 I don't remember the last time I did one of these sit down talk kind of videos and I have to say that I've been enjoying the other style, you know, of vlogging or trying my hands out on new things, trying to see how they turn out but this video is not one of those and it's actually something that I didn't even feel like doing in the first place because I haven't felt like recording a vlog for the past two weeks. My last video came out around 10 days ago and I haven't felt like doing more of it. It's not like I don't even have ideas to record. I just haven't felt the need to do it because I'm a bit out of it. You know, there are those times when you just don't feel like it and there's no reason except that you just don't feel like it and it made me think a lot about, you know, the need to perform, the pressure to perform to show up all the time and how it takes a toll on you from time to time and how most creators or most creators, people who show up online either to inspire you, put content like this out there, sell them post videos like this and this isn't the first time I'm posting a video like this and when I do post videos like this, they don't get so much engagement like, you know, the happy ones and we can't always be happy. I've said it time and time again. So yeah, this is one of those videos where I just want to put it out there that I'm kind of going to take you slow from now. I promise this year that, you know, especially coming from the previous year, which was really, really good that I would be doing more and there was a lot, I mean, a lot of plans that I want to execute and all those things, but I can't explain this particular feeling except that I just want to take things easy. And it reminds me of something I was discussing with Elaine a couple of weeks ago where I was telling her that happiness takes a lot of effort, a lot of energy, or at least the kind of happiness that the world, you know, has painted for us as the ideal happiness, being healthy, being, you know, having enough money, take care of yourself, traveling and all those things and mental happiness or mental clarity or sanity, health. It takes a lot of discipline, it takes a lot of effort and that's why most people may actually prefer to be comfortable and just get by. It's enough for them because the energy it takes from you, especially when you are in a space or being in this particular space where we have social media, where we have the ways it means to easily compare what our happiness is to others. It makes it difficult for you to know genuinely what works for you and live up to it in your own way and so you feel sometimes like you're failing or you're a failure because you're not doing better than the other person or you're not even doing better than your previous self, which is one of the reasons as well because I should have, you know, wanting to post, especially after my previous or last three videos doing, you know, very well, better than most on the channel, but I didn't feel the need to want to do anything. So yeah, I said it, that I'm going to be posting more hopefully this year and I tried or I have been posting a lot this year, not so much, but you know consistently. But then I'm just at the point where it will be fair for you to know that I'll be posting as and when I can, as and when I feel I have something to share. Like this video, they may all not be very happy and inspiring. I don't know if this counts as inspiring, but yeah, I'll try and enjoy the process a bit more. That's what I'm trying to say as well, you know, post things that I felt a lot of joy making or had fun making, you know, and not just feel like I needed to post something this week. And that's why I made it. It's all nice and all. I mean, yeah, it's the discipline, you know, to work and everything, which is what this channel also stands for. Because in posting these videos, I also discipline myself in my work and everything, but I need to enjoy the process. I need to learn to savor the moments. Yeah, savor the moments as well. So that's what this video is for. It's okay to not want to do certain things. Because well, where we are or life throws, or we're thrust into this world, and we have to do things or we should, or we wish and all those. Look, I'm just done. I'm rambling at this point. And I don't think it's necessary. So yeah, this is not a kind of Monday motivation you expected to see, but it is what it is. So as and when I have beautiful things or not for you, I'll put them out there. And hopefully we can share in our experiences and learn to take it easy on ourselves and be kind to ourselves. Yeah, and do things for the sake of our sanity and not to keep up. So yeah, peace for now.