 is it personally satisfying for you to come out on the mound and pitch the way you did tonight? Yeah it was uh I said it's been a tough you know it's been a tough couple of days for me but everyone in this clubhouse all the guys coaches players support staff you know everyone's had my back and everyone's you know everyone's let me know that and it was it was nice to come in a situation tonight and um you know pitch well enough to to get a win there and you know in the extra innings and that was um you know that was big for me you know personally and you know for us as a team. What does it mean to you the fact that everyone in here has been extremely supportive and not just supportive behind closed doors they've been vocal about it as well? Yeah it means a lot it means um you know like I said when when I go down there uh to the bullpen I'm gonna uh I'm gonna do whatever I can to help to to help this team win and whatever role it is and uh you know and and tonight it was it was an extra inning game and uh I mean we put together three really good advanced there I don't even know the inning in the top half of the inning to take the lead and um you know I was I was I was I was happy to come in and and you know get the last three guys out and walk away with the win. Here are first appearance out of the pen since 2013 what's going through your mind when you realize you're going to be pitching in the game and and you're coming in in that situation? For me the hardest part was was that running from the bullpen it's a long way and then I got out there and um probably let me throw three warm-up pitches because the time ran out and I was just kind of like you know what just who cares just just attack guys and and see what happens and um and just stay aggressive and that was you know that was it. You feel like the fact that everything is moving a little faster when you come out of the pen it allows you to to focus on being aggressive not think as much and just just throw the wall? Uh I'm not sure I mean I I just came out with a mindset of of attack guys and uh attack guys and and and let your stuff work I mean I have I have good stuff I think everybody knows that and and when I can just attack with it and and and force force the batter's hands and force force their hands and then you know good things normally you know tend to tend to work out for me. That was a tough couple days what was the toughest part is it feeling like you let the team down that they had to make the decision or just adjusting to something new? No I mean just just everything man I mean I don't think I really have to singly answer that question I think you know everything that's that's that's happened in the last five or six days I mean it's but at the end of the day I sat down with Boone I sat down with with a lot of the guys and you know they let me know listen we got you back and you know we're here whatever you need and it was nice to come out tonight and in a situation like that and and get it done. When Boone told you in Boston you were heading the pen you told me that you were going to talk to a lot of guys out there to figure out how you should be going about your business who did you lean on to to kind of figure out how to get ready how to prepare? I talked to I mean I talked to Chad a lot I talked to Greenie a lot I talked to you know D Rob a lot I mean just the just the routine just the situation I mean I don't think anyone can you know prepare you for a 11th 12th inning you know your first time out but at the at the end of the day you just you sit down there and you watch the game and and you stay you stay involved and you stay you stay aware of what's going on and any way for your name to be called and and that was that was you know that was that was it. Did you feel once you got out there was it just pitching you're comfortable? Yeah it was once I got out there I mean I knew the situation of a game I mean I knew it was I knew one run the game's over but at the end of the day I changed I didn't I didn't think about that I just thought about just attacking the guys and getting them out and and letting letting my stuff play and and the situation didn't matter for me it was it was you know I just I've honestly just been sitting around waiting to get back out there and no matter no matter what the circumstance was or what the score was what any it was I just I just really wanted to get back out there on the mound and you know tonight my name was called and you know I'll be ready whenever it's called again.