 I started feeling that I'm not alone here. There's something going on all the time. I would just sometimes go from one part of brain into another, if that makes sense. And I could feel that there is absolutely, at that point, I felt that there's two people inside of me that cannot even, that don't share anything during the day, let's say, with the people I don't trust. I would be one person. I would be basically like they expected me to be and what they wanted me to be. But at night, I would be another person and absolutely different. And because I was not allowed to be that person, that person was always there in the closet. At first, it was possible to organize it in a way where the person in the closet was just hiding there, just coming back sometimes whenever it was allowed to. But then two years ago...