 one of the they did this kind of an experiment where they took a non-believer an atheist did not believe in God at all and they took a believer and they asked both of them the same question they said if your mother was thrown into the hellfire and burned by a law by God how would that make you feel now the question for a for an atheist you know it should be you know i don't believe in God you know for a believer of course they believe in God but they weren't really monitoring what that person said in response what they were doing is they were measuring their their breathing and their blood pressure and all of that and what they were found was that the atheist and the believer both of them their breathing became heavier their blood pressures increased historic sweating like all of this stuff happening and it's a jeep because the atheist doesn't believe in God but then that reminded me of some verses in the Qur'an or or Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala says that on that day when their own tongues their mouth will be shut and their own bodies will testify against them and even in the dunya with this experiment the atheists may not believe but his body is testifying against him his blood pressure is going up his breathing is becoming heavier because the soul knows Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala and in the same way in this blessed month that is about to we're about to embark on the main one of the main concepts of Ramadan one of the main things is forgiveness to to forgive to be forgiven and the thing that is a jeep about forgiveness is one of the things if you've been hurt by somebody or if you've had a traumatic you know occur as a traumatic event or a friend for instance hurts you real bad or or you know somebody stole your money every single time you think about that thing you're reliving that you're reliving that tragedy you know you're reliving it every so forgiveness really is not about the other person forgiveness is for your own self because I think this mic is not that heavy I can hold it out here for a long time but finally it's going to overcome me and it's going to be a burden in my hands going to fall and when you carry the rancor you carry that out of mouth and you carry that hurt in your own heart it overburden is your own soul so forgiveness is for your own self so when you forgive others they might not even be deserving of it but you're deserving of the peace you yourself are deserving of the peace and so this month of Ramadan what are we doing we're we're not eating everything that's halal for us we're not drinking you know no relations you know from sun up to sundown why do we do that you have you ever like been audited by the IRS or taken a test and waited for your score you know you're gonna that's just gonna give you're gonna get an A and you're gonna you know go to med school or not or or something you know you can't eat you can't you know you can't think you're tripping the whole time what is so hard because you know what because you're so focused on that thing you know because that's the thing that occupies your mind you know and what happens when Ramadan is when you're not doing all of those stuff what are you doing you're adhering to a higher column you're focused on Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala and what does that do why does fasting why does every time like about Ramadan is about to come I hear so many people going oh man you know a lot of people you know that understand that they're like oh my god I hope I make it y'all but if not Ramadan let us let us receive Ramadan let us get there you know the asha prepared six months before but some people are like man I'm gonna get a headache I can't have coffee in the morning I'm gonna stop smoking you know like all these things come to their mind but then three four five days pass by and it becomes easy why why because when you love somebody like when you love a woman you can't eat sometimes you know you're just like thinking about her when you love Allah and you're focused on Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala that thing becomes easy for you that action becomes Allah makes it easy for you and you for yourself it becomes easier and easier and forgiveness in this month is it's it's the it's the focus of this month is forgiveness and see you said I talked about you know people that are caught up people that can't forgive people that are going to cancel people people that are caught up in these kind of things it's because of a void inside of themselves it's because they're in reality looking for divine love they have a void of love and they can't and they're searching for that thing somebody give me some water a little water it always weighs on me when I talk a lot of law it really does so so it's about that void because you know they're missing something in their own hearts the Arabs they call bread ish literally life why because bread sustains people the mojahideen they used to just have bread and water but if you look at the process of making bread they take the wheat they grind it and then they turn it into dough and then they knead that dough and then finally what happens they have to put it in the oven and bake it and then it turns into bread but that that oven that's what Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala for us to become mature we have to go to we have to be baked we have to be meat we have the dough has to be kneaded and then we have to become cooked and when you become cooked that's your matured that's all of these things that you go through in order to realize and to find Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala now the people that may have a void or not in their hearts if in reality you know Ramadan one of the things about Ramadan what does it do allows you to focus on Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala give up thing we're not supposed to do idle talk we're not supposed to be watching television really we're not supposed to be doing that any that stuff what are the prophets all I'm going to do for months at a time he went to the to the heart of Hira and he what are the isolation you know and he concentrated and he meditated you know what is all of that for was it to find who like one of the awliya of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala said I searched for Allah for 40 years and then I realized hey Allah's not lost to be found I have to find myself so when you go into this state and you go into halloween you go into isolation it's really to find what is to find yourself because you should not have a void because you should have an understanding we should all have an understanding that each one of us every single one of us is like a universe we're all small universes your hair is like the plants right your veins your blood or like the rivers your eyes are like the stars and your heart is the sun and everything is dependent on that sun and that is why people and what is so and your and your soul is the universe this mysterious thing so each one of you is so special you're a universe and what is it about with that heart you know the entire cosmos because you know Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala you know and when you realize that within yourself that Allah created you that Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala that's divine love because you know that Allah loves you you don't need anybody else you don't have to look for love in all the wrong places and when you know that Allah loves you then in return you love Allah and you love yourself first you can love other people that's why the prophet sallallahu alayhi wa sallam says none of you believe until you love and more than everything and then what is Sayyidina Omar what is Sayyidina Omar saying he said Ya Rasulullah I love you more than everything except myself you know Sayyidina Omar was a teacher 13 places in the Quran actually agreed with Sayyidina Omar you know what when he said that what did the prophet Ya Omar you have to love me even more than yourself and then he said okay Ya Rasulullah I love you more but what is I mean you have to love yourself first because if you won't know what love is if you don't love yourself how can you love anything if you don't love yourself you can't love Allah and then you love the prophet what because because he's here for your souls because if you can't love the prophet you can't love Allah if you don't love people you don't love Allah if you don't love people you don't love Allah because just like your universe they are a universe that has been also created and the key to this forgiveness and I'll say a quick story inshallah Sayyidina Yusuf alayhi sallam joseph peace be upon him the grandchild of Sayyidina Isha alayhi sallam what happened everybody knows a story 11 brothers you know they took him they threw him in the well all that you know and then but what happens Allah says something in the Quran at the end of it when Yusuf alayhi sallam he becomes the governor of Egypt and then his brothers all they come there before him all 11 of them and his parents are there and he takes Allah says and he says in the Quran he takes his parents and he puts them up on thrones next to him and he asks his 11 brothers and he says to his father and he says this this is my dream that I had that like the 11 stars that were that were prostrating before but what does he say at that point he says he says Sayyidina Yusuf from the blessings of Allah he took me out of the prison he took me out of the prison Allah did a lot for him Allah took him out of the well too but because his brothers were all there he didn't mention they took me out of the well in the tafir he doesn't say they took me out of the well because what it was kind of like poking at them because they're the ones that threw him in the well but he only mentions the decision he also only mentions the prison and then after that what is he saying he says and Allah it brought all of you back together to me when what when shaitan separated us he then took it and put it all on shaitan he didn't blame his brothers again he didn't blame his brothers again and this like the Quran is slamming itself its behavioral health its mental health this forgiveness it allows you to heal and I will leave with a poem of Sayyidina Imam Shafi Rahimullah radiullah ta'ala anhu and I and I actually translate this and he says and he says and I'll just do the translation he says whenever somebody defiles my character whenever somebody abuses me whenever somebody makes up something about me whenever somebody hurts me I have forgiven them out of my love and reverence for the Lord of the world subhanahu wa ta'ala and then he says because I do not want to show up on the day of judgment before my Lord and have somebody's entrance into Jannah depending on my forgiveness of what they had said to me because I too am in need of forgiveness may Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala during Ramadan and tonight unite our hearts underneath his roof may he bring us together may he bring back the sunnah of the prophet sallallahu alayhi sallam may we not let us be united with those that that that lied about mariyam alayhi sallam that made up stuff about Sayyidina Aisha alayhi sallam and we might be among those that spread buktan and khiba and any of these things and may Allah rectify us and bring us together in love as brothers and sisters how Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala and his messenger meant it to be sallallahu wa sallam wa barik ala Sayyidina wa maulana ma'hamad wa ala ali wa sallam alhamdulillahi wab al alameen I'll from it and I'll tell it to Allah