. That's interesting I don't usually do the murder stuff. So it's all new to me Phil can you share with me what the purpose is for our connection? for our contact today He says to open up To recognize the importance of mental health There is a crisis. He says in america today. There is a crisis globally, but in america it's It's awful. It's it's something that is a long time Long time disease And mental health Is something that is treated so Few and far between and so sporadically That it doesn't there's not a consistency about it. There's not a recognition about what's the real issues are dealing with your mental health and and and preventing Yourself or the ones you love from going off the deep end is something that is It's part of so many relationships and now where you're at now right now right here right now the stressors of things like finances and health and The economy and the future are all things that add an extra layer of pressure into that He's like it's like a pressure cooker. It's just I mean what do you expect? Of course the people are going to explode Of course people who are already volatile or on the edge are going to take the leap and go over the edge and hurt other people Or kill themselves in the process and then there's loved ones that are grieving children that are grieving the loss of their parents And The loss of their childhood There's not There's a lot of nurturing that needs to happen here. There's a lot of Of awareness that needs to be brought to the forefront and and it's really important I think to share that I am not angry. I'm not I for completely forgive The act is not a reflection of either one of us of of bren or of myself it's Tragic and unfortunate and it's but it's not unforeseen. This is a this isn't something that it is is Just for a tabloid This is real life for people now that are struggling and that's the importance. That's the priority bridge. That's why we're talking today Phil you have such Now I know and now I'm glad that we had this conversation because when I started pushing the record here I thought I have no idea What's going to come through in this channeling session or why I'm even channeling you? Maybe it's just I've been watching a vlog and so it's in my mind It might just be my brain doing it But I thought let's connect and see how this goes. That's really to show up In full authenticity and see what happens and be open And instead of me just kind of saying no, I'm not going to do that because of this, you know He says yeah, you got to change your mind. Everyone has to recognize that you all have the freedom to change your mind and to not be afraid To ask for the help that you need and to consistently ask Even if you're you feel belittled or even if it's not a time to make light of the the Care that you need for your mind for your mental health for your mood That's such a new key part of your your health and your your ability to to be Not just a productive member of society, but to really Give something back and everybody relies on you in that way and we rely on each other in that way and It's it's so so it makes me so sad to know that There's a lot of suffering going on and and in private and isolated and separate and not it's not accepted As something that is a natural human need instead. It's still judged. They're still Bias, they're still prejudice for people that say well, I'm bipolar or I have anxiety disorder or I have attachment disorder. I have this or that or I feel I simply just feel sad really depressed I don't understand. I feel disconnected and all of those things Should be completely part of our health care system and of taking care of one another each other and and most importantly yourself You've got to be able to recognize that for yourself And the codependency that we're in and these relationships that we're in there It's very lopsided and it does confuse things and it can be really hard to know when to pull back and when to Save yourself And clearly I didn't make that decision I didn't make it And I want other people who are watching this to be able to have the freedom and let go of the guilt and save their own lives and to be able to be in the space to be able to do that for yourself without feeling Like you are responsible for the happiness or the wellness the mental wellness of someone else You can't you can't take that burden on that's that's completely unrealistic. You're not god. Are you? You are not the ultimate Determiner of the fate of another you are not You are not that don't don't um Put that on yourself. That's completely irrational unrealistic. Not not even fair not fair at all Not fair So that's what I wanted to say. So thank you for letting me share that. Thank you for letting me Talk about that Wow, you guys I'm really gonna get emotional all of a sudden Um It's may 5th 2020 and this is phil hartman with a very powerful message for us Kind of a long way around the fence, huh? I've been beating around the bush here trying to get to this point But this is a powerful message So again, I'm going to mention to you to reach out and get the resources that you need for your own mental health As well as for your loved ones Many times on the back of your insurance card. There's like a number that you can call for crisis There's also crisis hotlines Um organizations like save Can help to support your mental health and to support you while you are supporting the mental health of someone else And also your local government agencies. Usually your counties have crisis hotlines in the human services area All right, so please make sure you reach out you ask friends ask um You have to ask for the assistance that you need and you can't be afraid of the stereotypes or You can't be afraid to do it For yourself and for your loved ones So look online. There's no excuses. You can do online stuff. You can do text stuff You can be totally anonymous You can do counseling in person. You can do stuff over the phone There are so many hotlines and so many resources for you So if you don't reach out that's your choice and that is on you That is on you Okay So this is Bridget with above life channel. I want you to be healthy I want you to feel connected. I want you as a spirit and as a human being to feel inspired and have hope And I know that that can be a very challenging process at times Remember this is your life. It's yours So live it. Please Just live it Thank you so much for watching