 CHAPTER XII On the 4th of September, Christie woke up saying to herself, It is my birthday, but no one knows it, so I shall get no presence. Ah, well, I'm too old for that now, I suppose. But she sighed as she said it, for while she knew one never is too old to be remembered and beloved. Just then the door opened, and Mrs. Sterling entered, carrying what looked very like a pile of snowflakes in her arms. Saying this upon the bed, she kissed Christie, saying with a tone and gesture that made the words a benediction. A happy birthday, and God bless thee, my daughter. Before Christie could do more than hug both gift and giver, a great bouquet came flying in at the open window, aimed with such skill that it fell upon the bed, while David's voice called out from below. A happy birthday, Christie, and many of them. How sweet! how kind of you this is! I didn't dream you knew about to-day, and never thought of such a beautiful surprise! cried Christie, touched and charmed by this unexpected celebration. Thee mentioned it once long ago, and we remembered. They are very humble gifts, my dear, but we could not let the day pass without some token of the thanks we owe thee for these months of faithful service and affectionate companionship. Christie had no answer to this little address, and was about to cry as the only adequate expression of her feelings, when a hearty, hear, hear! from below made her laugh and call out, You conspirators, how dare you lay plots and then exult over me when I can't find words to thank you! I always did think you were a set of angels, and now I'm quite sure of it. Thee may be right about Davy, but I am only a prudent old woman, and have taken much pleasure in privately knitting this light wrap to wear when Thee sits in the porch, for the evenings will soon grow chilly. My son did not know what to get, and finally decided that flowers would suit Thee best, so he made a bunch of those Thee loves, and would toss it in as if he was a boy. I like that way, and both my presents suit me exactly, said Christie, wrapping the fleecy shaw about her, and admiring the nose-gate in which her quick eye saw all her favourites, even to a plumy spray of the little wild asters which she loved so much. Now, child, I will step down and see about breakfast. Take thy time, for this is to be a holiday, and we mean to make it a happy one if we can. With that the old lady went away, and Christie soon followed, looking very fresh and alive, as she ran down smiling behind her great bouquet. David was in the porch, training up the morning glories that bloomed late and lovely in that sheltered spot. He turned as she approached, held out his hand, and bent a little as if he was moved to add a tenderer greeting. But he did not, only held the hand she gave him for a moment, as he said with the paternal expression, unusually visible. I wished you many happy birthdays, and if you go on getting younger every year like this, you will surely have them. It was the first compliment he had ever paid her, and she liked it, though she shook her head as if disclaiming it, and answered brightly. I used to think many years would be burdensome, and just before I came here I felt as if I could not bear another one, but now I like to live, and hope I shall a long, long time. I'm glad of that. And how do you mean to spend these long years of yours?" asked David, brushing back the lock of hair that was always falling into his eyes, as if he wanted to see more clearly the hopeful face before him. In doing what your morning glories do, climb up as far and as fast as I can before the frost comes, answered Christie, looking at the pretty symbols she had chosen. You have got on a good way already, then, began David, smiling at your fancy. Oh, no I haven't, she said quickly. I'm only about half way up. See here, I'll tell how it is, and pointing to the different parts of the flowery wall, she added in her earnest way. I've watched these grow, and had many thoughts about them, as I sit sewing in the porch. These variegated ones down low are my childish fancies. Most of them gone to seed, you see. These lovely blue ones of all shades are my girlish dreams and hopes and plans. Poor things. Some are dead, some torn by the wind, and only a few pale ones left, quite perfect. Here you observe they grow somber with a tinge of purple. That means pain and gloom, and there is where I was when I came here. Now they turn from those sat colors to crimson, rose, and soft pink. That's the happiness and health I found here. You and your dear mother planted them, and you see how strong and bright they are. She lifted up her hand, and gathering one of the great rosy cups offered it to him, as if it were brimful of the thanks she could not utter. He comprehended, took it with a quiet thank you, and stood looking at it for a moment, as if her little compliment pleased him very much. To these, he said presently, pointing to the delicate violet bells that grew next to crimson ones. The color deepened a shade in Christie's cheek, but she went on with no other sign of shyness, for with David she always spoke out frankly, because she could not help it. Those mean love to me, not passion. The deep red ones half hidden under the leaves mean that. My violet flowers are the best and purest love we can know. The sort that makes life beautiful and lasts forever. The white ones that come next are tinged with that soft color here and there, and they mean holiness. I know there will be love in heaven, so whether I ever find it here or not, I am sure I shall not miss it wholly. Then, as if glad to leave the theme that never can be touched without reverent emotion by a true woman, she added, looking up to where a few spotless blossoms shone like silver in the light. Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I cannot reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead. Remember that frost comes latest to those that bloom the highest, and keep my beautiful white flowers as long as I can. The mush is ready, come to breakfast, children, called Mrs. Sterling, as she crossed the hall with a teapot in her hand. When Mrs. Sterling's face fell, then she exclaimed, laughing, That's always the way. I never take a poetic flight, but in comes the mush and spoils it all. Not a bit, and that's where women are mistaken. Souls and bodies should go on together, and you will find that a hearty breakfast won't spoil the little hymn the morning glories sung. And David set her a good example by eating two bowls of hasty pudding and milk with the lovely flour in his buttonhole. Now what are we to do next? asked Christie, when the usual morning work was finished. In about ten minutes, thee will see, I think, answered Mrs. Sterling, glancing at the clock and smiling at the bright, expectant look in the younger woman's eyes. She did see, for in less than ten minutes the rumble of an omnibus was heard, a sound of many voices, and then the whole Wilkins brood came whooping down the lane. It was good to see Ma Wilkins jog ponderously after in full state and festival array. Her bonnet trembling with bows, red roses all over her gown, and a parasol of uncommon brilliancy brandished joyfully in her hand. It was better still to see her hug Christie when the latter emerged, fleshed and breathless, from the chaos of arms, legs, and chubby faces in which she was lost for several tumultuous moments. It was best of all to see the good woman place her cherished bonnet in the middle of the parlor table as a choice and lovely ornament, administer the family pocket handkerchief all round, and then settle down with a hearty. Well, now, Miss Sterling, you've no idea how ticked we all was when Mr. David came and told us you was going to have a galley here today. It was so kind of providential, for Leisha was invited out to a day's pleasure, and so I could leave just as well as not. The children's been hankering to come the worst kind, and go plummin' as they did last month, though I told them berries was gone weeks ago. I really thought I'd never get them here whole. They trained so on that bus. Wash would go on the step and kept falling off. Gusty's hat blew out a window. Them two bad boys tumbled round loose, and dear little victory sit like a lady. Only I found she got both feet in the basket right atop of the birthday cake. I made a purpose for Christy. It hasn't hurt it a bit. There was a cloth over it, and I like it all the better for the marks of Toddy's little feet, bless him. And Christy cuddled the culprit with one hand while she revealed the damaged delicacy with the other, wondering inwardly what evil star was always in the ascendant when Mrs. Wilkins made cake. Now, my dear, you just go and have a good frolic with them children. I'm a-going to get dinner, and you a-going to play. So we don't want to see no more of you till the bell rings," said Mrs. Wilkins, pinning up her gown and shooing her brood out of the room, which they entirely filled. Catching up her hat, Christy obeyed, feeling as much like a child as any of the excited six. The revels that followed no pen can justly record, for goss and vandals on the rampage, but feebly describes the youthful Wilkinsons, when their spirits effervesced after months bottling up in close home quarters. David locked the greenhouse door the instant he saw them, and pervaded the premises, generally like a most affable but very watchful policeman, for the ravages those innocents committed much afflicted him. Yet he never had the heart to say a word of reproof when he saw their raptures over dandy lions, the relish with which they devoured fruit, and the good it did the little souls and bodies to enjoy unlimited liberty, green grass, and country air, even for a day. Christy usually got them into the big meadow as soon as possible, and there let them gamble at will, while she sat on the broken ball of an apple tree, and watched her flock like an old-fashioned shepherdess. Today she did so, and when the children were happily sailing boats, tearing to and fro like wild cults, or discovering the rustic treasure's nurse nature lays ready to gliden little hearts and hands. Christy sat idly making a garland of green breaks, and ready shumok leaves ripened before the early frost had come. David saw her there, and feeling that he might come off guard for a time, went strolling down to lean upon the wall, and chatted in the friendly fashion that had naturally grown up between these fellow-workers. She was waiting for the new supply of ferns little Adelaide was getting for her by the wall, and while she waited, she sat resting her cheek upon her hand, and smiling to herself, as if she saw some pleasant picture in the green grass at her feet. Now I wonder what she's thinking about, said David's voice close by, and Christy straight away answered, Philip Fletcher, and who is he, asked David, settling his elbow in a comfortable niche between the mossy stones, so that he could lean and loathe at his ease. The brother of the lady whose children I took care of, and Christy wished she had thought before she answered that first question, for in telling her adventures at different times, she had omitted all mention of this gentleman. Tell about him, as the children say, your experiences are always interesting, and you look as if this man was uncommonly entertaining in some way, said David, indolently inclined to be amused. Oh, dear, no, not at all entertaining, invalid seldom are, and he was sick and lazy, conceited and very cross sometimes. Christy's heart rather smote her as she said this, remembering the last look poor Fletcher gave her. A nice man, to be sure, but I don't see anything to smile about, persisted David, who liked reasons for things, a masculine trait often very trying to feminine minds. I was thinking of a little quarrel we once had. He found out that I had been an actress, for I basically did not mention that fact when I took the place, and so got properly punished for my deceit. I thought he'd tell his sister, of course, so I did it myself, and retired from the situation as much disgusted with Christy Devon as you are. Perhaps I ought to be, but I don't find that I am. Do you know I think that old Fletcher was a sneak? And David looked as if he would rather like to mention his opinion to that gentleman. He probably thought he was doing his duty to the children. Few people would approve of an actress for a teacher, you know. She had seen me play, and remembered it all of a sudden, and told me of it. That was the way it came about," said Christy hastily, feeling that she must get out of the scrape as soon as possible, or she would be driven to tell everything injustice to Mr. Fletcher. I should like to see you act. You a quaker, and express such a worldly and dreadful wish," cried Christy, much amused and very grateful that his thought had taken a new direction. I'm not, and never have been. Mother married out of the sect, and though she keeps many of her old ways, always left me free to believe what I choose. I wear drab because I like it, and say thee to her because she likes it, and it is pleasant to have a little word all our own. I've been to theatres, but I don't care much for them. Perhaps I should if I'd had Fletcher's luck in seeing you play. You didn't lose much. I was not a good actress. Though now and then, when I liked my part, I did pretty well, they said, answered Christy modestly. Why didn't you go back after the accident? Asked David, who had heard that part of the story. I felt that it was bad for me, and so retired to private life. Do you ever regret it? Sometimes, when the restless fit is on me, but not so often now as I used to do, for on the whole I'd rather be a woman than act a queen. Good, said David, and then added persuasively. But you will play for me some time, won't you? I have a curious desire to see you do it. Perhaps I'll try, replied Christy, flattered by his interest, and not unwilling to display her little talent. Who are you making that for? It's very pretty, asked David, who seemed to be in an inquiring frame of mind that day. Anyone who wants it, I only do it for the pleasure. I always liked pretty things, but since I have lived among flowers and natural people, I seem to care more than ever for beauty of all kinds, and love to make it if I can without stopping for any reason but the satisfaction. Tell them, dear, that if eyes were made for seeing, then beauty is its own excuse for being. Observed David, who had a weakness for poetry, and finding she liked his sort, quoted to Christy almost as freely as to himself. Exactly. So look at that and enjoy it. And she pointed to the child, standing knee-deep in graceful ferns, looking as if she grew there, a living buttercup with her buff frock off at one plump shoulder and her bright hair shining in the sun. Before David could express his admiration, the little picture was spoiled, for Christy called out, come, Vic, bring me some more prettys, startling babies so that she lost her balance and disappeared with a muffled cry, leaving nothing to be seen but a pair of small convulsive shoes, souls uppermost among the breaks. David took a leap, reversed Vic, and then let her compose her little feelings by sticking bits of green in all the button holes of his coat, as he sat on the wall while she stood beside him in the safe shelter of his arm. You are very like an Englishman, said Christy, after watching the pair for a few minutes. How do you know? asked David, looking surprised. There were several in our company, and I found them very much alike, blunt and honest, domestic and kind. Hard to get at, but true as steel one once one. Not so brilliant and original as Americans, perhaps, but more solid and steadfast. On the whole, I think them the manliest men in the world," answered Christy, in the decided way young people have of expressing their opinions. You speak as if you had known and studied a great variety of men, said David, feeling that he need not resent the comparison she had made. I have, and it has done me good. Women who stand alone in the world and have their own way to make have a better chance to know men truly than those who sit safe at home and only see one side of mankind. We lose something, but I think we gain a great deal that is more valuable than admiration, flattery, and the superficial service most men give to our sex. Someone says, companionship teaches men and women to know, judge, and treat one another justly. I believe it, for we who are compelled to be fellow workers with men understand and value them more truly than many a belle who has a dozen lovers sighing at her feet. I see their faults and follies, but I also see so much to honor, love, and trust that I feel as if the world was full of brothers. Yes, as a general rule, men have been kinder to me than women, and if I wanted a staunch friend, I'd choose a man, for they wear better than women who ask too much and cannot see that friendship last longer if a little respect and reserve go with the love and confidence. Christie had spoken soberly, with no thought to flattery or effect, for the memory of many kindnesses bestowed on her by many men from rough Joe Butterfield to Mr. Power gave warmth and emphasis to her words. The man sitting on the wall appreciated the compliment to his sex, and proved that he deserved his share of it by taking it exactly as she meant it, and saying heartily, I like that, Christie, and wish more women thought and spoke as you do. If they had had my experience they would, and not be ashamed of it. I am so old now I can say these things and not be misjudged, for even some sensible people think this honest sort of fellowship impossible if not improper. I don't, and I never shall, so if I can ever do anything for you, David, forget that I am a woman and tell me as freely as if I was a younger brother. I wish you were. So do I, you'd make a splendid elder brother. No, a very bad one. There was a sudden sharpness in David's voice that jarred on Christie's ear, and made her look up quickly. She only caught a glimpse of his face, and saw that it was strangely troubled, as he swung himself over the wall with little vick on his arm and went toward the house, saying abruptly, baby sleepy, she must go in. Christie sat some time longer, wondering what she had said to disturb him, and when the bell rang went instill perplexed. But David looked as usual, and the only trace of disquiet was an occasional hasty shaking back of the troublesome lock and the slight knitting of the brows, two tokens as she had learned to know of impatience or pain. She was soon so absorbed in feeding the children hungry and clamorous as young birds for their food, that she forgot everything else. When dinner was done and cleared away, she devoted herself to Mrs. Wilkins for an hour or two. While Mrs. Sterling took her nap, the infants played riotously in the lane, and David was busy with orders. The arrival of Mr. Power drew everyone to the porch to welcome him. As he handed Christie a book, he asked with a significant smile. Have you found him yet? She glanced at the title of the new gift, read Heroes and Hero Worship, and answered merely, No, sir, but I'm looking hard. Success to your search! And Mr. Power turned to greet David, who approached. Now, what shall we play? asked Christie, as the children gathered about her demanding to be amused. George Washington suggested leapfrog, and the others added equally impracticable requests, but Mrs. Wilkins settled the matter by saying, Let's have some play-acting, Christie. That used to tickle the children amazingly, and I was never tired of hearing them pieces, especially the solemn ones. Yes, yes, do the funny girl with the baby, and the old woman, and the lady that took prison and had fits, shouted the children, charmed with the idea. Christie felt ready for anything just then, and gave them tilly slow-boy, Miss Miggs, and Mrs. Gummage, in her best style, while the young folks rolled on the grass in ecstasies, and Mrs. Wilkins laughed till she cried. Now a touch of tragedy, said Mr. Power, who sat under the elm, with David leaning on the back of his chair, both applauding heartily. You insatiable people, do you expect me to give you low comedy and heavy tragedy all alone? I'm equal to melodram, I think, and I'll give you Miss St. Clair as Juliet if you wait a moment. Christie stepped into the house, and soon reappeared with a white tablecloth draped about her, two disheveled locks of hair on her shoulders, and the vinegar-cruet in her hand, that being the first bottle she could find. She meant to burlesque the poison scene, and began in the usual ranting way, but she soon forgot St. Clair in poor Juliet, and did it as she had often longed to do it, with all the power and passion she possessed. Very faulty was her rendering, but the earnestness she put into it made it most effective to her uncritical audience, who brought down the house when she fell upon the grass with her best stage-drop, and lay there, getting her breath after the mouthful of vinegar she had taken in the excitement of the moment. She was up again directly, and inspired by this superb success, ran in and presently reappeared as Lady Macbeth with Mrs. Wilkins' Scarlet Shaw for royal robes, and the leafy chaplet of the morning for a crown. She took the stage with some difficulty, for the unevenness of the turf impaired the majesty of her tragic stride, and fixing her eyes on an invisible thane who cut his part shamefully and spoke in the gruffest of gruff voices. He gave them the dagger scene. David, as the orchestra, had been performing a drum solo on the back of a chair with two of the corn cobs Victoria had been building houses with. But when Lady Macbeth said, Give me the daggers, Christie plucked the cobs suddenly from his hands, looking so fiercely scornful, and lowering upon him so wrathfully with her court-brows that he ejaculated an involuntary, bless me, as he stepped back quite daunted. Being in the spirit of her part, Christie closed with a sleepwalking scene, using the tablecloth again, while a towel composed the tragic nightcap of her ladyship. This was an imitation, and having a fine model and being a good mimic, she did well. For the children sat staring with round eyes, the gentlemen watched the woeful face and gestures intently, and Mrs. Wilkins took a long breath at the end, exclaiming, I never did see the beat of that for gasliness. My sister Clarissa used to walk in her sleep, but she weren't half so kind of dreadful. If she had had the murder of a few friends on her conscience, I dare say she would have been, said Christie, going in to make herself tidy. Whoa! How do you like her as an actress? asked Mr. Power of David, who stood looking as if he still saw and heard the haunted lady. Very much, but better as a woman. I had no idea she had it in her, answered David in a wonder-stricken tone. Plenty of tragedy and comedy in all of us, began Mr. Power, but David said hastily, Yes, but few of us have passion and imagination enough to act Shakespeare in that way. Very true. Christie herself could not give a whole character in that art style, and would not think of trying. I think she could, and I'd like to see her try it, said David, much impressed by the dramatic ability which Christie's usual quietude had most effectually hidden. He was still thinking about it when she came out again. Mr. Power beckoned to her, saying as she came and stood before him, flushed and kindled with her efforts. Now you must give me a bit from the Merchant of Venice. The Merchant is a favorite character of mine, and I want to see if you can do anything with it. No, sir, I cannot. I used to study it, but it was too sober to suit me. I am not a judicial woman, so I gave it up, answered Christie, much flattered by his request, and amused at the respectful way in which David looked at her. Then, as if it just occurred to her, she added, I remember one little speech that I can say to you, sir, with great truth, and I will, since you like that play. Still standing before him, she bent her head a little, and with a graceful gesture of the hands, as if offering something, she delivered with heartfelt emphasis the first part of Portia's pretty speech to her fortunate suitor. You see me, Lord Bacinio, where I stand, such as I am. Though for myself alone I would not be ambitious in my wish to wish myself much better, yet for you I would be troubled twenty times myself, a thousand times more fair, ten thousand times more rich, that only to stand high in your account I might in virtues, beauties, livings, friends, exceed account. But the full sum of me is sum of something which to term engross is an unlessened girl, unschooled, unpracticed, happy in this she is not yet so old, but she may learn. Happier than this, she is not bred so dull, but she can learn. Happiest of all is that her willing spirit commits itself to yours to be directed, as from her Lord, her Governor, her King. David applauded vigorously, but Mr. Power rose silently, looking both touched and surprised, and drawing Christie's hand through his arm, led her away into the garden for one of the quiet talks that was so much to her. When they returned, the Wilkonses were preparing to depart, and after repeated leave-takings, finally got under way, were packed into the omnibus, and rumbled off with hats, hands, and handkerchiefs waving from every window. Mr. Power soon followed, and peace returned to the little house in the lane. Here in the evening, when Mrs. Sterling was engaged with a neighbor, who had come to confide some affliction to the good lady, Christie went into the porch, and found David sitting on the step, enjoying the mellow moonlight in the balmy air. As he did not speak, she sat down silently, folded her hands in her lap, and began to enjoy the beauty of the night in her own way. Presently, she became conscious that David's eyes had turned from the moon to her own face. He sat in the shade, she in the light, and he was looking at her with the new expression which amused her. "'Well, what is it? You look as if you never saw me before,' she said, smiling. "'I feel as if I never had,' he answered, still regarding her as if she had been a picture. "'What do I look like?' "'A peaceful, pious nun just now.' "'Oh! That is owing to my pretty shawl. I put it on in honor of the day, though it is a trifle warm, I confess.' And Christie stroked the soft folds about her shoulders, and settled the corner that lay lightly on her hair. "'I do feel peaceful to-night, but not pious. I am afraid I never shall do that,' she added soberly. "'Why not?' "'Well, it does not seem to be my nature, and I don't know how to change it. I want something to keep me steady, but I can't find it. So I wiffle about this way and that, and sometimes think I am a most degenerate creature.' "'That is only human nature, so don't be troubled. We are all compasses pointing due north. We get shaken often, and the needle varies in spite of us. But the minute we are quiet, it points right, and we have only to follow it.' "'The keeping quiet is just what I cannot do. Your mother shows me how lovely it is, and I try to imitate it. But this restless soul of mine will ask questions and doubt and fear, and worry me in many ways. What shall I do to keep it still?' Asked Christie, smiling, yet earnest. "'Let it alone. You cannot force these things, and the best way is to wait till the attraction is strong enough to keep the needle steady. Some people get their ballast slowly. Some don't need much, and some have to work hard for theirs.' "'Did you?' asked Christie, for David's voice fell a little, as he uttered the last words. "'I have not got much yet.' "'I think you have. Why, David, you are always cheerful and contented, good and generous. If that is not true piety, what is?' "'You are very much deceived, and I am sorry for it,' said David, with the impatient gesture of the head and a troubled look.' "'Prove it!' And Christie looked at him with such sincere respect and regard that his honest nature would not let him accept it, though it gratified him much. He made no answer for a minute. Then he said slowly, as if feeling a modest man's hesitation to speak of himself, yet urged to it by some irresistible impulse. "'I will prove it, if you won't mind the unavoidable egotism. For I cannot let you think me so much better than I am. Outwardly I seem to you cheerful, contented, generous, and good. In reality I am sad, dissatisfied, bad, and selfish. See if I am not. I often tire of this quiet life, hate my work, and long to break away, and follow my own wild and willful impulses, no matter where they lead. Nothing keeps me at such times, but my mother and God's patience.' David began quietly, but the latter part of his confession was made with a sudden impetuosity that startled Christie, so utterly unlike his usual self-control was it. She could only look at him with the surprise she felt. His face was in the shadow, but she saw that it was flushed, his eyes excited, and in his voice she heard an undertone that made it sternly self-accusing. "'I am not a hypocrite,' he went on rapidly, as if driven to speak in spite of himself. "'I try to be what I seem, but it is too hard sometimes, and I despair. Especially hard is it to feel that I have learned to feign happiness so well that others are entirely deceived. Mr. Power and Mother know me as I am. Other friends I have not, unless you will let me call you one. Whether you do or not after this I respect you too much to let you delude yourself about my virtues, so I tell you the truth and abide to the consequences.' He looked up at her as he paused, with a curious mixture of pride and humility in his face, and squared his broad shoulders as if he had thrown off a burden that had much oppressed him. Christie offered him her hand, saying in a tone that did his heart good. "'The consequences are that I respect, admire, and trust you more than ever, and feel proud to be your friend.' David gave the hand a strong and grateful pressure, said, "'Thank you,' in a moved tone, and then leaned back into the shadow, as if trying to recover from this unusual burst of confidence, one from him by the soft magic of time, place, and companionship. Fearing he would regret the glimpse he had given her, and anxious to show how much she liked it, Christie talked on to give him time to regain composure. "'I always thought in reading the lives of saints or good men of any time, that their struggles were the most interesting and helpful things recorded. Human imperfection only seems to make real piety more possible, and to me more beautiful. For where others have conquered, I can conquer, having suffered as they suffer, and seen their hard-won success. That is the sort of religion I want. Something to hold by, live in, and enjoy, if I can only get it.' "'I know you will,' he said it heartily, and seemed quite calm again. So Christie obeyed the instinct, which told her that questions would be good for David, and that he was in the mood for answering them. "'May I ask you something?' She began a little timidly. "'Anything, Christie,' he answered instantly. "'That is a rash promise. I am a woman, and therefore curious. What shall you do if I take advantage of the privilege?' "'Try and see.' "'I will be discreet, and only ask one thing,' she replied, charmed with her success. "'You said just now that you had learned to feign happiness. I wish you would tell me how to do it, for it is such an excellent imitation, and shall be quite content with it till I can learn the genuine thing.' David fingered the troublesome forelock thoughtfully for a moment, then said, with something of the former impetuosity coming back into his voice and manner. "'I will tell you all about it. That's the best way. I know I shall someday, because I can't help it, so I may as well have done with it now, since I had begun. "'It is not interesting, mind you. Only a grim little history of one man's fight with the world, the flesh and the devil. Will you have it?' "'Oh, yes,' answered Christie, so eagerly that David laughed, in spite of the bitter memories stirring at his heart. "'So like a woman. Oh, was ready to hear and forgive sinners,' he said, then took a long breath and added rapidly. "'I'll put it in as few words as possible, and much good may it do you. Some years ago I was desperately miserable. Never mind why. I daresay I shall tell you all about it someday, if I go on at this rate. Well, being miserable as I say, everything looked black and bad to me. I hated all men, distressed at all women, doubted the existence of God, and was a forlorn wretch generally. Why, I did not go to the devil, I can't say. I did start once or twice, but the thought of that dear old woman in there sitting all alone and waiting for me dragged me back, and kept me here till the first recklessness was over. People talk about duty being sweet. I have not found it so, but there it was. I should have been a brute to shirk it, so I took it up, and held on desperately till it grew bearable. "'It has grown sweet now, David, I am sure,' said Christie very low. "'No, not yet,' he answered, with the stern honesty that would not let him deceive himself or others, cost what it might to be true. There is a certain solid satisfaction in it that I did not use to find. It is not a mere dogged persistence now, as it once was, and that is a step towards loving it, perhaps.' He spoke half to himself, and sat leaning his head on both hands, propped on his knees, looking down as if the weight of the old trouble bent his shoulders again. "'What more, David?' said Christie. Only this. When I found I had got to live, and live manfully, I said to myself, I must have help, or I cannot do it. To no living soul could I tell my grief, not even to my mother, for she had her own to bear. No human being could help me, yet I must have help or give up shamefully. Then I did what others do when all else fails to sustain them. I turned to God, not humbly, not devoutly, or trustfully, but doubtfully, bitterly, and rebelliously. For I said in my despairing heart, if there is a God, let him help me, and I will believe. He did help me, and I kept my word.' "'Oh, David, how!' whispered Christie, after a moment's silence, for the last words were solemn in their earnestness. The help did not come at once. No miracle answered me, and I thought my cry had not been heard. But it had, and slowly something like submission came to me. It was not cheerful nor pious. It was only a dumb, sad sort of patience, without hope or faith. It was better than desperation, so I accepted it, and bore the inevitable as well as I could. Presently, courage seemed to spring up again. I was ashamed to be beaten in the first battle, and some sort of blind instinct made me long to break away from the past and begin again. My father was dead. Mother left all to me, and followed where I led. I sold the old place, bought this, and shutting out the world as much as I could, I felt to work as if my life depended on it. That was five or six years ago. And for a long time I delved away without interest or pleasure, merely as a safety valve for my energies, and a means of living, for I gave up all my earlier hopes and plans when the trouble came. I did not love my work, but it was good for me, and helped cure my sick soul. I never guessed why I felt better, but dug on with indifference first, then felt pride in my garden, then interest in the plans I tended, and by and by I saw what they had done for me, and loved them like true friends. A broad wood-bind leaf had been fluttering against David's head, as he leaned on the slender pillar of the porch where it grew. Now, as if involuntarily, he laid his cheek against it with a caressing gesture, and sat looking over the garden, lying dewy and still in the moonlight, with the grateful look of a man who has learned the healing miracles of nature, and how near she is to God. Mr. Power helped you, didn't he? said Christie, longing to hear more. So much! I never can tell you what he was to me, nor how I thank him. To him, and to my work, I owe the little I have won in the way of strength and comfort after years of effort. I see now the compensation that comes out of trouble, the lovely possibilities that exist for all of us, and the infinite patience of God, which is to me one of the greatest of his divine attributes. I have only got so far that things grow easier as one goes on, and if I keep tugging I may yet be the cheerful, contented man I seem. That is all, Christie, and a longer story than I meant to tell. Not long enough. Sometimes you will tell me more, perhaps, since you have once begun. It seems quite natural now, and I am so pleased and honored by your confidence. But I cannot help wondering what made you do it all at once, said Christie presently, after they had listened to a whipperwell and watched the flight of a downy owl. I do not think I quite know myself, unless it was because I have been on my good behavior since you came, and being a humbug, as I tell you, was forced to unmask in spite of myself. There are limits to human endurance, and the proudest man longs to unpack his woes before sympathizing friends now and then. I have been longing to do this for some time, but I never like to disturb mother's peace or take Mr. Power from those who need him more. So today, when you so sweetly offered to help me if you could, it quite went to my heart and seemed so friendly and comfortable. I could not resist trying it tonight when you began about my imaginary virtues. That is the truth, I believe. Now, what shall we do about it? Just go on and do it again whenever you feel like it. I know what loneliness is, and how telling worries often cures them. I meant every word I said this morning, and will prove it by doing anything in the world I can for you. Believe this and let me be your friend. They had risen, as a stir within them told the guest was going, and as Christie spoke, she was looking up with the moonlight full upon her face. If there had been any hidden purpose in her mind, any false sentiment or trace of coquetry in her manner, it would have spoiled that hearty little speech of hers. But in her heart was nothing but a sincere desire to prove gratitude and offer sympathy. In her manner the gentle frankness of a woman speaking to a brother, and in her face the earnestness of one who felt the value of friendship, and did not ask or give it lightly. I will, was David's emphatic answer, and then, as if to seal the bargain, he stooped down and gravely kissed her on the forehead. Christie was a little startled, but neither offended nor confused, for there was no love in that quiet kiss, only respect, affection, and much gratitude. An involuntary demonstration from the lonely man to the true hearted woman who had dared to come and comfort him. Out trotted neighbor Miller, and that was the end of confidences in the porch. But David played melodiously on his flute that night, and Christie fell asleep saying happily to herself. Now we are all right, friends forever, and everything will go beautifully. CHAPTER XIII. WAKING UP. WAKING did go beautifully for a time. So much so that Christie began to think she really had got religion. A delightful peace pervaded her soul. A new interest made the dullest task agreeable. And life grew so inexpressibly sweet that she felt as if she could forgive all her enemies, love her friends more than ever, and do anything great, good, or glorious. She had known such moods before, but they had never lasted long, and were not so intense as this. Therefore she was sure some blessed power had come to uphold and cheer her. She sang like a lark as she swept and dusted, thought high and happy thoughts among the pots and kettles. And when she sat sewing, smiled unconsciously, as if some deep satisfaction made sunshine from within. Hyatton's soul seemed to wake up and rejoice as naturally and beautifully as flowers in the spring. A soft brightness shone in her eyes. A fuller tone sounded in her voice. And her face grew young and blooming with the happiness that transfigures all it touches. Christie's growing handsome. David would say to his mother, as if she was a flower in which he took pride. Thee is a good gardener, Davy. The old lady would reply. And when he was busy would watch him with a tender sort of anxiety, as if to discover a like change in him. But no alteration appeared, except more cheerfulness and less silence. For now there was no need to hide his real self. And all the social virtues in him came out delightfully, after their long solitude. In her present uplifted state Christie could no more help regarding David as a martyr and admiring him for it than she could help mixing sentiment with her sympathy. By the light of the late confessions his life and character looked very different to her now. His apparent contentment was resignation. His cheerfulness a manly contempt for complaint. His reserve, the modest reticence of one who, having done a high duty well, desires no praise for it. Like all enthusiastic persons Christie had a high-ty admiration for self-sacrifice and self-control. And while she learned to see David's virtues she also exaggerated them, and could not do enough to show the daily increasing esteem and respect she felt for him, and to atone for the injustice she once did him. She grubbed in the garden and greenhouse, and learned hired botanical names that she might be able to talk intelligently upon subjects that interested her comrade. Then, as Autumn ended out-of-door work, she tried to make home more comfortable and attractive than ever. David's room was her a special care. For now to her there was something pathetic in the place, and its poor furnishing. He had fought many a silent battle there, one many a secret victory, and tried to cheer his solitude with the best thoughts the minds of the bravest, wisest men could give him. She did not smile at the dilapidated idols now, but touched them tenderly, and let no dust obscure their well-beloved faces. She set the books in order daily, taking many a sip of refreshment from them by the way, and respectfully regarded those in unknown tongues, full of admiration for David's learning. She covered the erupt of sofa neatly, saw that the little vase was always clear and freshly filled, cared for the nursery and the gable-window, and preserved an exquisite neatness everywhere, which delighted the soul of the room's order-loving occupant. She also, alas, for romance, cooked the dishes David loved, and liked to see him enjoy them with the appetite which once had shocked her so. She watched over his buttons, with a vigilance that would have softened the height of the crustiest bachelor. She even gave herself the complexion of a lemon by wearing blue, because David liked the pretty contrast with his mother's drabs. After recording that last fact, it is unnecessary to explain what was the matter with Christie. She honestly thought she had got religion. But it was Piety's twin sister, who produced this wonderful revival in her soul. And though she began in all good faith, she presently discovered that she was, in quotes, not the first maiden who came but for friendship, and took away love. After the birth-night confessions, David found it easier to go on with the humdrum life he had chosen from a sense of duty. For now he felt as if he had not only a fellow worker, but a comrade and friend who understood, sympathized with, and encouraged him by an interest in goodwill and expressively comfortable and inspiring. Nothing disturbed the charm of the new league in those early days. For Christie was thoroughly simple and sincere, and did her womanly work with no thought of reward or love or admiration. David saw this, and felt it more attractive than any gift of beauty or fascination of manner would have been. He had no desire to be a lover, having forbidden himself that hope. But he found it so easy and pleasant to be a friend that he reproached himself for not trying it before, and explained his neglect by the fact that Christie was not an ordinary woman, since none of all the many he had known and helped had ever been anything to him but objects of pity and protection. Mrs. Sterling saw these changes with her wise, motherly eyes, but said nothing. For she influenced others by the silent power of character. Speaking little, and unusually gifted with the meditative habits of age, she seemed to live in a more peaceful world than this. As George McDonald somewhere says, her soul seemed to sit apart in a sunny little room, safe from dust and noise, serenely regarding passers-by through the clear muslin curtains of her window. Yet she was neither cold nor careless, stern or selfish, but ready to share all the joys and sorrows of those about her. And when advice was asked, she gave it gladly. Christie had won her heart long ago, and now was as devoted as a daughter to her, lightening her cares so skillfully, that many of them slipped naturally onto the young shoulders, and left the old lady much time for rest, or the lighter tasks fitted for feeble hands. Christie often called her a mother, and felt herself rewarded for the hardest, humblest job she ever did, when the sweet old voice said gratefully, I thank thee, daughter. Things were in this prosperous, not to say paradisiacal, state, when one member of the family began to make discoveries of an alarming nature. The first was that the Sunday pilgrimages to church were seasons of great refreshment to soul and body when David went also, and utter failures if he did not. Next, that the restless ambitions of all sorts were quite gone. For now Christie's missions seemed to be sitting in a quiet corner and making shirts in the most exquisite manner, while thinking about, well, say, botany, or any kindred subject. Thirdly, that home was woman's sphere after all, and the perfect roosting of beef, brewing of tea, and concocting of delectable puddings, an end worth living for if masculine commendation rewarded the labour. Fourthly, and worst of all, she discovered that she was not satisfied with half confidences, and quite pined to know all about David's trouble. The little needle-book with the faded letty on it haunted her. And when, after a pleasant evening below, she heard him pace his room for hours, or play melancholy airs upon the flute, she was jealous of that unknown woman who had such power to disturb his peace, and felt a strong desire to smash the musical confidant into whose response of breast he poured his woe. At this point Christie paused, and, after evading any explanation of these phenomena in the most skillful manner for a time, suddenly faced the fact, saying to herself with great candour and decision, I know what all this means. I'm beginning to like David more than is good for me. I see this clearly, and won't dodge any longer, but put a stop to it at once. Of course I can, if I choose, and now is the time to do it, for I understand myself perfectly, and if I reach a certain point it is all over with me. That point I will not reach. David's heart is in that letty's grave, and he only cares for me as a friend. I promise to be one to him, and I'll keep my word like an honest woman. It may not be easy, but all the sacrifices shall not be his, and I won't be a fool. With praiseworthy resolution Christie said about the Reformation without delay, not an easy task, and won the tax to all her wit and wisdom to execute without betraying the motive for it. She decided that Mrs. Sterling must not be left alone on Sunday, so the young people took turns to go to church, and such dismal trips Christie had never known. For all her Sundays were bad weather, and Mr. Power seemed to hit on unusually uninteresting texts. She talked while she sowed, instead of indulging in dangerous thoughts, and Mrs. Sterling was surprised and entertained by this new locosity. In the evening she read and studied with a diligence that amazed and rather disgusted David, since she kept all her lively chat for his mother, and poured over her books when he wanted her for other things. I'm trying to brighten up my wits, she said, and went on trying to stifle her affections. But though the absurdity, as she called the New Revelation, was stopped externally, it continued with redoubled vigor internally. Each night, she said, this must be conquered, yet each morning it rose fair and strong to make the light and beauty of her day and conquer her again. She did her best and bravest, but was forced at last to own that she could not put a stop to it, because she had already reached the point where it was all over with her. Just at this critical moment an event occurred which completed Christie's defeat, and made her feel that her only safety lay in flight. One evening she sat studying ferns and heroically saying over and over, andiantum, aspidium, andasplenium, trichomenes, while longing to go and talk delightfully to David, who sat musing by the fire. I can't go on so much longer, she thought despairingly. Polypodium orium, a native of Florida, is all very interesting in its place, but it doesn't help me to gain self-control a bit, and I shall disgrace myself if something doesn't happen very soon. Something did happen almost instantly, for as she shut the cover sharply on the poor polypods. A knock was heard, and before David could answer the door flew open and a girl ran in. Straight to him she went, and clinging to his arm said excitedly, Oh, do take care of me! I've run away again! Why, kitty, what's the matter now? asked David, putting back her hood and looking down at her with the paternal expression Christy had not seen for a long time, and missed very much. Father found me and took me home, and wanted me to marry a dreadful man, and I wouldn't so I ran away to you. He didn't know I came here before, and I'm safe of you'll let me stay, cried kitty, still clinging and imploring. Of course I will, and glad to see you back again. Answered David, adding pitifully as he put her in his easy chair, took her cloak and hood off and stood stroking her curly hair. Poor little girl! It is hard to have to run away so much, isn't it? Not if I come here! So pleasant I'd like to stay all my life! And kitty took a long breath, as if her troubles were over now. Who's that? she asked suddenly, as her eye fell on Christy, who sat watching her with interest. That is our good friend Miss Devon. She came to take your place, and we got so fond of her we could not let her go. Answered David with a gesture of introduction. Quite unconscious that his position just then was about as safe and pleasant as that of a man between a lighted candle and an open powder barrel. The two young women nodded to each other, took a swift survey, and made up their minds before David had poked the fire. Christy saw a pretty face, with rosy cheeks, blue eyes, and brown rings of hair lying on the smooth lower forehead. A young face, but not childlike, for it was conscious of its own prettiness, and betrayed the fact by little heirs and graces that reminded one of a coquettish kitten. Short and slender, she looked more youthful than she was. While a gay dress with gilt earrings, locket at the throat, and a cherry ribbon in her hair, made her a bright little figure in that plain room. Christy suddenly felt as if ten years had been added to her age, as she eyed the newcomer, who leaned back in the great chair talking to David, who stood on the rug, evidently finding it pleasanter to look at the vivacious face before him than at the fire. Just the pretty, lively sort-of-girls-sensible men often marry, and then discover how silly they are. Thought Christy, taking up her work and assuming an indifferent air. She's a lady and nice-looking, but I know I shan't like her, was Kitty's decision, as she turned away and devoted herself to David, hoping he would perceive how much she had improved and admire her accordingly. So you don't want to marry the smiles, because he is not handsome. You'd better think again before you make up your mind. He is respectable, well-off, and fond of you, it seems. Why not try it, Kitty? You need someone to take care of you, sadly, David said, when her story had been told. If father plagues me much, I may take the man. But I'd rather have the other one if he wasn't poor, answered Kitty, with a side-long glance of the blue eyes, and a conscious smile on the red lips. Oh, there's another lover, is there? Lots of them! David laughed and looked at Christy, as if inviting her to be amused with the freaks and prattle of a child. But Christy sowed away without a sign of interest. That won't do, Kitty. You are too young for much of such nonsense. I shall keep you here awhile, and see if we can't settle matters both wisely and pleasantly, he said, shaking his head as sagely as a grandfather. I'm sure I wish you would. I love to stay here. You are always so good to me. I'm in no hurry to be married. And you won't make me, will you? Kitty rose as she spoke, and stood before him with a beseeching little gesture, and a confiding air quite captivating to behold. Christy was suddenly seized with a strong desire to shake the girl and call her an artful little hussy, but crushed this unaccountable impulse, and hemmed a pocket handkerchief with reckless rapidity, while she stole covert glances at the tableau by the fire. David put his finger under Kitty's round chin, and lifting her face, looked into it, trying to discover if she really cared for this suitor, who seemed so providentially provided for her. Kitty smiled and blushed, and dimpled under that grave look so prettily, that it soon changed. And David let her go, saying indulgently, You shall not be troubled, for you're only a child after all. Let the lovers go, and stay and play with me, for I've been rather lonely lately. That's a reproach for me, thought Christy, longing to cry out. No, no! Send the girl away, and let me be all and all to you. But she only turned up the lamp, and pretended to be looking for a spool, while her heart ached, and her eyes were too dim for seeing. I'm too old to play, but I'll stay and tease you as I used to, if miles don't come and carry me off, as he said he would, answered Kitty, with a toss of the head which showed she was not so childlike as David fancied. But the next minute she was sitting on a stool at his feet, petting the cat. While she told her adventures with girlish volubility, Christy could not bear to sit and look on any longer. So she left the room, saying she would see if Mrs. Sterling wanted anything. For the old lady kept her room with a touch of rheumatism. As she shut the door, Christy heard Kitty say softly, Now, we'll be comfortable as we used to be, won't we? What David answered Christy did not stay to hear, but went into the kitchen, and had her first pang of jealousy out alone, while she beat up the buckwheats for breakfast with an energy that made the miracles of lightness on the morrow. When she told Mrs. Sterling of the new arrival, the placid little lady gave a clock of regret, and said with unusual emphasis, I'm sorry for it. Why? asked Christy, feeling as if she could embrace the speaker for the words. She is a giddy little thing, and much cared to whoever befriends her. Mrs. Sterling would say no more. But as Christy bade her good night, she held her hand, saying with a kiss. No one will take thy place with me, my daughter. For a week Christy suffered constant pinpricks of jealousy, despising herself all the time, and trying to be friendly with the disturber of her peace. As if prompted by an evil spirit, Kitty unconsciously tried and tormented her from morning to night. And no one saw or guessed it, unless Mrs. Sterling's motherly heart divined the truth. David seemed to enjoy the girl's lively chat, her openly expressed affection, and the fresh young face that always brightened when he came. Presently, however, Christy saw a change in him, and suspected that he had discovered that Kitty was a child no longer, but a young girl with her head full of love and lovers. The blue eyes grew shy, the pretty face grew eloquent with blushes now and then, as he looked at it, and the lively tongue faltered sometimes in speaking to him. A thousand little coquetry's were played off for his benefit, and frequent appeals for advice in her heart affairs kept tender subjects uppermost in their conversations. At first all of this seemed to amuse David as much as if Kitty were a small child playing at sweethearts. But soon his manner changed, growing respectful, and a little cool when Kitty was most confiding. He no longer laughed about miles, stopped calling her little girl, and dropped his paternal ways as he had done with Christy. By many indescribable but significant signs he showed that he considered Kitty a woman now, and treated her as such. Being all the more scrupulous in the respect he paid her, because she was so unprotected, and so wanting in the natural dignity and refinement which are a woman's best protection. Christy admired him for this, but saw in it the beginning of a tenderer feeling than Kitty, and felt each day that she was one too many now. Kitty was puzzled and teaked by these changes, and being a born flirt tried all her powers on David, veiled under guileless girlishness. She was very pretty, very charming, and at times most lovable and sweet when all that was best in her shallow little heart was touched. But it was evident to all that her early acquaintance with the hired and sordid side of life had brushed the bloom from her nature, and filled her mind with thoughts and feelings unfitted to her years. Mrs. Sterling was very kind to her, but never treated her as she did Christy. And though not a word was spoken between them, the elder women knew that they quite agreed in their opinion of Kitty. She evidently was rather afraid of the old lady, who said so little and saw so much. Christy also she shunned without appearing to do so, and when alone with her put on airs that half amused, half irritated the other. David is my friend, and I don't care for anyone else, her manner said, as plainly as words, and to him she devoted herself so entirely, and apparently so successfully, that Christy made up her mind he had at last begun to forget his letty, and think of filling the void her loss had left. A few words which she accidentally overheard confirmed this idea, and showed her what she must do. As she came quietly in one evening from a stroll on the lane, and stood taking off cloak and hood, she caught a glimpse through the half-open parlor door of David pacing to and fro, with a curiously excited expression on his face, and heard Mrs. Sterling say with unusual warmth, thee is too hard upon thyself, Davy. Forget the past, and be happy as other men are. Thee is atoned for thy fault long ago. So let me see thee at peace before I die, my son. Not yet, mother, not yet. I have no right to hope or ask for any woman's love till I'm worthier of it. Answered David, in a tone that thrilled Christy's heart, was so full of love and longing. Here Kitty came running in from the greenhouse with her hands full of flowers, and passing Christy, who was fumbling among the clerks in the passage, she went to show David some new blossom. He had no time to alter the expression of his face for its usual grave serenity. Kitty saw the change at once, and spoke of it with her accustomed want of tact. How handsome you look! What are you thinking about? she said, gazing up at him, with her own eyes bright with wonder, and her cheeks glowing with the delicate carmine of the frosty air. I'm thinking that you look more like a rose than ever, answered David, turning her attention from himself by a compliment, and beginning to admire the flowers, still with that flushed and kindled look on his own face. Christy crept upstairs, and, sitting in the dark, decided with the firmness of despair to go away. Lest she should betray the secret that possessed her. A dead hope now. But still too dear to be concealed. Mr. Power told me to come to him when I got tired of this. I'll say I am tired and try something else, no matter what. I can bear anything, but to stand quietly by and see David marry that empty-hearted girl, who dares to show that she desires to win him. Out of sight of all this, I can conquer my love, at least hide it. But if I stay, I know I shall betray myself in some bitter minute, and I'd rather die than do that. Armed with this resolution, Christy went the next day to Mr. Power, and simply said, I'm not needed at the sterlings any more. Can you give me other work to do? Mr. Power's keen eye searched her face for a moment, as if to discover the real motive for her wish. But Christy had noved herself to bear that look, and showed no sign of her real trouble, unless the set expression of her lips and the unnatural steadiness of her eyes betrayed it to that experienced reader of human hearts. Whatever he suspected or saw, Mr. Power kept to himself, and answered in his cordial way. Well, I've been expecting you would tire of that quiet life, and have plenty of work ready for you. One of my good dorkesses is tired out, and must rest. So you shall take her place, and visit my poor, report their needs, and supply them as fast as we can. Does that suit you? Entirely, sir, where shall I live? asked Christy, with an expression of relief that said much. Here, for the present, I want a secretary to put my papers in order, write some of my letters, and do a thousand things to help a busy man. My old housekeeper likes you, and will let you take a duster now, and then, if you don't find enough other work to do. When can you come? Christy answered with a long breath of satisfaction. Tomorrow, if you like. I do. Can you be spared so soon? Oh, yes. They don't want me now at all, or I would not leave them. Kitty can take my place. She needs protection more than I, and there is not room for two. She checked herself there, conscious that a turn of bitterness had crept into her voice. Then quite steadily, she added, will you be kind enough to write, and ask Mrs. Sterling if she can spare me? I shall find it hard to tell her myself, for I fear she may think me ungrateful after all her kindness. No, she is used to parting with those whom she has helped, and is always glad to set them on their way toward better things. I will write tomorrow, and you can come whatever you will, sure of a welcome, my child. Something in the tone of those last words, and the pressure of the strong, kind hand, touched Christy's sore heart, and made it impossible for her to hide the truth entirely. She only said, Thank you, sir. I shall be very glad to come. But her eyes were full, and she held his hand an instant, as if she clung to it, sure of succour and support. Then she went home, so pale and quiet, so helpful, patient, and affectionate, that Mrs. Sterling watched her anxiously. David looked amazed, and even self-absorbed Kitty saw the change and was touched by it. On the morrow Mr. Powers' note came, and Christy fled upstairs while it was read and discussed. If I get through this parting without disgracing myself, I don't care what happens to me afterward, she said, and in order that she might do so she assumed a cheerful air, and determined to depart with all the honors of war if she died in the attempt. So, when Mrs. Sterling called her down, she went humming into the pilar. Smiled as she read the note silently given her, and then said with an effort greater than any she had ever made in her most arduous pirate on the stage. Yes, I did say to Mr. Powers that I thought I'd better be moving on. I'm a restless creature, as you know, and now that you don't need me, I have a fancy to see more of the world. If you want me back again in the spring, I'll come. I shall want thee, my dear, but will not say a word to keep thee now, for thee does need a change, and Mr. Powers can give thee work better suited to thy taste than any here. We shall see thee sometimes, and spring will make thee long for the flowers, I hope, was Mrs. Sterling's answer, as Christy gave back the note at the end of her difficult speech. Don't think me ungrateful. I've been very happy here, and never shall forget how motherly kind you've been to me. You will believe this and love me still, though I go away and leave you for a little while? Prayed Christy with a face full of treacherous emotion. Mrs. Sterling laid her head on Christy's head as she knelt down impulsively before her, and with a soft solemnity that made the words both an assurance and a blessing, she said, I believe and love and honour thee, my child. My heart warmed to thee from the first. It has taken thee to itself now, and nothing can ever come between us unless thee wills it. Remember that, and go in peace with an old friend's thanks. And good wishes in return for faithful service which no money can repay. Christy laid her cheek against that wrinkled one, and for a moment was held close to that peaceful old heart, which felt so tenderly for her, yet never wounded her by a word of pity. Infinitely comforting was that little instant of time, when the venerable woman consoled the young one with a touch, and strengthened her by the mute eloquence of sympathy. This made the hardest task of all easier to perform, and when David met her in the evening Christy was ready to play out her part, feeling that Mrs. Sterling would help her, if need be. But David took it very quietly. Or at least he showed no very poignant regret at her departure, though he lamented it and hoped it would not be a very long absence. This wounded Christy terribly. For all of a sudden a barrier seemed to rise between them, and the old friendliness grew chilled. He thinks I am ungrateful, and as offended, she said to herself, Well, I can bear coldness better than kindness now, and it will make it easier to go. Kitty was pleased at the prospect of reigning alone, and did not disguise her satisfaction. So Christy's last day was anything but pleasant. Mr. Power would send for her on the morrow, and she busied herself in packing her own possessions, setting everything in order, and making various little arrangements for Mrs. Sterling's comfort, as Kitty was a heedless creature. Willing enough, but very forgetful. In the evening some neighbours came in, so that dangerous time was safely passed, and Christy escaped to her own room with her usual good-night all round. We won't have any sentimental demonstrations, no wailing or tender adduce. If I'm weak enough to break my heart, no one need know it. Least of all that little fool thought Christy grimly, as she burnt up several long-cherished relics of her love. She was up early, and went about her usual work with the sad pleasure with which one performs a task for the last time. Lazy little Kitty never appeared till the bell rang, and Christy was fond of that early hour, busy though it was, for David was always before her with blazing fires. And while she got breakfast, he came and went with wood and water, milk and marketing, often stopping to talk, and always in his happiest mood. The first snowfall had made the world wonderfully lovely that morning, and Christy stood at the window, admiring the bridal look of the earth, as it lay dazzlingly white in the early sunshine. The little pile was fresh and clean, with no speck of dust anywhere. The fire burned on the bright and irons. The flowers were rejoicing in their morning bath, and the table was set out with dainty care. So home-like, so pleasant, so very dear to her, that Christy yearned to stay, yet dared not, and had barely time to steady face and voice, when David came in with the little posies he always had ready for his mother and Christy at breakfast time. Only a flower by their plates, but it meant much to them. For in these lives of ours tender little acts do more to bind hearts together than great deeds or heroic words. Since the first are like the dear daily bread that none can live without. The latter but occasional feasts, beautiful and memorable, but not possible to all. This morning David laid a sprig of sweet, centred balm at his mother's place, two or three rosy daisies at Kitty's, and a bunch of Christy's favourite violets at hers. She smiled as her eye went from the scentless daisies, so purply pretty, to her own posy, full of perfume, and the half-sad, half-sweet associations that haunt these blue-eyed flowers. I wanted pansies for you, but not one would bloom. So I did the next best, since you don't like roses, said David, as Christy stood looking at the violets with a thoughtful face. For something in the peculiarly graceful arrangement of the heart-shaped leaves recalled another nose-gay to her mind. I like these very much, because they came to me in the beginning of this, the happiest year of my life. And scarcely knowing why, except that it was very sweet to talk to David in the early sunshine, she told about the flowers someone had given her at church. As she finished, she looked up at him. And though his face was perfectly grave, his eyes laughed, and with a sudden conviction of the truth, Christy exclaimed, David, I do believe it was you. I couldn't help it. You seemed so touched and troubled. I longed to speak to you, but didn't dare. So dropped the flowers and got away as fast as possible. Did you think it very rude? I thought it the sweetest thing that ever happened to me. That was my first step along a road that you have strewn with flowers ever since. I can't thank you, but I never shall forget it. Christy spoke out fervently, and for an instant her heart shone in her face. Then she checked herself, and, fearing she had said too much, fell to slicing bread with an energetic rapidity which resulted in a cut finger. Dropping the knife she tried to get her handkerchief, but the blood flowed fast, and the pain of a deep gash made her a little faint. David sprung to help her, tied up the wound, put her in the big chair, held water to her lips, and bathed her temples with a wet napkin. Silently, but so tenderly that it was almost too much for poor Christy. For one happy moment her head lay on his arm, and his hand brushed back her hair with a touch that was a caress. She heard his heart beat fast with anxiety, felt his breath on her cheek, and wished that she might die then and there. Though a bread knife was not a romantic weapon, nor a cut finger as interesting as a broken heart, Kitty's voice made her start up, and the blissful vision of life with David in the little house alone vanished like a bright bubble, leaving the hired reality to be lived out, with nothing but a woman's pride to conceal a woman's most passionate pain. It's nothing, I'm all right now. Don't say anything to worry your mother. I'll put on a bit of court plaster, and no one will be the wiser. She said, hastily removing all traces of the accident, but her own pale face. Poor Christy! It's hard that you should go away with a wound like this, on the hand that has done so much for us. Said David, as he carefully adjusted the black strip on that forefinger, roughened by many stitches set for him. I loved to do it, was all Christy trusted herself to say. I know you did. And in your own words I can only answer, I don't know how to thank you. But I never shall forget it. And David kissed the wounded hand as gratefully and reverently, as if its palm was not hardened by the humblest tasks. If he had only known—ah, if he had only known—how easily he might repay that debt, and heal the deeper wound in Christy's heart. As it was, she could only say, You were too kind. And began to shovel tea into the pot, as Kitty came in, as rosy and fresh as the daisies she put in her hair. Eatly becoming, she asked, turning to David for admiration. No, thank you, he answered absently, looking out over her head, as he stood upon the rug in the attitude which the best men will assume in the bosoms of their families. Kitty looked offended, and turned to the mirror for comfort, while Christy went on shoveling tea, quite unconscious what she was about, till David said gravely, Won't that be rather strong? How stupid of me! I always forget that Kitty does not drink tea. And Christy rectified her mistake with all speed. Kitty laughed, and said in her pert little way, Getting up early don't seem to agree with either of you this morning. I wonder what you've been doing? Your work. Suppose you bring in the kettle. Christy has hurt her hand. David spoke quietly. But Kitty looked as much surprised as if he had boxed her ears, for he had never used that tone to her before. She meekly obeyed, and David added with a smile to Christy. Mother is coming down, and you'll have to get more color into your cheeks if you mean to hide your accident from her. That is easily done. And Christy rubbed her pale cheeks till they rivaled Kitty's in their bloom. How well you women know how to conceal your wounds, said David, half to himself. It is an invaluable accomplishment for us sometimes. You forget that I have been an actress, answered Christy, with a bitter sort of smile. I wish I could forget what I have been. muttered David, turning his back to her and kicking a log that had rolled out of place. In came Mrs. Sterling, and everyone brightened up to meet her. Kitty was silent, and wore an injured air which nobody minded. Christy was very lively, and David did his best to help her through that last meal, which was a hired one to three out of the four. At noon a carriage came for Christy, and she said good-bye as she had drilled herself to say it, cheerfully and steadily. It is only for a time else I couldn't let thee go, my dear, said Mrs. Sterling, with a close embrace. I shall see you at church, and Tuesday evenings, even if you don't find time to come to us, so I shall not say good-bye at all. And David shook hands warmly as he put her into the carriage. I'll invite you to my wedding when I make up my mind, said Kitty, with feminine malice. For in her eyes Christy was an old maid, who doubtless envied her her lots of lovers. I hope you will be very happy. In the meantime try to save dear Mrs. Sterling all you can, and let her make you worthy a good husband. Was Christy's answer to a speech she was too noble to resent by a sharp word, or even a contemptuous look? Then she drove away, smiling and waving her hand to the old lady at her window. But the last thing she saw, as she left the well-beloved lane, was David going slowly up the path, with Kitty close beside him, talking busily. If she had heard the short dialogue between them, the sight would have been less bitter. For Kitty said, She's dreadful good, but I'm glad she's gone. Ain't you? No. Had you rather have her here than me? Yes. Then why don't you ask her to come back? I would, if I could. I never did see anything like it. Everyone is so queer and cross today. I get snubbed all round. If folks ain't good to me, I'll go and marry miles. I declare I will. You'd better. And with that David left her frowning and pouting in the porch, and went to shoveling snow with unusual vigor. End of Chapter 13