 I've seen a lot of invitations. People like to be around happy people. It's like you don't have to have a lot of money or a lot of status or you don't have to drive a certain type of car. And if you're happy, people like to be around you. And I found out when I was traveling and I was happy, it was really like I got a lot of invitations. The problem wasn't where I was going to sleep at night. It was when I would go to a course group and I'd get three or four different invitations. It was where would you have me be in your plan? What would you have me do? Where would you have me go? It wasn't a scarcity issue. It was more of just like I need to be very obedient to the spirit and keep following that. So it was pretty brave to face it. When you seem to be a human being who looks through the day, we have a lot of options. When you have many, many options and you can't really discern among those options what is the way to go, then I would call that that's a guidance problem. In other words, the Holy Spirit is as loud as our willingness to listen. And the Course tells us the voice for God speaks to me all through the day. So if I've got all these options and I'm getting hung up on which ones to choose, and then I've got a decision-making problem and I've got a guidance problem, because the guidance is there. But if I'm not too into that guidance, then I'm listening to the ego. And no wonder it gets frustrating, confusing, I feel guilty, I feel trapped. I feel like, why did I do that? Or even more so, why did I say that? I can't believe that came out of my mouth. It's because of a connection problem. So here's what happened to me. I started off with spirituality like this, where I'm probably really earnest, but in the middle of 1980s. And then after ten years of university and undergrad and graduate, I really could understand by that point that I did not have all the answers. That I really needed to unlearn just about everything that I've learned in ten years of university. That actually didn't bring me more peace of mind. They brought me more arrogance and pride than I know attitude. I got a lot of that, but it's like, talk about a chip on your shoulder. Holy Spirit is like, come here, you've got a lot of work to do. And so when the course came into my life in 1986, I could recognize the truth in it. I had a strong feeling with the book, like a lot of us do. And I was ready to go to the nearest mountain and just ascend. Like, okay, I counted. Oh, it's over now. And then the voice was laughing like, no, no, no, great, the beginning, the beginning, not the end. You're not ascending anywhere. You're not going out in the cloud, you know, and all that stuff. So once I really took that to heart, I had the book. I thought, wow, I really think a lot of mind training here. And so it was like an escape hatch out of guilt. So I actually read the book eight hours a day for the first two and a half years, not consecutively. My eyelids would get heavy. I had probably the typical ego resistances that everyone would have with the course. But I would just be very gentle with myself and I averaged about eight hours a day. So I just totally immersed myself in it. It would be like getting a life preserve when you're drowning in the ocean and really grabbing hold of it. I mean, I really didn't fight it. I really went with it. I yielded into the course. You know, I would read statements in the course that says, you will believe this course entirely or not at all. And I just go, okay, let's go for entirely because not at all. It doesn't seem to be a real good option. I would just say, full go, let's go full on into it. And when the course said, you know, this course has everything you need, I took that literally. I could have read in the newspaper, magazines. I just thought, if this course is my escape hatch, why am I going to distract myself with a lot of the things that I've been distracting myself on for decades when I've got this beautiful, clear tool you're going to work with? So I guess my path was somewhat unusual to read it for eight hours a day. And you know what happened after about two and a half years of giving myself that much immersion into it? Then I started to hear Jesus talking to me in conversational terms and not just like, all this love, all this God, all this one. It's like, you forgot your keys. Turn left, I said left. You know, really good practical stuff. I mean, really good stuff. Not like, all this one. I've heard all this one and I didn't get all this one, but I need practical guidance. And so it was really cool because that started to simplify my decision-making process. That started to simplify all those options. When you think about the trillions and trillions of options that we have, you'll wonder, we're confused, it seems complicated, it seems like a struggle, it seems difficult, because without a guide in choosing among those options, it just, it really seems like this world was set up so that you would never wake up. It looks like the biggest trap. Like this is Distractionville, you know, Cosmos Distractionville, you know, and we've hit the most distracting point of the whole cosmos, not like the moon or something, like look at the choices that you have on this planet. So that made it much, much simpler. And then I found myself appreciating the guidance that was the instructions that were being given to me and then I would say, well, what do you want me to do? And in 1991, I took my first trip and the first trip to the Holy Spirit, Jesus had me always, let's go and let's meet some people here in the United States that have dedicated their lives to a course of miracles like you're going to be doing, I was told. So it was kind of cool. I went off and I met a psychiatrist who had a course group and a Urantian group at the same church in St. Louis. I went around through the Southwest. I met people who had spent a lot of time with Ken Gloria Wapnick that worked down in Oklahoma. I went down across to Sedona before they had the Circle of Atonement down there and Robert and Susan at the time and their children. I went there, I went out. I was out in Southern California and Beverly Hutchinson, her mother was alive at the time. I got to meet her. I got to go around and went up to the Bay Area here. It was called the California Miracle Center back then when I hopped in there. Tony and Larry were away. I got to meet some beautiful ministers there and I went up to Whitby Island and I went across. I stopped off at this place in Wisconsin. It wasn't called the Devlar Academy then, it was called God's Country Place. This was free in Devlar Academy. The Holy Spirit was like, we're making the rounds here. It's like I got to meet all these people that had dedicated their life to the course. I found that it was a very inspirational trip. I went up, I spent time with Ken and Gloria Wapne, up at Roscoe, New York at the Tesco Mountains. I went to see Tara saying when she was in Michigan I just started to go meet people that were dedicating their life to the course. There's something about meeting people that have done it that you're like, I guess I can do this too. It doesn't seem like it's like you're reading about Buddha or something centuries ago. You're shaking their hand. Look at this. They eat food. They drive a car. They breathe. You're all excited because you're meeting them in flesh and talking to them. Somehow you feel like you're equal and you can do what they're doing. They're an inspiration to you. So that was really important. But listening to that voice was the most important thing. I kind of go up and at least sitting there Ken would be up there joking and giving lectures and Jesus was giving me commentary on Ken Wapne's lectures. And I'm like, this is good. This is really good.