 All right guys, so let's talk about phobias fears Especially irrational ones because those are always fun, right? Growing up, I've had a hell of a lot of phobias It took me a while, but I mean as I grew up I overcame them wasn't the easiest thing to do and I Just remember the times that that they were the worst was when I actually experienced panic attacks because of them As a child, I was really really fearful of pretty much everything Think of it like a timid little cat or kitten. Oh my god I was just terrified of everything that I could come across. Let me think of one Anytime I wasn't with my parents that might be a common one for a really young child I remember my parents telling me I was pre-attached anytime. I wasn't with them. I would I Would pretty much cry or your complain or something, but mostly out of fear and then that sort of evolved to Fear of the dark and then here's an interesting one because fear of the dark might be a common one Oh, one of the more interesting beers. I had a phobia. I ended up developing was fear of sleeping Think about that. I don't know if anybody else ever has ever experienced anything like that But I was legitimately afraid of going to sleep for a couple years when I was a child and I remember this and part of the reason was because of nightmares Now that was one of the reasons the other fear It might be a little disturbing coming from a child The other fear was of the consciousness just sort of stopping when you go to sleep That really disturbed me as a child and I thought about it a lot Oh my god, do not get me started on that and That's what a fear of going to sleep was pretty much just rooted in those two things the loss of consciousness and Nightmares and when I was a child I had a lot of them like I said I was a really scared kid and as a result my dreams weren't always pleasant a recurring one was If you haven't ever seen the Halloween movies well It the main serial killer if you have seen them the main serial killer He terrified me just that pale face that mask Oh man with the dead neutral look It's it disturbed me and that kind of haunted me for a couple years I would always have dreams of that and my parents tried their best because I told them they tried their best to comfort me but in the end It was all about just realizing and growing up and learning fiction from fact Oh, and here's it. Here's a little disturbing tale for you um One of my earliest memories If I try to think back as far as I can they start to break up You know how they say you can only remember so far and then it's just like you either made up the memories or You just can't remember anymore. It's just like either fuzz where you just can't go There's a point where you can't remember anymore So when I try to do that there are a couple memories that come up there There's the one where I'm piggyback riding on on someone's shoulders down in South America and then I think I hit my head on On a swing set like the pole on the top of a swing set then Another memory I have is getting into a fight with my older cousin now. We were like three at the time That's another really early memory. That is a legitimate memory. That's not something I made up now Here's another here's the one of the earliest Legitimate memories that I know that I did not make up and that's been following me around for years All right, so right now. I think the way I see it. It's got to be a dream. It's got to be a recurring dream that I had as a child and What it was was Remember when I said earlier that I was afraid of not being with my parents of being alone I was really attached That's where this comes in So my fear of Being detached from my parents culminates in this memory So here's what I wrote off from what I remember For whatever reason I am in the room by myself with the door closed This is strange because I am usually accompanied by one of my parents. I look around the room now This is where the strange thing happens The small head of a clown doll pops out of the area above and between The two closets. I have no idea why but we begin to talk to each other This experience happens several times again and again on an almost day-to-day basis It becomes a regular thing when I am in the room by myself The clown appears in the exact same spot just his head There are several things I am not supposed to do. I am not supposed to tell my parents about him I am not supposed to leave until we are done talking There are other rules to follow, but I don't remember what they are Since I have no reason to distrust him I listen I didn't exactly know That clown heads were not supposed to pop out of the wall After several of these interactions with the clown he disappears. He just stops showing up Some time passes. We are still living in the same house I am not sure why but I end up going to my bedroom by myself again My parents are downstairs. I close the door because I think I'm going to play as far as I recall As I close the door. I am facing the direction adjacent to the closets. I Remember the clown. I wonder if he will appear again. I have not seen him in a long time Hell, I can't even remember how he sounds like The head of the clown pops out again above and between the closet doors I see him and he says something to me his voice is deep demonic and inhuman I start to get scared He says something along the lines of don't yell for and he says my dad's name now I panic I run out of the room down the upstairs hall and around the banister of the stairs. I Am getting ready to run downstairs to get my dad to help me a Long arm wearing an equally long white clown glove Follows me as it stretches down the hall It grabs me and pulls me back into the room. The memories really start to blur here Something about my dad coming upstairs and talking to it as if my dad were negotiating something So it would leave me alone Now I wrote a little bit of hindsight after this For years after the dreams. I really did think they happened I mean as a child you sort of don't distinguish between dreams and reality as easily as it did as Easily as you do in real life. I mean at least I didn't And that's sort of culminated into a fear I would be afraid to be in a room by myself and to be away from my parents because I thought this thing would appear and These are a few of the earliest memories I have had or I have there's really no way I can distinguish like no clear way distinguishing reality from these dreams because the way they they're embedded in my head are like as if they really did happen I Talked to my parents about it and like I've never mentioned the clown to them my brother however, I did mention it to him and He knows about it even when I was young I didn't mention it to him and It is what it is a recurring dream So that's as you can see with the childhood full of Irrational fears and things like that. I Honestly did have a lot of phobias and a lot of these gave me panic attacks. I remember I Had even a fear over the wind think about that. I mean it's just it's irrational and I had it I had it for about a year as a child going to the park I remember the first panic attack I had because of that A thunderstorm was just culminating and we were just playing you know and out in the open field and I see the dark clouds I feel a sudden coolness as the fronts I guess I'm not I'm not a meteorologist, but as the front sort of changes and as the the the storm approaches and That sort of developed into a fear of the wind and I would have panic attacks whenever the wind Blew roughly and nowadays I'm over that My my dad helped me with that and the poor guy He had to deal with a lot of my phobia is now I can just literally just I have fun with it Whenever there's a strong wind I enjoy it. I just feel the rush and I think it's awesome I mean high school interaction phobia. I had it really bad I mean as a teen you probably I feel like many probably consider themselves awkward. I definitely was but it culminated to a point where I was literally just afraid to talk to anyone and I'll tell this story in another video but I chose the Probably the worst high school to go to with such fears I chose to go to a performing arts high school and Well in doing so I had to sort of face all those phobias and all those irrational fears. I Think another natural phobia I had was fear of planes. I Still kind of have this But it's not as bad. I remember the first time I remember going on a plane the first time I went on a plane I was a toddler The first time I remember going on a plane. I remember I had a panic attack just as we ascended into the sky Now I pretty much have none of these fears except for maybe the planes but It's just it's just an interesting concept. I think that overcoming them is certainly possible. I'm not sure about things like Disorders or things where there's probably a legitimate reason for why one is suffering But as for me, they were completely irrational and Going from this timid kid to at least where I am now I think they're definitely overcome a bowl if that's a word. All right, you can definitely overcome them Anyway, I just wanted to share that because I've been on a serious rollercoaster ride with these with these fears And I think I think they're really fascinating. I mean the experiences, so I hope you enjoyed that anyway those were my fears and Now I don't have them anymore