 Have you or someone you care about ever suffered with depression? And if so, what are the things that you most hated about it? I started writing a list for this video and I think I could list like a hundred things but I'm going to keep it to the top five for the sake of brevity but I would love to hear yours too in the comments below. One of the things I do hate about depression and I'm sneaking this in as a sneaky number six is how alone it can make you feel and actually sometimes just hearing that other people go oh yeah, I have felt just that way too can actually be quite reassuring and good. Okay, so five things I hate about depression number one for me is that it hurts like it physically hurts so there's the emotional pain and there's the kind of the very difficult thoughts and feelings and all that sort of thing but actually for me depression physically hurts so I have an issue with my feet and I have chronic pain because of that and actually when I'm doing okay when my mental health is doing okay then my feet feel broadly okay, I mean they hurt all the time but they hurt at like a two or a three. When I'm depressed, when depression really takes grip then that pain goes through the roof and I'm kind of on a constant six, seven, eight. It also gets worse when I can't sleep which again depression can really mess with. I think it's that it takes quite a lot of just resilience for me to kind of manage that pain I think it must be a thing I'm doing all the time and that when my resilience is low and my mental health is poor and I haven't had enough sleep and things are generally hard my feet hurt so it hurts yeah depression hurts that's one of the things I hate about it number two of things I hate about depression is it makes really easy things feel absolutely impossible so I have days where my aim for the day is get out of bed, get dressed, get showered maybe in a different order than that brush your hair and that can feel like climbing a mountain you know there are days when I can literally conquer the world I do amazing things but on the days when depression really takes grip the tiniest things like getting out of bed just to get breakfast to talk with my family who I love everything, everything feels hard and then you know if I try and carry on and do kind of normal things if you like work things or friend things they're just yeah everything feels so hard basically it makes everything feel really hard I hate that it makes everything feel really really hard number three which is kind of somewhat linked to number two is that depression makes it really hard to do the things that you know will help you so for example I know that if I get up and I get out and I walk my dog I will feel infinitely better than before I did that however when depression really takes grip getting up and out and walking the dog is whoa really hard really really hard again I know simple things taking a shower putting on clean clothes that'll make me feel better can I do it on a really really down day not always no and that's really hard because you end up in this cycle kind of beating yourself up because actually you think well why can't I do the things that I know will make me feel better they always make me feel better I've written myself a you know help myself on a down day list and it's right there but I can't do it and so then you think well why can't I do it I'm so stupid I'm so you know and yes and so it continues and so there's this yeah really really difficult cycle I know it'll help I can't do it why can't I do it I must be a terrible person kind of a thing yeah you get the idea number four things I hate about depression is it makes you so tired all the time and sometimes that's to do with you getting bad quality sleep but I've had times when I have slept and slept and slept and slept and you wake up and you're tired and you go to bed and you're tired and you're tired you're just so bone-crushingly tired and you're tired in a physical way but also in kind of a mental way like you're just completely exhausted with life it's yeah it's tiredness like I don't know it's made me really enjoy the tiredness that comes from physical exertion so many of you will know that I love to climb and if I go and have a really good climb and then after that I feel really like tired to the core in a physical way I kind of really love that but the tiredness that comes with depression is yeah really different it's really really unpleasant and it's so difficult as well because again if I feel tired after a climb then I know you know go to bed have eight hours sleep I'll feel great tomorrow with depression it's not like that it's not like go and get some good sleep and then you'll feel better you just just tired tired tired tired tired tired number five of things I hate about depression is that it totally messes with the way you think it can make you really kind of interpret things in a really negative way it can make you kind of catastrophize about things it makes you think that people are judging you in a certain way it makes you judge yourself in the wrong way you're basically you kind of can end up really turning in on yourself and really over analyzing everything and maybe that's partly for me about where depression and anxiety sort of crossover but that kind of yeah really thinking everything's my fault and I can't do anything right I'm worthless I have no future I'm a failure everything you name it those thoughts are going on and even when someone tries to help to reason with you it just doesn't touch at all and you're constantly kind of listening out for not in a conscious way but you're subconsciously listening out for things that back up your view of the world and of yourself this hopeless being and you hear things all the time that seem to back that up but any good stuff just flies straight by you just don't notice that you've kind of yeah got these faulty thinking patterns these cognitive distortions that mean that yeah your thinking is wrong and you're finding things that back that up all the time and very little that can dispute that because you're in this bubble that's impenetrable so yeah messes with your thinking and I hate that and that also kind of yeah can feed this cycle of difficult thoughts feelings behaviors and make it really really hard to sort of break out so yeah five things I really hate about depression this feels like quite a negative video I've got plenty of videos about things that you can do to help yourself understanding more and that kind of thing but I guess if you're someone who is watching this who has experienced or is experiencing depression perhaps it makes you feel a little bit less alone and understanding that these are symptoms of an illness and the other thing with depression is that it is really treatable so if you're watching this you feel that maybe you're a bit less alone this sounds a bit familiar do reach out do go to your GP see if you can get yourself some support because actually things can feel a lot better than this they don't have to feel this way even just talking to the people around you can be a really good starting point there are really good therapies really good medicines available so yeah don't suffer in silence and if all else fails pick up the phone or go online and speak to the Samaritans they're absolutely brilliant if you're struggling okay five things I hate about depression I hope it was helpful bye