 Yeah, a friend of mine, Noel, she just a while ago went through this where she had two brothers and they were not usually around, they were traveling a lot and she was closer to her mother and she was really very much aware of the conditioning, the patterned conditioning in there of taking care of your parents and your old agent and your father in the past and it was like the messages were coming from dear old mom about you know take care of me and I need you, I need you, I need you, almost like that's an assumption you know it's like part of the way it seems with the cycle you know when children are very young there's a need, a dependency and then it seems to go full circle around to a dependency as the body starts to break down and sometimes the mental capacities grow and so on and so forth and really it's, it always comes down to authentically it's not so much avoiding any kind of duties, responsibilities but as you go for healing and you go for this very high state of healing and you start to realize that that's really your sole responsibility, you're doing this healing for the whole universe it's not a minor thing, you're doing a huge thing for the whole universe that you have to be able to trust in the plan that all things are working together for good as you fulfill your true responsibility and for Noelle she had done metaphysics for years and lots of questioning things and really when she went inside she didn't feel a call, she felt that to be acting for guilt if she did that and it seemed like her mother protested and so forth and then when she seemed to pass it was a very deep time of really, because Noelle didn't go and be there for her mother and everything, she continued on with her inner work and so forth and where the roots of this are is that and the Bible says God is no respecter of persons, yeah, God didn't create this world so God is pure divine love and light and really has nothing at all in this world this is a world of idolatry and when they used to say the Bible hold no graven images before the Lord that God we might be okay don't make totem poles and stay away from gold caps and stuff like that be safe so you know upset God it's like no, all of the images of the cosmos are the graven images that have been placed before the Lord that God you don't have to worry about the totem poles and the caps, including mom and dad they're part of the idolatry in fact I remember when I was reading the Course, I was like okay God did not create a meaning in this world, alright God did not create this world, oh my eyes and I think back to Genesis, I'm pretty sure Genesis said God created the heavens and the earth okay, that goes on a little bit more in the workbook where it says this world was made as an attack upon God a place where God could enter not okay now we're getting a little stronger language here a place where God could enter not so that kind of starts to get my attention this world was made as an attack on God, a place where God could enter not I wasn't even reading that when I was reading Advaita Vedanta and other nondualistic texts, that's some really strong language so what he's saying is that the world, everything of the world all the fragmented images and all the distorted perceptions and everything it's a place where God can enter not we have to bring the darkness of our fragmentation to the light and let it disappear, we can't keep calling on God to enter in to this fragmentation and then I started to realize it's like when I started to ponder this thing about my mother and my father my loyalties to them and all that they did for me and all of these ties, these strong ties of the heart to mom and dad, I started to kind of get this thing from the spirit and it's like if you put it in kind of light term it's like who's your dad? and I was like what? and it's like it's like who is your source? and I was like God's my source and it's like yeah you can't have two sources you can only have one source in this world it seems like mom and dad are a source that's where babies come from that's where children come and so on and so forth sex and so on and so forth all that begat stuff in the Bible begat begat begat begat that's all false causation because you can't have two sources and you'll notice during those three years of Jesus' public ministry when he really accepted who he was the kind of stuff I'm talking about before Abraham was I am the way the truth in the life no one comes to the Father but through me that kind of stuff who's your daddy? every day, every moment of Jesus' public mission was an expression of who's your daddy it was all pointing back to the source to the true source to the real source and this world of time and space was made in direct opposition to that it was basically saying you don't have an eternal source you have a physical source if you go to a bar and somebody comes up to you and says where were you born? there's a time and space answer where did you come from? if you say what country, what parents what culture, what ethnicity that's all false causation that has really nothing to do with reality at all so when I started to realize that I couldn't have two sources that I could only have one source and it had to be so then I thought wow I'm going to have to quit hiding and protecting and I'm going to have to stop guarding these concepts that are make-believe that are hiding me and shielding me from remembering my true source now once you get it to that level then it starts to kick in that service to the one literally aligning with the one is our total responsibility and it played out that way in the parable of David in the sense that at that point when the biological father was going down, down, down and actually had lapsed into a coma it was intensive care in the hospital I happened to be on all my world travels I happened to be sleeping by the hometown and just in town when that was occurring so the biological mother and the biological sister said come to the hospital come to the intensive care unit and come and so I did I went in there there was Jack and a coma and as soon as I walked into the intensive care and as soon as I walked in there guess what happened he came right out of the coma started talking to me talked about the zombies I guess that's the zombies face because this wasn't even a laying a comatose a zombie or a walking zombie right up and he started talking about what I was up to and where are you going to be going next David where are you going to be going to next I was going to Florida and this and that and we both knew that I was going to be around for the funeral even, you know, let the dead bury the dead it was one of those kind of experiences where it was such a beautiful connection it was such joy it was the last time that I saw him that I was off and that's why Jesus everybody does a lot of times don't like that phrase let the dead bury the dead and he tells the man the Bible but when you think of it Jesus the presence of the Christ is the way of the truth in life it is life and imagine if you are life itself I'm sorry I can't be with you right now I can't follow you now eternal life because I got to go bury this body over here see how silly that sounds to turn away from eternal life and the teachings of eternal life to go bury to put a body into the ground and that's kind of ridiculous but from the ego's perspective that sounds a little harsh let the dead bury the dead with full love and joy and presence bury the dead stay with me stay with the presence of eternal life there's much to learn from eternal life so really the question for you is the way out of it all is again as you tune into the spirit what would you have me do what would you have me say where would you have me go from time to time to visit mom or to call mom that can very well be part of the guidance but there should be a heaviness around it if it feels like you're sacrificing if it feels like you're compromising if it feels like there's a calling that you're pushing aside to do a good duty thing you know what I mean that actually is people pleasing as well and remember our goal and our purpose is to share let the spirit speak through us and share this love and wisdom and to really let those interactions be full let them really be holy encounters but when the ego tries to lure you into it you can be firm and just say no and no