 Chapter 1 Part 1 of Rivers to the Sea This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Annalisa Bodker. Rivers to the Sea by Sarah Teasdale. Chapter 1 Part 1 Spring Night The park is filled with night and fog. The veils are drawn about the world. The drowsy lights along the paths are dim and purled. Gold and gleaming the empty streets. Gold and gleaming the misty lake. The mirrored lights like sunken swords glimmer and shake. Who is it not enough to be here with this beauty over me? My throat should ache with praise and I should kneel in joy beneath the sky. Oh beauty, are you not enough? Why am I crying after love with you, a singing voice and eyes, to take Earth's wonder with surprise? Why have I put off my pride? Why am I unsatisfied? I, for whom the pensive night binds her cloudy hair with light. I, for whom all beauty burns like incense in a million urns. Oh beauty, are you not enough? Why am I crying after love, the flight? Look back with longing eyes and know that I will follow. Lift me up in your love as a light wind lifts a swallow. Let our flight be far in sun or windy rain. But what if I heard my first love calling me again? Hold me on your heart as the brave sea holds the foam. Take me far away to the hills that hide your home. Peace shall thatch the roof and love shall latch the door. But what if I heard my first love calling me once more? New love and old. In my heart the old love struggled with the new. It was ghostly waking all night through. Dear things, kind things, that my old love said, ranged themselves reproachfully round my bed. But I could not heed them, for I seem to see the eyes of my new love fixed on me. Old love, old love, how can I be true? Shall I be faithless to myself or to you? The look. Streffan kissed me in the spring, Robin in the fall. But Colin only looked at me and never kissed at all. Streffan's kiss was lost in jest, Robin's lost in play. But the kiss in Colin's eyes haunts me night and day. Spring. In Central Park the lovers sit on every hilly path they stroll. Each thinks his love is infinite and crowns his soul. But we are cynical and wise. We walk a careful foot apart. You make a little joke that tries to hide your heart. Give over, we have laughed enough. O dearest and most foolish friend, why do you wage a war with love to lose your battle in the end? The lighted window. He said, In the winter dusk when the pavements were gleaming with rain, I walked through a dingy street, hurried, harassed, thinking of all my problems that are never solved. Suddenly out of the mist a flaring gas jet, shown from a huddled shop, I saw through the bleary window a mass of playthings, false faces hung on strings, valentines, paper and tinsel, tops of scarlet and green, candy, marbles, jacks, a confusion of color, pathetically gaudy and cheap. All of my boyhood rushed back. Once more these things were treasures wildly desired. With covetous eyes I looked again at the marbles, the precious agates, the pewees, the chinnies. Then I passed on. In the winter dusk the pavements were gleaming with rain. There in the lighted window I left my boyhood. The kiss. Before you kissed me only winds of heaven had kissed me and the tenderness of rain. Now you have come. How can I care for kisses like theirs again? I sought the sea. She sent her winds to meet me. They surged about me, singing of the south. I turned my head away to keep still holy. Your kiss upon my mouth. And swift sweet rains of shining April weather found not my lips where living kisses are. I bowed my head, lest they put out my glory, as rain puts out a star. I am my loves and he is mine for ever, sealed with a seal and safe for evermore. Think you that I could let a beggar enter where a king stood before? Swans. Night is over the park and a few brave stars. Look on the lights that link it with chains of gold. The lake bears up their reflection in broken bars that seem too heavy for tremulous water to hold. We watch the swans that sleep in a shadowy place and now and again one wakes and uplifts its head. How still you are. Your gaze is on my face. We watch the swans and never a word is said, the old maid. I saw her in a Broadway car, the woman I might grow to be. I felt my lover look at her and then turn suddenly to me. Her hair was dull and drew no light and yet its color was as mine. Her eyes were strangely like my eyes, though love had never made them shine. Her body was a thing grown thin, hungry for love that never came. Her soul was frozen in the dark, unwarmed forever by love's flame. I felt my lover look at her and then turn suddenly to me. His eyes were magic to defy, the woman I shall never be, from the Woolworth Tower. Vivid with love, eager for greater beauty, out of the night we come, into the corridor brilliant and warm. A metal door slides open and the lift receives us. Swiftly with sharp and swerving flight the car shoots upward and the air swirling and angry howls like a hundred devils. Past the maze of trim bronze doors steadily we ascend. I cling to you, anxious of the chasm under us and a terrible whirring defends my ears. The flight is ended. We pass through a door leading on to the ledge, wind and night and space. Oh terrible height, why have we sought you? Oh bitter wind with icy invisible wings, why do you beat us? Why would you bear us away? We look through the miles of the air, the cold blue miles between us and the city, over the edge of eternity we look on all the lights a thousand times more numerous than the stars. Oh lines and loops of light and unwound chains that mark for miles and miles the vast black mazy cobweb of the streets, nearest clusters and splashes of living gold that change far off to bluish steel where the fragile lights on the Jersey shore tremble like drops of wind stirred dew. The strident noises of the city floating up to us are hallowed into whispers. Fairies cross through the darkness, weaving a golden thread into the night. Their whistles we're shadows of sound. We feel the millions of humanity beneath us, the war millions moving under the roofs, consumed by their own desires, preparing food, sobbing alone in a garret, with burning eyes bending over a needle, aimlessly reading the evening paper, dancing in the naked light of the cafe, laying out the dead, bringing a child to birth. The sorrow, the torpor, the bitterness, the frail joy, come up to us like a cold fog wrapping us round. Oh in a hundred years not one of these blood-warm bodies will be worthless as clay. The anguish, the torpor, the toil will have passed to other millions, consumed by the same desires. Ages will come and go, darkness will blot the lights, and the tower will be laid on the earth. The sea will remain, black and unchanging, the stars will look down, brilliant and unconcerned. Beloved, those sorrow-futility defeat surround us, they cannot bear us down. Here on the abyss of eternity love has crowned us for a moment, victors at night. We are apart, the city grows quiet between us. She hushes herself for midnight makes heavy her eyes. The tangle of traffic is ended, the cars are empty. Five streets divide us, and on them the moonlight lies. Oh are you asleep or lying awake, my lover? Open your dreams to my love and your heart to my words. I send you my thoughts, the air between us is laden, my thoughts fly in at your window, a flock of wild birds, the years. Tonight I close my eyes and see a strange procession passing me, the years before I saw your face go by me with a wistful grace. They pass the sensitive shy years as one who strives to dance half-blind with tears. The years went by and never knew that each one brought me nearer you. Their path was narrow and apart and yet it led me to your heart. Oh sensitive shy years, oh lonely years that strove to sing with voices drowned in tears. Peace. Peace flows into me as the tide to the pool by the shore. It is mine forevermore and ebbs not back like the sea. I am the pool of blue that worships the vivid sky. My hopes were heaven high. They are all fulfilled in you. I am the pool of gold when sunset burns and dies. You are my deepening skies. Give me your stars to hold. April. The roofs are shining from the rain, the sparrows twitter as they ply, and with a windy April grace the little clouds go by. Yet the backyards are bare and brown with only one unchanging tree. I could not be so sure of spring. Save that it sings in me. Come. Come when the pale moon like a petal floats in the pearly dusk of spring. Come with arms outstretched to take me. Come with lips pursed up to cling. Come, for life is a frail moth flying caught in the web of the years that pass. And soon we too, so warm and eager, will be as the gray stones in the grass. Moods. I am the still rain falling too tired for singing mirth. Oh, be the green fields calling. Oh, be for me the earth. I am the brown bird pining to leave the nest and fly. Oh, be the fresh cloud shining. Oh, be for me the sky. April song. Willow in your April gown, delicate and gleaming. Do you mind, in years gone by, all my dreaming? Spring was like a call to me that I could not answer. I was chained to loneliness. I, the dancer. Willow twinkling in the sun. Still your leaves and hear me. I can answer spring at last. Love is near me. Mayday. The shining line of motors. The swaying motor bus. The prancing dancing horses. Are passing by for us. The sunlight on the steeple. The toys we stop to see. The smiling passing people. Are all for you and me. I love you and I love you. And oh, I love you too. All of the flower girls, lilies, were only grown for you. Fifth Avenue and April. And love and lack of care. The world is mad with music. Too beautiful to bear. Crowned. I wear a crown, invisible and clear. And go my lifted royal way apart. Since you have crowned me softly in your heart. With love that is half ardent. Half austere. And as a queen disguised might pass an ear. The bitter crowd that barters in a mart. Veiling her pride while tears of pity start. I hide my glory through a jealous fear. My crown shall stay as sweet and secret thing. Kept pure with prayer at even song and mourn. And when you come to take it from my head. I shall not weep nor will a word be said. But I shall kneel before you, oh my king. And bind my brow forever with a thorn. To a Castilian song. We held the book together timidly. Whose antique music in an alien tongue. Once rose among the dew-drenched vines that hung. Beneath the high Castilian balcony. I felt the loot-strings ancient ecstasy. And while he read my love-filled heart was stung. And throbbed as where an ardent bird has clung. The branches tremble on a blossomed tree. O lady for whose sake the song was made. Late long ago in some still cypress shade. Divided from the man who longed for thee. Here in a land whose name he never heard. His song brought love as April brings the bird. And not a breath divides my love from me. End of Chapter 1 Part 1 Recording by Annalisa Bodker Chapter 1 Part 2 Of Rivers to the Sea by Sarah Teesdale This Libra box recording is in the public domain. Recording by Annalisa Bodker Chapter 1 Part 2 Broadway This is the quiet hour the theatres have gathered in their crowds and steadily the million lights blaze on for few to see. Robbing the sky of stars that should be hers. A woman waits with bag and shabby furs. A somber man drifts by. And only we pass up the street unwearied, warm and free. For over us the olden magic stirs. Beneath the liquid splendor of the lights we live a little ere the charm is spent. This night is ours of all the golden nights. The pavement an enchanted palace floor and youth the player on the vial who sent a stream of music through an open door. A winter blue jay. Crisply the bright snow whispered crunching beneath our feet. Behind us as we walked along the parkway our shadows danced. Fantastic shapes in vivid blue. Across the lake the skaters flew to and fro with sharp turns weaving a frail invisible net. In ecstasy the earth drank the silver sunlight. In ecstasy the skaters drank the wine of speed. In ecstasy we laughed drinking the wine of love. Had not the music of our joy sounded its highest note. But no, for suddenly with lifted eyes you said, Oh, look! There on the black bow of a snow-flaked maple fearless and gay as our love a blue jay cocked his crest. Oh, who can tell the range of joy or set the bounds of beauty in a restaurant? The darkened street was muffled with the snow. The falling flakes had made your shoulders white and when we found a shelter from the night its glamour fell upon us like a blow. The clash of dishes and the vial and bow mingled with the fever of the light. The heat was full of savers and the bright laughter of women lured the wine to flow. A little child ate nothing while she sat watching a woman at a table there lean to a kiss beneath a drooping hat. The hour went by we rose and turned to go. The sombre street received us from the glare and once more on your shoulders fell the snow. Joy. I am wild. I will sing to the trees. I will sing to the stars in the sky. I love. I am loved. He is mine. Now at last I can die. I am sandaled with wind and with flame. I have heart fire and singing to give. I can tread on the grass or the stars. Now at last I can live in a railroad station. We stood in the shrill electric light dumb and sick in the whirling din. We who had all love love to say and a single second to say it in. Goodbye. Goodbye. You turned to go. I felt the train slow heavy start. You thought to see me cry but oh my tears were hidden in my heart. In the train fields beneath a quilt of snow from which the rocks and stubble peep and in the west a shy white star that shivers as it wakes from sleep. The restless rumble of the train the drowsy people in the car steel-blue twilight in the world and in my heart a timid star to one away. I heard a cry in the night. A thousand miles it came sharp as a flash of light. My name. My name. It was your voice I heard. You waked and loved me so. I send you back this word. I know. I know. Song. Love me with your whole heart or give no love to me. Half love is a poor thing neither bound nor free. You must love me gladly soul and body too else find a new love and goodbye to you. Deep in the night deep in the night the cry of a swallow under the stars he flew keen as pain was his call to follow over the world to you. Love in my heart is a cry forever lost as the swallow's flight long for you and never, never stilled by the stars at night the India Wharf. Here in the velvet stillness the wide sown fields fall to the faint horizon sleeping in starlight. A year ago we walked in the jangling city together forgetful one by one we crossed the avenues rivers of light roaring in tumult and came to the narrow knotted streets. Through the tense crowd we went aloof, ecstatic walking in wonder unconscious of our motion forever the foreign people with dark, deep-seeing eyes passed us and passed lights and foreign words and foreign faces I forgot them all I only felt alive defiant of all death and sorrow sure and elated that was the gift you gave me. The streets grew still more tangled and let it last to water black and glossy flagged here and there with lights faint and far off there on a shabby building was a sign the India Warp and we turned back I always felt we could have taken ship and crossed the bright green seas to dreaming cities sent on sacred streams and palaces of ivory and scarlet I shall not care when I am dead and over me bright April shakes out her rain-drenched hair though you should lean above me broken-hearted I shall not care I shall have peace as leafy trees are peaceful when rain bends down the bow and I shall be more silent and cold-hearted than you are now desert pools I love too much I am a river searching with spring that seeks the sea I am too generous a giver love will not stoop to drink of me his feet will turn to desert places shadowless, raft of rain and dew where stars stare down with sharpened faces from heaven's pitilessly blue and there at midnight, sick with fairy he will stoop down in his desire to slake the thirst grown past all-bearing and stagnant water, keen as fire longing I am not sorry for my soul that it must go unsatisfied for it can live a thousand times eternity is deep and wide I am not sorry for my soul but oh, my body that must go back to a little drift of dust without the joy it longed to know pity they never saw my lover's face they only know our love was brief wearing a while a windy grace and passing like an autumn leaf they wonder why I do not weep they think it's strange that I can sing they say her love was scarcely deep since it left so slight a sting they never saw my love nor knew that in my heart's most secret place I pity them as angels do men who have never seen God's face after parting oh, I have sown my love so wide that he will find it everywhere it will awake him in the night it will enfold him in the air I set my shadow in his sight and I have winged it with desire that it may be a cloud by day and in the night a shaft of fire enough it is enough for me by day to walk the same bright earth with him enough that over us by night the same great roof of stars is dim I have no care to bind the wind or set a feather on the sea it is enough to feel his love blow by like music over me alchemy I lift my heart as spring lives up a yellow daisy to the rain my heart will be a lovely cup although it holds but pain for I shall learn from flower and leaf that color every drop they hold to change the lifeless wine of grief to living gold February they spoke of him I love with cruel words and gay my lips kept silent guard on all I could not say I heard and down the street the lonely trees in the square stood in the winter wind patient and bare I heard oh voiceless trees under the wind I knew the eager terrible spring hidden in you morning I went out on an April morning all alone for my heart was high I was a child of the shining meadow I was a sister of the sky there in the windy blood of morning longing lifted its weight from me lost as a sob in the midst of cheering swept as a seabird out to sea May night the spring is fresh and fearless and every leaf is new the world is brimmed with moonlight the lilac brimmed with dew here in the moving shadows I catch my breath and sing my heart is fresh and fearless and over brimmed with spring dusk in June evening and all the birds in a chorus of shimmering sound are easing their hearts of joy for miles around the air is blue and sweet the first few stars are white oh let me like the birds sing before night love free I am free of love as a bird flying south in the autumn swift and intent asking no joy from another glad to forget all of the passion of April ere it was love free I am free of love and I listen to music lightly but if he returned if he should look at me deeply I should awake I should awake and remember I am my lovers summer night, riverside in the wild soft summer darkness how many and many a night we two together sat in the park and watched the Hudson wearing her lights like golden spangles glinting on black satin the rail along the curving pathway was low in a happy place to let us cross and down the hill a tree that dripped with bloom sheltered us while your kisses and the flowers falling, falling tangled my hair the frail white stars moved slowly over the sky and now far off in the fragrant darkness the tree is tremulous again with bloom for June comes back to night what girl when she goes home dreamily before her mirror shakes from her hair this year's blossoms clinging in its coils in a subway station after a year I came again to the place the tireless lights and the reverberation the angry thunder of trains that burrow the ground the hunted, hurrying people were still the same but oh another man beside me and not you another voice and other eyes in mine and suddenly I turned and saw again the gleaming curve of tracks the bridge above they were burned deep into my heart before the night I watched them to avoid your eyes when you were saying oh look up at me when you were saying will you never love me and when I answered with a lie oh then you dropped your eyes I felt your utter pain I would have died to say the truth to you after a year I came again to the place the hunted, hurrying people were still the same after love there is no magic when we meet we speak as other people do you worked no miracle for me nor I for you you were the wind and I the sea there is no splendor anymore I have grown listless as the pool beside the shore but though the pool is safe from storm and from the tide has found surcease it grows more bitter than the sea for all its peace doryard roses I have come the self-same path to the self-same door years have left the roses there burning as before while I watch them in the wind quick the hot tears start strange, so frail of flame outlasts fire in the heart a prayer until I lose my soul and lie blind to the beauty of the earth death though alluric wind goes by dumb in a storm of mirth until my heart is quenched at length and I have left the land of men oh, let me love with all my strength careless if I am loved again this LibriVox recording is in the public domain recording by Annalisa Bodker Chapter 2 Part 1 Indian Summer Lyric night of the lingering Indian summer shadowy fields that are sentless but full of singing never a bird but the passionless chant of insects ceaseless, insistent the grasshoppers horn and far off, high in the maples the wheel of a locust leisurely grinding the silence under a moon waning and worn and broken, tired with summer let me remember you voices of little insects weeds in the moonlight fields that are tangled with asters let me remember you soon will the winter be on us snow-hushed and heartless over my soul murmur your mute benediction while I gaze oh fields that rest after harvest as those who part look long in the eyes they lean to lest they forget them the sea wind I am a pool in a peaceful place I greet the great sky face to face I know the stars and the stately moon and the wind that runs with rippling shun but why does it always bring to me the far off beautiful sound of the sea the marsh grass weaves me a wall of green the wind comes whispering in between in the dead of night when the sky is deep the wind comes waking me out of sleep why does it always bring to me the far off terrible call of the sea the cloud I am a cloud in the heavens height the stars are lit for my delight tireless and changeful, swift and free I cast my shadow on hill and sea but why do the pines on the mountains crest call to me always rest, rest I throw my mantle over the moon and I blind the sun on his throne at noon nothing can tame me, nothing can bind I am a child of the heartless wind but oh the pines on the mountains crest whispering always rest, rest the poor house hope went by and peace went by and would not enter in youth went by and health went by and love that is their kin those within the house shed tears on their bitter bread some were old and some were mad and some were sick a bed great death saw the wretched house and even he passed by they have never lived, he said they can wait to die New Year's dawn, Broadway when the horns were thin and the noise like a garment outworn falls from the night the tattered and shivering night that thinks she is gay when the patient's silence comes back and retires and returns rebuffed by a ribald song wounded by vehement cries fleeing again to the stars ashamed of her sister the night oh then they steal home the blinded, the pitiful ones with their juga still in their hands reeling with odorous breath and thick coarse words on their tongues they get them to bed somehow and sleep the forgiving comes through the scattering tumult and closes their eyes the stars sink down ashamed and the dawn awakes like a youth who steals from a brothel dizzy and sick the star a white star born in the evening glow looked to the round green world below and saw a pool in a wooded place that held like a jewel her mirrored face she said to the pool oh wondrous deep I love you I give you my light to keep oh more profound than the moving sea that never has shown myself to me oh fathomless as the sky is far hold forever your tremulous star but out of the woods as night grew cool a brown pig came to the little pool it grunted and splashed and waited in and the deepest place but reached its chin the water gurgled with tender glee and the mud churned up in it turbidly the star grew pale and hid her face in a bit of floating cloud like lace doctors every night I lie awake and every day I lie a bit and hear the doctors pain and death conferring at my head they speak in scientific tones professional and low one argues for a speedy cure the other sure and slow to one so humble as myself it should be a matter for some pride to have such noted fellows here conferring at my side the inn of earth I came to the crowded inn of earth and called for a cup of wine but the host went by with averted eye from a thirst as keen as mine then I sat down with weariness and asked a bit of bread but the host went by with averted eye and never a word he said while always from the outer night the waiting souls came in and cycled cries of sharp surprise at all the light and din then give me a bed to sleep I said for midnight comes a pace but the host went by with averted eye and I never saw his face since there is neither food nor rest I go where I fared before but the host went by with averted eye and barred the outer door in the carpenter's shop Mary sat in the corner dreaming dim was the room and low while in the dusk the saw went screaming to and fro Jesus and Joseph toiled together Mary was watching them thinking of kings in the wintry weather at Bethlehem Mary sat in the corner thinking Jesus had grown a man one by one her hopes were sinking as the years ran Jesus and Joseph toiled together Mary's thoughts were far angels sang in wintry weather under a star Mary sat in the corner weeping bitter and hot her tears little faith were the angels keeping all the years the carpenter's son the summer dawn came over soon the earth was like hot iron at noon in Nazareth there fell no rain to ease the heat and dusk drew on with tired feet and stifled breath the shop was low and hot and square and fresh cut wood made sharp the air while all day long the saw went tearing through the oak that moaned as though the tree's heart broke beneath its wrong the narrow street was full of cries of bickering and snarling lies in many keys the tongues of Egypt and of Rome and lands beyond the shifting foam of windy seas sometimes a ruler writing fast scattered the dark crowds as he passed and drove them close in doorways drawing broken breath lest they be trampled to their death where the dust rose there in the gathering night and noise a group of Galilean boys crowded to see Gray Joseph toiling with his son saw Jesus when the task was done he passed them by with hurried tread silently nor raised his head he who looked up drinking all beauty from his birth out of the heaven and the earth as from a cup and Mary who was growing old knew that the potage would be cold when he returned he hungered only for the night the westward bending sharp and bright the thin moon burned he reached the open western gate where whining halt and leper wait and came at last to the blue desert where the deep great seas of twilight lay asleep, windless and vast with shining eyes the stars awoke the doulet heavy on his cloak the world was dim and in the stillness he could hear his secret thoughts draw very near and call to him faint voices lifted shrill with pain and multitudinous as rain from all the lands and all the villages thereof men crying for the gift of love without stretched hands voices that called with ceaseless crying the broken and the blind the dying and those grown dumb beneath oppression and he heard upon their lips a single word come their cries engulfed him like the night the moon put out her placid light and black and low nearer the heavy thunder drew hushing the voices yet he knew that he would go a quick spun thread of lightning burns and for a flash the day returns he only hears Joseph an old man bent and white toiling alone from mourn till night through all the years swift clouds make all the heavens blind a storm is running on the wind he only sees how Mary will stretch out her hands sobbing who never understands voices like these the mother of a poet she is too kind I think for mortal things too gentle for the gusty ways of earth God gave to her a shy and silver mirth and made her soul as clear and softly singing as an orchard spring in sheltered hollows all the sunny year a spring that through the leaning grass looks up and holds all heaven in its clarity cup mirror to holy meadows high and blue with stars like drops of dew I love to think that never tears at night have made her eyes less bright that all her girlhood through never cry of love made over tense her voices innocence that in her hands have lain flowers beaten by the rain and little birds before they learn to sing drowned in the sudden ecstasy of spring I love to think that with a wistful wonder she held her baby warm against her breast that never any fear awoke where under she shuttered at her gift or trembled lest through the great doors of birth here to a windy earth she lured from heaven a half unwilling guest she caught and kept his first vague flickering smile the faint up leaping of his spirit's fire and for a long sweet while in her was all he asked of earth or heaven but in the end how far past every shaken star should leap at last that arrow-like desire his full-grown manhood's keen ardor toward the unseen dark mystery beyond the Pleiades 7 and in her heart she heard his first dim-spoken word she only of them all could understand fleshing to feel at last the silence overpassed thrilling as though her hand had touched God's hand but in the end how many words winged on a flight she could not follow farther than skyward lark or swallow his lips should free to lands she never knew braver than white sea-faring birds with a fearless melody flying over a shining sea a star-white song between the blue and blue oh I have seen a lake as clear and fair as it were molten air lifting a lily upward to the sun how should the water know the glowing heart the average of the heaven lifts its fire a golden and unchangeable desire the water only knows the faint and rosy glows of under-pedals opening apart yet in the soul of earth deep in the primal ground its searching roots are wound and centuries have struggled towards its birth so in the man who sings all of the voiceless hoard from the cold dawn of things have their reward all in whose pulses ran blood that is his at last from the first stooping man far in a winnowed past out of the tumult of their love and mating each one created seeing life was good dumb till it last the song that they were waiting breaks like brave April through a wintry wood rivers to the sea but what of her whose heart is troubled by it the mother who would soothe and set him free fearing the song storm-shaken ecstasy how as the moon that has no power to quiet the strong wind-driven sea in memoriam f.o.s you go along and lovely journey for all the stars like burning dew are luminous and luring footprints of souls adventurous as you oh if you lived on earth elated how is it now that you can run free of the weight of flesh and fearing far past the birthplace of the sun twilight the stately tragedy of dusk drew to its perfect close the virginal white evening star sank and the red moon rose end of chapter 2 part 1 recording by Annalisa Bodker chapter 2 part 2 of rivers to the sea by Sarah Teasdale this LibriVox recording is in the public domain recording by Annalisa Bodker chapter 2 part 2 swallow-flight I love my hour of wind and light I love men's faces and their eyes I love my spirit's fearing flight like swallows under evening skies thoughts when I can make my thoughts come forth to walk like ladies up and down each one puts on before the glass her most becoming hat and gown but oh the shy and eager thoughts that hide and will not get them dressed why is it that they always seem so much more lovely than the rest too dick on his sixth birthday though I am very old and wise and you are neither wise nor old when I look far into your eyes I know things I was never told I know how flame must strain and fret prisoned in a mortal net how joy with over eager wings bruises the small heart where he sings how too much life like too much gold is sometimes very hard to hold all that is talking I know this much is true six years ago an angel living near the moon walked through the sky and sang a tune plucking stars to make his ground and suddenly two stars fell down two falling arrows made of light six years ago this very night I saw them fall and wondered why the angel dropped them from the sky but when I saw your eyes I knew the angel sent the stars to you to Rose Rose when I remember you little lady scarcely too I am suddenly aware of the angels in the air all your softly gracious ways make an island in my days where my thoughts fly back to be sheltered from too strong a sea all your luminous delight shines before me in the night when I grope for sleep and find only shadows in my mind Rose when I remember you white and glowing pink and new with so swift a sense of fun although life has just begun with so sure a pride of place in your very infant face I should like to make a prayer to the angels in the air if an angel ever brings me a baby in her wings please be certain that it grows very very much like Rose the fountain on in the deep blue night the fountain sang alone it sang to the drowsy heart of the satyr carved in stone the fountain sang and sang but the satyr never stirred only the great white moon in the empty heaven heard the fountain sang and sang and on the marble rim the milk white peacock slept their dreams were strange and dim bright dew was on the grass and on the ilux dew the dreamy milk white birds were all a glistened to the fountain sang and sang the things one cannot tell the dreaming peacock stirred and the gleaming dew drops fell the rose beneath my chamber window Perot was singing singing I heard his lute the whole night through until the east was red alas alas Perot I had no rose for flinging save one that drank my tears for dew before its leaves were dead I found it in the darkness I kissed it once and threw it the petals scattered over him his song was turned to joy and he will never know alas the one who knew it the rose was plucked when dusk was dim beside a laughing boy dreams I gave my life to another lover I gave my love and all and all but over a dream the past will hover out of a dream the past will call I tear myself from sleep with a shiver but on my breast a kiss is hot and by my bed the ghostly giver is waiting though I see him not I am not yours I am not yours not lost in you not lost although I long to be lost as a candle lit at noon lost as a snowflake in the sea you love me and I find you still a spirit beautiful and bright yet I am I who long to be lost as a light is lost in light oh plunge me deep in love put out my senses leave me deaf and blind swept by the tempest of your love a taper in a rushing wind Perot's song for a picture by Doogled Walker Lady the light in the east hangs low draw your veils of dream apart under the casement stands Perot making a song to ease his heart yet do not break the song too soon I love to sing in the paling moon the petals are falling heavy with dew the stars have fainted out of the sky come to me come or else I too faint with the weight of love will die she comes alas I hope to make another stanza for her sake night in Arizona the moon is a charring ember dying into the dark often the crouching mountains coyotes bark the stars are heavy in heaven too great for the sky to hold what if they fell and shattered the earth with gold no lights are over the mesa the wind is hard and wild I stand at the darkened window and cry like a child dusk in wartime a half hour more and you will lean to gather me close in the old sweet way but oh to the woman over the sea who will come at the close of day a half hour more and I will hear the key in the latch and the strong quick tread but oh the woman over the sea waiting at dusk for one who is dead spring in wartime I feel the spring far off far off the faint far scent of bud and leaf oh how can spring take heart to come to a world in grief, deep grief the sun turns north, the days grow long later the evening star grows bright how can the daylight linger on for men to fight, still fight the grass is waking in the ground soon it will rise and blow in waves how can it have the heart to sway over the graves, new graves under the boughs where lovers walked the apple blooms will shed their breath but what of all the lovers now parted by death, great death while I may wind and hail and veering rain driven mists that veils the day souls distressed and bodies pain I would bear you while I may I would love you if I might for so soon my life will be buried in a lasting night even pain denied to me debt what do I owe to you who loved me deep and long you never gave my spirit wings or gave my heart a song but oh to him I loved who loved me not at all I owe the little open gate that led through heaven's wall from the north the northern woods are delicately sweet the lake is folded softly by the shore but I am restless for the subway's roar the thunder and the hurrying of feet I try to sleep but still my eyelids beat against the image of the tower that bore me high aloft as if through heaven's door I watched the world from God's unshaken seat I would go back and breathe with quick incense the tunnel's strong hot breath of powdered steel but at the fairies I should leave the tents dark air behind and I should mount and be one among many who are thrilled to feel the first keen sea breath from the open sea the lights of New York the lightning spun your garment for the night of silver filaments with fire shot through a broodery of lamps that lit for you the steadfast blender of enduring light the moon drifts dimly in a heaven's height watching with wonder how the earth she knew that lay so long wrapped deep in dark endu should wear upon her breast a star so white the festivals of Babylon were dark with flaring flambeau that the wind blew down the Saturnalia were a wild boys' lark with rain quenched torches dripping through the town but you have found a god and filched from him a fire that neither wind nor rain can dim sea longing a thousand miles beyond the sun's steeped wall somewhere the waves creep cool along the sand the ebbing tide forsakes the listless land with the old murmur long and musical the windy waves mount up and curve and fall and round the rocks the foam blows up like snow though I am inland far I hear and know for I was born the sea's eternal thrall I would that I were there and over me the cold insistence of the tide would roll quenching this burning thing men call the soul then with the ebbing I should drift and be less than the smallest shell along the shore less than the seagulls calling to the sea the river I came from the sunny valleys and sought for the open sea for I thought in its gray expanses my peace would come to me I came at last to the ocean and found it wild and black and I cried to the windless valleys be kind and take me back but the thirsty tide ran inland and the salt waves drank of me and I who was fresh as the rainfall and bitter as the sea leaves one by one like leaves from a tree all my faiths have forsaken me but the stars above my head burn in white and delicate red and beneath my feet the earth brings the sturdy grass to birth I who was content to be but a silken singing tree but a rustle of delight in the wistful heart of night I have lost the leaves that knew touch of rain and weight of dew blinded by a leafy crown I looked neither up nor down but the little leaves that die have left me room to see the sky now for the first time I know stars above and earth below the answer when I go back to earth and all my joyous body puts off the red and white that once I've been so proud if men should pass above with faults and feeble pity my dust will find a voice to answer them aloud be still I am content take back your poor compassion joy was a flame in me too steady to destroy live as a bending read loving the storm that sways her I found joy and sorrow than you could find in joy End of Chapter 2 Part 2 Recording by Anna-Lisa Bodker Chapter 3 of Rivers to the Sea by Sarah Teasdale This LibriVox recording is in the public domain Recording by Anna-Lisa Bodker Chapter 3 Over the roofs one oh chime set high on the sunny tower ring on ring on unendingly make all the hours a single hour for when the dusk begins to flower the man I love will come to me but no go slowly as you will don't bid you hasten so for while I wait for love to come some other girl is standing dumb fearing her love will go two oh white steam over the roofs blow high oh chimes in the tower ring clear and free oh sun awake in the covered love loves me I oh drifting steam disperse and die oh tower stand shrouded toward the south fade her to far my happy cry and laid her finger on my mouth three the dusk was blue with blowing mist the lights were spangles in a veil very low floated faint music like a whale it voiced what I shall never speak my heart was breaking all night long but when the dawn was hard and grey my tears distilled into a song for I said I have shut my heart as one shuts an open door I starved therein and troubled me no more but over the roofs there came the wet new wind of May and a tune blew up from the curb where the street pianos play my room was white with the sun and love cried out in me I am strong I will break your heart unless you set me free a cry oh there are eyes that he can see and hands to make his hands rejoice but to my lover I must be only a voice oh there are breasts to bear his head and lips whereon his lips can lie but I must be till I am dead only a cry chance many times we must have met here on the street as strangers do children of chance we were who passed the door of heaven and never knew immortal so soon my body will have gone beyond the sound and sight of men and though it wakes and suffers now and then but oh my frail immortal soul that will not sleep forever more a leaf born onward by the blast a wave that never finds the shore after death now while my lips are living their words must stay unsaid and will my soul speak when I am dead yet if my soul remembered you would not heed it dear for now you must not listen and then you could not hear testament I said I will take my life and throw it away I who was fire and song will turn to clay I will lie no more in the night I will toss my heart in the air to be caught by death but out of the night I heard like the inland sound of the sea the hushed and terrible sob of all humanity then I said oh who am I to scorn God to his face I will bow my head and stay and suffer with my race I gave my first love laughter I gave my second tears I gave my third love silence through all the years my first love gave me singing my second eyes to see but oh it was my third love who gave my soul to me End of Chapter 3 Chapter 4 of Rivers to the Sea Chapter 4 from the sea all beauty calls you to me and you seem past twice a thousand miles of shifting sea to reach me you are as the wind I breathe here on the ship sun smitten top most deck with only light between the heavens and me I feel your spirit and I close my eyes knowing the bright hair blowing in the sun the eager whisper and the searching eyes you do not turn your face nor touch me only stand and watch a while the blue unbroken circle of the sea look far away and let me ease my heart of words that beat in it with broken wing look far away and if I say too much forget that I am speaking I am so weak a thing praise me for this that in some strange way I was strong enough to keep my love unuttered and to stand although I long to kneel to you that night you looked at me with ever calling eyes was I not calm and if you guessed my love you thought it something delicate and free soft as the sound of fir trees in the wind fleeting as phosphorescent stars in foam yet in my heart there was a beating storm bending my thoughts before it and I strove to say too little lest I say too much to my eyes to drive love's happy shame yet when I heard your name the first far time it seemed like other names to me and I was all unconscious as a dreaming river that nears at last its long predestined sea and when you spoke to me I did not know that to my life's high altar came its priest all I know between my God and me you stand forever nearer God than I and in your hands with faith and utter joy I would that I could lay my woman's soul to whom I cannot come with any gift of body or of soul I must pass and go but sometimes when you hear blown back to you singing touched with tears know that I sang for you alone to hear and that I wondered if the wind would bring to him who tuned my heart its distant song so might a woman who in loneliness had born a child dreaming of days to come wonder if it would please its father's eyes but long before I ever heard your name under tones unchanging note and all my singing had prefigured you for told you as a spark foretells a flame yet I was free as an untethered cloud in the great space between the sky and sea and might have blown before the wind of joy like a bright banner woven by the sun I did not know the longing in the night you who have cannot give me sleep all things and all the world can rest but I even the smooth brief respite of a wave when it gives up its broken crown of foam even that little rest I may not have and yet all quiet loves of friends all joy and all the piercing beauty of the world I would give up go blind forever more rather than have God blot from out my soul remembrance of your voice that said my name for us no starlight still the April fields no birds awoke in darkling trees for us yet where we walk the city street that night felt in our feet the singing fire of spring and in our path we left a trail of light soft as the phosphorescence of the sea when night submerges in the vessel's wake a heaven of unborn effervescent stars vignettes overseas one off Gibraltar beyond the sleepy hills of Spain the sun goes down in yellow mist the sky is fresh with dewy stars above a sea of amethyst yet in the city of my love high noon burns all the heavens bear for him the happiness of light for me a delicate despair two off Algiers oh give me neither love nor tears nor dreams that sear the night with fire go lightly on your pilgrimage unburdened by desire forget me for a month a year but oh beloved think of me when unexpected beauty burns like sudden sunlight on the sea Naples Capri Nate Naples crowds her million roofs round about the mountains crest a flag of smoke is hung when God made Italy he was gay and young Capri when beauty grows to great to bear ease me of its ache, for beauty more than bitterness makes the heart break. Now while I watch the dreaming sea with aisles like flowers against her breast, only one voice in all the world could give me rest. 5. Night-Song at Al-Mawfi I asked the heaven of stars what I should give my love, and answered me with silence, silence above. I asked the darkened sea down where the fishers go, and answered me with silence, silence below. Oh, I could give him weeping, or I could give him song, but how can I give silence my whole life long? 6. Ruins of Pastum On low lands where the temples lie, the marsh grass mingles with the flowers. Only the little songs of birds link the unbroken hours. So in the end above my heart, once like the city, wild and gay, the slow white stars will pass by night, the swift brown birds by day. 7. Rome Over the rising moon, over the roofs of Rome, and swallows in the dusk circling a darkened dome, over the measured dawns that pass with folded wings, how can I let them go with unremembered things? 8. Florence The bells ring over the Anno, midnight the long, long chime, here in the quivering darkness I am afraid of time. Oh, gray bells, cease your tolling, time takes too much from me, and yet to rock and river he gives eternity. 9. Villa Cerberloni Bellaggio The fountain shivers lightly in the rain, the laurels drip, the fading roses ball, the marble satyr plays a mournful strain that leaves the rainy fragrance musical. Oh, dripping laurel, Phoebus' sacred tree, would that swift Daphne's lot might come to me, then would I still my soul, and for an hour, change to a laurel in the glancing shower? 10. Stressa The moon grows out of the hills, a yellow flower, the lake is a dreamy bride who waits her hour, beauty has filled my heart, it can hold no more, it is full as the lake is full, from shore to shore. 11. Hamburg The day that I come home, what will you find to say, words as light as foam, with laughter light as spray, yet say what words you will, the day that I come home, I shall hear the whole devotion beating under the foam. 4. Safo 1. Midnight and in the darkness not a sound, so with hushed breathing, 1. Midnight and in the darkness not a sound, so with hushed breathing, sleeps the autumn night. Only the white immortal star shall know, here in the house, with the low lintel door, how for the last time I have lit the lamp. 2. I think you are not wholly careless now, walls that have sheltered me so many an hour, bed that has brought me ecstasy and sleep, floors that have borne me when a gale of joy lifted my soul and made me half a god. 3. Farewell, across the threshold many feet shall pass but never Safo's feet again. 4. Girls shall come in whom love has made aware of all their swaying beauty, they shall sing, but never Safo's voice, like golden fire, shall seek for heaven through your echoing rafters. 5. There shall be swallows bringing back the spring over the long blue meadows of the sea and south wind playing on the reeds of rain, but never Safo's whisper in the night, never her love cry when the lover comes. Farewell, I close the door and make it fast. 6. The little street lies meek beneath the moon, running as rivers run to meet the sea. I too go seaward and shall not return. Oh, garlands on the doorposts that I pass, woven of astors and of autumn leaves, I make a prayer for you. Cyprus, be kind, that every lover may be given love. 7. I shall not hasten lest the paving stones should echo with my sandals and awake those who are warm beneath this cloak of sleep, lest they should rise and see me and should say, whither go Safo lonely in the night? 8. Whither go Safo? Whither all men go, but they go driven, straining back with fear, and Safo goes as lightly as a leaf blown from the brown autumn forest to the sea. 9. Here on the rock Zeus lifted from the waves, I shall await the waking of the dawn, lying beneath the weight of dark as one, lies breathless till the lover shall awake. 10. And with the sun the sea shall cover me, I shall be less than the dissolving foam murmuring and melting on the ebbing tide, I shall be less than spin drift, less than shells, and yet I shall be greater than the gods, for destiny no more can bow my soul as rain bows down the watchfires on the hills. 11. Yes, if my soul escape it shall aspire to the white heaven as flame that has its will. I go not bitterly, not done with pain, not broken by the ache of love, I go as one grown tired lies down and hopes to sleep. 12. Yet they shall say, it was for circle us, she died because she could not bear her love. 13. They shall remember how we used to walk, here on the cliff beneath the oleanders in the long, limpid twilight of the spring, looking toward Lemnos, where the amber sky was pierced with the faint arrow of a star. 14. How should they know the wind of a new beauty? Sweeping my soul had winnowed it with song. 15. I have been glad, though love should come or go, happy as trees that find a wind to sway them, happy again when it has left them rest. 16. Others shall say, Gravedika wrought her death. She would not lift her lips to take a kiss or ever lift her eyes to take a smile. She was a pool that winter paves with ice, that the wild hunter in the hills must leave with thirst unslaked in the brief southward sun. 17. Adika, it is not for thee I go, and not for Phaeon, though his ship lifts sail here in the windless harbor for the south. 18. Are darkling deities that guard the Nile, watch over one whose gods are far away? Egypt, be kind to him, his eyes are deep, yet they are wrong who say it was for him. 19. How should they know that Savva lived and died, faithful to love, not faithful to the lover, never transfused and lost in what she loved, never so wholly loving nor at peace? 20. I asked for something greater than I found, and every time that love has made me weep, I have rejoiced that love could be so strong. For I have stood apart and watched my soul, caught in the gust of passion as a bird, with baffled wings against the dusty whirlwind, struggles and frees itself to find the sky. 21. It is not for a single god I go. I have grown weary of the winds of heaven, I will not be a reed to hold the sound of whatsoever breath the gods may blow, turning my torment into music for them. 22. They gave me life. The gift was bountiful. I lived with the swift singing strength of fire, seeking for beauty as a flame for fuel, beauty in all things and in every hour. 23. The gods have given life. I gave them song. The debt is paid, and now I turn to go. 24. The breath of dawn blows the stars out like lamps. There is a rim of silver on the sea, as one grown tired who hopes to sleep. I go. 2. Oh lightess, little slave, why will you sleep? These long Egyptian noons bend down your head, bowed like the arrow with the yellow bee. 3. There, lift your eyes no man has ever kindled, dark eyes that wait like faggots for the fire. 4. See how the temple solid square of shade points north to Lesbos and the splendid sea that you have never seen, oh evening-eyed. 5. Yet have you never wondered what the Nile is seeking always, restless and wild with spring and no less in winter, seeking still? 6. How shall I tell you? Can you think of fields greater than gods could till, more blue than night, sewn over with the stars, and delicate with filming nets of foam that come and go? 7. It is more cruel and more compassionate than harried earth. It takes with unconcern and quick forgetting rapture of the rain and agony of thunder, the moon's white, soft-garmented virginity, and then the insatiable ardour of the sun. 8. And me it took, but there is one more strong love that came laughing from the elder seas, the Cyprian, the mother of the world. 9. She gave me love who only asked for death, I who had seen much sorrow in men's eyes and in my own too sorrowful a fire. 10. I was a sister of the stars and yet, shaken with pain, sister of birds and yet, the wings that bore my soul were very tired. 11. I watched the careless spring too many times, light her green torches in a hungry wind, too many times I watched them flare and then fall to forsaken embers in the autumn, and I was sick of all things, even song. 12. In the dull autumn dawn I turned to death, buried my living body in the sea, the strong cold sea that takes and does not give, but there is one more strong, the Cyprian. 13. Lightus, to wake from sleep and find your eyes, met in their first fresh upward gaze by love, filled with love's happy shame from other eyes, dazzled with tenderness and drowned in light, as though you looked unthinking at the sun. 14. Oh Lightus, that is joy! But if you came, not from the sunny shallow pool of sleep, but from the sea of death, the strangling sea of night and nothingness and wake to find, love looking down upon you glad and still, strange and yet known forever. 15. That is peace! So did Helene above me, not a word he spoke, I only heard the morning sea singing against his happy ship, the keen and straining joy of wind-awakened sails and songs of mariners, and in myself the precious pain of arms that held me fast. 16. They warmed the cold sea out of all my blood. I slept, feeling his eyes above my sleep. 17. There on the ship, with wines and olives laden, led by the stars to the far invisible ports, Egypt and islands of the inner seas, love came to me and circle us was love. 3. The twilight's inner flame grows blue and deep, and in my lesbos, over leagues of sea, the temples glimmer moon-wise in the trees. 4. Twilight has veiled the little flower face, here on my heart, but still the night is kind, and leaves her warm, sweet weight against my breast. 5. Am I that Sappho who would run at dusk, along the surges creeping up the shore, when tides came in to ease the hungry beach, and running, running till the night was black, would fall, forespent upon the chilly sand, and quiver with the winds from off the sea? 6. How quietly the shingle waits the tides, whose waves are stinging kisses, but to me, love brought no peace, nor darkness any rest. 7. I crapped, and touched the foam with fevered hands, and cried to love, from whom the sea is sweet, from whom the sea is bitterer than death. 8. Ah, Aphrodite, if I sing no more to thee, God's daughter, powerful as God, it is that thou hast made my life too sweet to hold the added sweetness of a song. 9. There is a quiet at the heart of love, and I have pierced the pain and come to peace, I hold my peace, my cleus, on my heart, and softer than a little wild bird's wing are kisses that she pours upon my mouth. 10. Ah, never any more, when spring, like fire, with flicker in the newly opened leaves, shall I still forth to seek for solitude beyond the lure of light Alcheas's lyre, beyond the sob that stilled Irina's voice. 11. Ah, never with a throat that aches with song, beyond the white uncaring sky of spring, shall I go forth to hide awhile from love, the quiver and the crying of my heart. 12. Still I remember how I strove to flee, the love note of the birds, and bowed my head, to hurry faster, but upon the ground I saw two winged shadows side by side, and all the world's spring passions stifled me. 13. Ah, love, there is no fleeing from thy might, no lonely place where thou hast never trod, no desert thou hast left uncarpeted, with flowers that spring beneath thy perfect feet. 14. In many guises didst thou come to me, I saw thee by the maidens while they danced, Phaeon alerted me with the look of thine, in Anactoria I knew thy grace, I looked at Circulus and saw thine eyes. 15. But never holy, soul and body mine, didst thou bid any love me as I loved, now have I found the peace that fled from me. 16. Close, close against my heart I hold my world, a love that made my life a lyric cry, a love that tuned my lips to liars of thine, I taught the world thine music, now alone, I sing for one who falls asleep to hear. End of Chapter 5, Recording by Anna-Lisa Bodker End of Rivers to the Sea, by Sarah Teasdale