 it's interesting with the shine as you have talked about you go on stage yeah yeah actually that's crazy there is one thing that i wanted to keep was that passion that i have for music because it was the only place that was mine not touched by my father because he didn't want me to make music anything and this is why my secret place this is what my secret garden i want to i wanted to stay there so i decided to work hard play the guitar learn to sing and all this stuff so hard and this is why at the moment okay i want to play in front of people i'm shy but i want to play right so the passion became bigger greater than the shyness than the fear that the fear exactly because that's the key isn't it that's the key to everything exactly if your passion is greater than your fear then yeah and you do the steps exactly you move on because that was your freedom of space you got it am i right yeah i don't want to put words in your mouth but it sounds that's it that's it definitely this was the place and i was able to express myself to be myself to do all this stuff and give 100% of the energy the love the passion i am right because everything i had before was like okay i have some so many stuff but i'm like okay i don't find my place i don't i don't find my place i don't know who i am so i just found something it just go for it this this is pretty good because i really believe that um at the moment we're having some kind of crisis with young men and i think this story of yours of resilience you know of shyness of not knowing who you are of not having freedom of having to break free of thinking of suicide i mean 75% of all suicides of men so and you didn't go that way you said um you developed a passion for something that was greater than the fear yeah that's brilliant it's a great story every single