 Chapter 6 A Tragic Night in the Trenches November 3, 1914 Imagine a little tiled room, some sixteen feet by nine, in which for over a fortnight passing soldiers have been living, sleeping, and eating. Imagine the furniture overturned, the broken crockery strewn on the floor, the doors and drawers of the cupboards pulled out, their modest contents scattered in the four corners of the house. Add to this the windows without glass, doors broken in, rubbish of every kind lying about, brought no one can tell whence or how. And yet note that one or two cromo lithographs, a few photographs of friends and relatives and certain familiar objects still cling to the walls, evoking the life that animated this home but a short time ago. And you will get some idea of the place where my major, my comrades of my squadron and I, were lodged on that memorable November evening. It was five o'clock, a night was already falling, the cold, damp, misty night of Flanders following on a dreary autumn day. Outside the guns were roaring far away. The battle of Yesa was going on. Our regiment had just been brought by rail from the Reims district, where it was to the north of France and thence to Belgium. Our chiefs had said, you must leave your horses, you must forget that you were ever cavalrymen, you must make up your mind's cheerfully to your new calling and become infantrymen for the time being. We have short of infantry here and the Germans are trying to rush Dunkirk and Calais. Your country relies upon you to stop them. Our good chasseurs left their horses at Elverding, ten kilometres from here. They came on foot, hampered by their heavy cavalry cloaks, dragging their riding-boots through the atrocious mud of the ruined roads, carrying in their packs together with their ration of bread and tinned meat the huge load of one hundred and twenty cartridges. They arrived here in the firing-line, and quite simply, as if they had never been accustomed to anything else, did wonders there and then. Yesterday I grieved to say I was not at the head of my troop. I was unable to take part in the epic battle around Bixut, the poor Belgian village which was retaken and then abandoned by us for the twentieth time. I was not present at the heroic death of the gallant and charming Colonel D.A. of the chasseurs, the author of those heart-stirring pages and among them the charge which brings tears to the eyes of every cavalryman. He died facing the enemy, leading his regiment to the attack under terrific fire, and when his men carried him away they raged themselves round him to make a rampart of their bodies for the chief they adored. I was not able to share the danger of my young comrade, second Lieutenant J., who fell bravely at the head of his marksman in the middle of my beloved regiment in which fresh gaps have been made by the enemy's bullets. My seniority had marked me out as officer of liaison to the general commanding and division, but this morning at dawn I came back to take my place in the firing-line, and I think I shall be able to make up for lost time. The day has been absolutely quiet, however. After the fighting of the day before, and a night of sleeplessness and incessant alarms in the trenches, three of our squadrons mine among them were relieved before dawn and placed in the reserve. They found billets in little forsaken farms some six hundred yards from the firing-line. Our men rested as well as they could all day, making beds of the scanty supplies of straw they found, washing themselves in pools, and renewing their strength in order to relieve the troops which had remained in the trenches, a squadron of our regiment, a squadron of the chasseurs, and a section of our infantry chasseurs. Seated on a broken box I was doing my best to write a letter, while Major B and my brother officers O and F, together with Captain Degi of the third squadron, took their seats at a rickety table and began a game of bridge. Here by the way is a thing passing the understanding of the profane. I mean the non-bridge player. This is the extraordinary. I might almost say the immoderate, attraction which the initiated find in this game, even at the height of a campaign, what inexhaustible joys it must offer to make its adepts profit by the briefest moments of respite in a battle to settle down, anywhere, and anyhow, and give themselves up to their mysterious practices. I pause for a moment in my letter writing to enjoy the sight, which has its special charm. Two or three kilometres off towards Steenstraat the cannon were working away furiously, while only a few paces from our shanty a section of our seventy-fives was firing incessantly over the wood of Big Chute. Overhead we heard the unpleasant roar of the big German shells, and in the midst of the racket I saw my bridge players dragging their table over to the broken window. Gray was dying, and we had not seen a gleam of the sunshine since morning. The sky was gray, a thick, dirty gray. It seemed to be very low, close upon us, and I felt that the night would come by slow degrees without any of the admirable symphonies of colour that Twilight sometimes brings to battlefields, making the combatant feel that he is ending his day in apophysis. But those four seemed to hear nothing. In the gray light I watched the refined profile of the major bending over the cards just dealt by F. He, no doubt, has to speak first, for the three others looked at him in motionless silence as if they were expecting some momentous utterance. Then suddenly, accompanied by the muffled roar of the battle music, the following colloquy took place, a colloquy full of traps and ambushes, I suppose, for the four officers cast suspicious and inquisitorial glances at each other over the cards. One spade, two hearts, two of trumps, eye-double, your turn, Major. But all of a sudden, paf, paf, the four players had thrown down their cards, and we all looked at each other without a word. Suddenly we had just heard above us that strange and indefinable crackle made by bullets fired at close range as they tear through the air just above one. No doubt was possible, something extraordinary was happening near the trenches, for the crackling increased mightily, and hundreds and hundreds of bullets began to whistle around us. F sent the table rolling to the other end of the room with a kick, and we all rushed out after the Major. There is no more depressing moment in warfare than when one finds oneself exposed to violent fire from the enemy without being able to see whence it comes, or what troops are firing, and what is the objective. Suddenly the attack was not directed against us, for between the trenches and the houses where we were there was a thick wood which entirely concealed us from the sight of the enemy. But on the other hand the shots could not have been fired at us, from the trenches the Germans had hitherto occupied opposite us, for had they been the bullets must have passed high over our heads and we should have heard only the characteristic whistle of shots fired at long range. For a moment, only a moment, we were full of dread. What had happened? What had become of the comrades who were in the firing line? Grouped together in the little enclosure bordered with quick-set hedges, where there were still traces of what had been the kitchen garden of our farm, we strained our eyes to see without uttering a word. In front of us was the dark line of the wood. We scrutinized it sharply, this silent mass of trees and bushes on which autumn had already laid the most splendid colours of its palette. In spite of the dull light, what an admirable background it made to the melancholy picture of the devastated landscape. First, quite close to the ground, was a tangle of bushes and brambles, its russet foliage forming a kind of impenetrable screen which in bright sunshine would have been a curtain of purple and gold. Then pointing up into the misty sky came the denuded trunks of the trees, surrounded by a maze of myriads of delicate branches, their ramifications stretching a violent tinted veil across the sky. In spite of the tragic present I could not but admire the marvellous setting nature offered for the drama in which we were destined to be the actors. The bullets continued their infernal music, whistling in thousands over our heads. At the same time the fire of the German mortars redoubled in intensity and their great coal boxes, big shells, burst with the deafening din a few hundred yards behind us seeking to silence our guns. These concealed in a hollow answered vigorously, but what did it all mean? What was happening? We longed to shout, to call, to implore someone to answer us to tell us what had been taking place behind the thick curtain of the wood, but the curtain remained impenetrable. In the few seconds we spent below that deserted house in the little trampled garden close under the rain of bullets that was falling around us, one dread oppressed us, and lay so heavily on our hearts that it made us dumb and incapable of exchanging our thoughts, or rather, one thought that haunted us all. What has become of the second squadron? What has become of our Colonel, who had stayed in command? What has become of all our dear fellows there on the other side of the wood? Uncertainty is indeed the worst of all miseries, because it makes its victims believe and imagine every horror. From our post we could see at the windows and doors of the little houses scattered among the fields the anxious, inquiring faces of our men. They too were tortured by uncertainty. They stood huddled together, looking in our direction, waiting for a sign or an order. Suddenly our doubts were dissipated. "'To arms!' cried our Major in a ringing voice that echoed above the cracking of the bullets and was heard by the whole squadron. He had no need to repeat the order. In the twinkling of an eye my troop had formed behind me in squads. My men waited in absolute silence, their eyes fixed upon me, kneeling on one knee and leaning on their rifles. I seemed to hear all their hearts beating in unison with mine, and knew their wills ready to second mine. The Major gave the word of command. We disposed our men in skirmishing order in the ditch of the road that passed in front of our farm, parallel with the skirts of the wood. Our squadrons thus formed a line from three hundred to four hundred yards, capable of holding the enemy in check for some time, if they had succeeded in taking our trenches, and were already pushing through the thicket. Kneeling on the road behind them I looked at my men. They were lying flat on the ground on the slope of the ditch. They had loaded their rifles, and I could not distinguish the slightest trace of fear or even of a motion in any of them. They were all looking straight before them, trying to see whether some helmeted soldiers were emerging from the bushes in the gathering shadow. What splendid soldiers the war had fashioned for us. They are no longer merely the diligent and conscientious cavalrymen we took the pleasure in commanding, and whose smartness we admired in peacetime. The stern experience of the battlefield has hardened, strengthened, and ennobled them. Their faces are manlier, their discipline, far from relaxing, has become more thorough. Their courage has developed, and in most of them now verges on temerity. I have had two new men in my troop for a short time, Laducet and Roger. They are territorials, men of from thirty-eight to forty, who, wearying of the depot, and envying their juniors in the field, asked and obtained leave to rejoin the regiment at the front. They fascinated me at once by their high spirits, their jovial chaff, and the cheerfulness from which they undertook the most laborious of tasks. But I had not yet seen them under fire. I looked about for them in the line of skirmishers. I tried to distinguish them among all the backs and necks lying before me, and I very soon guessed that they were at the extreme right of the troop, for I heard smothered laughter at that corner. Evidently, Laducet was cracking some of the highly spiced jokes characteristic of him. Yes, I saw his head lifted above the grass on the slope, his bristling moustache, his brilliant eyes, and sarcastic mouth. I could not hear what he was saying, for the firing was still furious. But I saw from the smiling faces of his neighbours that he had, as usual, found the right word for the occasion, the word that provokes laughter under bullet fire, and makes men forget danger. Not far from him his inseparable chum, Roger, gafored appreciatively, and seemed to be enjoying himself thoroughly. I rejoiced to think that I had got two first-rate recruits worthy to fight side by side with the fine fellows of my brave troop. Suddenly a dark figure emerged from the woods, then two more, then another three, then more. Was it the enemy? But waiting for the word of command, some of the men pointed their rifles at the mysterious shadows running in single file towards us. Don't fire! Don't fire! We had fortunately recognised the uniform of our infantry chasseurs, but this increased rather than allayed our anxiety. We naturally imagined the direst catastrophes and feared the most terrible consequences when we saw those in whom we had trusted, those who occupied the trenches nearest to Big Shoot, beating a retreat. The first of the fugitives came up to us. They seemed completely demoralised, haggard, ragged, and black with dust they crossed the road at a run. We tried in vain to stop them. As they passed us they shouted something unintelligible, of which we could catch nothing but the words, they're coming, they're coming! Together with O, I succeeded in stopping two men, who were going along less rapidly, supporting a wounded comrade who was groaning and dragging himself on one leg. The flank was turned. There were thousands of them that came through the village and enfiladed us. We had a great many killed. Our officer wounded. We must get back further to the rear. As they went off haltingly with their comrade whose groans were pitiful to hear, the tall figure of a lieutenant of foot chasseurs rose suddenly before us. He looked like a ghost, and for a moment we thought he was about to fall on an exhausted mass at our feet. His face was covered with blood, the red mask in which he the white eyes formed two brilliant spots was horrible to see. His torn tunic and all his clothing was saturated with blood. He was gesticulating wildly with the revolver he clutched in his hands, and seemed absolutely distraught. As he passed the Major seized him by the arm. Halt! Halt! Look here! You must rally your men! We can put up a good defence here! The officer wrenched himself free, and went off with hasty strides, calling to us without turning his head. I know what I must do. We can't hold a line here. I'm going to form up by the artillery. Two more men came by, depressed and silent, bent down by the weight of their knapsacks. They crossed the ditches by the roadside with difficulty, and were presently lost to sight in the fields amidst the gathering shadows. There was no laughter now in our ranks. The same thought was in every mind. The same despair chilled every heart. The Germans must have taken our trenches, and our brave comrades had all chosen to die rather than to retreat. And the enemy must be there before us in that wood. They must be stealing up to us noiselessly. I fancied I could see them, gliding from tree to tree, holding their rifles high, trying to deaden the sound of their footsteps among the dead leaves. Only they would reach the dark line that stretched before us, mute to mysterious. They would mass their dense reserves in the rear, and suddenly thousands of lightning flashes would illuminate the fringe of the thicket. I looked at my men again. There was no sign of wavering. Not a word was spoken. Their faces looked a little pale in the waning light. Above us thousands of shells and bullets filled the air with their strange and terrible music. A man came out of the wood, and walked quietly towards us. It was not light enough to distinguish his uniform, but his calm and placid bearing was in marked contrast to that of the infantry shefers. He must have recognized the little group formed by the major, my comrades and myself, in the middle of the road, for he made straight for us. When he got to within twenty paces of us, we recognized to our joys Sergeant Madeleine, a non-commissioned officer of our second squadron, the squadron that had stayed in the trenches with the Colonel and the machine-gun section. I cannot describe the relief we felt at the sight of him. Though we could not tell what he was going to say, his attitude dispelled our fears at once. He gazed at us with wide, astonished eyes from under the peak of his shackle, and came on quietly, as if he were taking a walk, his hands in his pockets, murmuring in a tone of stupification. What on earth is the matter? Well, really, this is a little too much, exclaimed the Major. That's just what we want you to tell us. But I have nothing to tell you, Major. The trench of the infantry shefers was taken. We are all right, but the Colonel has sent me to say that there are signs of a German counter-attack on the left, and he wants you to reinforce him on that side with your three squadrons. He spoke so calmly, and with such an air of astonishment, that we all felt inclined to laugh. When he had already given proof of his courage, he had even been mentioned in orders for his valour, but we had never seen him so placidly good-humoured under fire as on this occasion. All our fears were at once put to flight, and we thought only of one thing—to fly to the help of our comrades, and to win our share of glory. Forward! The officers had advanced in front of the line of skirmishers. All the men sprang up in an instant, and the three squadrons dashed forward full speed. But at the exact moment when our men, springing out of the ditches, began their advance towards the wood, the enemy's artillery shortening its range began to pour a perfect hail of shrapnel on our line. It was now almost pitch black, and there was something infernal in that scene. The shells were bursting at a considerable height above us, some in front, some behind. They made a horrible kind of music. There must have been at least two batteries at work upon us, for we could no longer distinguish even the three characteristic shots of the German batteries in Raphael Fire. The noise was incessant, and each shell as it burst illuminated a small section of the battlefield for a second. It just showed a tree-trunk, a bit of wall, a strip of hedge, and then darkness fell again over this point, while another was illuminated by the crash of a new explosion. At one moment a sudden horror gripped me. To my left a shrapnel shell fell full on the line of our third squadron. This time the flash of the explosion had not only lighted up a corner of the landscape, I had had a glimpse of a terrible sight. You must imagine the intense and rapid light cast by a burning magnesium wire accompanied by a deafening noise, and in this brief light the figures of several men weirdly illuminated in the attitudes induced by the terror of certain death, and you will get a faint impression of what I saw. Then suddenly everything fell back into darkness, a darkness that seemed more intense than before, after the glare of the explosion. I dimly discerned bodies on the ground, and shadows bending over them. I did not stop, but I heard the voice of the major calmly giving orders. Pick him up gently. But the wounded man shrieked, refusing to allow himself to be touched, his limbs no doubt were shattered. No matter, forward, forward. We rushed on towards the wood, where we hoped to get some protection from the avalanche of shells. A voice called out names behind me. Corporal David killed, Sergeant Floss wounded, leg broken. My men were running forward so impetuously that presently they were on a level with me. What fine fellows! I half regretted that some hostile troop was not waiting for us ambushed in the wood. We might have had a splendid fight. But would there have been a fight at all? Would the Prussians have ventured to measure themselves against these daredevils, whom danger excites instead of depressing? Well, we were at the edge of the wood at last, waiting till the major came up with us. Leaning against the trees, my chassers took breath after their race. I passed swiftly along the line to make sure that all my men were safe. They were all there, and I was relieved to find that I had no losses to deplore. The joys and sorrows of war had forged a bond between us that nothing could break. I had soon learnt to know each one of them, with his virtues and his faults, and I felt them to be without exception worthy fellows and brave soldiers. Each time death struck down one of them, I suffered as at the loss of a beloved brother, and I believed they repaid my affection for them by perfect trust. The Major had now rejoined us. We were not to lose a moment in responding to our Colonel Summons, and we were to remember that our comrades of the Second Squadron were bearing the brunt of the enemy's attack alone. Forward! We resumed our headlong advance. It was more difficult in the darkness of the wood than at the soft earth of the fields. We stumbled over roots, and got entangled in brambles. Men fell, picked themselves up again, and went on with an oath. There was no more chaff. All mines were strung up to fever pitch, and the strength was giving out, while the storm of shrapnel continued overhead, cropping the branches and lighting up the tangle of leafless trees and bushes at intervals with its fireworks. Suddenly I heard of my right not far behind me screams and calls for help, rising above the turmoil of battle. I saw my men stop for a moment looking round, but they hurried on again at my orders without a word. Forward! Time was precious. Every minute might be fatal to our brothers in arms. We could now hear the familiar sound of our cavalry carbines quite close to us. We were approaching the trenches where the second squadron was making its heroic stand. Forward! Forward! We were all breathless from our frantic rush. But no one thought of slacking speed. I turned round to someone who was trotting behind me. It was my non-commissioned officer. Without a moment's loss of time he had to run to see what had caused the cries we had heard, and now he had come back at the double to report to me. Sir, in the third troop, Sergeant Lagaraldi. Well, he's killed, and Corporal Durand too. Ah, and there are many wounded. I made no answer. Oh, it was horrible. Two poor fellows so full of life and spirits not an hour ago. In spite of myself I could not help thinking for a few minutes of the two shattered, quivering bodies lying among the grasses of the forest. But I thrust away the gruesome vision resolutely. We could only think of doing our duty at this supreme moment. Later we would remember the dead, weep for them, and pray for them. The darkness was no longer so dense. The tangle of trees in front of us was less thick. The branches seemed to be opening out. We were near the edge of the wood. And at the same time, in spite of the mad beating of my heart and the buzzing in my ears, I was conscious that the cannonade had ceased, at least in our direction, and that the bullets were no longer coming so thickly. The German attack was probably relaxing. There was to be a respite. So much the better. It would enable us to pass from the wood to the trenches without much danger, thanks to the darkness. We had arrived. One by one our men slipped into the communication trench. What a sense of well-being and of rest we all had. The little passage in the earth so uninviting as a rule seemed to us as desirable as the most sumptuous palace. We drew breath at last. We felt almost safe. But still there was no time to be lost. While the major hurried off to take the Colonel's orders, I climbed up on the parapet. Night had now fallen completely, but the moon was rising. Indeed, it would have been almost as light as day, but for a slight mist which was spreading a diphanous veil before our eyes. In the foreground to the right I could barely guess the dim outline of the battered mill and of the brunt farm flanking the trench occupied by the foot chasseurs. Further off, however, I could vaguely distinguish the rows of trees that mark the first line of German trenches, about 250 yards away from us. To the left the mist had a reddish tinge. No doubt yet another house was burning in the unhappy village of Bixut. There was a sudden silence in this little corner of the great battlefield, as if our arrival in the firing line had been a prearranged signal. On our right, too, the intensity of the fire upon the trenches occupied by the territorials diminished. To the left, on the other hand, the gunfire and rifle fire were incessant in the direction of the bridge of Stinstrat, defended by the brigade of Mounted Chasseurs. It seemed evident that the Germans, having failed in their attempt to cross the yese canal near us, were making a fresh effort towards the north. However, it is not safe to rely too absolutely, even upon the most logical deductions, for very often the event upsets the most careful calculations and frustrates the wisest plans. The moon was now shining with extraordinary brilliance, and the fog, far from veiling its luster, seemed to make it more disconcerting. Persons assumed strange forms and the shapes of things were modified or exaggerated. Our dazzled eyes were mocked by depressing hallucinations. The smallest objects took on alarming proportions, and whenever a slight breeze stirred the foliage of the beetroot field in front of us, we imagined we saw a line of snipers advancing. I had great difficulty in preventing my men from firing. It was necessary to eke out our cartridges with the utmost care, for owing to some mistake in the transmission of orders, our supplies had not been replenished since the day before, and we had used a great many in the fighting around Big Shoot. A like prudence was not, however, observed all along the line, for every now and then the trenches would be suddenly illuminated at a point where for a few seconds a useless volley would ring out, then everything relapsed into darkness and immobility. Towards Strenstra, too, the firing seemed to be dying down. I looked at my watch. It was half past six. This was the hour when, as a rule, our men began to feel hungry, and when in each troop the chassers would set out panicking in hand towards the smoking saucepan where the cook awaited them, wielding his ladle with an important air. But on this particular evening no one thought of eating. We seemed all to feel that our work was not yet over, and that we still had a weighty task on hand. It was certainly not the moment to light fires and to make soup. No doubt the Prussians were brewing something for us of a different kind, and it would never do not to return their compliments promptly. Ready? Yes, we were ready. I turned and looked back into the trench. All my brave fellows were standing, their eyes turned to me, and seemed bent on divining by my attitude or gestures any new effort I might be about to ask of them. The pale light of the moonbeams struck full on their faces, leaving their bodies surrounded in the darkness of the trench. What a strange and comforting spectacle it was. In every eye I read calm courage and absolute confidence. Whenever I feel weary or depressed, inclined to curse the slowness of our advance and the thousand miseries of war, I need only do what I did that evening. I need only turn to my chassers and look into their eyes without a word. There I read so many noble and touching things that I am ashamed to have felt a momentary weakness. They do not ask the why and the wherefore of things. They live from day to day, weighed down by hard work. To them the actual fighting is a rest and a delight. As soon as it is over they have to resume the hard life of cavalrymen on active service, spend all their time looking after their horses, fetching rations and forage, often from a considerable distance, cleaning harness and arms, and every night contriving some sort of quarters for themselves and their beasts in the squalor of the half-destroyed or abandoned villages. Quarters they must leave on the morrow. Yet nothing seems to depress them. They preserve all of the eagerness of the first few days and that imperishable French gaiety which is an additional weapon for our troops. That evening I felt them vibrating in unison with me more keenly than ever. There was little doubt that I should have to appeal to their courage again presently, for something unusual was happening in front of us. It was maddening not to be able to pierce the luminous mist behind which the enemy would be able to form up and take new positions without our knowledge. Down behind the line of willows we could now barely distinguish. We were aware of mysterious sounds, making a kind of distant murmur. They must have come from the rattle of arms, orders given in whispers, footsteps slipping on fat soil of plough-lands. Listening heads craned over our parapets. Each man was trying to hear, to understand, to see and to divine, and each felt intuitively that the enemy was about to renew his assault. The most absolute silence and the most impressive calm reigned in our trenches. Yes, we were ready for them. Let them come. Then suddenly from the enemy's camp there rose a solemn, harmonious hymn sung by hundreds of manly voices. We could not distinguish the words uttered in the barbarian tongue, but the music was perfectly audible, and I must confess that nothing caused me so much surprise throughout this eventful evening. With what ardour and unanimity, and also I am bound to admit, with what art these men proclaim their faith before rushing on death? One could imagine no more magnificent temple for the prayers of the soldiers about to offer up their lives than the spacious firmament above and the luminous night around. We listened, touched, and delighted. The hymn continued for some time, and the music seemed to mean noble and inspiring. The voices were true, and the execution admirable. But above all, the singing conveyed a disturbing impression of disciplined and ordered piety. To what length these men carry their love of command and obedience? Suddenly the hymn broke off abruptly in a formidable uproar, above which rose thousands of voices shouting, Hurrah, hurrah, cavalry, cavalry! Then dominating the tumult, we heard their trumpets sounding the short monotonous notes of the Prussian charge. I leapt back into the trench. Independent fire! The whole French line burst into a violent and deafening fuselage. Each man seemed full of blind rage, of an exasperated lust for destruction. I saw them take aim rapidly, press the trigger, and reload in a feverish haste. I was deafened and bewildered by the terrible noise of the firing in the narrow confines of the trench. To I left the machine gun section of my friend F, kept up an infernal racket. But the German line had suddenly dropped to the ground. I could barely distinguish a swarm of grey shadows running about in the fog. Then not a single dark figure was visible on the pale background of the tragic scene. How many of the dark bodies we could no longer make out must have been lying lifeless, and how horrible their proximity must have been to the living stretched side by side with them. Our men had ceased firing of their own accord, and a strange silence has succeeded to the deafening din. What was about to happen? Would they dare to come on again? We hoped so with all our hearts, for we felt that if we could keep our men in hand and prevent them from firing at random, the enemy could never get to us. But above all, it was essential to economise our ammunition, for if we were short of cartridges, what resistance could we offer to a bayonet charge with our little carbines reduced to silence? The Germans must have been severely shaken, for they seemed afraid to resume the attack. Nothing was moving in the bare plain that stretched before us. During this respite an order came from the officer in command, passing from mouth to mouth. Hand it on, no firing without the word of command. Then silence fell on our trenches, heavy and complete as on the landscape before us. Suddenly on the place where the enemy's riflemen had thrown themselves on the ground, we saw a slim shadow rise and stand. The man had got up quietly, as if no danger threatened him, and in spite of everything. It was impossible not to admire the gallantry of his act. He stood motionless for a second, leaning on his sword or a stick. Then he raised his arm slowly, and a horse voice yelled, OOF! Other voices repeated the word of command, and were answered by renewed hurrahs. Then the heavy line of riflemen sprang up again and rushed towards us, fire, fire! Once more our trenches belched forth their infernal fire. We could now plainly see numbers of them fall, but they suddenly threw themselves on the ground just as before, but instead of crouching motionless among the beetroot, they began to answer our fire. Inumerable bullets whistled about us. I noted with joy that my men remained perfectly steady, and they were aiming and firing deliberately, whereas at other points the fusillade was so violent that it cannot have been efficacious. I was very glad not to have to reprove my brave chassours, for the uproar was so terrific that my voice would not have carried beyond the two men nearest to me. I calculated the number of cartridges each of them must have in reserve. Fifty-five? Perhaps thirty? How would it all end? I was just thinking of ordering my troop to cease fire in order to reserve my ammunition for a supreme effort if this should be necessary. But something happened which checked this decision. F's machine guns must have worked fearful havoc among our assailants. For suddenly, without a crime, without an order, we saw them rise and make off quickly, right and left in the fog. Silence! I was obliged to intervene to subdue the joyous effervescence caused in my troop. The men began to discuss their impressions in tones of glee that might have become dangerous. Ladozette's voice was heard as usual, above the din, calling upon his absent wife to admire his exploits. Madame Ladozette, if you could have seen that! But we had to be on the quiveve. The German attack had been checked, but it might be renewed. We were fully alive to the courage and tenacity of our enemies. I could distinguish nothing ahead in the increasingly thick white fog. All I could hear was the sound of pickaxes on the ground and the thud of falling clods. The enemy had no doubt decided not to attack again and were digging new trenches. They no longer uttered the contemptuous guttural cries of cavalry, cavalry! They had learnt to their cost that these French cavalrymen, at the site of whom their own are so ready to turn back, could hold their own equally well against German infantry. I thought we might count on a little respite. The battlefield was silent, save for the faint cries occasionally uttered by the wounded. I hastily detached two troopers to man the listening posts, and they slipped away silently. Then as our captain had unfortunately been summoned to Elverding that day on a special duty, I went to look for the major to make my report to him. My men were seated themselves on the rough ledges cut into the slope of the trench, their carbines between their knees, and were talking together in low tones. As I passed a friendly smile lit up their faces, I walked slowly along the narrow trench, careful not to tread on the feet of the talkers. As I approached a point where the trench following the direction of the wood formed an abrupt angle, I heard two familiar voices exchanging the following words. 52, dears major, three aces, capital. This really was the limit. I turned the corner and came upon Major B and F, seated on the ledge, quietly playing cards by the brilliant moonlight. As their tiny retreat could not accommodate four players, they were solidicing themselves with a game of picket. Oh, all you who are of necessity far from the scene of the conflict, good French men and valiant French women, how I should have liked you to see this picture. No doubt you often wonder whether those who were defending your homes against the incursed invader will be able to bear the sufferings of this war to the bitter end. You fear that they may be losing their good and their dashing spirits. You imagine them brooding with careworn faces and anxious souls when the excitement of the encounter dying down. They think of what the morrow may bring forth. How I wish you could have seen Major B and the gallant lieutenant F, playing picket in the trench where they had just repulsed a furious German attack, which might have been renewed at any moment. I left them to go on with their game and went in search of my comrade, O. I found him in the middle of there, talking amicably with his men. After the enemy had ceased firing, he had sent a party of sappers to dig through the graves of two non-commissioned officers who had fallen in the wood. We retired into a corner of the trench, and there he told me of the grief he felt at this loss, a grief he was doing his best to hide, so as not to injure the morale of his troop. Lageraldi had just got his promotion and was a soldier of the highest promise. Durand was the model corporal, cheerful and active. And even if they had been but mediocre troopers, I knew too well what we officers feel when we lose even a passable chasseur to wander at the melancholy of my charming young comrade. Time went on, and there were no signs of a fresh attack. The enemy's artillery seemed to be neglecting us and to be bent upon the destruction of the Bossinge Bridge by which we had crossed the Yussa. His great shells flew away. Two seconds later, we heard the explosion far behind us. The German trenches in front of us were silent. A single shot fired at intervals alone reminded us that they were not forsaken. Monlef Tennant, all is ready. A corporal had come out of the woods to tell O that the greys were dug. When we had sent word to our chiefs and placed our non-commissioned officers and slipped through the thicket in single file. There were four officers, the Lieutenant Colonel Major B, O, and myself, and four non-commissioned officers. It would have been dangerous to deplete the firing line further. With heavy hearts we retraced our steps through the wood we had so lately passed through in all the exaltation of our advance. We knew the moral anguish we were about to feel in rendering this last service happily by no means the first time we had held such a ceremony, but never had I been present at one in such tragic circumstances, nor in such impressive surroundings. We hurried along, almost running in our anxiety to return quickly to our men. The branches courted us and slashed at our faces, the dead leaves and twigs crackled under our tread. Above us the shells still sang their funeral song. Right at the edge of the wood, close to the spot where our gallant fellows had fallen, we could distinguish newly dug earth and four silent men standing beside it, their tunics thrown off, leaning on spade and pickaxe. It was there. In a little ravaged garden plot, at the foot of the great trees which would guard these graves they had dug two holes, which by night looked extraordinarily deep and dark. Or tweet in front, or to envy the touching and simple burial rite of soldiers, to mean nothing could be more beautiful than such a last resting place. Why should we desire richer tombs, sepulka stones and sculpted monuments? We are all equal upon that field of death, the battlefield at the close of day, and there can be no fitter shroud for him who has fallen on that field than his soldier's cloak, a little earth that will be grass grown and flower spangled again in the spring, a simple cross of rough wood, a name, a regimental number, a date—all this is better than the most splendid obsequies. And what can be more touching than the poor little bunches of wild flowers which the friends of the dead gather on the banks of ditches, and which are to be seen days afterwards, faded and yet so fair hanging on the humble crosses? Such was to be the portion of the land. Why should we pity them? We will weep for them. We will not pity them. They were there, lying side by side in their cloaks, the turned up capes of which shrouded their heads, and we bared our own in silence. Each of us consciously or unconsciously breathed a prayer, each set his teeth and tried to follow and pronounce the last farewell the enemy's mortars suddenly changing their objective began to bombard the part of the wood on the edge of which we were standing. What was their idea? Did they think our reserves were masked in the wood? However this may have been, a formidable avalanche descended above and around us. The first salvo literally cleared this crackling of broken boughs. At the same time the German bullets began to whistle around us by thousands, apparently determined to draw us into their frenzied Sarabande. Death seemed for a moment inevitable. We could not hesitate. We had to take cover or be mown down by shot and shell. Then I shall remember the gruesome moment to my dying hour. We all leapt into the only available shelter, just in time. Bullets flew past us. The great coldbox's birth without intermission. The uproar was tremendous, beyond anything we had ever heard. It would be impossible to describe the horror of those minutes. Those graves all too spacious for the poor bodies we were about to commit to them were too small to shelter us. We pressed one against the other in the strangest positions, hiding our more tightly round us and that one would fall into our holes, transforming them into a ghastly charlhouse. This idea occurred to me suddenly and obsessed me. Yes, yes, presently the great snorting whistling pitiless thing would fall between O and me. We would feel nothing. There would be no pain. We should be only a little heap of bloody clay wooden cross above and with our name and ranks the number of our regiment a date November 3, 1914 and it would be better than any sumptuous monument. Hush, listen. Between two explosions in spite of the noise of the German bullets we distinctly heard the crack of our carbines. Our men are fighting. We all understood and with one bound we were up and running and managed to escape the shells and bullets which were cropping the branches and felling the trees around us. I shall never understand or forget this experience. When at last we sprang breathless into our trench after what had seemed an interminable race the Talmud had died down again and only occasional shots broke the nocturnal calm. The reason of the sudden renewal of the fighting was given at once by F. Leitlin for we were all full of regret at the loss of this little piece of ground. It had prevented us from feeling quite satisfied with our day. Now all was well. Our task was accomplished. On the following day at 3 in the morning a battalion of the regiment of Lyne came to relieve us. It formed part of that glorious twentieth corpse which has covered itself with always arriving at the moment when picked men were needed to make a last desperate effort. It had come up that evening, and was at once on the spot. In the cold, luminous night, the heavily laden infantrymen defiled into the narrow trench, calm, silent, and serious. The officer, who was to take my place, presented himself smartly as if on the parade ground. Lieutenant X, I gave my name. My dear fellow, he said, I am delighted to shake hands with you. Allow me to say how much we admire your regiment. Your general has just told us how your chasseurs have behaved. Accept my congratulations. We could not have done better ourselves. The cavalry is certainly taking first place as a fighting force. Your regiment is to be mentioned in dispatches, and you deserve it. Good night, and good luck. Thank you. Good luck. Once more we pass through the wood to take up our positions in reserve. Our men were beginning to feel the fatigue of those two days without sleep, and almost without rest. But joy, stronger than bodily fatigue, predominated. It hovered over our harassed troops. Above all, they were proud of having been appreciated and congratulated by their brothers in arms of the crack corpse which is the admiration of the whole army. Each man forgot his tortured nerves, his aching head, his weary legs, repeating to himself the magic words, your regiment is to be mentioned in dispatches. Chapter 7 of In The Field, 1914-1915. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by FNH. In The Field, 1914-1915, by Marcel Dupont, Chapter 7. Chapter 7. Sister Gabrielle. It was a very dark night. How were we to find our way about the little unknown town of Elverding, near which our regiment had just been quartered? We could hardly make out the low houses with closed windows and long roofs of thatch or slate, and kept stumbling on the greasy and uneven cobblestones. Now and again the corner of a street or the angle of a square was lit up dimly by a ray of light filtering through half-closed shutters. I went along haphazard, preceded by my friend B. We were quite determined to find beds and to sleep in peace. After our four days fighting near Big Shoot, we had been sent to the rear ten kilometres away from the line of fire to get twenty-four hours' rest. Had arrived at nightfall and found much difficulty in putting up our men and horses in the small farms around the town. But no sooner had they all found places, no sooner had the horses got their nose bags on and the kitchen fires been lighted than B., who was always anxious about the comforts of his boredom lodging, said to me, There is only one thing for us to do, we are to rest. We must find a bed and a well furnished table. I'd rather go to bed an hour later and sleep between sheets after a good meal than lie down at once on straw with an empty stomach. Listen to me. Let us go on to that nice Belgian town over there, only a few steps further. It is hardly ten o'clock. It will be devilish bad luck if we can't find a good supper and good quarters. We need not trouble about anything else. Let us think first of serious matters. So we started for the little town which seemed to be wrapped in sleep. We knocked at the doors, but no one opened. No doubt the houses were all full of soldiers. No one'd offered us any hospitality, in spite of all B.'s obturations. Now beseeching, now imperious. In despair I suggested at last that we should go back to our squadron and lie down by our horses. But B. would not hear of it, and still clung to his idea to have a good dinner and sleep in a bed. Just then we saw a dark figure creeping noiselessly along under a wall, B. at once went up to it and caught it by the arm. It was a poor old woman carrying a basket and a jug of milk, he said. Madame, madame, have pity on two poor weary half-starved soldiers. But she couldn't give us any information. Speaking in bad French, interspersed with Flemish, she gave us to understand that a little town was full of troops, and at that hour everybody was asleep. And what is there in that large white building where the windows are alight? The good woman explained that it was a convent where nuns took in the old people of the country. They could not give lodging to soldiers, but B. had already made up his mind. That was where we were to sleep. Leaving the old woman aghast he went with long strides to the iron railing which surrounded a little garden in front of the convent. I tried in vain to make him understand that we could not invade these sacred precincts. Leave it to me, he said, I'll speak to them. He pushed the iron gate which opened with a creek, and I shut it after him. I felt somewhat uneasy as I followed B., who crossed the garden with a rapid stride. I felt uneasy at the thought of his essentially military eloquence and of the use to which he proposed to put it. But I knew, too, that he was not easily induced to abandon a resolution he had once taken. True, he did not often make one, but this time he seemed to be carrying out a very definite plan. The best thing was to submit and await the result of his attempt. We went up three steps and felt for the knocker. Here it is, said B., and he lifted it and knocked hard. What a dismal sound it made in that sleeping town. I felt as though we had just committed an act of sacrilege. We listened, and heard through the door the noise of chairs dragged over the stone floor, then a light footstep approaching, a sound of keys and bolts, and the door was gently opened and held a jar. B., with a bow, what we are doing is this, I know most unusual, but we are dying of hunger and very tired, and so far nobody has been willing to open their door to us. Could we not have something to eat here, and sleep in a bed? The sister looked at us and appeared not to understand. However I was more at ease when I saw she was neither frightened nor displeased. She was a very old nun dressed in black and held in her hand a little lamp which flickered in the night breeze. Her face was furrowed with deep wrinkles, and her skinny hand held before the lamp seemed transparent. She made up her mind at once. Her face lit up with a kind smile, and she signed to us to come in with words which were probably friendly. This was a supposition, for the worthy nun only spoke Flemish, and we could not understand anything she said. She carefully pushed the bolts again, placed a lamp on the floor, and made a sign for us to wait. Then she went away with noiseless steps, and we were left alone. You see, said B., it is all going swimmingly. Now that we have got in, you must leave everything to me." The flickering lamp lighted the hall dimly. The walls were bare, and there was no furniture but some rushed chairs set in a line against the partition. Opposite the door there was a simple wooden crucifix, and the stretched-out arms seemed to bid us welcome. A perfume of hot soup came from the door the old sister had just shut. I say, said B., did you smell it? I believe it is cabbage soup, and if so, I shall take a second helping. Just wait a bit, I replied. I'll wager they're going to turn us out. From the other side of the door, by which the poor tests had just disappeared, we heard a voice calling, Sister Gabrielle, Sister Gabrielle! And a moment after the same door opened, and another nun came in very quietly and rather embarrassed, it seemed to me. She came towards us. Sister Gabrielle, your modesty will certainly suffer from all the good I am going to say of you. But I am wrong. You will not suffer. For you certainly will never read the pages I have scribbled during the course of this war, at odd times, as I could, in bifwax and billets. But I vowed to keep a written record of the pictures which have charmed or moved me most during this campaign. If I ever survive it, I want to be able to read them again in my latter days. I want to have them read by those who belong to me, and to show them what kind of life we led during those unforgettable days. And it is not always the battles which leave the most lively impressions. How many delightful things one could relate that have happened outside the sphere of action. What memories of nights pass in the strangest places, as the chances of the march decreed, nights of bitterness during the retreat, nights of fever during the advance, nights of depression in the trenches, what kindly welcomes what beautiful and what noble figures one might describe. Sister Gabrielle, as you will never read this, and as your modesty will not suffer, let me tell the story of the welcome my friend be, and I received that evening at the covenant of Elveding. Sister Gabrielle came towards us, how pretty she was in the coiff that framed her face, how large her blue eyes looked. They really were so, but a touch of excitement made them seem large as still. Above all, she had an enchanting smile, a smile of such kindness that we at once felt at ease and sure of obtaining what we wanted. She spoke in a sweet and musical voice, hesitating just a little in the choice of her words, although she spoke French very correctly. The sister superior has sent me to you, she said, because I am the only one here who can speak French. Monsieur'slet officers, welcome! She said it quite simply, and stood quite straight in her black dress, her arms hanging beside her. She might have been a picture of other days, an illuminated figure from a missile. We looked at each other, and smiled too, happy to find so unexpected a welcome. B was now quite self-possessed. Sister Gabrielle, he said, see what a wretched state we are in, our clothes covered with mud, our faces not washed since I don't know when. We have just gone four days without sleep, almost without food, and we have never stopped fighting. Could you not take in two weary, famished soldiers for one night? Sister Gabrielle retained her wonderful smile. Without moving her arms, she slightly raised her two hands, which showed white against the black cloth of her dress. Those hands seemed to say, I should like to very much, but I cannot. And at the same time the smile said, We ought not to, but it shall be managed nevertheless. Come, she said, in any case we can give you something to eat. And she took up the little lamp. She went first, opened the door at the end of the passage, and we followed her, delighted. We were dazzled as we came into this new room by the brilliance of the lamps that lit it. It was the convent kitchen, how clean and bright everything was. The copper saucepans shone resplendently. The black and white pavement looked like an ivory chessboard. Two sisters were sitting, peeling vegetables which they threw into a bowl of water. An enormous pot on the well-polished stove was humming its inviting monotone. It was this pot which exhaled the delicious smell that had greeted us when we entered the house. The whole picture recalled one of Bale's appetizing canvases. The two sisters raised their eyes, looked at us, and, yes, they smiled too. B. was feeling eloquent, wanted to make a speech, but Sister Gabrielle hurried us on. Come, come, she said, it is not worthwhile, they wouldn't understand you. She opened another door and we went into a small rectangular room. Whilst our guide hastened to light the lamp hanging above the table, we laid our kits on the windowsill, and revolvers, shackos, binocular cases and map cases, and how tarnished and dirty the things were after those three months of war. We ourselves felt fairly ashamed to be seen in such a state. Our coats worn and stained, our breeches patched, our huge boots covered with mud, all formed a strange contrast to the room we were in. It was provided throughout with large cupboards in the walls, the doors of which reached the ceiling. These doors were of polished wood and shone like a mirror. The floor was like another mirror, that indecafatable chatterer B. gave another speech. Sister, please excuse the costumes of fighting men. We must look like ruffians, but we are honest folk. If our faces do not inspire such confidence, it is simply because our stomachs are so empty. And no one would more resemble a vagabond than a poor wretch who is dying with hunger. You will not know us again after we have had a few words with the pot which gave us such a savoury smell as we passed. Sister Gabriel did not cease to smile. With wonderful rapidity and skill she opened one of the cupboards, and from the piles of linen picked out a checkered red and white tablecloth with which she covered the table. In a moment she had arranged places for two opposite each other. Sit down, she said, and rest, I will go and fetch you something to eat. B. followed her to the door. Sister Gabriel, he said, we have found a paradise. But she had already shut the door, and we heard her in the kitchen stimulating the zeal of the other two nuns in Flemish. We sat down, delighted. What a long time since we had enjoyed such comfort. Everything there seemed designed to charm our eyes and to rest our minds. There was no noise in the street, and the convent itself would have seemed wrapped in sleep had it not been for the voices in the next room, for the distant roar of the guns still went on, and seemed to make our respite still more enjoyable. We hardly heard Sister Gabriel when she came in and put down the steaming soup before us. The delicate perfume of the vegetables made our mouths water. For many days passed we had had nothing to eat but our rations of tinned meat, and all that time we had not been able to light a fire to cook anything at all. So we fell too eagerly upon our well-filled plates. B. even lost the power of speech for the moment. Meanwhile the pretty little sister, without appearing to look at us, was cutting bread, and then she brought a jug of golden beer. What a treat it was! Why couldn't it be like this every day? In that case the campaign would have seemed almost like a picnic. First I was eating I could not help admiring Sister Gabriel. She looked so refined in her modest black clothes. Her slightest movements were as harmonious as those of an actress on the stage. But she was nature in all she did, and the grace of every movement was instinctive. As she placed before us an imposing looking omelette au lard, that rascal B, who had already swallowed two plates of soup and four large glasses of beer, began to mourn the dust. Sister Gabriel, I don't want to go away to-morrow. I want to end my days here with the old people you look after. Look at me. I am getting old too, and we have been severely tried by life. Why shouldn't I stay here where I am? I should have a nice little bed in the old people's dormitory, with nice white sheets. Go to bed every evening on the stroke of eight, and you, sister, would come and tuck me up. I should sleep, and eat cabbage soup, and drink good beer. Your health! Sister, and I shouldn't think any more about anything at all. How nice it would be! No more uniform to strap up after a good dinner. No more shackle to squeeze your temples. No more bullets whistling past you. No more coal boxes to upset your whole system. And every evening a bed, a nice bed, and to think about nothing. Hush! Listen! said Sister Gabriel, with a finger on her lips. At that moment the noise of the firing became louder. The Germans had no doubt just made a night attack either on Bixut or Stinstadt, and now every piece was firing rapidly all along the line. So fast did the reports follow one another that they sounded like a continuous growl. However, the noise seemed to be dominated by the reports that came from a battery of heavy guns, long 120s, two kilometres from Elveding, which made all the windows of the convent rattle. I shuddered as I thought of those thousands of shells hurtling through the darkness for miles to reduce so many living human beings to poor, broken and bleeding things. And I pictured to myself our Prussians of Bixut sprawling on the ground with their teeth set and their heads hidden among the beetroot, waiting until the hurricane had passed to get up again and rush forward with their bayonets cheering. Sister Gabriel had the same thought, no doubt. She looked still whiter than before under a white coiff, and clasping her hands and lowering her eyes, she said in a low voice, Mondeur, Mondeur, it is horrible. Sister Gabriel continued the incorrigible bee. Don't let us talk of such things. Let us rather discuss this omelet, a dish worthy of the gods, and the bacon in it, the savor of which might imperil a saint. Sister Gabriel, you tempt us this evening to commit the sin of gluttony, which is most venial of all sins, and I will bail the burden of it manfully. I kicked Bee under the table, to stop his incongruous remarks, but Sister Gabriel seemed not to have listened to him. She went on serving us similarly, changed her plates, and brought us ham and cheese. Bee went on devouring everything that was put before him, but this did not stop his divigations. Tell me, Sister Gabriel, you are not going to turn us out of the house now, are you? It would be an offence against God, who commands us to pity travellers. And we are poor, wretched travellers. If you drive us away, we shall have to sleep on the grass by the roadside with stones for our pillows. No, you couldn't treat us so cruelly. I feel sure that in a few minutes you will show me the bed in the dormitory you will keep for me when I come to take my quarters with you after the war. Sister Gabriel's smile had disappeared. For the first time she seemed really distressed. She stopped in front of Bee, and looked at him with her large, clear eyes. She made the same gesture as before, lifted up both of her hands in token of powerlessness, and seemed to be thinking how she could avoid hurting our feelings. Then she said in a disheartened tone, but we have not a single spare bed. A long silence followed this sentence, which seemed to plunge Bee into despair. The guns continued their ominous booming, making the windows rattle terribly. I, too, now thought that it would be dreadful to leave the house, and go look for our troops in the dark, and put our men in the inconvenience of making room for us on their straw. So I, too, looked at Sister Gabriel imploringly. All at once she seemed to have decided what to do. She began by opening one of the cupboards in the wall, took out of it two small glasses with long tapering stems, and placed them before us with a goodly bottle of Hollands. She had recovered her exquisite smile, and she hurried for she seemed anxious to put her idea into execution. There! Drink! It's good Hollands, and we give it to our poor old people on festivals. Thank you, Sister, thank you! But she had already run out of the room, and we were left there, happy enough sipping our glass of Hollands, and enjoying the luxurious peace that surrounded us. The guns seemed to be further off. We only heard a distant growling in the direction of Eeps. Our eyelids began to droop, and there was almost a pleasure to feel the weariness of our limbs and heads. But now we felt that Sister Gabrielle would not send us away. She came back into the room with a candle in her hand. Come, she said. She was now quite rosy, and seemed ashamed, as though she were committing a fault. We followed her enchanted, and went back through the kitchen now dark and deserted. The flickering light of the candle was reflected here and there on the curves of the copper pots and glass bowls. The house was sleeping. We crossed the hall, and went up a broad wooden staircase polished and shining. What a strange party we were. The youthful sister going in front, treading so softly, and we two soldiers, dusty, tattered and squalid, trying to make as little noise as possible with our heavy, hobnailed boots. The nun's rosary clicked at each step against a bundle of keys that hung from her girdle. I was walking last and enjoying the curious picture. The light fell only on Sister Gabrielle, as she turned on the landing the feeble ray from below through her delicate features into relief, her fine nose, her childish mouth, with its constant smile. Our own shadows appeared upon the wall in fantastic shapes. Certainly, we had never received so strange and unexpected a welcome. We passed a high oak door, surmounted by a cross and a pediment with Latin inscription. Sister Gabrielle crossed herself and bowed her head. The chapel, she said in a low voice. And she went quickly on to the accompaniment of her clinking rosary and keys. As we began to go up the second flight of stairs, B resumed his monologue in a whisper. Sister Gabrielle, Sister Gabrielle, you are an angel from paradise. Surely God can refuse you nothing. You will pray for me this evening, won't you? For I am a great sinner. Oh yes, of course I shall pray for you, she answered softly as she turned towards us. We came out on a long passage, bare and whitewashed. Half a dozen doors could be distinguished at regular intervals, all alike. Sister Gabrielle opened one of them, and we followed her in. We found ourselves in a small room, or steely furnished with two little iron bedsteads, two little deal tables, and two rushed chairs. Above each bed there was a crucifix, with a branch of box attached to it. Each table had a tiny white basin and a little tiny water jug. All this was very nice and amply sufficient for us. Everything was clean, bright, and polished. Thank you, sister. We shall be as comfortable as possible. But one thing, we shall sleep like tops. Will there be anyone to wake us? At what time do you want to get up? At six, sister, punctually, as soldiers must, you know. Oh, then I will see to it. We have mass at four o'clock every morning. At four o'clock, exclaimed B, every morning. Very well, sister. To show you we are not miscreants, wake us at half past three, and we will go to mass, too. But it isn't allowed. It is our mass in our chapel. No, no, you must sleep. Get to bed quickly. Good night. I will wake you at six o'clock. Good night, sister Gabrielle. Good night. We shall be so comfortable. You see you had some spare beds after all. Oh, yes, we had. One can always manage, somehow. And she went off, shutting the door behind her. And now B and I thought of nothing but the luxury of sleeping in a bed. How delightful it would be after our sleepless nights in the fogs of the trenches. But what was that noise resounding through the convent? What was that knocking and those wailing cries? There was someone at the door, hammering at the knocker, someone weeping and sobbing in the dark. I opened my window and lent out, but the front door had already been opened, and a figure slipped in hurriedly. The sobs came up the stairs to our door and women's voices, sister Gabrielle's voice speaking Flemish, and another voice sounding like a death rattle, trying in vain to pronounce words through choking sobs. How horrible that monotonous, inconsolable, continual wail was. It went on for a short time, and then doors were opened and shut, and voices died away, and suddenly the noise ceased. He had already got into bed, and from under the sheets he begged me in a voice muffled by the bed clothes to put the candle out quickly. But I was haunted by that moaning, though I could not hear it any longer. I wanted to know what tragedy had caused those sobs. I could not doubt that the horrible war was at the bottom of it. And yet we were a long way from the firing line. My curiosity overcome my fatigue. I put on my jacket and went out, taking the candle with me. I ran down two staircases, and my footsteps seemed to wake the dismal echoes in the silent convent. Just as I came to the hall, sister Gabrielle also arrived with a small lantern in her hand. I must have frightened her, for she started and gave a little scream. But she soon recovered, and guessed what had disturbed me. She told me all about it in a few simple sentences. A poor woman had fled from her village carrying her little girl of eighteen months. But she was running distractedly along the road from Lisanne to Boscheng. A German shell had fallen, and a fragment of it had killed her baby in her arms. She had just come six kilometres in the dark, clasping the little corpse to her breast in the agony of despair. She got to Elverding, and knocked at the door of the convent, knowing that there she would find a refuge. And all along the road she had passed convoys, relief troops, and dispatch riders. But she took no heed of them. She was obsessed by one thought, to find a shelter for the remains of what had been her joy and hope of her life. Just come, said sister Gabrielle, I will let you see her. We have put her poor little body in the mortuary's chamber, and sister Elizabeth is watching there. I followed sister Gabrielle who opened a small door and went down a few steps. We crossed a paved court. Her lantern and my candle cast yellowish gleams upon the high walls of the buildings. Heavy drops of rain were falling, making a strange noise on the stones. And a kind of anguish seized me when I again heard the continuous wailing of the unhappy mother. Sister Gabrielle opened a low door very gently, and we went in. I must confess that I had been much less moved when, after the first day of the Battle of the Marne, we passed through a wood where our artillery had reduced a whole German regiment to a shapeless mass of human fragments. Here I realised all the horror of war. That men should kill each other in defence of their homes is conceivable enough, and I honour those who fall. But it passes all understanding why the massacre should include these poor, weak and innocent creatures. And sights such as this one I saw in that little mortuary chapel inspire a fierce thirst for vengeance. On a kind of large table covered with a white cloth the poor body was laid out. It bore no trace of any wound, and the little white face seemed to be smiling. The good nuns had covered the shabby clothes with an embroidered cloth. Upon that they had crossed the little hands which seemed to be clasping a tiny crucifix. And over the hole they had strewn an armful of flowers. On each side they had placed silver candlesticks, and the reddish candlelight made golden reflections in the curly locks of the little corpse. Crouching on the ground by the side of it, I saw a shapeless heap of clothes which seemed to be shaken by convulsive spasms. It was from this heap that the monotonous wailing came. It was the young mother weeping for a little one. One felt that nothing could console her, and that words would only increase her suffering. Besides, she had not even raised her head when we went in. It was best to leave her alone, since they say that tears bring comfort. On the other side a young sister was kneeling at a preview, telling her rosary. After Gabrielle knelt down on the ground beside her, I longed to do something to lessen that grief, and help the poor woman a little. She must have come there in a state of destitution. Her clothes revealed her poverty, but I did not disturb either her mourning or her prayers, and I came out quietly on tiptoe. Outside the rain which was now falling heavily refreshed my fevered head somewhat. I crossed the courtyard quickly, but my candle went out, and I had some trouble in relighting it, which was very necessary as I had to find my way in a maze of doors and passages. At last I reached my staircase, and passed the landing and the sister's chapel. I heard a distant clock strike midnight, went up another story, and opened our door noiselessly. I thought that Bee would perhaps be waiting for me impatiently, anxious to learn the reason for all the noise, but Bee was snoring with the bed-clothes over his ears. At six o'clock someone knocked at our door, and I opened my eyes. Daylight showed faintly through the open window. I wondered where I was, and suddenly remembered Elverding, the convent. "'Is it you, Sister Gabrielle?' I asked. "'Oh yes, it's I. Get up. I've been knocking for more than an hour.' Bee sat up in his bed. I did the same, and told him what I had seen the evening before. He shook his head mournfully and concluded, "'Well, it's war. I hope they'll have a good breakfast ready for us.' We hurried through our dressings and ablutions, for we had to get back quickly to our quarters. As we came out of our room, lively and refreshed, we met Sister Gabrielle, who seemed to have been waiting for us. She asked us how we had slept, and to stop the flood of eloquence that Bee was on the point of letting loose, she said, "'That's right. You should thank me later on. Come down now. Your breakfast is waiting for you. It will get cold.'" But on passing the chapel, Bee would insist on seeing it. Sister Gabrielle hesitated a moment, and then gave way, as she would to a child for the sake of peace. She opened the outer door and smiled indulgently, as if anxious to humour all our whims. We passed through an anti-room, and then entered the chapel. It was quite small, only large enough to hold about twenty people. The walls were white, without any ornament, and panelled up to about the height of a man. The altar was extremely simple, and decorated with a few flowers. Some rush chairs completed the plenishings of the sanctuary where the good sisters of Elmerding assembled every morning at four o'clock for prayers. As we came out of this humble chapel, I noticed two mattresses laid in a corner of the little anti-room. "'And who sleeps here, then, sister?' I asked. Sister Gabrielle turned red as a poppy. I had to repeat my question twice. When, lowering her eyes, she answered, "'Sister Elizabeth—sister Elizabeth and I—sister Gabrielle—sister Gabrielle, then that little room and those two little beds where we slept were yours?' "'Hush, please come to breakfast at once.' And light as a bird she disappeared down the staircase, so quickly that a black veil floated high above her, as though to hide her confusion. And we saw no more of sister Gabrielle. She was a very old woman, one of the inmates, who brought us our hot milk and coffee, our brown bread and fresh butter, in the dining-room with the high cupboards of polished wood. She explained that at this hour the nuns were busy attending to the old folk, and it was no use begging to see our little hostess again. We were told it would be against the rules, and we felt that the curtain had now indeed fallen upon this charming act of the weary tragedy. Only just as we were passing out of the convent gate for the last time, the old lady put into our hands a big packet of provisions wrapped up in a napkin. She had brought it hidden under her apron. "'Here, she told me to give you this, and to say that she will pray for you.' Our hearts swelled as we heard the heavy door close behind us, and whilst we went away silently along the broken and muddy road, we thought of the sterling hearts that are hidden under the humble habits of the convent. Sister Gabrielle, I shall never forget you. Never will your delicate features fade from my memory, and I seem to see you still going on up that great wooden staircase lit up by the flickering flame of the candle when you and Sister Elizabeth gave up your bed so simply and unostentationously to the two unknown soldiers."