 The intuition is a lot different than this is the way it worked in the past and I know this will work and another does saying, let go of all that and just trust to be guided in the present moment. Let your judgment thoughts come up and look at them. Positive and negative and realize that both extremes are part of the judgment. In other words, a lot of times the thing is I want to just let go of all my negative judgments. I want to put positive judgments or positive thoughts in place of them and the course is saying that your positive judgments will hurt you as much as your negative judgments which is a pretty, I mean that's a lot that differentiates it sometimes from other spiritual paths where just bring the positive in and try to get the negative out. It's the positive expectations that we have the hierarchy of illusions that we get so defensive about you know, if we're really identified with our looks body sense or our car or whatever, when something seems to threaten us we just flip out. What I hear you're saying too is that for there to be a positive you have to have negative doubts again and that to look at them both equally and not make judgments on either of these. It's kind of like a zen where they say watch the trains go by. Some of the trains will be positive judgments the course is just saying that spiritually we're very little children that we think we can tell the difference between pain and pleasure in this world it seems obvious we can tell the difference it seems like between pain and pleasure you pursue one you avoid the other and what Jesus is saying is the ego never tells it lets it into awareness that by pursuing pain and pleasure both of them reinforce the body as being real and by reinforcing the body as being real that still keeps the guilt and the belief system denied and keeps us from waking up to our spiritual reality. Now that's a pretty deep idea but ultimately it's not a path of relinquishment or sacrifice in the sense that when we start to get miracle minded when we let the spirit come through us and we start to connect and join we start to experience such a joy, an intrinsic joy not a joy that's based on getting something external to satisfy or gratify us but it's just like a momentum starts to grow and we feel like we're fulfilling our function it's like oh this is what I came here for oh yeah now I'm remembering and then the joy starts and the peace starts and then the other stuff just the evictions and whatever just fall off because the momentum just takes over which I mean that makes a lot of sense to me because I know I have struggled with a lot of things about pain, pleasure, gratifying repressing, indulging you know in this world it's kind of like oh I grow up indulging so I shouldn't be doing that I'm going over the boundary lines here pull it back oh I'm repressing I really would like to be doing it I'm thinking about that all the time and you can see Jesus saying the miracle just brings our mind into a real clear focus the more we can do this the closer we can pull into the perfect center the miracle is the option I mean there's indulgence there's repression and then there's the miracle the indulgence and repression don't go anywhere it's like we stay horizontal the miracle goes up we go back up to the story