 Good day, May 40 here, so I had a wowser, 55th birthday on Friday, heard from my family, heard from my friends, got phone calls, got about 70 posts on my Facebook page, so really nice. Now, what happens if you have a birthday and nobody pays any attention, right? I mean, that'd be a bit discouraging, wouldn't it, have a birthday and nobody pays any attention? So it'd probably be a wake-up call, I think, about your relationships and your life. And if you have a birthday and nobody pays any mind, then perhaps you're lacking intimacy and connection in your life. Perhaps it's a reason to go to therapy, join a 12-step program, or change something up. Also, you know, fewer people acknowledging your birthday if you don't put your birthday on your Facebook page. So I got 70 birthday greetings that I wouldn't have gotten if I hadn't had my birthday on my Facebook page. So I noticed one friend from high school put on my Facebook page, HBD, and I thought, why is she writing about human biodiversity? Why is she putting HBD? I was seeing that on my Facebook page, and then I realized, OK, maybe it was happy birthday. Maybe she didn't mean human biodiversity. I've been warped, I've been warped, I tell you, absolutely warped. So I had a bachelor friend about my age, asked me, 40, are we putting too much emphasis on female attractiveness so that we've ignored a whole swath of women just because they didn't meet up to our attractiveness desires? And I don't think that's been the issue for me, except in one circumstance. So when I'm set up, like someone sets me up with a certain woman, then I feel like there's some pressure to make a decision whether to go forward. Maybe you'll go on one date or just meet up or just see the person's Facebook profile. And so when faced with a decision whether to go forward with something or not, an attractiveness can play a pretty big role. On the other hand, let's see, average looking woman, see a Facebook profile, and say, no, not interested. But that same woman, if I was running into her every day at work or running in the same social circles, then over time the attractiveness could build. So I've been set up with women and I've just thought, no, not for me. I just don't really like a woman with a wide caboose, if you know what I mean. But maybe over time, the wide caboose would not bother me as much. So I've fallen for some quite homely women in my time. So propinquity, just being around the person can lead to intense feelings. My father told me about some homely woman with glasses that he wouldn't have thought about for five seconds. But because he was working with her, this is long before my father was married. I think in his teens he suddenly started developing really strong romantic feelings towards her. So women can weigh you down. So there's this advice that people in radio get all the time. Radio presenters get, and that is just be yourself. But as we've learned over the past few weeks, there is no true self, because we're different selves in different situations. I come a different self talking to you now than if I say perhaps talking to you in Australia right now. I'm a different self when I'm in synagogue, as opposed to when I'm in a 12-step meeting, as opposed to when I'm working with a boss or a client. I'm a different person at the beach as opposed to out the bar. I'm a different person at the Los Angeles Press Club as opposed to a speech at UCLA. I'm a different person when I'm hanging out with tabloid journalists as opposed to hanging out with academics. So there may be no true self. In fact, there is no true self. So what does it mean to be yourself? Also, there's a large performance aspect in doing these shows or in doing a radio show you're performing. So if your feelings have been hurt by something very private, you probably don't want to talk about that. If you've got a regular radio show and you're feeling grumpy or sad or depressed, you probably don't want to go into that. Maybe being yourself, being your authentic self, maybe that's an admonition that is worthy of being pursued within certain parameters. And even though it's not attainable, maybe it's just a useful goal. So it's not an achievable goal. So if you're hosting a radio talk show in the bus, so I should just be yourself. Or you have to show up at a set time or down a show. You've got to hit the breaks for commercials, for the news and traffic and weather and sports. So you have to navigate the realities of your situation. And you have to come to it with a 5 to 10 times amount of energy that you'd normally have. So whenever I finish a live stream, I'm usually fairly tired, much more tired than if I was just carrying on a conversation. For one, this is more of a one-way conversation. There's nobody else directly speaking back to me. I'm not seeing the face of the person I'm talking to. So I don't know if they're understanding me, if they're interested or bored in what I'm talking about. So this is a performance. At the same time, maybe it's a performance where you don't want to be fake. Maybe you want to combine the best of performance and the best of authenticity and hone in on your audience. So I probably know some of the people watching right now, like the quote-unquote Matt 40 character. I've seen him in the chat for many months. So I know there's something about the audience being your authentic self while presenting a live stream. I went on Google Scholar and I went through about 300 academic papers on talk radio. I think I downloaded about 30 of them that looked interesting. Blessings, John Berkshire. So it seemed like the early academic papers on talk radio, like what kind of person talks, calls into a radio show. These early papers focused on is calling into a radio show. Is this a way of enhancing your life? Or is it a way of filling up an empty life? So the early academic research focused on call us radio shows are generally people who lack friends. And so they call into a radio show. They watch a radio show, listen to a radio show because it's a way to have communication and a conversation but without the pressures of face-to-face contact. So I started listening to talk radio in 1977 when I came to America. So I was age 11. I used to listen to KCBS and KNBR out of San Francisco mostly. Also some KGO. So KCBS was pretty much a news station. KNBR was a talk and a adult contemporary station. And KGO was a news talk station. But I never caught in to talk radio till my life fell apart. So when I came down with chronic fatigue syndrome in 1988, then I started listening to a lot of talk radio and I started phoning in for the first time. So prior to getting sick, I would not have thought of calling into a radio show as a good use of my time. It just wasn't important to me. But when all my other options, how I'd spend my time, kind of fell away. I'd need, I guess I'd need a way of feeling important. I guess there was some desperation there. Like my life had fallen apart and I didn't know exactly what happened or how I'd get through this. And so I used to call into the Dennis Prager show. Dennis Prager became like a substitute father figure. So just drawing on my own experience. I'm sure that a lot of people who watch live streams and call into talk radio are pursuing that substitute connection conversation that they're lacking in real life. So they're filling in with some emptiness. I would suspect then there are other people who call into radio shows who simply use it to enhance their life. So I expect in my years for the German and Venice great meetup, tell us if you get stares of scorn, nuts picking up. Says Art Bell, but not masking out Luke Ford as you do the victory walk. Yeah, I was thinking about perhaps going to Venice today. I'll have to see what happens. Hey, what if people super chat they want me to go to the beach today? I'll go to the beach. Go to Venice, Santa Monica, maybe Malibu, Duck Waila Beach. I'll go where the audience wants me. So do you think most people who call into the radio talk show or to a live stream? Do you think? Or even just tune in? Do you think they're primarily doing it to fill a life or to enhance a life? So to fill a life means try to fill up an emptiness and a lack of connection. And to enhance a life is just at some icing on top of a life that already works. So my experience was I would use. Yeah, obviously, but I would I would call into talk radio to fill my life when I was feeling low. But when I had my life together, I rarely have ever caught in to talk radio. Instantly, I found the process of calling into. Talk radio, much more nerve wracking than even hosting a show. Or or being a guest on a radio show. Like when you call in much more vulnerable, you're waiting on hold. Those can cut you off at any time. So yeah, probably people listen to talk radio or live streams for both those reasons. Some people to fill a life that's fairly empty, human connection. And for other people, it's to enhance a life that already works. People who call in to talk radio to their political grievances. Yeah, that's part of it. People calling to talk radio to their grievances, particularly with guys. They call into radio to make themselves feel important. So perhaps it's similar to the dynamic when you go to a lecture and then during question time. I think I notice that approximately 50% of the questions during question and answer session at a public lecture are just guys trying to make themselves feel important. I would notice this in Duffie and me classes that some of the guys who put the most time in preparation, they would really important for them to show off how much they knew. Long time listener, first time caller. Yeah. So yeah, in Torah classes often it's really important for people to quote unquote ask questions when they're really just trying to show off to the rest of their community how much they know. Show off to the rabbi. I don't find women do that as much. Problem with female callers or female archings. Questions is they take a lot longer to get to the point. So men can call up on a radio show and boom, they can go right into their point. But women tend to circle about a lot more, have much more introductory chatter. So when I think about kind of the desperate state I was in when I was calling into talk radio, I think it expands my empathy for people who simply feel desperation or loneliness or an emptiness and they call into the radio or participate in live streams. So I was also studying all the academic literature on live streaming and it noted that most live streamers, the overwhelming majority of live streamers don't do any preparation and feeling bored. The major motivation for doing a live stream and to just chat with someone, those are like the major motivations to make an online friend get out of a boring routine. Okay, so yeah, the early academic research into talk radio said most callers were trying to fill an emptiness and then by the 1990s, research was shifting more towards an idea that people were trying to enhance their life. Cloudy in LA, expect the brown haze of pollution return soon, busy roads. Check for the keeper, you're in a lot for that light. Yep, keeper's still there mate. He's still there. We'll keep an eye out if there are any antisemites. So I'm walking down the street with a yarmulke on. So see any pro-Palestinian activists, see if they go after me. And I'm also white in the age of Black Lives Matter. So I'll see if any BLM activists go after me. And I'm one 16th Chinese, so we'll see if you find the recipient of any anti-Asian hatred. I've got the trifecta mate. Okay, I made some notes about topics that I've changed my mind on over the years. So God, topic number one, God. So I grew up taking God for granted, the reality of God for granted. I grew up the son of a something, the Adventist minister. So I just took over granted that God was there, that God heard my prayers. And when I'd go pray at night, I think my parents encouraged me to, yeah, I was on a swivel, mate. My parents encouraged me to pray for the hungry people in India and Africa and for people who are suffering around the world. So when I'd kneel down as a kid and pray, I'd say, okay, I want you to help everyone whose last name starts with A through G. And the next night I'd pray for people, last night I started with H through M. And my parents asked me, I told my parents what I was doing. And they said, well, why are you subdividing people in your prayers? And I said, well, I mean, God's going to be so busy just taking care of people, you know, A through G, that maybe this way they'll get the help they need. If I just pray for everyone or just be too much, I said, no, no, no, you don't have to worry about that. You can just pray for everyone. So I had a sense of God in childhood. I think most of us relate to God the same way we relate to our fathers. So I would see him as the authority figure. I'd feel guilty when I was doing something wrong, that effectively I'd be punished. I'd be caught out. I'd be putting my heavenly salvation at risk. But it was not, overall, a close relationship. And then when my family moved out to something, I went to church when I was 14. Then I moved into a more secular way of life. In 10th grade I started going to public school for the first time. And my sense of God never particularly strong, steadily weakened. But also we got a TV for the first time in the summer of 1980 when I was 14. So I became increasingly entranced by what was on TV. And I wanted what was on TV, particularly one of the attractive women who are on TV. And I wanted the fame of TV and the excitement of TV. So TV became much more powerful for me than God. But us still living at home with a Christian family, I occasionally would like call in sick for a church, not feeling well enough, I'm going to stay in. So I could listen to the radio broadcasts of my high school football game the night before. So I was already cheating on the Sabbath, cheating in all sorts of ways. And by the time I left home at age 18, I moved in with my completely secular brother, who's an atheist. And for the first couple of months, the first three or four months I'd go to church about every other week. So they had been a church in Gladstone, Australia. And then I took a job that required me to work Saturday mornings. So I quit going to church and the pastor came and tracked me down. The pastor of the church was a student of my father's. And he like tracked me down. He wasn't very happy to hear that I'd given up on the Sabbath. I wasn't coming to church anymore, tracked me down. I brought him into my little shed, had the cleaning contract at the Boine Island shopping center. And so he went into my shed and he prayed with me. And that was the last time I saw him and never went back to church after that. So when I came back to America a year later, I was living with my parents again. But I stopped behind the church. I was working weekends at the radio station, K-Hi, K-Hill Radio. So it was church fun. Well, it depends on if you've got friends there or if you can make friends there. So aside from any natural religious feelings you may have or may want to cultivate. So aside from how interesting you find the preacher is, aside from how much you may enjoy the music, aside from how much you may enjoy, see the surroundings of the church. Many churches are quite beautiful. So aside from that, the primary determinant, if you keep going back, is if you have friends. Like, pretty much everything boils down to the quality of our relationships. So if you've got friends, it's fun because you get to see your friends, right? Life is so busy and reported in many different directions. So if you have church or synagogue and you're an upstanding member, then that's the one place where you'll see your friends on a regular basis. It'll bring you all together. So if you've got friends, it's fun. Like, if you've got friends, going for a walk is fun. If you've got friends watching a football game, it's more fun than watching it on your own. If you've got friends going to a lecture is fun. It's more fun than going on your own. If you've got friends going camping is fun. Or going to a pub is fun. Like, everything's more fun with friends. That includes church. Plus, you meet the better kind of people. So generally speaking, religious people are more pro-social. Catholic churches are better than Protestant churches. Love that Catholic style. Right, but the architectural style is not going to be the main reason people get a church. They're mainly going to get a church for community and friends. So I used to date a woman who lived here. I wonder what she's doing now. The one hour mass is a quick and clean. Yeah, so 7th day Adventism was a high intensity religion as opposed to mainstream Protestantism and Catholicism. So Catholicism, you get a one hour mass. 7th day Adventism, you have to keep the whole 7th day Sabbath. So the church wants a 7th of your time Sabbath and a 10th of your income tithe. So the average Protestant, I think, only tithes about 2% of their income. And the average Catholic only tithes about 1% of their income. But high intensity religions like Orthodox Judaism and some of the Adventism and Mormonism, they, their members tithe about 10%. I think in the Mormon church you have to meet with your bishop once a year. I think you have to bring your tax returns to show that you are living up to your responsibilities in tithing. Oh yeah, she lived on this street. I wonder if she's still there. So I first came to L.A. I started dating this woman and she was about four or five years older than me. And we had a pretty intense like two or three month relationship. And I think a therapist said that I was just using her. And her friends didn't like her. And wow, wow, I didn't know they were homeless in Beverly Hills. I didn't know they were homeless in Beverly Hills. This is the first sign of homelessness that I've seen in Beverly Hills. Wow. So I remember she brought me over to introduce me to her parents. And the first thing I wanted to see is this tape of my performances in acting class. And so I just kind of ignored her parents and just like bustled to their VCR. Because my girlfriend didn't have a VCR, but her parents did. So she brought me down to Orange County to meet her parents. And I gave them short shrift and just wanted to use their VCR to watch my acting reel. So my family didn't think much of me. Your friends didn't think much of me. The therapist did not think much of me. And so she gave me the flick. I had no idea that they were homeless in Beverly Hills. Interesting. So from essentially 18 to 22, I lived without God. Really, I just wanted to live for myself. I didn't want the restrictions that come with believing in God. I didn't want God cramping my style. I didn't want a religious community cramping my style. So in being authentic, you can tell by somebody's voice if they've told a story many, many times. So in radio, you kind of want to live on the edge. And also in live stream, you want to live on the edge. You don't want to have everything scripted. And you want your voice to be fresh. You think that Bennett is going to join the left wing coalition? I'd be surprised if he did. So no, talking about the Israeli politics. So yeah, it's a tricky dance in radio and in live streaming. You don't want to be all scripted. The old radio voice used to be the voice of authority, the BBC voice. This is London. And then, starting I think in the 80s and 90s, radio program directors wanted what they'd call the more authentic voice. I wanted people who are relatable, people who were more spontaneous, less scripted. So you want to be hanging it out over the edge to do a good live stream and want to do a good radio show. You don't want to be completely scripted. On the other hand, there are certain disciplines in these genres that you need to abide by. You want to be successful. But you don't want to be telling a story that you've told a thousand times because then your voice will sound lifeless. You can tell if someone's given this story over many, many times. And I remember when I went for voice lessons and the voice teacher just wanted me to speak. And so we trod some pretty well-worn paths. And she commented, you've told this story many times, haven't you? Because one tends to come much more alive when you're saying something new. As opposed to when you're repeating yourself. So I'm just musing right now about ways that have changed my mind. We may think we have an authentic self, but we're obviously different people in different times and circumstances. Oh yeah, I never thought about being 55. I can never put much thought into it when I was 45, or 35, or 25, or 15. Never thought that one day I'll be 55. I can't really consider it, but there were always goals that I wanted to achieve. I wanted to get to 55 and be in the best shape possible. So I'm fairly close to that, I think. I wanted to make sure that I was out of debt when I was 55. I achieved that. I wanted to make sure that I was steadily saving for a retirement by the time I was 55. So I've done that. I also wanted to have ways of earning a living that I could use as I got past 65, because I'm not going to be able to retire at 65. I don't have no savings. This charismatic Ford family, like public speaking, YouTube is blessed. Look, we visit L.A. Skid Road, demilitarized zone, homeless tents, and Beverly Hills. Maybe I'll go where the audience sends me. So people will throw down superchats and want me to go somewhere. I'll go there. I'll pay some attention to my audience. And I think it was always important that I didn't want my body to be limited or aching or just not working very well. So luckily I'm 55 and I feel free. I feel limber, right? That part is good. What else did I want for 55? I wanted to have friends, community, to like the place where I lived. To love my shawls, to feel at ease in my community, feel at ease with my religion, with my God. Not want addictions running my life. So I managed to achieve all of those goals. All right, God, using now about ways that I've changed my mind over the course of my life. So God was pretty much absent from my life, age 18 to 22. Then I got really sick and doing things my way just didn't seem to work out very well. Are there Jewish-only golf courses nearby? I don't think there are any Jewish-only golf courses. But there are probably, I'm sure there's some golf courses that are predominantly Jewish. Like I'm walking through Beverly Hills right now. Beverly Hills is, congratulations, Luke. Thank you for introducing us to Auto on KMG. They're both brilliant, quite different. Yeah, you're welcome. I've managed to start, inspire, or play a role in what probably doesn't people live streaming regularly. So when I didn't have God in my life, how was my life different? Well, I guess I was more self-centered, more flexible in my ethics. I was a little bit more predatory. I didn't really have any limits on my behavior aside from social expectations. And when I found out that doing things my way like really didn't work, and I just collapsed in a chronic fatigue syndrome and I could no longer achieve anything. All right, so when I was flat on my back, bedridden and my life had fallen apart and my friends were going on with their life and my peers thought, oh, it's all in his head. My peers thought of me as crazy. Then I came crawling back to God. So I think generally speaking, richer people are probably less likely to intensely seek out God as opposed to poorer people. That's a question mark. But then I came running back to God at about age 22 and decided to convert to Judaism. And then I'm an enthusiast. I tend to get very one-tracked. So I was just obsessed with ethical monotheism for the next five years. So I pursued my conversion to Judaism. I got spending all my spare time studying Torah. And I was very alone at that time. I was living with my family in Newcastle, California who had seven acres. I didn't have much interaction with other people. So I'd hug trees a lot. I'd have God. And I'd listen to, at night, I'd be able to pick up KBC radio, so I'd be able to listen to Dennis Prager at night. Sometimes my friends would tape Prager when he was on the radio during the day. And I'd order Dennis Prager's newsletter, all the back issues, and I'd get dozens of his tapes, all his recorded tapes teaching the Torah and so I formed this parasocial relationship. So Dennis Prager called me once and he invited me to sit in on his radio show if I was ever in Los Angeles. I had some interactions with his office staff and there are people that Dennis Prager and I had in common. So this kind of parasocial relationship was really important to me at this time. Dennis would tell people, he'd mention me, oh, anyone who's a friend of Luke's is a friend of mine. And that made me feel really good at this very low period in my life. So walking through Beverly Hills made this not much diversity here, lots and lots of Jews. Then as I started recovering my health, my relationship with God changed. I became much more interested in sex and romance and passionate relationships with women. And that reduced the intensity of my relationship with God. So between an invisible God and a very visible and curvy woman instead of paying more attention to women, Luke, you're responding to your age. Well, no, because from 22 to 26 I was all God intoxicated. So I was really getting into Judaism. And then I was quite sick. Then as I started recovering my health and I was getting back into the ladies and my relationship with God started to moderate a bit. These are things that a young unmarried man is supposed to be interested in. Yes. So what helped me recover my health is something called Nardil, N-A-R-D-I-L. The psychiatrist prescribed it to me in Orlando, Florida and he said something brilliant to me when he got me on Nardil. And I started recovering. He said, go out there and show me how much money you can make. Yeah, your mistake was not marrying one of the ladies and forming a family. So I didn't realize at the time how profound that advice was. Get out there and show me how much money you can make. Luke is a live streamer that works staying in his lane, 20-age mindset, a solution to the rootlessness of youth as marriage and fatherhood. That's good. Okay. Like the wandering star of the Kung Fu TV show, Webcair Missionary, it would be embarrassing to walk into something on my stroll. Yes, it would. So that's another thing that I've changed on is the importance of money. Tell a lot about a person depending on whether they remember to use the brand name as the international generic name of products. Yeah, what can you tell? Because I remember my prescription was for Nadil. So I don't know if I remember the generic name. So what's the difference between someone who remembers the precise name versus the generic name of a product? Yeah, Nadil is easy to remember. And then I was able to go off it in the summer of 1999 with no ill effect. So I don't know why or how, but just taking it seemed to get me out of my chronic fatigue and back to a manageable life. So yeah, money is another thing that I change my mind on because when I was growing up, my father would say do what you love and then you'll never have to work a day in your life. That's actually good advice, unless you can be in the top 0.1% of what you love. Right, if you've got a talent to say 1 in 10,000, like my father, then doing what you love is good advice. But unless you've got 1 in 10,000 talent or what you love is much more easily immunotizable than doing what you love is not good advice. I think that's not going to make you a living. I mean, my brother loves running a garden center. So what do I love? I love live streaming, obviously. I love reading books. I love blogging. I love teaching the Alexander technique. But I came from an academic family. And so primo importance was put on scholarship and learning. And it took me getting into my 40s and 50s to more appreciate the importance of money and making sure you've got all your bills paid and that you're saving for the future. So probably only in my 50s that I started taking money more seriously. Like in my 20s I was saving. Like by age 21, I had about 35,000 in savings. That's quite diligent. I know very much of a spender. Luke Nardil is an MAOI. So stronger order, more side effects, SSRIs. So look here. Yeah, so MAO inhibitors. That was Nardil. Old medication, but it worked for me. And just transformed my life. Now there are side effects. I gained weight. I became less inhibited. And what are the other side effects? Yeah, there are certain cheeses and I didn't drink wine. So the conflicts within medication, how much money would it take to buy a modest home in that neighborhood you're walking through? Well, you could probably buy a condo. You could probably buy a condo for a little over a million dollars in this area. So I'm walking through the slums of Beverly Hills. Well, I don't think you can buy an apartment. You can only rent an apartment. You could buy an apartment building. So probably apartment buildings at the very minimum. See, four apartments. You could probably buy an apartment building four apartments for like four million. So money was something that I thought would just come naturally to me as I passionately followed my gifts. So no other difference between myself now and in my teens and 20s. How much for a detached single family home. Beverly Hills, I think they started about $2 million. So that's in the slums of Beverly Hills. So in my teens and 20s I had some pretty unrealistic expectations. I had an overly optimistic view of my own abilities and of my own success in life. So now that I'm in my 50s, I think I have a much more realistic understanding. So for example, how hard it is to host a show and talk radio. Just from my experience of live streaming, I have much more humility about my skills hosting a show and talk radio. So from my teens, I just automatically assumed I'd be absolutely awesome hosting shows on talk radio. Well, it's about 7.15 in the morning, mate. On a Sunday morning, not many people are going to be out and about. So I used to think I could just follow my passion and if I just put my mind to it, like a lot of my professors and my automated mentors tell me how if you just put your mind to it, you can do anything 40. So LA is not a big pedestrian culture unlike New York. So you want to go for proper walk in Upper West Side. UWS means Upper West Side. So on the Upper West Side, people are walking around now. So Upper West Side is more densely populated than Beverly Hills. And Upper West Side, New York has much more of a pedestrian culture. Dennis Prager May 28 would have been a big Lionel Nation. Call into Dennis Prager Lionel Nation for my birthday now. It's okay. So in LA, if you want to go for a proper walk, you're probably getting in your car and drive to the beach or drive to a hiking trail or drive to a place to go for a long walk. So I was able to make a living as a writer from 1997. So from 31 to 41. And then after that, I realized once the 2007 recession hit and I no longer wanted to write on the porn industry that my prospects for earning a living as a writer were quite slim. And so that's when I got away from I just follow your passion and then the money will follow. And now I have more respect for the attitude that a real artist should have day jobs. That's the responsible thing to do. Because when you don't have a day job and you just spend your time thinking about how you're going to pay the bills and you worry and you're not spending your time creating something of meaning. You just get obsessed with worry and despair. When you have a day job, you've got the bills taken care of and then you can use your spare time productively for your art. So I wasn't particularly interested in being of service to other people probably until I got to about age 50. And once she developed that mindset where you're of interest in being of service to others, then the money naturally flows. So God, God was a big deal for me between about age 22 and 27 and decided to diminish in importance. And then in the summer of fall of 1995 when I was 28 I decided to, my streaming schedule for today I'll probably do a big stream in about two hours. I think, yeah, I've been reading a lot of academic papers on talk radio so I might want to discuss that. It's that biggest stream in about two hours guys. So then in fall of 1995 I began working on my book, History of X, 100 Years of Sex and Film and I always send out an invite to about a dozen people but whether any of them show up or not, I have no idea. I don't have anyone scheduled for today. However, my friend Richard coming on next Sunday at 3 p.m. my time began to discuss a book by Sherry Turkle. She's a psychology professor who writes about technology. So she wrote a book on technology and loneliness. So that's on the schedule for next Sunday at 3 p.m. Mr. Whitemayor says, I've been listening to talk radio about academic papers. Invite all your former girlfriends on. Well, almost all of them are quite shy. So, almost none of them are public figures. So once I started writing on the sex industry, that really, yeah, because it's just for yourself. Yeah, but with self. Once I started writing on the sex industry, that had distanced me further from God because it also distanced me from my Orthodox Jewish community and God kind of receded in importance. I started having some success, started making some money, having some fame. Yes, that industry still exists, but it's more of a niche industry, just like it's very similar to the news industry. So does the journalism industry still exist? Yes, but there are probably about 40% of many journalists now as compared to 20 years ago. I am not in touch with any people from the sex industry. So after I left it in 2007, I stopped being in touch with any of them. So writing on the sex industry distanced me from my Jewish community and from God. And then when I left that industry in 2007, started going to 12-step meetings. That brought me a whole new relationship with God. Like, 12-step gave me God with skin on it. Like, God became much more tangible as I saw things that God had done for people in my various 12-step programs. So he hadn't had my late night coughs from Rob's Blind. Yeah, so God became much more vital, more real, more powerful in my life through 12-step programs. I found accessing God easier and more practical now than just through Judaism. So how many men and women are in the porn industry now compared to 2007 as performers? Probably fewer than 5%. Are professionals making a living in the industry? Probably half as many. Well, do you count only fans? So if you count only fans as part of that industry, then the industry may well have grown. So the industry's probably changed. So they're sort of an only fans for journalists. It's a sub-stack. Well, only fans, they count if they're paying money. Someone subscribing to a sub-stack or subscribing to an only-fans account. Well, women do only fans, they're making money. Like, they charge people for content. So some of them will get dozens, hundreds or even thousands of supporters. Like that Ayala girl does really well on only fans. Would I be interested in a movement that would sue all porn producers of sexual traffickers? I think it'd be an interesting story. I don't think you'd have any chance. Well, it's a good thing, Robert, possibly that you don't know what only fans is. That speaks well of you, sir. So I don't think there's any chance that there could be successful legal prosecution of all pornographers of sexual traffickers. But more rays can change. On the other hand, more rays have only shifted towards ever more sexualization of the culture over the past century. Yeah, some of the only fans, ladies making hundreds of thousands of dollars per month. The next era of politicians might see sex workers as no joke. Yeah, I don't anticipate, I don't see any immediate prospect right now for all porn producers being prosecuted as sex traffickers. I'll be back in a couple of hours.